I'm fine during the day

I flew to Yu Xia's hometown.I have not been here before.After our high school days were over, Yu Xia's parents returned to their hometown because of poor health.With the name Yu Xia said, I came to this strange city.

Walking towards the street Yu Xia mentioned, only to find that the street has been demolished.The streets are crowded with people, but I don't know where Yu Xia is?I asked everyone, about Yu Xia.I found a hotel, I stayed there, and called the company to renew my leave. I decided not to go home if I didn't find Yu Xia.

During those days, I asked no less than a thousand people. I wandered around the city, hoping to meet Yu Xia or his family.This stay is half a month.

One day, I went to a community to inquire about Yu Xia.The security guard thought for a while: "There is a family named Yu." He raised his head and said, "No."

I have already seen Yu Xia's father. "Uncle." I went up to him and called him.

"Daytime." He was taken aback.

"I'm here to find Yu Xia." I said.

"Oh." His face changed color, but he didn't say anything.I think Yu Xia might have told her family about us.He never expected that I would come to Yu Xia.

"Sit at home." He said.I followed him, and I was about to meet Yu Xia, my heart was about to jump out.I secretly stabilized my mind.

My aunt welcomed me into the room warmly, told me to sit down, poured tea, and fetched fruit, but I couldn't sit down because I was so busy.I said: "Auntie, don't be busy."

She just stood still, but didn't know what to say.Uncle also stood there without speaking.

"Where's Yu Xia? Is he not at home?" I asked my aunt.

"Oh." Auntie froze for a moment, then looked at me with an ugly face, "He's not at home."

"Is he out?"

"Yes."

"Where did you go?" I asked casually.

I can see my aunt's embarrassment.Then she said: "Yu Xia told us that he won't bother you, and he doesn't want you to bother him. I hope you can forgive him."

"Auntie, I know he doesn't have a boyfriend, I know, I know everything he does." Auntie still wanted to talk, and I said, "Auntie, I know he is doing it for my own good, and now I understand. I just hope To be able to see him, I want to ask him to forgive me."

I lowered my head, tears were about to flow out.Auntie didn't speak, just stared at me, and her eyes stayed on the lucky charm on my chest.

I touched the lucky charm with my hand: "Auntie, this was given to me by Yu Xia. I know he loves me, and I love him too. I didn't understand before, and I missed a lot, but now I understand. I want to see him, I know he must want to see me too."

The aunt stretched out her hand and touched the lucky charm: "Do you know the meaning of this lucky charm?"

I shook my head.

"This lucky charm is passed down from generation to generation in the Yu family. Each generation of the Yu family passes the lucky charm to their favorite person, and then the person he loves most passes it on to the next generation." Auntie looked at me, "When he gave you the lucky charm, he gave it to the person he loves the most."

I was taken aback, it turned out to be like this.Yu Xia, my dear Yu Xia.

"I see, auntie." When Yu Xia gave me this lucky charm, what kind of affection did he have? He only wanted me to be happy, but he was willing to suffer from lovesickness alone. "Auntie, I know everything. I want to tell him that I love him. We will live together well, I will love him well, and we will be happy. Auntie, do you believe it?"

Auntie just shook her head.I was a little disappointed, "Auntie, don't you believe me?"

"No, I believe it."

"But..." I don't understand.

"Too late." She covered her face with her hands.I saw tears streaming down her cheeks.

I was taken aback for a moment, and there was a bad omen in my heart, and my breathing began to become unfree.I have a bad feeling.There must be something terrible waiting for me.I didn't dare to speak anymore, but I still asked tremblingly. "What's too late?"

The uncle came over, "Yu Xia, we understand what you're thinking. But now...he doesn't want to see you anymore. He hopes that you can all find your own happiness."

"I don't believe it." I also shook my head, and I felt some kind of uneasiness for no reason, and this uneasiness seized my heart.I stood up, walked to my aunt, and started to shake him with my hands: "Auntie, tell me, what happened to Yu Xia?" I remembered how thin Yu Xia was a while ago, and it suddenly popped up in my mind that he threw the pills on the The toilet scene. "Is Yu Xia sick? Is it serious? Tell me, tell me."

Is it because Yu Xia is sick that she wants to stay away from me?I shook my aunt, "You tell me."

Uncle also lowered his head.He sighed, walked to the window, and turned his back to us, but I saw his shoulders shrugged, and his emotional fluctuations deepened my uneasiness.

