PARASITE PARADISE

7. Unawakened Words

In the blink of an eye, August is over, the rainy season is receding, and the fallen leaves and cold wind are ushering in. Youyu ended the difficult vacation and resumed a 8-to-[-] life, and Cicada continued to take care of Mr. Youyu while working part-time. Everything is fine. It is the same as before, but there is a subtle change in the relationship between them.

"Mr. Youyu, if you don't get up, you'll be late." Cicada made breakfast for Mr. Youyu as usual, then put on an apron and went to Mr. Youyu's room to wake him up. The room was dark, and the sound of calm breathing came from The sound came from the bed, and Chan smiled and walked into Mr. Youyu's room. When he walked to Mr. Youyu's bed and wanted to bend down to kiss his forehead, Mr. Youyu said something in his sleep, and Chandang was stunned. In the same place, it took a few seconds before he came back to his senses. He was still smiling gently. He stretched out his hand and touched Mr. Youyu's forehead, and whispered softly: "This is the ninth time you are in a dream this month. Calling his name, Mr. Youyu."

"Ah, I have to add, this is just the number of times I know." After speaking, Cicada shook Mr. Youyu's shoulder lightly, and said softly: "If Mr. Youyu doesn't get up again, I will kiss you."

"You Yu first..."

"Huh...huh?" You Yu opened his eyes in a daze, and when he saw the person in front of him clearly, he closed his eyes and laughed, and said in a lazy voice: "Good morning, my little cicada. "

"Mr. Youyu is in a good mood. Did you have some sweet dreams?" Cicada smiled softly, and when she bent down to kiss Mr. Youyu, she was hugged by Mr. Youyu's neck, and Youyu slammed Cicada Pulling it in front of his eyes, he voluntarily pressed his lips against his own. He smiled against Cicada's lips and said, "Well, I had a very beautiful dream."

"Did you dream of me?" Cicada slowly raised her eyelids, looking at Mr. Youyu who was blurred in front of her eyes, her eyes were a little dazed.

You Yu paused for a moment, and then immediately said: "Well, yes, I dreamed that we were very happy."

"That's good, get up quickly, you're going to be late."

"Ah."

Mr. Youyu is very bad at lying. He always pauses for 1-2 seconds unintentionally before lying, and he will never look directly into your eyes when he lies, but Mr. Youyu should not be conscious.

But I see it all the time, but I won't say it.

Mr. Youyu liked my father, I knew it from the beginning, or I knew it from the time my father told his previous stories.Maybe it's because I'm naturally sensitive, or maybe it's because I fell in love with Mr. Youyu at first sight that's why I'm so sensitive to his affairs.

Every time my father talked about Mr. Youyu, his eyes were full of complicated emotions, as if he was calm when talking about his old classmates. However, there were endless sighs and regrets hidden under that. I didn't understand this feeling, and I didn't understand why this look came from until later.

That was when I was 13 years old. On that day, we left school half an hour early because the teacher in the make-up class was busy. When I got home, I saw my mother standing at the door of the house talking on the phone with someone. I don’t know why my The first reaction turned out to be avoidance, probably out of my instinct, I hid in the stairs and eavesdropped on my mother's call, and during this call I heard something that I found hard to understand, but my instinct told me it was not a good thing things.

"Ah, I'm at the door of the house now, um... I forgot to bring the key again, and I don't have a spare key."

Very common topic ah.

"Huh? Fengzhi, he works overtime tonight, I plan to wait for my son to come back and open the door for me."

Ah, but I'm hiding on the stairs...

"Yeah, Fengzhi and I have been married for 13 years this year, time flies so fast... Well, we also plan to travel this year."

Ah, my father said that I would go on a trip with my mother this summer, and asked me to live with my grandma for a while, but I didn't want to go, my grandma hated me very much, and I didn't want to please this person.

"I haven't decided where to go. I should go to a place with the sea. Do you remember the sea next to the worm island? Hahahaha, it's not called the sea at all, it's almost called a sewage ditch."

It seems to be an ordinary conversation with a friend, so I shouldn't have to hide, and just as I was thinking this way, what my mother said next made me take back the foot that I had just raised to step out.

"Of course Fengzhi doesn't know about that, but it's been so many years, even if he knows, it won't help."

Um?Did mother hide any ulterior secret from father?

"After so many years of getting along, I know Fengzhi's personality too well. Once he has a sense of responsibility for something, he will definitely be responsible to the end. Now that we have Cicada, it is even more impossible for him to leave us mother and son alone. .”

I can't understand what my mother is saying.

"If I hadn't done some tricks and made myself pregnant, he would have run away with that man long ago. Where would it be my turn?"

"Actually, I regretted it too, but I can't turn back at this point. Besides, Fengzhi must have forgotten that man long ago. He is living happily with me now."

