I'm fine during the day

Everything is ready, we set off to Gingko Valley.When we reached the intersection, Yu Xia smiled at me: "I'm going to rent a motorcycle." Soon he pushed a yellow motorcycle over.

"I'll ride." I said.

Yu Xia nodded. "I'm saving money and I'm going to buy one, so it will be convenient for me to travel in the future."

"It's starting to buy property."

"I'm going to live here for a long time anyway." Yu Xia smiled.

I have already ridden on the motorcycle, and greeted Yu Xia.

"Sit down."

Yu Xia's hand gently supported my waist, we walked through the urban area, and then came to the suburbs, where there were almost no people.

"Be careful, I'm going to increase the horsepower."

I quickened the throttle, and the bike was racing forward immediately.Yu Xia said: "Slow down, I'm going to throw it out." As he spoke, his hands slowly wrapped around my waist, and his head was pressed against my back.Tentatively, he folded his hands around my waist.

I held the direction with one hand, and stretched out a hand, trying to brush off his hand.The moment he touched his hand, he gently held my hand with one hand and covered it with his other hand.

I hold my breath.I looked around and there was no one.

Today is his birthday, I should make him happy, I gave up the idea of ​​letting his hand let go of me, just gently pulled out my hand, and said: "Sit down, I'm not responsible for throwing it out. "

In Ginkgo Valley, in the yellow mountains and valleys, we strolled, played, and played wildly all morning.

"Are you happy?" I asked him.He picked up a fallen leaf, "I hope every day is as happy as today."

"We will be happy every day." I nodded. "Let's run a race."

"Okay."

I ran to the front, and he chased me behind, but when he was about to catch up with me, I jumped away again.

"I remember someone said that it would be good to catch you." He smiled at me.

I responded with a smile and continued to run forward.This time, I didn't run too fast, he caught up in a few steps, threw me down, and we fell together under the tree covered with yellow leaves.

The air is full of ambiguous taste.I lay on the ground panting, and he fell on top of me, panting too.He looked at me tenderly.What should I say?

My words were out of place: "Get up, you're hurting me."

He turned over, and we both lay in the fallen leaves.I tilted my head to look at him, and he was staring blankly at the sky.I picked up a yellow leaf and brushed it on his nose: "Is it itchy?"

He laughed: "Bullying me again."

"Then you come and bully me."

"I'm too tired, wait for me to rest for a while, you see you can escape."

"You used to be a good athlete. You didn't exercise for a few days, and you panted like this after moving." I made fun of him.

"Yeah, I also feel short of breath when I move. You see, I did a few dances last night, and I can't dance anymore. I can't be a cripple." He laughed.

"Sitting every day, the body is weak, ha." I laughed at him.

"Okay, you are laughing at me." He turned over and wanted to grab me, and I got up straight.

"Eat something, I'm hungry."

The afternoon sun was warm, and we sat under the tree, enjoying the quiet autumn time.

"I had a dream last night," he said.

"Oh, what dream?" I asked him.

"I dreamed about us in Dashishan again."

After returning from Dashi Mountain, we have never mentioned the few days when we lost our way.Those things are vivid in my mind, but I don't want him to mention them.However, he was going to bring it up after all.

I remembered last night when he said he was thinking about something and he wanted to take me to a gay bar.I knew he was going to speak up after all.

I have a hunch that something will change, and will take away our happiness in an irreversible gesture.

I can't make him bring these things up, I can't.

"I don't want to dream about getting lost. It was terrible. I hope I never dream about it." I exaggerated and changed the subject. "Let's talk about something else."

He didn't stop, "You had a fever that day, I was very worried about you, and worried that we would not be rescued." A warm current flowed through my heart.At that time, I talked about my worries, but he always comforted me not to be afraid, not to be afraid.In fact, he was also worried, but in front of me, he acted so strong.

"I was dragging you down. Thanks to you for the fever that night, you have been taking care of me."

"No more."

However, I couldn't let him go any further.I said: "Fortunately, I had a fever, and my brain was burned, so I passed the night in a daze. Otherwise, I would have been sober like you. I'm afraid I won't be rescued at that time, and I will be rescued sooner." It broke down. I really worked hard on you that night. From now on, I will never drag you to take such risks again."

He didn't speak, and I added another sentence: "Let's not talk about these past events, I feel scared after thinking about it."

I peeked at him, his eyes full of doubts.He was silent for a while.Then he said, "Don't you remember?"

"what?"

"What about the night when I had a fever."

