shame

Spring is passing by in a hurry, summer is still noisy, and the dormitory is filled with the smell of sweat and popsicles.It was hot and dry, the ceiling fan above the head kept turning, and the white vest hanging on the window sill fluttered in the wind.Xia He hung up the wrung-out shirt and stroked the hair on his forehead, which smelled of washing powder all over his hands.

The roommate crossed his legs and sat in front of the computer to play games, with the leftover melon seed shells in hand.He glanced at Xia He who was standing on the balcony blowing the wind, and joked: "You are really diligent, doing laundry at noon."

Xia He turned around and said back, "I'm going out for a while, I'm afraid I won't have time at night."

"Going out on a date again"

The roommate showed a look of contempt and envy. After a year of getting along, he knew that there were people outside Xiahe, but he had never seen the true face of Lushan.

Xia He didn't mention it either. Everyone knew that he had a good buddy who came and went without a trace, but they didn't know the meaning of crossing the line of a good buddy.

"About what will... go to visit the sick."

Xia He smiled.

The roommate turned around and said: "Oh, you are going to see Xiangfeng. Say hello for me and wish him a speedy recovery."

After finishing speaking, he turned his head and glanced at the computer screen, lowered his face and shouted: "I'm going, I lost!"

I only heard a piece of gameover music, and my roommate moved the mouse to start the game again.

Xia He changed into a pair of trousers, put on canvas shoes, tied up the laces, stood up, patted his roommate's arm, and said, "Let's go first!"

Then walk out the door.When I got down the stairs, I touched my trouser pocket and found that I forgot my mobile phone, so I turned around and went back to get it.

This time, the phone rang as soon as he got it in his hand. He waved to his roommate again, then picked up the phone and walked out the door.

"Hey!"

"Xiahe!"

The other party was Gu Sheng, with a slightly deep voice, but it could be heard that he was in a good mood.

Two months ago, Gu Sheng left the police academy and went to Hebei with others. It is said that he did an investigation to get a firm foothold for the future enterprise.He came back and went abroad again, and he should be abroad now, because he hadn't contacted Xia He for many days.

He said: "I forgot to ask someone to help me turn on international roaming before I left the country. Now my phone is a hammer and I can't make calls. I just fixed it today."

Xia He walked along the shade of the tree while listening to his voice from the phone.

"When are you going home?" he asked.

"It's estimated to be in two days. It's pretty good here. I really want to walk with you on the banks of the Seine."

Gu Sheng deliberately lowered his voice to make his tone seem a bit ambiguous.

"Xiahe, do you miss me?"

Xia He smiled, hesitated for a while before saying: "Sometimes I think about it."

"at what time"

He waited for the joyful classmates beside him to pass by, and then said: "In the evening..."

"I don't want to during the day"

"Think about other things during the day!"

"other people"

"Other things……"

Xia He lowered his eyelashes, he really missed the other party in his heart, and he would keep thinking about him if he didn't see each other for a day.But recently there have been many complicated things, which can just offset this mentality.

Gu Sheng said, "I've always missed you."

His affectionate words made Xia He feel a little presumptuous, unable to tell what was going on, hesitated for a while, and replied: "I will wait for you to come back."

"Hurry up, it will only take a week after the handover here is over."

"Well, I still have something to do, call me at night."

"it is good."

After finishing speaking, Gu Sheng hung up the phone.

The summer wind is gentle, like a gentle palm, caressing his face with the rich breath of trees.

He took the bus, looking out the window at the various streams of people and vehicles flowing in the sun, with earphones in his ears, Sony style, which was a gift from Gu Sheng before.

Xiang Feng told him that he had an operation this afternoon and asked him to come and see him. He spoke in a very pleasant tone, but he sounded inexplicably sad.

Xia He nodded and agreed at that moment, and it happened that there was no class, and even if the arrangement was full, he would be obliged to go there.After all, he was Xiang Feng, and he was someone who took himself seriously.Unlike Zhou Yu, he always feels that Xiang Feng is easy to get close to, and there is a natural bridge between hearts.

It's not like Gu Sheng, Xia He didn't have the slightest feeling of impulsiveness towards Xiang Feng, he just felt that he was very nice and bright and handsome.It stands to reason that anyone can be tempted, but Xia He is not. I am afraid that the heartbeat and liking, admiration and desire, the impulse and patience early in the morning have all been left to Gu Sheng alone.

When we arrived at the hospital, the doctors and nurses in the corridor hurried and walked quickly.The surrounding walls are pale, and the air is filled with the smell of disinfectant.He found the ward where Xiang Feng was, leaned on the door frame and poked his head in, and saw Xiang Feng obediently lying on the bed, looking out the window, not paying attention to his arrival.

He raised his hand and knocked on the door twice, drawing Xiang Feng's attention.Then he stepped in and asked, "What are you thinking about so preoccupied?"

Xiang Feng went back and forth to the hospital no less than ten times in the past six months, and his face was haggard after taking only medicine.His figure is thinner, his lips are also a little cracked, and overall his condition is not particularly good.

Seeing Xia He approaching, he opened his mouth and smiled: "You are really here!"

"Or else"

Xia He looked around and asked, "Where are your family members?"

"Go and pay me."

Xiang Feng glanced at the chair beside the bed and said to him, "Sit for a while."

Xia He went over and sat down, looked at him, and smiled pretending to be relaxed: "You really don't look like the you I just met."

Xiang Feng also laughed, and teased himself: "It will be even uglier in two days, really, I'm afraid my hair will fall out by then."

"Think about it, pretty cool."

Xiang Feng: "I bought several hats early in the morning and plan to wear them in turn."

Xia He: "I'll give you another one."

After the hard work, the sound of carts passing by in the corridor outside the door.Xiang Feng moved his eyes to Xia He's face, and said suddenly: "You know, I'm very happy that you can come."

His tone suddenly changed, which surprised Xia He, and the smile on his face froze.Suddenly remembering last summer, every time Gu Sheng came to find him, the same words would come out of his heart.

"Xiahe, I'm afraid I won't be able to see you again this time."

Xia He reorganized his mentality and replied: "Don't talk nonsense, I will definitely recover after this time."

"Oh, don't you know that this disease cannot be cured."

"You're not like those people, and you'll be fine."

Xia He put all his energy into it, never comforting anyone so earnestly in his life.Xiang Feng looks calm on the surface, but for some reason, he always shows a soft and unknown side in front of him.

What's more, Xia He had already guessed the sudden words just now.

Maybe he had felt it a long time ago, but he just pretended not to care.

At this time, the door was pushed open, and a fat woman walked in.

Xiang Feng hurriedly introduced, "My mother..."

Xia He stood up and said hello.

Mother Xiang is very gentle. Although she tried her best to show enthusiasm, the gloom on her face was still hard to dispel.

"Thank you for coming to my house, Xiangfeng," she said.

"It's okay, Auntie, Xiang Feng and I are usually fine, why don't you come and see him now..."

"He's going to have an operation later, if you're okay, can you wait for him outside?"

Mother Xiang knew that even though he was guarding Xiangfeng, he had fallen from a hot-blooded boy to bedridden after all.I have seen too many pale and weak pictures, and I always have to meet people who are as similar as myself, so that there will be hope for life in my heart.

What's more, she had heard of the name Xia He from Xiang Fengzui.

"Don't worry, I won't leave."

This sentence seemed to be speaking to a woman, but it pierced into the heart of the wind, like a gentle warm current.

Half a quarter of an hour later, Xiang Feng entered the operating room. Before leaving, he took a deep look at Xia He and smiled, like the sun covered by clouds.