"Everyone is blind for love. I just watched them stick together all day and get too jealous... Oh, why do you want to expose my scars, which pot does not open and which pot to carry."

Cicada didn't listen to the content of the later call, and his mother's words kept echoing in his mind—if I hadn't done something to impregnate myself.At that time, Cicada couldn't fully understand the meaning of this sentence, but he vaguely felt a strange feeling, a very bad premonition.

At that time, the naive Cicada felt that a strange feeling made him hairy and kept him awake all night, so he took advantage of the day when his mother was not at home to confess to his father the content of his mother's call that day, but Cicada did not expect it. What's more, his father remains unmoved by the secret he uttered, as if his father already knew everything.

That day her father was talking to her with a smile, and Cicada remembered it very clearly.

"Cicada, there are some things in this world that you cannot control. Since I chose you and mother, I will be responsible to you to the end."

"But! But Mom said something was wrong, there must be some misunderstanding!"

"Cicada, don't mention this matter again? Your mother will be sad when she hears you say this."

"Then why are Dad and Uncle Youyu not friends anymore... You used to be so close, didn't you? Then why doesn't Dad go to Uncle Youyu now, as long as you explain it well, Uncle Youyu will definitely..."

"You'll understand when you grow up."

"I don't want it, I don't want to wait until I grow up! I want to know now! I don't want Uncle You Yu to be sad... woo..."

"Cicada, think about it carefully. If Dad went to find Uncle Youyu, what would you and Mom do? Mom has no skills to support the family and you are so young."

"Then dad can take us to find Uncle Youyu, so..."

"Your mother... doesn't like Uncle You Yu."

"Then take me there!"

"Cicada, stop talking nonsense. When you grow up, I will allow you to go to the north to find Uncle Youyu."

"I don't want it! I don't want it...I don't want it!"

Cicada didn't know why he was crying so sad at that time. He couldn't tell whether his tears were shed because of his mother's selfishness, his father's helplessness, or because he was sad for Uncle Youyu, whom he had never met, but that day he understood one thing. thing--

He and his mother were the stumbling blocks between his father and Uncle Youyu, because of their existence, Uncle Youyu refused to continue being good friends with his father.

At that moment, Cicada felt that the world was sick, and many things had deviated from the track, developing in an irreversible direction.

The human heart is so contradictory and distorted, those complicated emotions and feelings are entangled and blended in the small body, imprisoning the feet that want to get back on track, and blinding the desperate eyes that long to see their lover again.

This world is wrong.

"Cicada, do you know what the last words Uncle Youyu said to Dad?" Father knelt on the ground and hugged the weeping Cicada and said softly: "'I wish you, wish you and your parasite, wish you and Your future family of three will die badly.'”

"You see how vicious your Uncle Youyu is, even if you don't want to continue to be friends with me, you can't curse me like that, Cicada, when you go to find Uncle Youyu in the future, you must scold him severely, and ..."

"Say sorry to Uncle Youyu on behalf of my father, and tell him that what I said back then was a lie to him."

"In fact, Dad loves him very much and hopes that he will live a good life."

Father, do you know?Mr. Youyu still loves you to this day, he loves you deeply and loves everything about you, even when he is in bed with me and feels pleasure and blurred, the name he calls out is still you.

He loves you, so he accepted me as your heir, just because of your blood flowing in my body and a face somewhat similar to yours.

To be honest I am very jealous of you, father.No matter what I do, Mr. Youyu always has only your reflection in his eyes, he loves you to the extreme, and I am just your substitute.I used to naively think that as long as Mr. Youyu and I get along as lovers for a period of time, then he will forget you and accept the real me, but I was wrong, I was too self-righteous.

Mr. Youyu's love for you is unsurpassed. As early as the beginning, I should have understood that I would never win this competition.

"Youyu looks good recently, is there anything happy about it?"

After hearing what his colleague said, Youyu took off his experimental glasses and said with a smile: "Secret."

"I think you are probably in love like this, and you are finally going to get married before the age of 40?" a colleague joked.

"Go, go, why do people in their 30s still gossip like this?" You Yu put on his glasses again, picked up the machine and began to study the humanoid in front of him who was sent back for maintenance.

In fact, Youyu has no bottom in his heart, because he is always a little guilty, he can't get rid of Fengzhi's shadow, and he can't completely forget Fengzhi to love Cicada wholeheartedly.

He will be 40 years old next year, and half of his life will be gone. He has no energy to love someone wholeheartedly. It's endless tiredness and irritability.

So he chooses to use the wind as a shield to create a period of happiness, and then... part with Cicada.In his latest plan, he will maintain a lover relationship with Cicada until the age of 22, and then become the host of Cicada before breaking up with Cicada to ensure the safety of Cicada in Paradise City. If he is a good host or partner, he is also willing to dissolve the master-servant relationship with the cicada. Anyway, the current regulations on the survival of parasites are not so strict.