"Auntie, what's wrong with Yu Xia?" My voice was hoarse.

"He's gone." Uncle turned to look at me.What a look of despair that was.At this moment, I saw his face distorted due to too much pain.

"Gone?" I seemed to understand, but also didn't seem to understand, tears gushed out of my aunt's eyes, and in an instant, I understood.My tears flowed down too.I also squatted down, put my hands on my head, and cried like a child.

After crying for a long time, my aunt came over to persuade me. "Don't cry, kid." I still couldn't hold back the tears.

Uncle said: "Let the day be quiet. Upstairs is Yu Xia's room. You can go to his room to have a look later."

With tears in my eyes, I walked up the stairs and entered Yu Xia's room.Looking around, the simple hut is all that Yu Xia left for this world.His desk, his bed, his wardrobe.

I touched them one by one.I opened the closet, and what was reflected in front of my eyes was the blue plaid coat I gave Yu Xia.I picked it up and sat down on the bed, I cried again, this time, I cried so hard.

I don't know how long it has been.I stopped crying.I caressed the blue plaid coat unconsciously with my hand, and started to be in a daze.

Auntie walked in with red eyes, obviously she also cried a lot.She looked at the blue plaid coat in my hand and said, "This coat is his favorite, take it as a souvenir."

In the hotel in Yu Xia's hometown, I hugged the birthday present I gave Yu Xia, and fell asleep in Yu Xia's precious coat.Just like, Yu Xia once hugged me to sleep.

I can not sleep.The scene of our acquaintance, knowing and loving each other appeared in front of my eyes.He loves me, and I've been avoiding his emotions.The secular world for thousands of years made me not have the courage to face his love.When I finally dared to face my heart, Yu Xia had already left me.

This time, I really lost him.

When I had it, I didn't cherish it, and when I lost it, I realized the value of having it.It's just that it's too late.

I remembered the time when I met Yu Xia in Beijing, it was in front of the hospital.He didn't take his parents to travel to Beijing, but his uncles and aunts accompanied him to see a doctor.I remembered that I hugged him hard, his thin body was almost unsteady by my sudden bump.At that time, how much effort did he use to control himself, and then smiled and told me: "I'm fine."

"During the day, I'm fine." He smiled like this, which made me believe him easily.

He was afraid that I would know the truth, so he told me kindly that he had a boyfriend, and when he knew we would never see each other again, he said that he didn't want me to disturb him.Thus, in my happiness, I shall never know the truth of the matter.

In the last call, his voice was weak, and he said not to contact, he said, "I wish you happiness." However, he still asked: "If I don't contact you anymore, will you miss me?" ?” The last words he left me: “I miss you too, during the day. Goodbye.”

Goodbye, forever.This time, it was really never to be seen again.

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I'm fine during the day

Qi Tian Xiaoyu

1. Lost night

Today is the third day we have lost our way in Dashishan.Twilight shrouded the mountain again, and my heart was as heavy as this dark night.

Fortunately, Yu Xia was by my side to comfort me from time to time.Yu Xia and I are best brothers, my character is slightly pessimistic and cowardly, while Yu Xia is calm when things happen.If it wasn't for him, I'm afraid I would really collapse.

A few days ago, the school held a grand graduation ceremony, and the students who were facing a breakup seemed very disappointed.Yu Xia and I are not sad at all, we are planning the future with great interest, intending to stay in this city for a long time.

I heard that Fangyuan Company will be recruiting in a week. We plan to apply for the job together. If God favors us, we can stay in the same company.

I proposed to Yu Xia to climb a mountain before recruiting, and he readily agreed.Two days ago, we came to Dashi Mountain, where travel friends like to travel at night.Usually, Yu Xia and I like to climb mountains, and we also have the experience of staying overnight, but this time, we got lost.

Originally, we were supposed to take the path that travel friends often take, but I found another sloping path, so I decided to take that one.Yu Xia was a little worried, but seeing that I was full of confidence, she still accompanied me on the road.Along the way, I laughed at him as a coward, but he just smiled and didn't refute.

The more we go, the more we feel that something is wrong. When we want to return to the original way, we can no longer find the way we came from.We didn't sleep the first night, and spent the whole night wandering on the dark mountain.The next day, we still hadn't found our way back.My mood became more and more anxious, while Yu Xia became calmer.

