never far away

If Lin Wei didn't come, Lin An's life seemed to have lost its focus. He would work, eat, and sleep in a daze. He was in a foreign country, and when he received a call, the signal was not good, and he could not understand what the other party said. Lin An said a few words, but the other party suddenly lost his voice. call.

Ushering in the New Year amid anxiety, Li Sifei sincerely invited him to celebrate the New Year with him, or he could come to his side by himself, but Lin An politely declined.For the New Year's Eve dinner, he only made himself a plate of fried rice, and he put it in front of the computer, but he didn't have any appetite. This deserted neighborhood became lively during the Chinese New Year. The sound of firecrackers and fireworks was mixed with laughter, and the old woman next door turned on the TV very loud Loud, the enthusiastic voice of the host has been pierced into the ears.

Except for him, everything is beaming.

In the end, he put the plate of cold fried rice into his stomach, put the plate in the sink and washed it slowly, and went to the bathroom to take a shower. When he saw two toothbrushes in the cup on the sink, he still had some In a daze, I couldn't help reaching out to hold the toothbrush that belonged to Lin Wei. The smile I forced in the mirror was uglier than crying.

Awful.

And he still doesn't know why all this happened.

Lying on the bed, thinking about Lin Wei uncontrollably in his mind, Lin Wei occupied his whole body and mind, squeezing himself so that there was no room for him to survive.He began to think about when they first met, when they played basketball together, when they drank together, when they confessed, when they had sex/love... There are so many memories, but they can never be touched.

Worrying about gains and losses, staring at the dim light in the room, listening to the sound of the TV next door, the host was already telling the time, and only then did he realize that it was almost past twelve o'clock.

In ten seconds, this year will be over.

There was a sudden vibration under the pillow, and he thought it was an illusion at first, but when he found out that there was really an incoming call, he immediately sat up in shock.The word "Lin Wei" on it was particularly conspicuous. Lin An pressed the answer button, and a "Happy New Year" came from the other side.

The tears that I endured for a few days fell like this.

Fireworks and firecrackers blared from the TV outside, overshadowing what the other party said later. He resented why he couldn't help setting off firecrackers here, which affected his communication with the one he loved.After calming down, there was no sound on the other side. I looked at the phone and realized that the call had already been hung up. When I dialed again, it was a reminder that the other party had turned off.

For a short while, it was like dreaming.

He didn't have time to say "Happy New Year" to the other party.

The surroundings finally became quiet, he turned off the light and lay on the bed, a rabbit was lying behind him, a rabbit was held in his arms, he began to think about what Lin Wei said later.

He didn't hear a word of the latter sentence, which gave him the most room for fantasy. "Xiao An, have you eaten yet?" "I'm having fun here, I'll be back in a few days." "I miss you very much."

He used his greatest imagination to conceive what that sentence was, and in his imagination it was all good, joy and happiness, so he fell asleep with a smile on his face.The words in his sleep became clearer, he saw Lin Wei staring straight at him, with a cold expression he had never seen before, he opened his beautiful lips, but what he uttered was the cruelest words, "Let's break up. "

After waking up from the shock, he refused to fall asleep again, forced himself to continue thinking about Lin Wei, and thought about how many days before they could meet, and after the meeting, he must let him hug him hard, don't wear a condom, and all the semen/fluid should be internal/ejaculated, At that time, he will act like a baby and don't take a bath right away. He must keep his smell for a little longer, and a little longer.

The bottom became hard and swelled a bit uncomfortable, but he let it go, as if he had put his own desires in Lin Wei's domain, and no one could touch it except him, not even himself.

This year has been extremely difficult. A sentence of "Happy New Year" and a sentence that he didn't understand clearly made him feel like falling into a sea of ​​fire. Lin An stayed at home until the fifth day of the lunar new year. Pack yourself and go out.

Li Sifei was startled when he saw him, and carefully observed his expression, "What's wrong with you? Why did you lose a lot of weight?"

Lin An smiled and found an excuse, "The grandma and grandchildren from the house next door are all here, and I can't sleep well because of the noise."

Li Sifei looked at him sympathetically, which made Lin An feel guilty, and hurriedly said, "I'm leaving today, so there won't be any more quarrels."

The part-time job Li Sifei was looking for was distributing leaflets. The salary was not high, but it was relatively easy.The two stood on the pedestrian street with a thick stack of leaflets in their hands and began to distribute them. The music played in several stores was Andy Lau's "Gong Xi Fa Cai", which made the whole street exude a strong New Year flavor.

A rare luxury car was parked at the intersection. The black glass blocked the eyes looking inside, but the special design allowed people inside to see everything outside clearly.Lin Xian's sitting posture was very upright, with both hands flat on his knees, his face remained expressionless as before, but his eyes followed the young man's movement slowly.

