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I think those loves that have tried their best to keep are just using the guise of love to escape the numb loneliness. Strength, win back endless numbness.It turns out that the sad thing is not not to love, but whether to love.I can't even remember myself.

Effortlessly hiding in various pleasantries, drank several cups of wine alone, until Li Jinghao asked everyone to respect youth, curled his lips and secretly speculated:

"Who cares?" Picking up the wine glass, he drank it while everyone was still polite, and then sat down.It seemed rusty and ridiculous.The feeling that everyone is happy and only you are depressed is given to yourself.

Looking across the table, that person had a smile on his face and his gestures seemed to be shining.It seemed so dazzling at this time.

"Excuse me, everyone, I'm going to the bathroom." While pushing away the wine glasses handed over from around, the man reached out and took out the phone from his coat pocket. The screen was on, and he glanced at it.

Seeing that person walking out in a hurry, he didn't know what was wrong with him, as if his feet had been out of his rational control.What can make Pei Ji, a well-known organ specialist in Shanghai, do such a thing as following.I'm afraid there is only that man named Lu Zhongyi in this world.

"Understood, I will drink less, don't you know my self-control? Go to bed earlier, remember to take stomach medicine before going to bed." His face was slightly red, his tie was loose, and he leaned his head drunkenly On the wall at the bathroom door, his speech and demeanor seemed a little alcoholic.

Pei Ji stood in the corner and watched him.

This person is still as considerate as before, and he is always thinking of others in a daze.I still remember that at that time, I was self-willed and mischievous, and being unkind to others was not good for myself.He often forgot to eat while playing games, and that person called to remind him over and over again. He got bored when he talked too much, and he often spoke bad words to him, but he would still give himself that undiminished love.There are always biscuits in the refrigerator in the apartment that he baked after working overtime and staying up all night, and there will always be takeaways from the Sichuan restaurant in Xuhui District when the time comes.

But... now all of this doesn't belong to me.I won't hear his ramblings anymore, and even the right to be bored has been completely lost.I always wanted to say to him when I saw him for the first time: "Actually, the biscuits you bake are really delicious, really, those are the most delicious things I have ever eaten."

It was over, and the man didn't seem to see him from the beginning to the end. Pei Ji watched the man's leaving back, feeling unprecedentedly depressed.He didn't dare to catch up and tell that determined man that he still loved him.In the end, he was the only one left there, facing the farewell after the excitement. The atmosphere repeatedly hit his emotional defense line. There was a card on the seat, and Pei Ji walked slowly over to "Sydney Tree Theme Hotel No. 102." When did that man become so edgy, smiling in his heart, and the corners of his mouth curled up.

Huaishan Road

After the taxi circled around and brought the drunk and unconscious Li Jinghao home safely, Lu Zhongyi finally returned to the hotel, but he couldn't find the room card.

Recalling the scene when I went out, my vague memory can't recall any useful details at all.

"Damn, really memorized." He muttered to himself.

With a disheveled face, Lu Zhongyi inserted the temporarily reissued room card into the keyhole, and swiftly opened the door.

There was no time to change the shoes, so I walked directly into the bedroom, ready to get the relevant documents and go to the service desk in the lobby to register.As soon as I turned on the light, I was terrified by the scene inside.The one who greeted him in the lighted room was the man who was sitting on the edge of his bed with a smile on his face.

He almost thought it was some criminal, looking at Pei Ji with a calm face, Lu Zhongyi was surprised and embarrassed, "What's going on with you!?"

"Hey, the front desk of the hotel is really efficient..." To be able to get a new room card so quickly.The person sitting on the bed was obviously disappointed, but he still squinted his eyes and smiled at Lu Zhongyi.When he smiles, you can see his teeth showing slightly.Among all the expressions, only this one looks innocently like a child.

There is no need to ask questions like "Why are you here?" Lu Zhongyi heard the man continue to talk about innocuous topics: "I said, your room is quite clean... just like I thought." Just like you The old white shirt, no matter how old it was, was always clean.

Lu Zhongyi glanced at him, "If you came here to give me the room card, then thank you, just put it on the bedside table."

