never far away

Li Sifei waited at the part-time job for more than half an hour before he saw Lin An come in. His entire face was pale, without a trace of blood, and his eyes were dull.Li Sifei worried: "Is it uncomfortable? Do you want to go back and rest?"

Lin An shook his head and went to get a large stack of leaflets. The two walked to another commercial street as assigned and distributed them slowly.The posting was very slow this time, and it was finished at one o'clock.Cheap fast food restaurants were not open during the Chinese New Year, Li Sifei invited Lin An to eat at his home, Lin An rarely refused, and followed him quietly.

The place Li Sifei rented was a bit far away, it was a village in the city, and the two of them walked for almost an hour to arrive.He rented the seventh floor on the top floor. There is no elevator in the old-fashioned building. The two slowly climbed up. The smile on Li Sifei's face brightened, "Although the seventh floor is higher, the rent is 200 yuan cheaper than other floors. It is summer." It's hot, and it's cold in winter."

He is used to this kind of life. He is very happy that Lin An can come with him. He opened the door and showed Lin An around his house, "Two rooms and one living room, one room is for sleeping, and the other is for me to draw. .” He opened his studio, a small room full of drawing boards and drawing paper, and many completed works were pasted on the walls.Lin An lifted his spirits and looked carefully, and found that most of his paintings were landscape oil paintings, especially the sky in various states and colors.

Li Sifei rubbed his fingers shyly, "Do you think the painting is good?"

"I don't know oil painting, but I think it looks good."

"Really?" Li Sifei's eyes lit up, "My biggest dream is to become famous in the future and open my own art exhibition."

Lin An gave him an encouraging smile.Li Sifei poured hot tea for him to sit down, and went to prepare lunch by himself.Lunch consisted of two very simple stir-fries, neither good nor bad. Li Sifei had a small appetite and didn't eat much. Lin An was in a bad mood and ate little.After eating, one cleaned up the other and washed the dishes. Having nothing to do, Li Sifei took out all his previous works and showed Lin An one by one.

Lin Anqiang held on to finish reading, his head hurt more and more, as if a drill was vibrating inside, he expressed his discomfort, Li Sifei nervously went to the house to find medicine, "It must be a cold caused by the cold wind, after taking the medicine Let me rest here."

"No, I'll go back first, I won't go there in the afternoon."

Li Sifei took the pills and told him to take them, "Then I will take the salary and send it to you. By the way, the eighth day is Valentine's Day. I found a way to wholesale roses at a very low price. Then we will get together Go sell it? The income must be good."

Lin An took the medicine, and nodded upon hearing the words, "Is the principal to be paid in advance, right? How much? I'll withdraw the money and give it to you tomorrow."

"I can still afford this amount of money. You don't have to worry about it. Go back and have a good rest. If you feel uncomfortable, please call me."

Lin An agreed with a smile.

Li Sifei stared at him for a while, "You should send me your home address, I don't worry, I'm afraid you really have a cold and no one will take care of you, I'll go see you tomorrow."

Lin An took out his mobile phone and texted his home address to Li Sifei. Li Sifei was relieved and sent him downstairs.

It's not a bad feeling that someone cares, even if the headache is splitting, the heart is still a little warm.Lin An walked for a while, couldn't stand it anymore, took a taxi home, and after opening the door, he had no energy left, so he just took off his coat and lay down on the bed, and passed out.

I couldn't sleep well, my body was hot and cold, and my thoughts were chaotic. It seemed like I was back when I was a child. At that time, I lived with my mother in a bungalow in a small town with a small yard. When my mother went to work, she put the The courtyard door was locked, and he was allowed to play in the courtyard by himself.He has been very obedient since he was a child. He moved a small bench and sat under the eaves, listening to the sound of a group of children playing badminton outside. The ball was hit very high, and he could see it while sitting in the yard.The white shuttlecock flew around lightly like a small bird, sometimes the shuttlecock would be missed and flew into the yard, he would run over and throw the shuttlecock back.

After doing this a few times, the children outside knew that there was someone inside. Sometimes they would ask him to go out to play, but he didn’t dare to answer, and he didn’t dare to answer when they asked him. When he heard the sound of climbing the wall outside, he was frightened and hurried Run back to the house and hide.The little boy who climbed up the wall saw that there was no one inside, and the yard was deserted. He was a little afraid that there were ghosts here.

Later they changed places to play, and Lin An never saw the shuttlecocks flying around again.

But those white feathers have always existed in his memory, and he came out to scratch them from time to time, making him face up to his loneliness and loneliness.

When he was older, he understood that it was his own fault that he didn't catch those feathers.If he had responded, even worked up the courage to climb over the wall, he would have grabbed the shuttlecock by now.

Lin Weiyu was another more important badminton. He saw it and was determined to change himself, so he desperately pursued it.

He felt that he was successful, he held the shuttlecock in his hand and held it in his heart, and the shuttlecock also showed that he liked him very much. They used to be close, but suddenly they all changed, the shuttlecock flew away, and it seemed that they would never again return.

After waking up, he checked the time on his phone, and it was already eight o'clock in the evening. Li Sifei sent a text message to ask him about the situation, and Lin An replied "everything is fine".

Although the fever subsided, he didn't have much energy in his body. He went to the bathroom, took a shower, changed his pajamas, cooked another pot of porridge, managed to drink half a bowl, found a cold medicine and swallowed two tablets, and lay back on the bed again.