We didn't bring much food with us, and on this day, we ate very little.At night, we take turns to be on duty, one of us sleeps, and the other pays attention to the light illuminated by nocturnal visitors.Once again we were disappointed.

Today during the day, we have only a little water left, and the last dry biscuit.The pancake that we usually look down on is so precious now, we are not willing to eat it, and we only ate a small tooth.

In the afternoon, I felt dizzy, and now, I feel like my head is going to explode.Yu Xia and I struggled to set up the tent, I don't know if it's because I'm too hungry or the mountain wind is getting stronger, I just feel cold all over my body.

"During the day," Yu Xia asked me, "are you too hungry, why don't you eat some more pancakes?"

"I'm not hungry." I said weakly.

We've pitched our tent.Yu Xia said: "Take a break, I'll get a moisture-proof mat." He got into the tent.I held on to the tent, my feet were soft, and I thought I couldn't hold on any longer.

Yu Xia poked her head out: "It's fine."

I got into the tent and sat down on the mat.

"What's wrong with you?" Yu Xia looked at me through the faint light of the flashlight, "Are you sick? During the day, I can see that your face is not right."

"I have a terrible headache," I said.

Yu Xia reached out and touched my head: "You have a fever."

I think so.Maybe I can't make it through tonight.My heart is in a mess, my life has just begun, but now, is it really about to end?

Yu Xia stood up, and I blurted out: "Don't go."

Yu Xia turned around and smiled at me: "I'll get you some antipyretics. Take some, and you'll be fine tomorrow."

He took the medicine, poured a little water, and squatted beside me to watch me drink the medicine.I only took a small sip, just enough to drink the medicine.

"Drink more, drink more water if you have a fever."

I shook my head.

"Go to sleep, you'll be fine after a short sleep. I'll go outside and have a look." Yu Xia turned off the light, and the whole world turned black.

"Don't go." I said.He stopped.I said, "Stay with me for a while."

In the dark, Yu Xia sat down beside me.

"Yu Xia," I said, "I'm scared."

"It's okay," Yu Xia said with a smile, "Once you take the medicine, you can take it again tomorrow morning at most, and you'll be completely healed." Yu Xia clearly knew what I was afraid of, but he was just changing the topic.

"You said, do we never get out again?" I still expressed my inner fear.

"Ha, no." Yu Xia smiled, "I have a premonition all day today, and I will definitely meet a donkey friend tonight, so don't worry."

"No," I said sadly.

"I do have a hunch. Trust me, okay?"

"But I'm really scared."

My head rested weakly on his shoulder, he hesitated for a moment, then hugged me.In the dark, we can hear each other's breathing.

"Don't be afraid, during the day." Yu Xia said softly but firmly, "With me here, don't be afraid of anything."

"Okay, I'm not afraid." I said, tiredness flooded in like a tide, and I closed my eyes.

I am dreaming.In the dream, I came home.I had a fever, and my mother sat by my bed, touched my forehead with her hand, and looked at me tenderly.

I tried hard to open my eyes, but couldn't.Mom looked at me for a while, then stood up and walked away. I said, "Don't go." I woke up all of a sudden.

I'm lying in my sleeping bag.Did I fall asleep in Yu Xia's arms last night?And how Yu Xia moved the heavy me into the sleeping bag, I don't know all of this.

Hearing my words, Yu Xia turned on the flashlight, and his slender figure appeared in the dim light.He turned to look at me: "Are you awake?"

"What are you doing?" I asked him.

"I'll go out and have a look." He said, "I touched your head just now, and it's not so hot anymore." It turned out that he was touching my forehead in my sleep just now to see if I still had a fever.

"But my head still hurts." This sentence is obviously a grievance, because my head is indeed much better than before going to bed.

"It should be fine to take the medicine again in the morning." He came over and sat beside me, facing me.He patted me lightly through the sleeping bag and comforted me softly, "During the day, be strong."

"what time is it now?"

"It's three or four o'clock, you can sleep for a while. Huh?" He put the flashlight by his feet, put his hands around his mouth, and blew air with his mouth to keep warm.

There was no sign of sleeping in his sleeping bag, and it seemed he had been outside keeping watch.His premonition did not come true, and there were no friends who climbed the mountain.

Although he has a smile on his face, I know how forced his smile is.Although my head didn't hurt so much, my heart was in despair, as if I had fallen into a boundless abyss.

"If we really can't make it through, will you regret it?" I asked him.

