I'm fine during the day

One day and one night, I didn't leave the room.I didn't eat or drink, just sat there in a daze.

Without Yu Xia, my life becomes meaningless.I regret it.I should have expressed my feelings for him, I should have asked him to stay.In those days, I thought about these things over and over again, but in the end it turned into a sigh.

The only happy time is when talking to Yu Xia.Almost every day, Yu Xia and I have a phone call.We chatted about anything casually, and chatted casually.

Only when I talk to Yu Xia, can I wake up like a dead tree, and my lonely heart can wake up.Hanging up the phone, my heart sank into the dark night again.

This situation lasted for more than a month, and I found that the situation has changed slightly.

In the past, every time it was Yu Xia who took the initiative to call, but later on he took the initiative less and less, and it became me who took the initiative.In the end, when I called him, he might not answer every time.After a long time, I called back to explain.

He had many reasons, he was busy, didn't take his mobile phone, didn't hear him, was on the road, and so on.

I'm thinking wildly, Yu Xia, why stay away from me?Do you have a boyfriend yet?However, I dare not ask him, I am afraid that if I ask, I will get his affirmative answer.One day is a day to avoid it.He's willing to tell me, and he'll tell me.However, he never said it.I have never asked the exit.

I decided not to call Yu Xia anymore, I want to see how long it will take for him to call me if I don't call him.A day passed without a call from him.Two days later, still no call from him.

I finally couldn't bear it anymore.On the third day, I called.no respond.No response all day.

At night, I tossed and turned and couldn't sleep.Yu Xia, do you know that I miss you?I can not live without you.But why are you so unfeeling that you don't even make a phone call?

Finally, his call came.

"I've been waiting for you all day." I blurted out.

"Sorry," he said, "I don't have my phone with me."

"Did you just come back?" I asked him.

"Yes." he said.Come back so late, must have a boyfriend.

I asked him: "Yu Xia, can I ask you something?"

"Tell me." Yu Xia laughed.

"I think you've changed."

"Changed?" he said, "No."

"You don't answer every phone call."

"Well, sometimes I have something to do and it's inconvenient to answer the phone. But I really didn't deliberately not answer your call. You see, I will call you later. "

"Do you have a boyfriend?" I asked him bluntly.

"Me?" He pondered for a moment, "Why do you think so?"

"I think you're estranged from me." I was aggrieved.

There was a long silence over there, and he didn't speak or refute.I got it right.Yu Xia, he has a boyfriend.

I'm a bit lost.Only separated for three months, he already has a boyfriend.And he didn't tell me.I sighed.I don't blame Yu Xia.All of this is my fault, my giving up, how can I blame him?

"I'll call you when I'm free, okay?" He said, "I have something to do and I'm going to hang up." So late, what could happen?Presumably he was avoiding his boyfriend to call me, and hung up after saying a few words in a hurry. He must be afraid that his boyfriend would hear me.

I am heartbroken.Yu Xia has a boyfriend.He kept away from me a little bit, and called less and less, all showed his attitude.

I also gradually lost contact with Yu Xia, from every day at the beginning, to once every two or three days, to once a week.

I dream more and more.

I often dream of that night in Dashi Mountain, I was in Yu Xia's arms, and his arms were warm.However, after waking up from the dream, only a sigh remained.

In more dreams, I stand in a desert, in such a desolation, the world is so big, and I, I am alone, just one person.

My dad and mom kept calling, urging me to find a girlfriend.Every time I want to tell them out loud, I don't want a girlfriend, I want a boyfriend.However, every time, such a word, I can't say it.

I gradually had the idea of ​​leaving.I want to escape from the city related to Yu Xia.In this city, his shadow is everywhere, making me unable to breathe.

I wrote the resignation letter, but before I submitted it, I was summoned by the president.The company headquarters wants to set up a branch in another city, and intends to let me be the local manager.

This news gave me some relief.It's good for me that I don't have to quit my job and get away from the city.

After a while, the company will send me to Beijing for a business trip.When I get back, I'm going to start working on the branch office.

I called Yu Xia: "Yu Xia, I'm leaving."

"Where are you going?" He looked surprised.

"I'm leaving here." I told him that I was leaving the city.He listened quietly.

"It's nice," he said. "You know what? I miss our home west."

"Are you still coming?" I blurted out.If Yu Xia comes over, I will give up my position in the branch and stay here.At this moment, I really want Yu Xia to come back.

"Mom and Dad won't let me go." He said softly.

"I'll go find you." I said.

"No." His quick answer surprised me.Perhaps realizing that he refused too simply, he smiled and said, "I'm a bit busy this time."

My heart is bitter.Yu Xia, you are afraid that I will find you, what are you afraid of?

"Do you have a boyfriend?" I asked him again.This time, I must hear him tell me himself.

"Yes." he said.

Now that you have a boyfriend, are you going to push me out of your world?

Yu Xia, we will never go back to the past.