never far away

Lin An watched Lin Wei go to the bathroom, waited for a few minutes, couldn't sit still, and left the box with the excuse that he needed to go to the bathroom.

This is the second floor, and the environment is not as noisy as the first floor. The box door is closed and it is relatively quiet. He walked to the bathroom door, hesitated for a moment, and opened the door and walked in.

Lin Wei happened to be washing his hands. He applied hand sanitizer on his long and slender fingers, and rinsed them carefully. He avoided the watch very well, and did not let the water splash on the dial after washing for a long time.

Lin An stared at the piece of blue on the dial, and the second hand turned round and round along the track. Lin Wei pulled a tissue to wipe off the water on his hands, and looked at him in the mirror, "What do you want to ask?"

Lin An froze for a moment, and blurted out the question that had been in his heart for a long time, "Why are you wearing it?"

Lin Wei glanced at the watch, his eyes were calm, "It was given by someone I like, so I am willing to wear it."

Lin An finally broke down, his expression was no longer calm, his lips were trembling, "The person I like? Awei...why do you still say that now? Sister Xi and Tuantuan are outside..." He bit his lip fiercely, eyes circled Red uncontrollably.How many times he had expected "like" in his dream, but he absolutely couldn't say it in this situation.

He is obviously married and has a child, why does he still say that?

Lin Wei closed her eyes, her tone was still calm, "Today was an accident." He turned around and faced him.There was still one meter between the two of them, no one was approaching, but their eyes were glued together, the strong emotions couldn't be concealed at all, and they exploded naked.Lin An opened his mouth, weakly, "Don't do this..."

He can bear the life of being alone, and it doesn't matter if all his feelings are locked in his memories.But absolutely not to destroy anyone's family, this is his bottom line.

Because of his lifetime relationship, he sticks to this bottom line, even the opponent's Lin Wei can't break it.

Lin Wei gave a "hmm" as if understanding, opened the door and walked out without saying anything.

Lin An stood blankly in the bathroom for a long time, until someone else came in, and then came back to his senses.Back in the private room, everyone had almost finished eating. Li Sifei saw him and asked worriedly: "What's wrong? Are you uncomfortable? Are you so pale?"

Lin An forced a smile, "It's okay."

When I got home, I closed the curtains, lay down on the bed, covered my head with the quilt, and let the boundless darkness invade me.He now desperately wants to drive all his thoughts out of his mind, but even so, he can't ignore the joy that arose in his heart the moment he heard "like".

Lin Wei still likes him.

He was happy about it, but hated himself for being so happy.

He was very scared, and he desperately thought about his mother's tragic life, trying to learn from it.But the joy couldn't be driven away at all, even a little devil said to him, accept it, as long as you want, you can still have a part of Awei.

Guilt kept him awake at night, he was afraid of becoming like his mother, and deliberately hurt other innocent people for a little satisfaction, and he felt that he was born by his mother, so he would definitely become like that.He thought of Liu Xi and Tuantuan, and for a moment Liu Xi seemed to be looking at him full of resentment, and Tuantuan no longer got close to him, and his face was full of disgust.

The imagining made him feel uncomfortable, and he was sweating all over his body, but even though he was in such pain, he still couldn't get rid of the word "like".

Because he longed for Lin Wei so much.

During this time he began to keep himself busy.When I go to work, I desperately focus on the plan and design, and after get off work, I find things for myself to divert my attention.For this reason, he began to read long novels on cultivating immortals, learned to play online games that were said to be addictive on the forum, and even cooked super time-consuming and labor-intensive meals for dinner, but usually he would be thrown away after a few mouthfuls, because he had no food at all. appetite.

He also tried drinking, but after he got half drunk and dreamed of having sex with Lin Wei all night, he never dared to touch alcohol again.

This kind of life is extremely painful, and if you don't pay attention to the hidden things, they will come out. He even began to wonder if this is what Lin Wei said on purpose to torture him. Such assumptions made him feel even more uncomfortable.

In the middle, Liu Xi called twice to say that Tuantuan wanted to talk to him. Lin An kept shaking his hands on the phone. He hated himself for thinking about other people's husbands and fathers. When he heard Tuantuan's soft and cute voice, Guilt weighed on him like a mountain.

He didn't know what he said, hung up the phone in a daze, and then forced himself to continue reading the novel that he had read halfway through but couldn't remember the previous plot.

So at the end of the new year, Mrs. Lin called several times a day to ask him to go to the main house for a New Year's Eve dinner. Later, Mrs. Lin also called, and Tuantuan also called. He couldn't refuse, so he had to bring a gift and came to the door.