The night is long, the body is very tired, and the heart is also suffering.He dialed Lin Wei's number again, but there was still only a reminder to turn off the phone.He was already prepared for this outcome, anxiety and worry alternated alternately, and the night passed like this again.

The next day Li Sifei bought a bag of apples and came to the door. When he saw Lin An, he touched his forehead worriedly. Lin An laughed, "The fever has subsided."

"Did you really have a fever yesterday? I told you not to let you come back, but you still want to come back." Li Sifei pouted. He was handsome and had big eyes. He looked very cute with this expression, "There is no one at home. Waiting for you, there is nothing to be reluctant to do."

Lin An's expression froze, without rebuttal, he washed two apples and handed one to him.Li Sifei took a sip of it, and then took out yesterday's salary from his pocket, "If you get it today, half will be given to you, and half will be given to me."

"I only did it for half a day, so I can't get so much." Lin An took half and returned it.

"It's not much in total, so don't refuse." After Li Sifei became familiar with him, he let go of his words, "You can share more of the income from selling roses the day after tomorrow."

"no problem."

"I'm just kidding. I've ordered [-] roses. We went to the pedestrian street to display them that day. I asked, and they can be sold for ten yuan apiece. I only wholesaled them for five yuan, and the net profit was almost five yuan." Qian Yiduo." Li Sifei became excited, "The rent for the second half of the year is settled."

Lin An was suddenly curious, "Aren't you in financial difficulties? Why don't you live in a dormitory and rent a room by yourself?"

"I'm gay, it's inconvenient to live with a man." Li Sifei laughed, "And I like to have my own space."

Lin An was usually in good health, and soon recovered from his illness.In the evening of the next day, the two of them went to bring back the roses, carefully cut off the thorns on them, and wrapped them one by one with the wrapping paper they bought. After finishing their work, it was past twelve o'clock in the middle of the night. Li Sifei It was too far to go home, so Lin An let him stay overnight.Li Sifei blinked excitedly, and was still jumping for joy when lying on the bed.

Lin An took another quilt to cover him, Li Sifei suddenly hesitated, "I'd better go sleep on the sofa for a night, I'm gay, you sleep on the same bed with me, won't you feel uncomfortable?"

Even though he said that, he actually didn't have the slightest intention of going out to sleep.Lin An said gently: "It's okay, just sleep here, it's cold outside."

Li Sifei grinned, and quickly lay down under the quilt.

Lin An slept with strangers and couldn't fall asleep all the time. Later, he couldn't help thinking about Lin Wei. He didn't sleep for more than two hours until it was almost dawn.

After breakfast, the two of them took the roses and walked to the pedestrian street. There were already many rose stalls there, but they only found a corner to set them up. Neither of them was good at selling, so even if there were many buyers, they only sold them in the morning Dozens of flowers.

Li Sifei was a little discouraged, Lin An bought a few steamed buns and ate them together, and comforted him: "There are afternoons and evenings, and couples usually come shopping in the afternoon."

Sure enough, business was much better in the afternoon, and a boy even bought 99 flowers in one go, which gave Li Sifei confidence.As it got late, the pedestrian street was brightly lit, and there were more people, but the business was down again, because many little girls were selling flowers, and each of them was so sweet that the older brothers and sisters were too embarrassed to refuse.

After being ignored for an hour, Li Sifei drooped his head, "There are still more than 100 flowers, why no one asked, don't hit your hands."

"Relax, even if these can't be sold, we won't lose money, and we will still make money." Lin An comforted him gently, and he poured some water from the water bottle he carried and sprinkled it on the petals to make the petals look more delicate. .Suddenly a voice sounded above the head, "How do you sell the flowers?"

The movement of pouring water stagnated, Lin An raised his head suddenly, and the familiar person appeared in front of him, with a slender figure, wearing a long coat of good texture, with a smile on his face, and the sun was shining brightly.

Thousands of words wanted to rush out, but they rushed to get stuck together, unable to utter a single sound.Li Sifei didn't notice the difference between the two of them, and when he saw a business coming, he quickly replied, "Ten yuan a flower."

"I want it all."

"Ah?" Li Sifei was excited, "Then I'll count how many flowers are left, you wait for a while." He carefully counted the flowers one by one, but didn't notice the spark that appeared in the eyes of the two people looking at each other. "There are still 103 flowers in total. Let's count it as an integer. Just give 1000." He wrapped all the flowers in a large wrapping paper. Lin Wei took out ten hundred-yuan bills and handed them to Li Sifei. Big bouquet.

A handsome guy holding a large bouquet of roses in his arms stood out among the crowd. Many people looked sideways to see what the girl who wanted to collect roses looked like, but they couldn't find them.Lin Wei turned around holding the flowers and left. Lin An stared at his back, feeling cold and hot in his heart, and all kinds of feelings came to his heart.

Why not talk to yourself?

Why disappeared for so many days?

Why didn't you even make a phone call when you came back?

Who do you buy roses for?

Sure enough, the other sentence that day meant breaking up?

Did he get a new girlfriend?

……

He was annoyed again, he was like a fool, he only knew how to be in a daze and couldn't speak.Li Sifei shared half of the proceeds with Lin An, and said happily, "Lin An, let's find a restaurant and have a good meal?"

Lin An blankly put the money into his pocket, shook his head, stood up, and staggered forward, "Sorry, I'm going back first." He walked faster and faster, and finally started to run. Li Sifei Looking at his gaffe in surprise, he didn't have time to ask why.