"We'll get through this." He looked at me and said, "Trust me, okay? You go to sleep, I'm right here."

"But, if we really...really die..."

"Don't say such things, during the day, we will be fine."

I said desperately, "I mean if, would you regret it?"

He shook his head.

I blamed myself: "I shouldn't have dragged you up the mountain."

"I don't regret it." Yu Xia stared at me for a while, then said, "Even if we really can't make it through and die with my best brother, I won't regret it."

But, how regretful I am, why did I ask La Yuxia to climb the mountain?Not only did I kill myself, but I also killed my best friend, best brother.This time we climbed the mountain, we did not tell other friends and family members. If we died, they may not know until a long time later.

"If we are going to die now, don't you feel sorry?"

"Being able to die with you, I don't think I have any regrets. It's just... I don't have the opportunity to be filial to my parents, and I feel sorry for them." Yu Xia said.

"Yeah. My parents might cry."

We stopped talking.

There are mixed feelings in my heart, and I don't know what it feels like.

"I think I must die before you." I broke the silence.

"Stupid, if we die, we will die together." Yu Xia interrupted me.

"I have a hunch that I will die first." I said stubbornly.

"Let's die together." Yu Xia looked down at her toes, "If you die, I can't live alone, right?"

My heart skipped a beat.Maybe, I know what he thinks.Only, he never said it.

I thought for a while and asked him, "I want to know, if I were to die now, what would be the last words you would say to me?"

Yu Xia was silent for a while.I looked at him, but he just lowered his head and didn't look at me.I also looked elsewhere.I wondered if I shouldn't have asked him that, but I wondered what he would say.

"daytime."

"kindness?"

I looked at him, and he was looking at me tenderly.Our eyes met, and there was an ocean in his eyes, and I thought I heard my own heartbeat.

His eyes were watery, and then he said, "I love you."

Yes, this is the answer I want.I said softly, "Me too."

He smiled, his smile was a ray of sunshine in the dim light, and he said, "Say it."

I said, "I love you."

Our breath is clearly audible.He leaned over and I closed my eyes.At this moment, my stomach growled untimely.

This sound broke the ambiguity just now.I opened my eyes and smiled at him: "I'm hungry."

He stood up and brought over half of the remaining pancakes.I tore off a small tooth and said, "You can eat some too."

"I'm not hungry." He picked up the flashlight and stood up. "I'll go out and have a look."

"You can sleep for a while too." I advised him.

"Okay. Then don't get up, anyway, there is no one to wait for at the moment. Let's all sleep for a while."

Yu Xia turned off the flashlight.He opened the sleeping bag and got in.As soon as he closed his eyes, he fell asleep.I know, he's too sleepy.

The sky has become slightly brighter.I didn't feel sleepy anymore, looking at him in his sleep, I fell into deep thought.

Yu Xia and I were classmates in high school. At that time, my parents were only busy with work and left me in the city where my grandfather lived.Being away from home, I feel very alone.Fortunately, I got to know Yu Xia not long after school started.Yu Xia is not a local either, his parents are doing business here, so they brought him here to go to school.

We became very good friends.We studied together, we went on field trips together, and it was good as if we were the same person.On weekends, he took me to their rented house.His parents are very good and treat me like their own son.

In the second half of the third year of high school, my grandfather passed away, and I was hit hard.Mom and Dad wanted to take me home, but I refused.There are still a few months to take the exam, and they didn't force me, they just sent me a lot of money.But that's not what I want.

In those days, Yu Xia was always by my side, and he even asked his parents to enlighten me.Their care helped me get out of that difficult graduation season.Yu Xia's academic performance is a bit better than mine. Originally, he could have been admitted to a better university, but because of our good relationship, he chose to apply for the same university as me.In college, we are still very good friends.

Once, he said to me with a heavy heart: "I think I may be different from others."

I said: "You are so good, of course it is different."

He shook his head, then said shyly, "I don't think I like the girls around me very much."

"What do you mean?" I asked him.

"I don't know either." He mumbled.I understand, my heart is jumping for joy.I was very afraid that one day, a girl would snatch him away, but now, I don't have such worries.I very much hope that we can maintain this kind of friendship, without the disturbance of outsiders, and there will never be a day when we are separated.

But I still said, "Maybe one day, when you meet a nice girl, you won't say things like that."