Although I have seen the photos, it is a dead object after all, and I cannot see the flesh in it.When he saw the real person, he truly felt that he really had another son.In fact, Lin Hui's appearance has been blurred for a long time. People who only slept once can't be said to be intimate, let alone have any feelings. He only worked as a secretary by his side for a short year. After leaving, he had already forgotten this memory. Sealing it up is a lifelong shame.

At this time, I came to Lin An because I was thinking about Lin Wei's mood.He wasn't sure if the son brought out by Lin Hui was as utilitarian as she was, and he didn't know if Lin An knew who his father was. Will ask to enter the door of Lin's house.

He hoped that the best result would be for Lin An to take this not-so-small amount of money, and then go a little further away, so as not to have any relationship with the Lin family in the future.

Based on what Lin Hui did back then, he couldn't help guessing Lin An with the most vicious thoughts, and because of Lin Hui, he didn't have the slightest affection for this son.He even thought about the school Lin An studied and the major he chose, all in order to get close to Lin Wei, and then he planned to recognize his ancestors and return to his ancestors, so that he could rise to the top.

The lawyer in the passenger seat turned around, "Boss Lin, do you want me to go down and find him now?"

"Wait a minute."

The weather was very cold, and Lin An didn't wear thick clothes. Halfway through her hair, she felt that her hands were so cold that she almost lost consciousness, her nose was red, and she was gently sucking snot.Li Sifei distributed it faster than him. The leaflets in his hand had already run out, so he took half of them from him and went to the other side to distribute them.Soon both of them finished sending out, and Li Sifei came over, "Let's go get it again, and go back to eat after sending it out?"

Lin An nodded, and the two walked to the intersection. Lin An was taken aback when he saw the luxury car, and stopped walking.Li Sifei looked at him curiously, "Why don't you leave?"

The car window was lowered, and the eyes of the people inside met, Lin An tightened the corner of his clothes, "Sifei, you go first, I will find you later."

"Okay." Li Sifei waved to him and left in doubt.

The uncle driver I met last time got out of the car and opened the rear door for him, and asked Lin An to get in the car.Lin An hesitated for a moment, then shook his head, "No...no need." He saw a coffee shop next to him, "What's the matter, go there and talk."

The uncle driver looked at Lin Xian in embarrassment, Lin Xian didn't say anything, got out of the car, and followed Lin An's footsteps into the coffee shop.The three found a secluded corner to sit down, the waiter came to order, Lin An randomly ordered a drink, Lin Xian and the lawyer skillfully ordered.

When the coffee came to the table, the three of them hadn't started talking yet.Lin An stared at a certain point on the table, his eyes were empty, and his head hurt.The heating in the coffee shop was turned on so high that he started to sweat.

The lawyer pulled out a few documents from his briefcase and put them on the table. Lin An didn't flip through them. After thinking about it, he opened his mouth first, "What do you want from me?"

Lin Xian looked at the sweat on his face, "Did Lin Hui tell you everything?"

Lin An gave a soft "hmm".The lawyer said, "That would be much easier. We came to you this time to ask you to sign a document." He opened the document and placed it in front of Lin An, "As long as you sign, you can Get a lot of money, but Shengke and Lin's family will no longer have anything to do with you."

Lin An looked at the regulations on the paper, the amount was really huge for him, and he probably wouldn't be able to earn that much money even if he worked all his life.But those numbers are meaningless to him. They can't buy his past time, nor can he buy his future journey.He shook his head and looked straight at Lin Xian, "I won't sign it."

The lawyer asked, "Are you not satisfied with the amount? You can mention as much as you want, and we will try our best to satisfy you."

Lin An still looked at Lin Xian, and said to Lin Xian, "I have nothing to do with your Lin family. My surname is Lin because my mother's surname is Lin, not because of you."

He took out 100 yuan from his pocket and pressed it under the cup, "Please pay the bill when you leave." He thought for a while, raised his head and said to Lin Xian, "I don't want any money, and I won't use it to look for me in the future. I won't rely on your family. I saw you because my mother told me when she was dying, if there is a chance to see you, take a word for her." He stood up, his tone had calmed down, "I'm sorry !” After finishing speaking, he walked out without hesitation, without looking back.

The lawyer looked at his back in surprise, and asked his boss helplessly, "Boss Lin, what should we do?"

Lin Xian looked calm, "I will leave this matter to you in the future, and you can contact him regularly to ask his wishes." He took a sip of coffee, "I have seen too many tricks of playing hard to get, one day The fox tail will show."

The hand holding the cup suddenly exerted strength, and the blue veins on the back of the hand were exposed. Lin Xian showed a sneer, and his usual self-control seemed to be gradually collapsing, "Are you sorry? How can an apology be enough for ruining my family?"