I'm fine during the day

I haven't been in touch with Yu Xia for two whole months.I miss him more and more.I remembered what Yu Xia said, my heart can only be given to one person.And my heart was given to Yu Xia.But, will he know?

Many times, I have the urge to go to him.However, he already has his own life. He said that he doesn't want me to disturb him.However, I want to know any news about him, even a little bit of news.But he seemed to disappear suddenly, and I couldn't find him again.

I suddenly thought of a person.His colleague, Brother Tie.Maybe he knew about Yu Xia's news.But how to find Brother Tie?Go to Yu Xia's original company?At this time, my mind flashed, and I remembered Brother Tie's website.That gay site.

I get excited right away.Maybe I will find Brother Tie, maybe I can find Yu Xia's trail.Back then, I asked Yu Xia not to log in to the website anymore, but now, I hope that there will be traces of him here.

I turned on my laptop, I opened the website, I typed in my username: "daytime".Back then Yu Xia wanted to use my name as his nickname, but now, I am really logging in.The password is my birthday, 1221.I climbed up smoothly.

The website is in a mess, there is a short explanation on the homepage, the website has been attacked by hackers recently, so the website is being rebuilt, and so on.My heart sank.Even if Yu Xia had logged into this website before, now, there is no trace left here.

I looked at the announcement again, which reminded friends that they could go to the newly-built chat room to chat and put forward planning suggestions for the reconstruction of the website.I clicked on the chat room link and entered a public chat room.

I didn't say anything, I was looking for Brother Tie's speech on the chat page.But after waiting for a long time, I didn't get anything.Exhausted and disappointed, I closed the website.

I decided that when I go to the head office for a meeting again, I must find Brother Tie.However, after finding Brother Tie, what can we do?

A month later, I went to the company headquarters for a meeting.I still live in a room on the west side.Although I am no longer here, the room given to me by the head office has not been taken back.After the meeting, I decided to go to Brother Tie. After thinking about it, I opened the website again, maybe I will meet Brother Tie this time.

The website has been preliminarily built, and the chat room is still there.I entered the chat room.Still didn't speak, just looked, I saw a name: Brother Tie.My heart is about to jump.

Just when I was about to talk to Brother Tie, a small window popped up on the page, and Brother Tie was saying hello.

"You boy, you don't contact me now, why did you go?"

I was taken aback.My current identity is Yu Xia.In this way, Brother Tie was speaking to Yu Xia.I was so excited that I couldn't type a word for a long time.

"Brother Tie." I finally typed these two words and sent them out.Then I started typing again: "I'm Tiantian, I'm Yu Xia's friend."

Before clicking send, Brother Tie sent another message, "Haha, didn't you say that you won't log in to this website?"

I hurriedly typed the sentence just now and clicked send. "I am Tiantian, and I am Yu Xia's friend."

"There is no 300 taels of silver here. I know you are Yu Xia. Your song won an award, and I can't even contact you."

Song?What song is it?I was taken aback.I hurriedly explained: "Brother Tie, I'm not Yu Xia, I'm Yu Xia's friend. My name is Tian Tian,"

I think, the other side may be stunned, we paused for half a minute.A sentence was sent over there: "You said, your name is Tiantian?"

I replied: "Yes." Then I asked him, "Can you tell me, what song are you talking about?"

"I don't know if I can tell you, but since we met, maybe it's fate." He typed out such a thoughtless sentence, and then he asked me, "Where are you?"

I give my address.He smiled, "Do you want to meet?"

I said: "Okay."

He typed out the address: "The sinking bar? Are you going?"

I typed two words: "I'll go."

As I walked into the sunken bar, I took a deep breath.I remembered that day, when Yu Xia proposed to sit at the Sunken Bar, I refused at that time.Now, in order to get news from Yu Xia, I'm here.

I walked into the bar and saw a strong man sitting there, and I immediately recognized that it was Brother Tie.I walked towards him and he smiled at me and pointed to the seat opposite.I sat down.

After ordering a drink, we exchanged glances.

"Your name is Tiantian?"

"Yes."

"Is that your real name?"

"Yes." I have a lot of questions I want to ask him, "I want to take the liberty to ask, do you know about Yu Xia's news? He changed his phone number, do you know his new phone number?"

"Don't you know?" It was his turn to be surprised this time, "I just wanted to ask you."

My heart sank.Yu Xia didn't leave anyone his contact number, is he trying to completely forget the past?

I shook my head.

"What are you going to do?" Brother Tie asked me.

"If you don't know his phone number, I want...to find him." I was a little at a loss, "I don't know if he will blame me?"

"Blame you?" Brother Tie shook his head, "No."

I sighed. "Yu Xia said that he has a boyfriend, and he doesn't want others to bother him. But, I just want to know if he is happy or not."

"He has a boyfriend?" Brother Tie looked at me and sighed, "I want to know, what kind of feelings do you have for Yu Xia?"

I was taken aback.No one has ever asked me such a straightforward question.Me to Yu Xia?What kind of emotion is it?brother?No, I used to avoid Yu Xia's feelings, I always put him in the position of a good friend, but after I lost him, I realized that he is so important to me.

Should I tell Brother Tie?Should I trust a stranger?

what is the relationship?I am no longer afraid of being ridiculed by others, nor afraid of speaking my feelings.Another thing that reassures me is that Brother Tie is our fellow traveler.

I looked at Brother Tie and said firmly: "I love him, I love him very much. When he loved me, I didn't cherish it. When I lost it, I realized how important he is to me." I finally , in front of a stranger, expressed his love for Yu Xia.

Brother Tie smiled. "If he really has a boyfriend, are you going to give it up?"

"I want him to be happy."

"I think that pursuing your own happiness is the right choice. Since you love him, why don't you tell him, why don't you fight for it? Why don't you try? What if he still loves you?"