He smiled and stopped talking.He didn't tell the truth, and I won't tell the truth again.We never brought up that topic again.But tonight, he told me plainly, I love you.During the day, I love you.I thought of his gentle eyes, and I was intoxicated again.Me too, I said softly again.

I think we may not survive today.On the last day of life, with his company and his gentle "I love you", this life is enough.

Probably due to the effect of the medicine, I fell asleep again in a daze.This time in the dream, it was him.His head came closer to me and I closed my eyes.His lips kissed mine.

Sweet Dream was awakened by his surprise sound.I don't know when he woke up, he called me outside the tent, "Come during the day."

I hurriedly crawled out of the sleeping bag, my heart was beating wildly.I went out and there was no one around.I looked at him suspiciously.He said, "Did you hear anything?"

I listened attentively, and there was the sound of singing folk songs.Usually, the nearby mountain people don't go to this mountain when they go out, but there are also some old mountain people who occasionally choose to walk through the big stone mountain.

"Help. We're lost, is there anyone?" Yu Xia shouted loudly.I also joined the shout.

Finally, a voice from a mountain dweller came from far away: "Where are you?"

My heart is about to jump out of my body. At this moment, I feel that my whole body is full of strength. Yu Xia and I said loudly together: "We are here, we are lost." The voice was transmitted along the valley, and our shouts were everywhere Voice.

"Stay where you are, I'll go find you." The mountain man's voice came again.

"We're saved." I was ecstatic.

"Yes, we are saved." Yu Xia's eyes sparkled.

We looked at each other, and Yu Xia gave me a big hug.

2. Brotherhood (1)

As if in a dream, we returned to reality.Neither Yu Xia nor I mentioned what happened that night.It's okay if you don't mention it, it will save a lot of embarrassment.

We've been busy looking for jobs.When the day of application came, we learned that there was only one applicant for this position in Fangyuan Company, but there were many applicants.After the preliminary selection, there were five rematch candidates left, and two more were selected for the final selection.

"If it's the two of us in the end..." I was not without concerns.

"You know, I don't want this position at all. The reason why I came to apply is just to occupy a position." He smiled.

"I won't allow you to do this."

"Really, I don't lie to you." He took out a stack of application notices, "Look, I'm looking for a position I like." What else should I say, he said decisively, "That's it. You have to work hard. , must enter the final test."

I got my dream job.The company paid me very well and allocated me a small unit with one bedroom and one living room.On the day I got the key, I handed over the spare key to Yu Xia, who happily accepted it without refusing.

We've been extremely busy for the next month.I go to work during the day, he applies for a job, and we decorate the room together on the weekend.

Fortunately, Yu Xia soon found a job, but it was far away from my company.My company is on the west side of the city and his is on the east side of the city.To meet, we need to cross the whole city.

"I want to find someone close to Fangyuan, but there is currently no recruitment demand from nearby companies. The company I am currently working for is not bad, and it is also the job I want." He explained to me.

"It's okay, it's just that it's too far for you to go to work every day."

"I'm going to rent a room on the east side of the city, what do you think?"

"Then we..."

He saw my concerns: "We can still meet on the weekend, I assure you, I will come over as soon as I get off work on Friday."

I knew it would be too far away for him to live here and work.But I can't say this, I have to wait for him to say it.And he was always so considerate.

After finishing my room, we moved to his room.I don't want his room to be cleaned up too quickly, and he deliberately delays the time a little longer.

But every day he gets up at four or five o'clock and returns in the middle of the night, and I also feel guilty.

Another weekend passed, and we agreed that he would move to the east of the city tomorrow.That night, he cooked a table of delicious meals, and we toasted to celebrate, but I was very sad when I thought that we would face parting.We lived in the same dorm from high school until college and we were never apart except for the holidays.In the days to come, although we can still meet every week, we can't meet every day after all.

"I don't want you to go."

"Ha, stupid." He laughed at me, "Do you think I work so hard every day?"

"I don't want to." I raised my glass, "Congratulations on not having to work so hard."

We raised our glasses and drank it down.

"I'll be here in a few days."

We were all slightly drunk.When I raised my glass again, he took my glass and said, "Let's take it. Please forgive me, I have to get up early."

When we finished packing, he picked up a quilt and said, "It's my turn to sleep on the sofa tonight." Since there is only one room and one living room, we usually sleep on the bed alone, and sleep on the living room sofa alone, each taking turns for one night.