I really wanted to stop this conversation, but Yu Xia looked at me with warm eyes again.My heart is heavy, but my words are light: "I remember, I remember you asked me to take medicine, let me sleep, and you were guarding outside by yourself, I remember them all."

I seemed to hear his soft sigh.Then he said unwillingly: "You woke up later, did you forget?"

"Yeah, when I heard you calling me happily, I knew there was good news. Sure enough, some mountain people came to rescue us. We are really lucky."

"In the meantime, you still wake up once..."

I groaned, "Did I mess with you?"

Yu Xia looked into my eyes, and I tried my best to calm myself down.He couldn't see anything from my eyes, he smiled: "Yes, you're messing with me."

I breathed a sigh of relief. "Oh, I've got a fever and I'm confused. Otherwise, you can make trouble with me now."

"You asked me that night, what was the last word I wanted to say to you..." He made up his mind to say it.

I felt sad for a while: "Then what did you say?" My voice was trembling.

"I said, during the day, I love you."

My mind went blank.And I quickly woke up again, I was running my mind at a high speed, and then I smiled: "Wow, good brother, that's what a good brother said." I patted him on the shoulder, "I'm so touched, No loss, he is my good brother." I made an exaggerated expression. "Yu Xia, I love you too, you are my best best brother."

He laughed at himself: "At that time, I thought we were really going to die."

"Yes."

"I love you, these three words," he hesitated, "it must be silly."

"No, not stupid at all." My mind raced to answer.Then, I solemnly said, "If my life is at the last moment, I will definitely tell my best relatives and best friends. I will tell them that I love you. These three words not only represent love, It more represents family affection and friendship." I looked at him from the corner of my eye while talking, even I hated myself for such an explanation.

He smiled: "In this way, I don't think I'm stupid."

"Of course not stupid." I said mechanically.

We lay down, the sun was shining on us, and I thought I was going to fall asleep.

"Don't fall asleep, you're going to catch a cold."

"With you here, I won't catch a cold."

"Actually, I have something I want to ask you." He turned to look at me.

Is there any more?After passing the thrilling pass, are there other passes?I look at him.Last night he said he was thinking about something, had he been thinking about asking me?Yu Xia, there is some truth, must it be exposed to the sun?

"By the day, you are a kind person. It looks like you are strong, but in fact there is a child living in your heart. With you, I always want to protect you and don't want you to be hurt."

"En." I nodded, "I will also protect you in the future."

He smiled with gentle eyes. "Sometimes you're conflicted, sometimes you're strong, and sometimes you're vulnerable. You want someone to protect you, but you're afraid of being hurt."

"You seem to be right. However, I don't understand myself."

"Yeah, sometimes I can't understand you, I don't know what you are thinking, I don't know what you want."

"You can ask me, I am transparent in front of you." As I said this, I was thinking in my heart, why didn't you tell me your question?

"You asked me to ask. Then let me ask you, we have been together for six years, tell me what you think of me?"

"You are a good person. You are good at taking care of people and always think about others. With you, people will feel at ease." I lowered my head, "I am at ease with you."

"I see." He said softly.I thought this would pass, but his words made my heart no longer calm, "During the day, what kind of position do I have in your heart?"

"The most important position." I said without thinking.I looked at him affectionately, I thought I was moved, why didn't I tell my true feelings?I should say my true feelings, if I don't say it, maybe I really don't have such a chance. "I only have one place in my heart, and that's yours. I think no one can replace this place. The world is so big, but there is only one Yu Xia, and only one person, you."

His face was full of smiles.He held out his hand to me, I held out my hand, and we shook hands.A fallen leaf gently fell down and landed in front of my eyes.My heart skipped a beat and I woke up from my dream.I said what was in my heart, but what happened after I said what was in my heart?We can only stop at brothers and cannot take a step forward.

"So, Yu Xia," I looked at him with affectionate eyes and cruel words, "No matter what happens in the future, you will always be my good brother. The place in my heart will always be yours." My voice rang In the empty ginkgo valley, it is so empty.There is wind blowing, so cold, so ruthless.

His smile faded and he let go of my hand.I know his disappointment, but we can't just dance with shackles on like this.Forgive me, Yu Xia, I can only say this.There is a minefield in front of us. We are standing on the edge of the minefield. We only need to move forward a little bit, and our bones will be broken.

He calmed down, and then smiled at me: "In the daytime, with a good brother like you, this life is worth it." I felt sad for a while, is this what I want?I walked over and gave him a big hug.His head rested on my shoulder, trembling a little.

I made up my mind that if he does not separate, I will never let him go.