as if poisoned

No one gets used to being alone from the start

No one likes someone at first

who abandoned who

Who let go of whose hand

nothing is important anymore

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Now that I am on vacation, I have rested for two days and my body is gradually getting better. I have to say that young people have the capital to squander.When I'm doing nothing, what I want to do most is go home, I miss my mother, and I think that I didn't answer my mother's phone a few days ago... Well, it's a big bad.

Let's go back tomorrow, I thought so.The longer you procrastinate on some things, the less you want to do them, so you have to do them while you still want to do them, otherwise you will regret them later.The last thing I want to do is regret it.

In fact, when I agreed to Huang Shengjia, did I regret it, and did I regret it when I fell in love with him?

The answer is, no.After all, it is rare to have the experience that the other party also loves you once. It is actually enough to have that once in a lifetime, but people are greedy, as long as they have it once, they want a second time.

"Hello, mom?" Picked up the phone and dialed my mom's number, and got connected in a while.

"Hey, Xiao Zang."

Listening to my mother's tone is very happy, after all, without my burden, he is still quite relaxed, right?I thought so.

"Brother Ye said last time that you were looking for me, but I was taking an exam." I didn't want to tell this lie, but I didn't want to explain it, so I had to feel sorry for myself.

Many times, the reason for lying to yourself is that you don't want to hurt others, but you often hurt yourself.

"It's okay, you are busy with your studies." Look, that's it, the consequences of lying, accepting other people's care but it hurts more and more.

"I'll go back tomorrow."

"Huh? So fast?"

"I miss you." I said this with a smile.

Probably my mother sensed my tone and laughed too: "Really? Then don't be too tired."

I went out to buy necessities for the car ride tomorrow, and when I got home, I emptied out all my books, threw all my clothes in, and stuffed my underwear until it was full.

In fact, I only do this because I don’t want to think about anything. As long as I am free, I will miss someone very much.Ah, didn't I say that I don't want to think about it anymore, didn't I say that I want to let go.In fact, it's all fucking shit.

There was a click, the sound of a key unlocking the lock. Brother Ye is back?

I went out to have a look: "Brother Ye? Why are you back at this time?"

Brother Ye came over and smiled at me: "It's summer vacation, so I have to pack up early and go home."

"Eh? Brother Ye is coming home too?" I asked in surprise, I thought Brother Ye was a child studying in Qiao's family!

"What are you thinking about every day, kid." He rubbed my head fiercely, as if blaming my thoughts, but also felt a little joking.

I didn't answer, just kept smiling silly.Brother Ye also laughed, the two of us suddenly laughed heartlessly together, we didn't know what the reason was.

It's just that I suddenly want to laugh loudly, laugh happily, and vent.In fact, I don't understand it myself.

"Then what are you packing for?" I didn't close the door, Brother Ye probably saw the backpack and a box of bags in my room, so I thought so.I nodded in response.

"Didn't you say I'll accompany you back?" Brother Ye frowned.

I was surprised, I thought it was just words of comfort to me that day.With a surprised expression on his face, Brother Ye smiled when he saw this expression: "I used to have a time like you, no matter what, I wanted to be my own, and then I was estranged from my family, and then I was homesick, and I got closer to my family and went back home. , but there are always some pimples, at that time I wish I had such a person by my side

Although you may be different from me, I hope you regard me as your big brother or friend, let me put my regrets to rest! "

His tone was a little sad, I nodded: "Well, let's go buy another ticket."

He smiled and touched my head: "Good brother."

There is a strange feeling in my heart, how can I become a younger brother.

(That... suddenly thought that there are still some things to explain later, so I won't finish it first... don't hit me!!!!)