Yeah, why not try it?Even if he has a boyfriend, I am willing to try hard for Yu Xia.

Yu Xia, I would like to tell you that I love you, I have missed a lot, but now, I only need you.

I nod.I said to Brother Tie: "Thank you, you are right, I want to find him, I want to tell him that I love him. I want to fight for my own happiness."

"Really?" Brother Tie asked.I nod again.

Brother Tie smiled again, "Then let me tell you the truth, Yu Xia may not really have a boyfriend."

"What?" I froze.

"I met him here once, before he went, and I invited him to come in and sit down. You know that?"

I nodded.

"That day, I asked him why he didn't find a boyfriend? He said, he has someone he loves. It's just that he is unrequited love, and his friends don't love him. I asked him why he didn't give up? He said, I love After one person, I will never fall in love with another person again."

Yu Xia, didn't tell me these words between him and Brother Tie that day.

Brother Tie looked at me and said, "I remember very clearly that day he said that my heart can only be given to one person."

I remembered the last phone call with Yu Xia.Yu Xia said, my heart can only be given to one person.I thought he was referring to his boyfriend.But it turned out that from beginning to end, he only loved me.He has never loved another person, never.

My eyes are wet.I wiped my tears with the corner of my shirt.

"But you don't ask me, why do I know you are the one he loves?"

"Yeah, how do you know? Did he tell you?"

"He didn't. I didn't know it before, but when I was in the chat room yesterday, I knew it."

"why?"

"Because of that song."

"What the hell is that song about?"

"After Yu Xia left, we talked on the phone several times. One time he told me that he had recorded a song. He said that he was conflicted. He wanted the song to be heard by his friends, and he wanted his friends Never hear this song."

I didn't speak, just waiting for Brother Tie to continue.

Brother Tie nodded. "I comforted him a few words and let him go with the flow. Not long after that, I suddenly had an idea. I decided to have a community singing competition. I called him and asked him to upload his song to participate in it. contest, he declined.

"After I asked him again, he passed the song to me and told me to participate anonymously. I asked him why, and he said that his friends didn't want him to log on to this website again. He promised his friends I said it was an excuse. He also explained that even if he logs on to this website, he still wants to upload this song anonymously. So that if there is a chance, his friends will hear this song and know about it. The song is written for him. If you don't have a chance, forget it.

"One month later, when the awards were over, the song won the award, and all the other contestants received the award, but he didn't. I knew he wasn't on the website, so I called him, but his phone number was Empty number."

I nod.I think I see the truth of the matter.But what song is that?Questions were written all over my face.Brother Tie looked at me and said, "The name of that song is "I'm Fine During the Day"."

"What?" My heart beat out.I remembered the encounter in Beijing, I asked him how are you?He smiled and said, I'm fine.I have a boyfriend.It turned out that his so-called boyfriend was me.He didn't explain my misunderstanding, he just wanted to make me feel at ease.

"What about that song?" I asked cautiously.

"As you know, my website was hacked, so all the songs are gone."

How lost I am, how depressed I am.But Brother Tie smiled, "But," I cheered up again, "He didn't upload this song by himself, but sent it to me by email and asked me to upload it for him. Recently, my email It hasn't been cleaned up, so this song should still be there." I took a long breath.He said, "Give me your email address, and I'll send it to you later."

"Thank you, Brother Tie." I squeezed Brother Tie's hand tightly.

When I got home, I couldn't wait to open my mailbox and refresh it, but I didn't see any new letters.I sat there for a long time, refreshed many times, and finally, Brother Tie's email arrived.The title of the email is: Yu Xia's song.

And I didn't dare to open it.

After a long time, I took a deep breath and opened the mailbox.Attached is a piece of audio titled "I'm Fine During the Day".In the email below, Brother Tie wrote: This is the original copy Yu Xia sent me, and I forwarded it to you.At that time, I heard it once. Maybe I forgot to stop this song when the recording was finished, so it was blank at the end. I edited it and uploaded it to the Internet during the competition.Now I will forward it to you as it is, as a reminder.

I secretly thank Brother Tie for his care.I downloaded the audio and looked at the words "I'm fine during the day", but my thoughts raced again.

I remembered that encounter in Beijing, I asked Yu Xia, how are you?Yu Xia smiled and said to me, I am fine.I stared blankly at the few words, as if Yu Xia was standing beside me, telling me, I'm fine.

I clicked the play button, and Yu Xia's voice sounded slowly.

you ask me how are you

I said I'm fine

I'm fine with a smile on my face

in the eyes of others

i am a happy person

with a smile on my face

look i'm fine during the day

with a smile on my face

In the sun with a smile on my face

just when night falls

lonely embrace me

Missing so deeply, there is nowhere to escape

Reading, listening to music, drinking tea, dancing

Running aimlessly in the street alone

all memories are gone

only you i can't forget

you said we were best friends

I said that's really good

It's good to be your friend

It's good to see you every day

It's just that I'm getting more and more afraid of seeing you

I'm afraid of being so emotional

you are so proud

I'm so tormented

One day we can't even be friends

I love you so much I can only turn around and walk away

Meet you again in the crowd

i am smiling

you ask me how are you

I said I'm fine

I'm fine with a smile on my face

look i'm fine during the day

with a smile on my face

I couldn't hold back my tears anymore, and they flowed down all at once.Yu Xia, wait for me, I want to find you, I want to tell you that my heart is the same as yours.I want to make you smile, from the bottom of your heart.

Yu Xia's singing stopped, as Brother Tie said, maybe he was too emotional, he didn't press the stop button, and the back was blank.I lightly pressed the stop button, but I didn't dare to play it back again.

I think I've made my decision.I want to find Yu Xia, I want to regain our happiness.