The New Year's Eve dinner was quite pleasant. The whole Lin family came and gathered together in a lively manner. He was quiet and inconspicuous.Moreover, Lin Wei is now the central figure of the Lin family, and there are many people around him, so he can't pay attention to Lin An, which makes Lin An breathe a sigh of relief.

It's just that when facing Tuantuan's softly called "Uncle", he still feels guilty in his heart. He can only be more gentle and nice to him. Mrs. Lin asked him to stay overnight, but he still hesitated.

Tuantuan hugged his neck, looked at him with blinking eyes, "Don't go, uncle, Tuantuan wants to sleep with you at night."

Lin An stayed like this.

Fortunately, the Lin family was big, and the room he was assigned was on the fourth floor. As far as he knew, Lin Wei's bedroom was on the second floor.

There was a bathroom in the room. Someone had already prepared pajamas and toiletries. Lin An helped Tuantuan take a bath first, and then he did a quick wash himself. When he got out of the bathroom, he saw Tuantuan holding a storybook and looking at him excitedly. , "Uncle help me read."

"Where did you get the book?" Lin An was a little surprised, there was no book in the room just now.

"Father brought it." Tuantuan leaned over, "Uncle read it."

Lin An's heart skipped a beat, he forced himself to concentrate, opened the storybook, and began to read.Tuantuan listened carefully, reluctant to blink his eyes. When he heard the highlights, he also became nervous along with the characters in the story.

After reading, Lin An turned off the headlights, leaving only a bedside lamp, helped Tuan Tuan cover the quilt, and patted him gently to coax him to sleep.After seeing him close his eyes, he also lay down, but he couldn't fall asleep.

After an unknown amount of time, he suddenly heard Tuantuan sobbing softly. He was taken aback, got up quickly, and asked softly, "Tuantuan, why are you crying?"

In the dim light, you could see Tuantuan crying. Tuantuan shook his head and wiped his tears with the back of his hand, "Uncle, I'm sorry...I miss Dad..."

It was only then that Lin An realized that he said that he wanted to sleep with him because he thought it was fun for a child, but at night he still missed the familiar smell, so he smiled, "Then I'll take you to find Dad."

"Really?" Tuan Tuan stopped crying.

"Of course it's true." Turning on the headlights, Lin An put on his coat, wrapped him in a thick fleece blanket, carried him downstairs, and whispered in his ear, "Uncle, I'm sorry."

"It's okay." Lin An comforted him softly.

City A doesn't have the habit of keeping the year old. In the early hours of the morning, everyone has gone to bed, so the building is very quiet, and only lights are left in the corridor.Lin An hesitated for a moment, but still gently knocked on Lin Wei's bedroom door, the door was opened after waiting for a while, Lin Wei stood there in thin pajamas, saw Tuantuan, raised his eyebrows, "I know you won't get used to it."

Tuantuan stretched out his hand to hug him, Lin Wei took him over, and whispered to Lin An, "I'm sorry to trouble you."

"It's okay..." His heart was beating uncontrollably again, he avoided looking at Lin Wei, and glanced casually to the side.Under the bright light, the whole room can be seen at a glance, but there is no figure of Liu Xi.

Lin An knew that Liu Xi was not leaving tonight, but she didn't know why she didn't sleep in this room.

Maybe go to the bathroom.

He found a reason to tell himself, then hurriedly left and ran back to his room on the fourth floor.

On the first day of the new year, he insisted on leaving. Not long after returning home, Li Sifei brought a lot of things to visit the New Year, including the cat. His reason was, "It's too cold here, let me spend a few days Let’s heat it up, I’ll just sleep on the sofa.”

Naturally, Lin An would not refuse. For him now, it would be good for him to have one more person to disperse his energy.Li Sifei's behavior has changed a lot now. He not only helps with housework, but also saves a lot on shopping. He watches Lin An play games and pesters him to play with him.In his spare time, he took a brush and drew two portraits of Guigui, specially framed one and gave one to Lin An, and another to Tuantuan.

Tuantuan loved the gift very much, and got a little closer to Li Sifei.On the eighth day of the eighth day, Lin An started to go to work, and Li Sifei's training class hadn't arrived yet, so he continued to live at his house, and usually prepared meals when Lin An got off work, and then waited for him to eat together.This day he jokingly said: "An'an, I tried to find a circle but couldn't find a suitable person. It seems that you don't mean to talk about a girlfriend. Let's get together, shall we?"

Lin An froze for a moment, he didn't expect him to bring up this topic, "Sifei, I can't do it..."

Li Sifei's expression drooped in an instant, "Oh, it seems that it's really hard to break a straight guy."

Lin An didn't intend to explain, and thought it would be good to let him misunderstand like this.But what happened later made him regret this decision.