never far away

There were not many people at the bus station near ten o'clock, but the weather was still a bit cold.Lin An tightened his clothes, his eyes were a little dry, but fortunately no tears came down.

Otherwise it's really ugly.

He tried very hard not to cry in the KTV, as if he was watching the sand on his fingertips flow away bit by bit, no matter how hard he held it, he couldn't keep it, feeling miserable and panicked.

The vehicle to take arrived soon, so he got on the vehicle and sat down at the back.The scenery outside the window receded frame by frame, and the bright lights seemed to illuminate the whole world.

Lin Wei drove behind the bus all the time, not because he couldn't catch up with Lin An, but because he wasn't allowed to get so close.The feeling of love did not decrease because of the increase of hatred, but it seemed to become more and more intense. I always thought of him in everything, and his figure was always in my sleep.

It's just that at the end of the dream, it always ends because of seeing the picture of my mother lying on the ground covered in blood, and all I can feel when I wake up is pain.

Mom was watching from the sky, how could she allow herself to be with the son of the man who killed her?

It will definitely not be allowed.

He told himself thousands of times that this was a dead end, that his future partner could be anyone, but it couldn't be Lin An.

But he only wanted Lin An.

Lin An got out of the car, and Lin Wei still followed, not too close or far away, the light from the headlights was just enough to illuminate Lin An's way forward.Lin An himself was worried and thinking, but he didn't notice anything unusual.When he got downstairs, he watched Lin An go upstairs, turned on the light, and didn't leave immediately. He sat in the car like an idiot, but kept his eyes on the familiar window.

I don't know how long it took, and the phone rang with the sound of a new text message.He opened it and looked, his fingers stiffened.

It was Lin An who sent it——has the show ended yet?Do you want to come over?

Before Lin Wei replied, she received another message, - I miss you very much.

Lin Wei could almost imagine how nervous and cautious Lin An was when he sent these two text messages. His left chest was congested and there was a slight pain, which seemed to have flowed into his blood.

They had half the same blood, did Lin An feel the same as him at this moment?

This time, Lin Wei didn't hesitate, followed his own mind, got out of the car and went upstairs.Lin An looked very surprised when the door opened, and a moment later his cheeks blushed and he threw himself into his arms with a smile.Lin Wei picked him up and sat down on the sofa, smelling the scent of shower gel on his body, "Have you taken a shower?"

"It's been washed."

Lin An looked into his eyes in disbelief, as if he didn't believe that he would really come, and his fingers were still tightly grasping the hem of his clothes.Lin Wei kissed his lips, "I thought you would be angry with me."

Lin An hugged his neck and kissed, "I believe in you." He didn't have the courage and was unwilling to let go, he could only trust with all his heart.Lin Wei loved his dependence so much, when he hugged him, it was as if the last piece of the puzzle had finally been placed in the most suitable position, perfect and without regret.

Crazy enthusiasm and love can suppress hatred and haze, and the pleasure of deceiving oneself is better than facing the cruel reality.Lin Wei pulled him for three times before stopping, and the two of them were so sleepy that they hugged each other and fell asleep.When he woke up the next day and saw the sunshine outside the window, the reality was like a basin of cold water pouring on his head fiercely, washing away all his fantasies, revealing the original gloom.

Repeatedly, unable to escape.

After that, this situation happened two or three times again, Lin An was almost numb, and could only keep hypnotizing himself. What I care about most is myself.

He has been a self-hypnotic child since he was a child. When he was a child, he didn't know who his father was. When his classmates made fun of him, he would think that he had a father. It's just that he went to a faraway place to make money, and he would buy gifts for himself every year. Will be back someday.When his mother locked him in the house, he would also think that he was just a little bird who didn't like to fly, and it wasn't that he couldn't fly out.

After that, he saw that Lin Wei had added many valuable things to his body, so he stopped asking, as if he didn't want to know at all.Then he usually works harder and does part-time jobs, as long as he can make money, he is willing to do any hard work. He saves the money and plans to buy a slightly better gift for Lin Wei when he is 20 years old.

