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In the car, the three of them didn't speak much at first.Ellie was in the co-pilot, Gu Sheng was driving, and Xia He was in the back seat.He glanced at the two of them occasionally, then moved his gaze out of the window.

Allie suddenly said, "How long have you two been together?"

Feeling caught off guard, Xia He was startled.Gu Sheng said unhurriedly, "More than a year."

"To be honest, you two are the most compatible gay couple I've ever seen."

"Heh, you and your Will are also a match made in heaven."

Gu Sheng joked, and couldn't help but squinted at Xia He.

Xia He remained silent, a little unaccustomed to this kind of scene.Thinking about Gu Sheng not only went to France, but also traveled around the western countries, his thoughts could not be restrained.

And he prefers the private space of two people, any words and contradictions are known to you, and no one else interferes.

But it is really difficult to adapt in the short term to being naked in front of others.After all, it was hidden from the beginning and could not see the sun.

After dinner that night, Gu Sheng sent Ellie back to the hotel, then got back into the car, and stared at Xia He in the rear seat from the rearview mirror.Jokingly said: "You don't seem very happy, who messed with you?"

Xia He didn't rush to reply, he paused before saying: "It's nothing, I'm glad you can come back."

Gu Sheng's appearance now looks more and more like an adult in the secular world, and the vigor and childishness that a teenager should have is also fading. He occasionally puts on a suit, and it is no longer obvious that he is only under 20 years old.

He smiled and winked at him in the rearview mirror.

At night, after dinner.

Gu Sheng sent Ellie back to her address, and then accompanied Xia He to his home.When he left, he wanted Xiahe to move to his place, but Xiahe felt that it was inconvenient, so he chose to live in the school, which has not changed.

When I went back, the furniture was covered with dust, and the glass window had a big hole cracked.The wind blew in.

After turning on the light, the light was bright, and the two of them looked at the broken window to the east and hesitated for a while.

After a long time, Xia He glanced at him and asked, "Is your house broken into?"

Gu Sheng took off his coat and put it on the sofa. As the clothes fell, the dust flew up and spread around.

"Is this what a thief looks like?"

he asks.

Xia He glanced at the broken window again, startled: "Probably so."

At this time, Gu Sheng casually said: "That thief's brain is too dull, there is nothing worth stealing in my broken land."

He said and walked to the room.

All the precious things in the room were swept away, even the murals were removed.

Gu Sheng straightened his eyes, since he was young, he has never tasted the feeling of being stolen.Although he was not short of money, he was still very angry inside.

He secretly said: "This... a gang of thieves..."

At this moment, Xia He turned his head and glanced at the door, only to find that the lock had been damaged.

He walked over to Gu Sheng and said, "Do you want to call the police?"

Gu Sheng turned to look at him, thought for a moment before replying: "Forget it, it's so noisy, let's talk about it tomorrow. Let's make it tonight, and..."

He leaned over and hooked Xia He's chin with his fingers, and said, "There are still things to do."

Xia He smiled helplessly, and looked away in a blink of an eye, pretending to be arrogant and wanting to avoid it.But when Gu Sheng took his hand and hugged him directly, he could feel the long-lost heartbeat reappearing.

That night, the two of them were lying on the bed with sweat dripping from their necks, and the hot breath lingered around them.After panting for a while, Xia He got up and said, "I'm going to open the window, it's a bit hot."

Gu Sheng glanced at him: "Just turn on the air conditioner." Then he stretched out his hand and grabbed his hand, "Come here and lean on, don't go."

After hearing this sentence, Xia He was inexplicably surprised, but he didn't show it. After a moment of silence, he said: "The person who left seems to be you."

The other party smiled and said, "Xiahe, I'm a little scared."

"afraid of what?"

"You're in love with someone else."

Xia He chewed these words quickly in his mind, and then said: "You have seen so many people and so many different scenery, this possibility should be that you are older than me."

Gu Sheng stared into his eyes without saying a word.Then turned over, grabbed Xia He's warm arm, looked at the ceiling, pretended to be in a daze, and seemed to be thinking about something.

Seeing that the other party did not speak, Xia He simply stretched out his arms and lay down, "Go to sleep!"

