never far away

On the second day after arriving in City A, Li Sifei started to go to work, and Lin An started to look for a job.It is not difficult for him to enter a large company as an engineer with his education and major, but the resumes he submitted were all small studios, and most of them were in the direction of interior design and decoration.Li Sifei expressed his confusion, but did not intervene too much.

Lin An quickly received several interview notices, and it was not suitable for him to change into more formal clothes, and the other party was more demanding.In the afternoon, he was going to a company called "Shuguang Design". When he entered the interview room, he was really surprised when he saw Zhao Shu.

Zhao Shu was not surprised. After all, he had Lin An's electronic resume in his computer. He said straight to the point, "Are you interested in helping me?"

Lin An did not refuse.

Even though he didn't want to have anything to do with Lin Wei anymore, he didn't forget that it was Zhao Shu who gave him the umbrella and sent him home when he was in such a desperate situation.

On the weekend after the work was finalized, Li Sifei took Lin An to look at the houses together. What he was looking for were all better apartment buildings, and the rent was scary.Lin An made a tactful expression, and Li Sifei frowned, "I'm about to vomit in that kind of small old building where I sleep on simple beds and don't even have an air conditioner. We already have a formal job, okay? After that, the rent in this kind of place can be afforded by one-third of our monthly income."

Lin An still felt that it was expensive, but he no longer objected.Li Sifei happily took him by the arm to look around, and finally chose a two-bedroom, one-living room with a large balcony and a bay window. The house also has furniture and electrical appliances. It looks very new, but the rent is more expensive than originally planned. one thousand.

Almost all their savings were used to pay the rent and deposit. The two of them cleaned up together. Lin An gave up the master bedroom to Li Sifei and moved into the second bedroom by himself.After finishing it, he went to the wholesale market alone to buy bowls, chopsticks, seasonings and daily necessities. When he came back, Li Sifei flipped through the things he bought, pouted and complained, "The design and color of the bowls are so old-fashioned, they don't match such a beautiful house. .”

Lin An comforted him, "I'll change it later. You go out and wait for a while, I'll make dinner and call you."

The days are passed in a dull manner, and Zhao Shu will spend several times more time and patience to guide him when he doesn't understand some things at work.This company is not big, it was started with some money sponsored by his family after graduation, there are a total of nine people who run business, design, and decoration, and the boss, Zhao Department, only has ten people.The working atmosphere is not bad. Even someone as silent as Lin An can get along well with them. What's more, everyone can see that the boss treats him differently and cares about him everywhere.

On this day, the company negotiated a big deal that had been going on for several months, everyone breathed a sigh of relief, and urged the boss to treat them.Zhao Shu is also generous to his employees, because they are similar in age and get along with them like friends. He booked a table in a better restaurant and happily made everyone stay drunk.

Lin An was a little embarrassed, Li Sifei was used to waiting for him to go back to cook, Zhao Shu looked over and raised his eyebrows, "No time?"

Lin An hesitated for a moment, "I'll make a call." He went into the pantry with his mobile phone and dialed Li Sifei's number. After a few rings, he was picked up, "An'an? What's the matter?"

"Sifei, the company has a dinner party tonight, I want to go back later, is that okay?"

Li Sifei's tone changed instantly, "Can you ask me? Didn't you decide to have a dinner together? Then why do you ask me? Hmph, last night you said you wanted to cook braised pork ribs for me."

"Sorry, it's also a temporary decision, and I can't refuse every time. Can I cook it for you tomorrow?"

The weary over there said, "That's it." He hung up the phone in an instant.

Listening to the busy tone, Lin An felt a little dazed, wondering why Li Sifei was so angry.Before he came back to his senses, a voice sounded behind him, "Is there something embarrassing?"

Seeing Zhao Shu, Lin An quickly shook his head, "It's nothing, I told my roommate about the dinner party, and he was a little upset."

Zhao Shu's eyes darkened, he endured a bit and asked, "Is it your boyfriend?"

"No."

Zhao Shu didn't know why he was relieved when he heard this answer.

Lin An put the phone back in his pocket and was about to go out when Zhao Shu suddenly said, "Ah Wei..."

Just hearing this name, Lin An's breathing stopped, and his footsteps also stopped.

Zhao Shu looked at him, "He's married and gave birth to a son." He observed Lin An's face, but no matter how he looked at it, there was still no expression on that face, not a single crack. "Today's full moon, just sent me a photo, very cute."

It was as if someone had punched my heart hard, and my internal organs felt pain, but nothing showed on my face, as if a fake mask had been put on.Lin An slowly showed a smile, and said softly, "That's really congratulations."

At the dinner table, Zhao Department paid attention to Lin An from time to time, hoping to find flaws in his face, but found nothing.He was originally quiet and didn't talk much, and he didn't eat much, but he was always listening to his colleagues' conversations, and he didn't seem to be distracted at all.He didn't drink alcohol either, he took small sips of orange juice, just like usual.