With a goal in life, there is a direction to strive for, and there is not so much energy to think about things when you are busy.During this period, Attorney Wu called him several times, wanting him to sign to get the money, but he seriously refused each time.At one time, Lawyer Wu couldn't help persuading him, "Our President Lin just wants to use this money to buy peace of mind. You don't want to have anything to do with the Lin family anyway. Why don't you just sign and get a lot of money for nothing?" , I’m also good at dealing with business, right?”

Lin An said "Sorry" and hung up the phone.In fact, it was not uncomfortable in his heart. From the day he knew that he really had a father and found out how he got here by the way, he deleted the person "father" from his fantasy.But later, when I occasionally saw Lin Xian's name, I still felt a little strange in my heart. The excitement at the beginning when I saw the real person calmed down, and I felt extremely sad when I left at the end.

There was disgust for him in Lin Xian's eyes, he could see it.

As if seeing some stinky garbage, I wish I could hide far away.This is the emotion expressed in Lin Xian's eyes.

Lin An could see clearly.

Therefore, his money must not be taken. No matter how poor he is, he cannot sell his self-esteem.

Because of his part-time job, he has frequent contacts with Li Sifei again. Li Sifei always has a lot of contacts for part-time jobs. Every time he has a new job, he never forgets to bring Lin An with him. This day he called Lin An again, "This weekend XX The movie theater needs to recruit ticket inspectors, do you want to do it? There is 100 yuan for ten hours, and you can pay the bill on the same day."

"From what time to what time?"

"From ten o'clock in the morning to ten o'clock in the evening, there are two hours for eating in the middle."

"I'll think about it, and I'll call you back later." Lin An thought for a while, and then sent a text message to ask Lin Wei if he had any arrangements for that day.Lin Wei called him back directly to ask him what was the matter, Lin An told the truth, and Lin Wei asked him which movie theater he was in detail, and told him not to be too tired and remember to eat before hanging up the phone.

Being cared by someone you like is a very happy thing. When Lin An called Li Sifei back, his tone was lighter than usual. Li Sifei heard it and asked with a smile, "What's the good thing? You seem to be in a good mood."

"It's nothing." Lin An chatted with him a few words, and then went to class again.On the weekend, he arrived at the appointed place early, and the two changed their uniforms and started to work.Because there are popular new movies released, and it happens to be a weekend, there are more people.After checking tickets, they had to help with cleaning, and even the time for lunch was shortened to half an hour.There were more people in the afternoon, and they came in waves one after another, so when Lin An saw Lin Wei was among them, he couldn't recover from his daze.

Lin Wei called him, and his handsome face was full of smiles, "It just so happened that I was free, so I asked my classmates to watch a movie together." Besides Zhao Shu, the classmates he mentioned naturally included Huang Yuxuan, and several other seniors. pretty girl.Lin An's forehead was dripping with sweat, and he finally came back to his senses, and quickly continued the ticket checking work.

But it was as if his spirit had been emptied, and he repeated the same movements numbly for the rest of the time, with no expression on his face, and his complexion was terribly pale.

After all the audience had entered, he had a little free time. He couldn't help but went inside to look for Lin Wei. The movie theater was very dark and the sound effects were loud, which made his eardrums hurt a little.He stopped when he reached the stairs, and saw Lin Wei at the end of the ninth row. Zhao Shu was sitting next to him, and Huang Yuxuan was three seats away from him.

This made Lin An slightly relieved.

Lin Wei couldn't find Lin An's existence, so Lin An was able to look at him unscrupulously, the light and shadow projected on his face, showing his serious face, even his brows were frowning, completely different from his usual appearance .Lin An remembered that this was a comedy, and other audience members would laugh and lean forward after a while. I don't know why the person who usually smiles so much is so silent at this time, as if he is not watching a movie at all, but watching a movie. with something else.

Only now did he realize that he really couldn't understand Lin Wei.

But still like him very much.