Maybe it was because we were going to say goodbye tomorrow, or maybe it was because I was drunk, I blurted out: "Go to bed." He glanced at me, and I lowered my head.

We didn't speak when we were lying in bed.This is the first time we have shared a bed, although covered with two quilts.That's it, my heart is sweet.He glanced at me, and I turned my head away, reaching for the lamp.I hoped that something would happen, but I hoped that nothing would happen.

He said, "Go to sleep." I said, "Okay." I turned over and fell asleep, feeling a little regretful in my heart.

When I woke up in the morning, he was gone.There was a note pasted on the bedside: "I will miss you."

I blushed.

When I got home at night, I watched TV while waiting for Yu Xia.

the phone is ringing. "Did you sleep during the day?" Yu Xia's voice came over.

"not yet."

"Go to bed early and don't stay up late."

"Understood." I drew a long voice.He's on his way back.At this time, a call came, it was from my mother, I said to Yu Xia, "Mom is calling, I'll hang up first."

"Son, how is work?" My mother asked me.

"Very good, I think this job is very suitable for me."

"How about the salary? How about the treatment?"

"It's all good, I'm very satisfied. Mom, your son is doing well, you can rest assured."

"Do you have a girlfriend?"

I sighed, and I knew that my mother couldn't do without my girlfriend in three words.

"No."

"You, it's not that mom said you, you have a job now, you're a big boss..."

I immediately interrupted my mother: "Mom, I know what you are going to say. Look, I just graduated and found a job..."

My mother became impatient: "I knew it, you have to find a reason when I say this. You are 24 years old, you have graduated, you have a job, and you have a job. It's time to find a girlfriend. Your father and I still Waiting to hold a big grandson."

"Oh, Mom, I'm only 24 years old. I just graduated, okay? You won't let me play for a few years?"

Dad's voice came from the phone: "I know that young people are only interested in playing, but getting married and having children is a major event in life, you must take it to heart. It's not too late to play when you have children."

I hurriedly interrupted: "Dad, there is no one who reminds me right after graduation. If you want to remind me, you have to wait a few years."

"You, let you talk about a girlfriend in college, you, you only care about playing, and now you have to play after graduation. Look at the big boy in our neighbor's family, he added a big grandson to the family before he graduated, what a shame! Good. You have to hurry up and find a girl to marry. After adding a big fat boy to our old Bai family, you can play whatever you want. You must know that you are the only seedling in my old Bai family. You have to hurry up Time, like me and your mother, got married at 22, and you will be there at 24."

Dad's words were like pouring beans into a bamboo tube, and I didn't have a chance to interrupt at all.I am also very helpless to meet such parents. "Okay, okay, I see. I still have something to do, I'm hanging up."

My family is a traditional big family, and the concept of passing on the family line is deeply rooted in the family.When I was in college, my father and mother began to urge me to find a girlfriend, and they always blamed the buddy of the neighbor. I found a girlfriend in freshman year and had a child in senior year.Now that I have just graduated from university, my father and mother have started a new round of urging work.

However, mom and dad only urged, they never sat down to understand the son's heart.

I put down the phone, feeling full of melancholy.Confused for a while, I looked at my watch, Yu Xia hadn't come back yet, didn't I have something to do when I called just now?I was puzzled, so I hurriedly called him: "Yu Xia, do you have anything to do?"

"En? No, didn't I tell you to go to bed early? Why haven't you gone to bed yet?"

"I'm waiting for you." I blurted out, "Why haven't you come back yet?"

"Oh," came the laughter from over there, "I won't forget it so soon. I came to the east to sleep."

"Ah." I woke up suddenly, I completely forgot about it. "I forgot."

"It seems that it's right for me to sleep here. From now on, you won't have to wait for me until midnight every day."

"I think it's good to wait for someone." I said.

Yu Xia was silent for a while. "Go to sleep, it's getting late."

Lying in bed, I tossed and turned and couldn't fall asleep.Although we usually sleep on a bed and a sofa, and we are not in the same room, knowing that he is by my side makes me feel at ease.But now, in the empty room, I am alone.

I called him again. "Yu Xia, are you asleep?"

"No, I can't sleep."

"I can't sleep either." We were silent for a while.

"Yu Xia."

"kindness?"

"Is this the first time we've separated?"

"kindness."

"I am very depressed."

"I'll see you in a few days." He comforted me.

"You said, one day, will we separate?"