This is the best ending he imagined, responding to Cicada's feelings and then satisfying his own selfish desires, and then pointing to the end, let each other become the best memories in their respective lives, and then separate from each other and never have contact again.

Cicada, I'm sorry, I'm a selfish and hateful villain with strange long hair, I don't deserve your love.

After returning home from work, Youyu pushed open the door and smelled the rich aroma of rice. Her already hungry stomach made a sound of eagerness to eat. Youyu took off her shoes and ran to the kitchen with a hug and was cooking. The cicada coquettishly said: "Ah~ I'm so hungry, isn't the meal ready yet?"

Cicada turned her head and kissed Mr. Youyu who was lying on her shoulder, and said, "Mr. Youyu can eat me first if you are in a hurry."

"Forget it, my physical strength can't eat you, you should eat me." You Yu never argues with Cicada on this kind of matter, because he knows his physical condition, even if his appearance is still very popular but long Not exercising for a long time and the habit of not liking to go out have made his body unable to withstand the toss, so he can only let others fiddle with it. "But when are you going to get rid of the habit of calling me sir, I sound strange."

"Well, I'm used to it, and I can't change it for a while, but don't you think there is a sense of forbidden love when calling honorifics during sex?" Cicada replied solemnly while serving vegetables.

"...I really don't understand the thoughts of young people nowadays, they are old and old." You Yu let go of Cicada's waist and walked to him, picked up the freshly filled dish in Cicada's hand, then turned her head and fell on top of her Cicada's lips, said softly: "But I don't care if you like it."

After dinner, the two of them took a bath one after another. You Yu lay in the cicada's arms and watched TV for a while, then she felt a little sleepy, so the cicada said, "I'll carry you to sleep."

"Hmm..." You Yu fell into the cicada's arms, and said in a daze, "Let's sleep together tonight."

Cicada froze for a moment and said, "Okay."

Although Cicada and Mr. Youyu have become lovers, Cicada said that because she wakes up early in the morning and doesn't want to disturb Mr. Youyu's sleep, the two still sleep in separate beds.

In fact, I don't want to hear Mr. You Yu's sleep talk, and I don't want to hear him calling that person's name so eagerly.

Cicada hugged Mr. Youyu who was about to fall asleep and returned to Mr. Youyu's room, then put Mr. Youyu on the bed and covered the quilt, went out to tidy up the sofa, turned off the TV and the lights in the living room before returning to Youyu Next to Mr., just as he opened the quilt and was about to lie down, Mr. Youyu dragged him into the bed.

"Mr. Youyu?" Cicada lay on the bed in a strange posture, and his arms were tightly hugged by Mr. Youyu. At this time, Mr. Youyu murmured: "Don't go..."

Cicada immediately understood that Mr. Youyu had entered the stage of confusion, and he must have regarded himself as his father again.

"I won't leave, You Yu." Cicada turned over and covered herself with the quilt beside her, then stretched out her other hand to caress Mr. You Yu's face, and moved closer to Mr. You Yu A few, feeling Mr. Youyu's calm and soft breathing.

"Mr. You Yu always falls asleep so fast, and he looks more like a child when he falls asleep." Cicada smiled and thought to himself, "Is the father in the dream gentle with you, would he touch your face quietly like me? Looking at your sleeping face quietly?"

Mr. You Yu, do you know that I once hated myself very much, especially the blood flowing in my body, half of which hurt you and half made you suffer. I don’t think I should be born in this world, because I am the crystallization of your pain and bear you Everything you hate, my existence will only make you fall into endless, sad memories, but I can't do anything.

Cicada closed her eyes and pressed her forehead against Mr. Youyu's forehead, and said softly, "Mr. Youyu, why did you say that cicadas came to this world? They obviously only have a lifespan of about a week."

"What else do they do during the week they're alive besides mating and breeding and singing?"

The sound of Mr. Youyu's weak breathing spread out against Cicada's cheek, and Mr. Youyu's sleeping face looked particularly comfortable under the soft bedside lamp. Cicada slowly opened his eyes and looked at Mr. Youyu who was already asleep in front of him. The smile on his face gradually disappeared, and the hand on Mr. Youyu's cheek stretched out to the back of his neck, and then he pulled Mr. Youyu into his arms with a little force. At this time, Mr. Youyu snorted, but it seemed did not wake up.

Cicada hugged Mr. Youyu tighter, as if he wanted to use up all the hugs in his life. He kissed Mr. Youyu's soft, curly hair and face that was neglected because of laziness, and kissed tenderly. Watching everything about Mr. Youyu, let Mr. Youyu talk in his arms those dream words that made him feel uneasy and scared.

Cicada's eyelids were half raised, and the body temperature from Mr. Youyu in his arms was warm. Finally, Cicada's eyelids closed, and he hugged the sleeping Mr. Youyu and whispered: "I heard that a typhoon is coming next month. gone."