"Oh, that's right," Pei Ji took out the hard card from his pocket, "I almost forgot, I'm here to give you the card. But since you've already got a new door card, This one shouldn’t be needed, right?” Then leave it to me.Pei Ji curled his mouth and put Lu Zhongyi's room card back into his pocket.

"Have you ever been to the new Xuhui District?" Seeing Lu Zhongyi leaning against the wall without making a sound, Pei Ji completely ignored the owner's order to "walk slowly and not see you off", and continued, "I didn't intend to go there once a few weeks ago. , all renovated! There used to be a lot of old shops that we used to visit when we were students, but now they have all moved.”

But these words seem to have caught the man's attention.Lu Zhongyi raised his eyes, looking at what Pei Ji wanted to say.

"I still remember that the pumpkin pie and Dongpo meat at the entrance of the alley in Xuhui District were the most famous at that time. Now those old shops have moved away. Talking about maintaining the city appearance and rebuilding a harmonious city is really boring."

"Where did you move?"

Pei Ji's eyes lit up slyly, without even thinking about it, "I don't know about the pumpkin pancakes, I heard that the Dongpo Pork shop has moved to Yinghui Road!"

"……Is it."

At that time, he also thought that he could easily see through a person, but he didn't know that a person's heart is wrapped in layers.Every time I thought I had touched the inner core, it was actually far away from the ground.He is not a patient person, he only wants to drive straight ahead, if he is stung or hurt... then back off, wait for the injury to heal, and start over again.What are you afraid of, he has nothing to lose.

Perhaps, because of the man's seemingly nonchalant answer, Pei Ji felt bored, so he looked at the watch on his wrist.Twelve past five.

A few hours ago, the VIP of the Sino-British Affiliated Hospital arranged a shift and asked him to come to the hospital at 08:30 tomorrow morning to prepare for a patient's operation.The patient's family also called to check with him to confirm the operation time.

Pei Ji got up and straightened his clothes, "Goodbye" The man just nodded his head slightly, Pei Ji curled his lips, thinking: What will happen if I say goodbye, I'm afraid that I will pester you again so I don't give you any hope? It's cruel.I laughed at myself.

Downstairs in the hotel, Pei Ji weighed the pocket of his trousers, which contained a hard magnetic card.

Oh, it's really cheap.

Spending more than two hours waiting for an inexplicable person should really be taken as a joke.

Pei Ji angrily threw the key card on the side of the road, reached out and opened the door, and got into the car.Start the engine, and before the handbrake is fully released, you hear the sound of the accelerator pedal being stepped on.After the handbrake was fully released, the car immediately drove out at an unusual speed.

After driving less than 300 meters, the car made an emergency stop and pulled back to the side of the road.The sharp sound of the tires scratching the eardrums.The car door was opened from the inside, and then someone rushed out of the car, and the leather shoes kept hitting the ground.Pei Ji walked in the direction where he was standing just now, trotted a few steps in the end, bent down to pick up something and put it in his pocket before returning to the car.

Maybe, it will be useful.

Thinking this way, Pei Ji turned the car around.

At this time, a figure of a person stood in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows of the hotel suite, and white smoke curled up, blurring some of his side lids.Lu Zhongyi stood calmly and steadily, as if time was stuck in an instant, and the twisted and restrained cheeks seemed to be unable to hang on the moment Pei Ji left.He vaguely remembered the failure to make decisions when he was young, and he finally realized that the harm was not only himself as he imagined.

"I'm not qualified to stay, right. You go, Lu Zhongyi, don't look back."

"Give me a chance and tolerate me once, can't you?" Pei Ji's words at that time, after seven years, still made him unable to let go of the superficial meaning and speculate wildly.

There is always someone who is the heart disease in your peaceful life.You don't dare to touch and don't want to mention it, suppress your thoughts and pretend to be strangers, it's not that you don't care, but you understand that this person makes the power infinite is too fierce, once a certain balance point collapses, a peaceful life will no longer exist, you know you can't lose So I pretended to be indifferent, tried my best to restrain myself, and chose not to participate.