"If you don't want to, we won't separate." His voice was gentle.

"I don't want to be separated."

"Then let's not separate."

"Okay, we will not separate." I settled down.Without him by my side, I suddenly became bolder, and I said what was in my heart, "Yu Xia, I want us to be together for the rest of our lives."

"Really? Forever?" There was sunshine in his words.

"Forever." I said with certainty.

2. Brotherhood (2)

Knowing that he is in this city, but not being able to see him.For me, it is a kind of torment.It's Wednesday now, and I won't see him until Friday, two days later.After get off work, I squeezed into the bus by accident. I was going to find Yu Xia, and I wanted to experience his feelings of running back and forth a while ago.

It was midnight when we arrived at his residence.I took out the key he had left for me, and tiptoedly opened the door.In the dark, I heard his slight breathing in sleep.I opened the cabinet and wanted to find a quilt.

My voice startled him.He said, "Who?"

"it's me."

I heard him laugh in the dark.He turned on the light: "Why are you here?"

"I..." I didn't know what to say.I looked at the open cabinet and avoided his question, "I didn't want to disturb you, I want to find a quilt to sleep on the sofa."

"The things here are not ready yet, only this quilt." He chuckled, pointing to the quilt on his body, "I'll buy another one tomorrow."

"But..." But what about tonight?

"Come on, squeeze it," he said.I blushed.He looked at me with a smirk, "Come on, I won't bully you."

For the first time in my life, we were so close, I suppressed the impulse in my heart, and moved a little to the side to prevent my body from touching him.

He stretched his arms and raised his head to look at me, his face was close to mine, and my heart was beating out of my body.I pushed him and pretended to joke: "What do you want to do? You told me not to bully me."

I reached out to turn off the light, and yawned in the dark, "I'm so tired, I can fall asleep as soon as I close my eyes."

"Go to sleep then."

I lay there, not daring to move, for fear that I would bump into him soon.I regret it a little now, I shouldn't have come to him.In the dark night, I examine my heart.What am I thinking?What kind of life do I want?

I remembered what we said in Dashishan that night, and I clearly knew what I was thinking, and I understood my heart.But maybe knowing that there is no possibility of surviving, I have the courage to say that.Had I known we would be saved, I might never have said that.

Family pressure, worldly views, all of these are a kind of net, which makes it impossible for us to escape.I don't know what kind of thinking Yu Xia is thinking, maybe he is stronger than me, maybe he has been waiting for me, but I am cowardly, I just want to keep the current relationship.

But now, am I playing with fire?I clearly knew his feelings, but I walked in the fire, and I was afraid that the fire would burn me.I want to keep this kind of ambiguity, I hope to go further, but I hope this kind of ambiguity will never be broken.

I can't, I can't go one step further, let myself and him sink deeper.

I was so cranky.I felt him move towards me, he turned over and turned his body to my side, I quickly turned over and gave him a back.

I opened my eyes, afraid of what he might do.But I know that if I don't want to, he won't do anything.

I know he wasn't asleep either.We kept a distance like this.I don't know how long it took, but I felt his hand stretched out, but I didn't dare to move.I know that once something is broken, once it is broken, it can never go back to the original state.

My emotions were expecting something to happen, and my mind was telling me, no.

He hugged me gently, I didn't move, pretending to be asleep.He didn't make any other movements, just hugged me gently, put his body close to my back, and hugged me in his arms.He fell asleep quickly, and I gradually fell asleep.

When I was soundly asleep, Yu Xia woke me up: "During the day, get up."

I looked at the sky outside, it was still dark. "It's so early. I'm so sleepy. I want to sleep for a while."

"If you don't get up, you'll be late for work."

I got up straight away.He also sat up.

"Go to sleep, don't get up." I said to him.

"fine."

"But, you never let me get up." Those mornings when he was running back and forth, he definitely didn't want me to get up.

"You go out to the bus station, but I'm still far away from the bus station." He always has a reason.

We are walking in the city that is getting brighter.

"It's been a long time since I woke up so early, the air is so fresh." I stretched out my arms, like a bird flying. "Oh, I'm going to fly."

"You are not allowed to come again," he said.

"Don't you want me to come?" I asked knowingly.

"you know what I mean."

"I do not know."

I ran a few steps forward, then stopped, and turned to look at him: "Come on, see if you can catch me."

He still walked at his usual pace: "What's the good of catching you?"

"There are many benefits,