Then he pulled the quilt over, lay down next to Gu Sheng, closed his eyes and pretended to be sleepy.But the heart was noisy after the joy, the feeling really faded, not as enthusiastic as it was at the beginning.

Feelings, impulses, and tactile sensations are slowly weakening, as if the nerves have suddenly exchanged connection points, and some are powerless.

He thought, he didn't know if it was his fault or because of Gu Sheng.

But after thinking about it, he opened his eyes again, looking at the dark and white room, with the sound of Gu Sheng's even breathing next to his ears, he thought to himself, Gu Sheng hasn't changed, only himself has changed.

Two weeks later, Gu Sheng stayed in Beijing to start his own business, and he settled down.

Xiang Feng was discharged from the hospital and recuperated at home.

He chatted with Xia He that day, saying that he might take a year off from school, otherwise he would not be able to graduate.

Xia He joked at that time: "You can just take a two-year break from school and wait for me to graduate together."

Xiang Feng laughed for a long time, then stopped laughing suddenly, and said softly: "I want to too..."

One evening, Xia He was jogging along the track.The afterglow of the setting sun is reflected on his young and beautiful face, if it is still, it really looks like a painting.

After running for about half an hour, he felt his legs were a little sore, so he stopped to take a breath, and took off the earphones hanging from his ears. The wind blew past and raised the hair on his forehead.

After resting for a while, he was about to move to the dormitory, when suddenly he saw a familiar figure not far away from the corner of his eye, so he looked over and saw that it was Xiang Feng.

Xiang Feng smiled at him, looking very contented.

Xia He raised his feet and ran over again, asking, "Why do you think I'm wrong?"

"I'll take a look."

Xiang Feng said that although there was a smile on his mouth, it was obviously very different from when he first met him.At that time he was like sunshine, but now he is probably only like a gentle wind.

He said: "I have been here a long time ago, and I saw you running along the track for a long time. Why didn't you play with them?"

Hearing this, Xia He glanced at the court and saw that the few acquaintances were playing. He was not very interested in it at first, and was always told by Gu Sheng that he was not good at the game.Now he has completely lost interest and simply stopped joining in the fun.

He said: "I'm not interested, I'm going to run and go back to read."

"It's really hard work." Xiang Feng said.

Xia He smiled, "What kind of work, reading comic books."

Haha, the other party also laughed together, and then asked: "Has your friend returned to China yet?"

This friend refers to Gu Sheng.

Xia He froze for a moment, then said, "I'm back, I'm busy."

He inadvertently showed a trace of helplessness, which was the first time this helplessness appeared on his face, and it was more for himself.Inexplicable, some can't say it.

After Gu Sheng returned to China, he left school and severed many of his previous relationships. The new ones he met were all "adults" who were struggling in society, or dressed in suits and leather shoes, but full of suspicion.

His conversation and habits are also gradually changing. He used to smoke cigarettes occasionally, but now he often gets drunk, and he is always surrounded by young, good-looking, successful men and women.

Xia He felt that the distance between the two of them was far away, no wonder he couldn't receive his calls before.It turned out that the mobile phone that saved my number was a backup phone.

He has learned to be casual and free and easy, but his heart is still solid, leaving an indelible mark on Gu Sheng.

Xiang Feng sized him up and said with a smile, "I don't even know each other yet. Someday you get to know someone who will be successful in the future, and I always feel that it will be a gift to me."

Xia He: "There will be opportunities in the future."

The two walked along the path to the dormitory. After a long time, Xiang Feng asked again: "Xia He, your family knows you..."

Xia He knew what he wanted to say, shook his head: "I don't know yet."

"Oh!"

Xiang Feng knew that he had mentioned something bad again, so he changed the subject: "Let's go to dinner later, I'm treating guests, let's go out to eat."

"A treat for guests after returning from such a long illness"

Xia He joked.

Xiang Feng said: "If I invite you, it can't be called a treat, it can only be called a casual meal."

"It's so shabby..."

He thought for a while: "Okay, it's okay anyway, let's go with you. By the way, there must be many taboos following you."

"It's okay, you can eat what you like, anyway, I'll just pay for it."

Xia He patted him on the shoulder lightly: "Then I can rest assured."