Zhao Shu didn't regret telling Lin An the news. Although he couldn't accept the fact that he seemed to like Lin An, he couldn't stop wanting to test Lin An's current attitude towards Lin Wei.

Secretary Dandan saw his strangeness, and leaned into his ear to encourage him, "Brother Zhao, if you like it, go for it, what do you look like?"

Zhao Shu was so scared that he almost hiccupped, "What do you like?"

"Don't you like Lin An? Confession, I support you."

"How did you know that I like Lin An?"

"Anyone who is not blind can see it." Dandan drank two glasses of red wine, and became bolder, "Don't worry, there are many such things now, it's normal, and no one will discriminate against you."

"Why don't I know that it's normal for men to like men now? Take your wild imagination and use it in your work." Zhao Shu took a big sip of wine to suppress his shock, and suddenly felt that he cared so much about Lin An , that was when Tang Xinti broke up.He was normal before, but he kept thinking about the possibility of "he likes Lin An", and after thinking about it, he became more and more concerned.

It seems that it is true that you should find a girlfriend to divert your attention.

After dinner, everyone clamored to sing again, but Lin An declined and went home first.He took out the key and opened the door, the room was dark, he called "Sifei", but no one answered.After turning on the light, Li Sifei was found lying on the sofa with a pillow in his arms, staring at him with red eyes.

Lin An changed his shoes, walked over and touched his forehead, "What's wrong? Are you sick? Have you eaten yet?"

Li Sifei avoided his palm, tears rolled down, and shouted: "Don't touch me, don't care if I die of illness or starvation? Anyway, you have other people to eat with, and you don't care about me!"

"I'm going to cook for you now." Lin An entered the kitchen without hesitation, and Li Sifei shouted behind him, "I won't eat it even if you cook it!"

He took out the ribs to thaw, steamed the rice, and prepared the ingredients. During this time, Li Sifei walked up and down the living room, murmuring and losing his temper.Lin An wasn't annoyed either, he was only thankful that there was another person there when he came back, and the other person talked to him to divert his attention, even if it was scolding him and throwing a tantrum at him, it was fine.

Otherwise, he couldn't guarantee that he wouldn't cry.

The heartache after hearing the news suddenly has been suppressed, and my heart has become numb again.He stared at the heat in the pot, and still thought of the words Lin Wei, marriage, and son in his mind. He also felt that it was very good. What he couldn't give him, others could give him.

I had always hoped that he would not be sad, and now he should not be sad anymore.

That's fine.

The pork ribs and rice were brought to the coffee table in front of Li Sifei. Li Sifei shook his bare feet, with tears still on his cheeks, and said stubbornly, "I won't eat! Don't make it difficult for you to cook for me every day! If you are bored, you can tell me directly, there is no need to make excuses. "

"I'm not unwilling. Today is really a company dinner." Lin An put the chopsticks away for him, with a calm and patient tone.

"Then you can refuse? Why don't you refuse?"

"I've said no several times."

Li Sifei sneered, "It's hard for you to choose, so you just let me go?"

Lin looked at him quietly, "Sorry, I won't do it next time." He softened his voice, "Eat quickly, you won't get a stomachache from hunger later."

Li Sifei let out a "hum", finally calmed down, picked up his chopsticks and began to eat happily.Before going to bed, he came to Lin An's room again, lowered his head and apologized pitifully, "An'an, I'm sorry, I'm not in a good mood today, so I made trouble for no reason."

Lin An put down the book in his hand and smiled slightly, "It's okay, I don't blame you."

Li Sifei's eyes lit up, "Really?"

Lin An nodded.

"I'm so afraid you're blaming me. I couldn't sleep just thinking about it. An An, you're so nice." Li Sifei complained about work again, saying that his boss and colleagues were not easy to get along with, fierce and contemptuous of others, and his career was not good. Shun, manuscripts are always returned.After Lin An comforted him softly for a while, Li Sifei regained his joy, said good night to him, and went to sleep next door.

Turning off the light and lying on the bed, Lin An hugged the rabbit in his arms. It was so quiet that he could hear his own heartbeat, which was steady and powerful.

It turns out that anyone who loses can live, and the hurdle that was once thought to be impossible to cross has been easily passed.The persistent love and hate will also be washed away in time and become numb.

Touching the plush on the rabbit, he sucked it vigorously, except for his own smell, there was no trace of Lin Wei's smell.

He already knew it, didn't he?

There are many things, even if you try your best, you can't save them.

He turned on his phone, found an old photo in the deepest part of the album, looked at it for a long time, and then deleted the last photo of him and Lin Wei.Turning off the phone, I thought sadly before falling asleep that it was finally time to throw this rabbit away.