shame

"you're awake"

Xia He was sitting by the bed, holding a book in his hand, looking up at the bewildered eyes that were slowly opening on the hospital bed.He opened the corner of his mouth abruptly and smiled: "Are you still there?"

The voice was haggard and hoarse, as if it had been squeezed out of the throat.

"You have been sleeping for three days, I just came here."

Xia He said: "Yesterday your classmates also came, and they left after seeing that you were sleeping deeply, and I can't bear to disturb you."

"I'm afraid I think I won't survive"

Xiang Feng pretended to be relaxed and cheerful.

"I know nonsense."

Xia He stared at him reproachfully, then put down the book and stood up.

When he was about to turn around, Xiang Feng suddenly became a little nervous and said, "Where are you going?"

"Go tell your mother that you're awake."

"Oh……"

After a pause, Xiang Feng still said: "Can you wait, I want to stay with you for a while."

Xia He froze for a moment, then opened his mouth and said: "I think your mother is also very anxious, hoping that you wake up, so go tell him first."

"No, Xia He, I have something to tell you."

In an instant, looking at the flushed eyes of the other party, Xia He seemed to understand what he was going to say, moved his Adam's apple, but still refused. "I... I'd better call your mother first..."

Then turned around and hurried out the door.When he walked to the corridor, his heart felt sour, and he seemed to be able to see the pair of extremely disappointed eyes behind him.But now that he has turned around and the matter has come to this point, he can only proceed in accordance with the rules.

That day, Xiangfeng's family came one after another. Xia He followed the crowd and took a look, then left and returned to school.

He was walking on the street, looking a little deserted, and really wanted to call Gu Sheng.So I dialed the number and looked forward to it. I haven't been so obsessed with seeing him for a long time.His heart was pounding, as if he had dialed his number for the first time.

"Hey"

Listen to the voice, the other party is a girl.

Xia He was taken aback, and hurriedly said: "Well, you are"

"Are you looking for Gu Sheng?"

"Yes, is he there?"

The other party said: "I'm sorry, he hasn't come back yet after going out. I'll ask him to call you back when he comes back."

"it is good……"

After a while, Xia He didn't hang up the phone, but the other party said, "Is there anything else?"

"who did you say"

"I'm Gu Sheng's friend."

"Oh, thanks!"

Xia He turned off the phone and put it back in his trouser pocket, his mood gradually grew, but after the hot wind blew, he became a little dazed again.After all, Gu Sheng was too far away from him, no matter in distance or in heart.

He was a little sad and wanted to see each other very much.

At night, a little red light flickered in the dark blue sky.It was a plane flying across the night sky.Xia He walked on the playground, staring up for a long time, until the plane disappeared, he never looked away.He thought to himself: "It would be great if Gu Sheng was inside..."

He waited for the phone to ring.

At this time, Night Breeze was at dawn for people in another country.

Then, the phone rang suddenly.

Xia He picked it up, and as usual, he fed it in a calm manner.

"What's wrong? Did you miss me?"

Gu Sheng seemed to be walking, his tone was panting, and there was the sound of wind.

Xia He was relieved for a moment, being able to hear the other party's words was really more healing than taking medicine.

"Well, I kind of miss you."

"I'll be back in two days." Gu Sheng said, "It just so happens that things are complicated these days, so go back and calm down."

"Ok, I will wait for you."

Xia He found a step and sat down, remained silent, waiting for the other party to speak.

Gu Sheng: "I want to go back and eat Beijing's fried noodles. The food here is really unpalatable."

Xia He laughed, it seemed that he was still the same, unchanged.

When he went to Xiangfeng again, he entered the door and saw someone sitting beside his bed.The man looks a little simple and honest.Seeing Xia He coming in, the man hurriedly stood up and nodded to him.

Xiang Feng introduced: "This is my childhood, come and see me."

Xia He also smiled back at him, feeling that the atmosphere was abnormally awkward.

After a while, the man knew that he was untenable, so he said: "You talk, I'll go out and smoke a cigarette."

After saying that, he walked away.

Xia He approached the bed, took out a few books from his backpack and handed them to Xiang Feng: "You asked me to bring them for you. But it's better to read less books now, to save energy."

"It's okay. Anyway, I can't do anything lying down all day. It's hard enough just staring at the ceiling and enduring the pain."

Xia He lowered his eyelashes and asked, "Is it better?"

"no feelings……"

"Maybe it will take a while. You haven't been to school these days, and everyone is listless."

"Hehe, is my status so high?"

Xia He followed him with a chuckle: "That's not it."

After a pause, he said, "Get well soon."

"I think so too, I'm going to get maggots when I lie down."

He turned and turned the book in his hand, showing a trace of vitality that should be at this age.

"By the way, has he come back?"

As soon as the words fell, Xia He was startled, pretending to be dumbfounded: "Who is it?"

"The one from the police academy, didn't he go abroad later?"

Xia He was surprised: "How do you know that he has gone abroad?"

Xiang Feng smiled and said, "I'm a fortune teller!"

Seeing Xia He's unkind wink, he added: "The last time you put your cell phone on the table, and a text message came, I pressed it quietly and took a look."

Xia He: "..."

Then, Xiang Feng turned into a calm face and said: "Xiahe, don't let yourself live so tired, anyway, there are so many strange and bizarre scenes in the world, and having someone you love deeply is already a thing of life. Why bother?" Do you care about who he is, what gender he is, what status he is, and the clumsy eyes of ordinary people?!"

After listening, he was silent for a while, and he said: "I don't care, I'm just afraid that he cares."

Xiang Feng smiled: "Don't think so much, just let this kind of thing take its course. Anyway, from the time I know you, I always feel that you are different, and you always look like you are full of worries and don't care."

Xia He curled his lips into a smile, but did not speak.

"You can tell me anything in the future. Others don't understand, maybe I can understand."

"Oh……"

When he walked out of the hospital gate, Xia He still looked like he hadn't recovered.Xiang Feng's words popped into his heart from time to time, he thought for a while, and suddenly understood something.

Xiang Feng, he must be the same kind of person.

Two days later, the afternoon was rainy and gloomy.

Gu Sheng came back and called Xia He who was in class.

So, avoiding the eyes of the old professor, Xia He sneaked out through the back door.The patter of rain fell on the leaves of the sycamore tree.

He didn't hold an umbrella, hurried downstairs, and ran to the school gate against the light rain.

When he saw Gu Sheng who had returned, the corners of his mouth couldn't help but curl up. If there wasn't someone beside him, he really wanted to rush over and hug him tightly.When I approached, when I was about to say hello, I found that there was someone behind the other party. It was a woman who looked like a mixed race, tall and wearing a light blue dress.

She said hello, "You are Xia He, you are so handsome."

Xia He stopped all expressions and returned to his usual indifference.She gestured to Gu Sheng and looked at Gu Sheng.

Gu Sheng said: "This is my partner's daughter, Ellie."

"Hello!"

Allie smiled brightly and was very enthusiastic.But Xia He didn't buy it very much, he nodded to avoid looking at him, and said to Gu Sheng: "It's really not the time for you to come, I'm still in class."

"You came here in the rain, stand closer, and I'll dry your hair for you."

As Gu Sheng spoke, he dragged him to his side, and wiped his hair with the sleeve of his clothes.

Ellie on the side still had a natural smile, as if she was no stranger to such a scene.

Xia He felt inexplicably awkward, so he avoided it abruptly, stroked his bangs, and said, "I'll do it in a while."

"Come on, let's go to the best restaurant in Beijing."

As Gu Sheng said, he led him towards the car outside the school gate.

The raindrops fell on the neck, a little cool.