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This summer when the leaves were green, someone confessed to Ah Zi again.

"I'm sorry..." Ah Zi smiled apologetically, "I have someone I like."

"Ah...it's okay, no need to apologize." The other party showed disappointment on his face, and then forced himself to ask seriously, "Can I ask, who is the person you like, Ah Zi?"

...Who is it?Ah Zi's expression flickered for a moment, but she quickly came back to her senses, and smiled gently and distantly: "Student, I'm sorry, class is about to start, I have to go back."

Noon, classroom.

"Ani..."

"What, what's wrong?" The girl who was packing her schoolbag looked up in a daze.

AhZi stood beside her, looking at the coat that Ani still refused to take off in summer, worried: "Aren't you going to be overheated?"

Ani was taken aback when she heard the words, shrank her body, and shook her head: "It's okay, I'm more afraid of the cold."

Ah Zi moved her lips, as if she wanted to say something more.But seeing Ani lowered her head and continued to pack her schoolbag, she had no choice but to swallow back what she wanted to say.

A Ni quickly packed her schoolbag and left the classroom with A Zi.

The two were talking along the way, or rather, Ah Zi was talking and A Ni was listening.

The noon sun was scorching the earth, and the umbrella AhZi was holding turned towards Ani.

"It's very hot...Ani? Are you okay?" Ah Zi suddenly noticed Ani's pale face.

Ani shook her body when she heard the words, then shook her head violently: "It's okay, it's okay..."

"Speaking of which, I heard that someone confessed to Ah Zi again today." Ani stopped suddenly, shaking her head, "Because Ah Zi has someone she likes, so why did she refuse?"

It seemed that she didn't expect A Ni to say this suddenly, A Zi was startled and didn't know how to answer.

"Does Ah Zi really have someone she likes?"

"..."

Ah Zi looked at Ani with a complicated expression for a while, then looked away, and nodded slowly: "Yes... There is someone I have liked for a long time... But we can't..."

Ani stopped in her tracks: "Ah Zi, goodbye."

Only then did Ah Zi realize that the two of them had reached a fork in the road before they knew it.

"Ani, you don't look very well, I'll take you home today!"

"No!!" Annie suddenly screamed.

Ah Zi was frightened and at a loss: "Ani?"

Ani's body trembled slightly, she took several deep breaths, and then said in a crying voice: "Please, don't go to my house..."

"..." AhZi pursed her lips, complex emotions surged in her eyes, but quickly disappeared like the tide receding.

"Well, well, be careful on your own." Ah Zi showed a beautiful smile, and her voice was gentle, slow and delicate.

Annie nodded and left without looking back.

Walking home alone, the smile on Ah Zi's face finally completely collapsed.

Disappointment and sadness appeared on her face: "Why don't you understand..."

Ani and Azi met in junior high school, and Ani was already a well-known weirdo at that time.Gloomy and introverted, everyone rejects her.

Ah Zi has always followed the trend and has been a perfect student in everyone's eyes.So at the beginning, Azi didn't have any feelings for Ani, and didn't make friends with her.

until one day……

When she was in school, Azi had never seen Ani smile, but on that day, she saw it.

A Ni squatted at the back door of the deserted school, stroked the head of a kitten, and laughed, making the depressed face come alive.

A Ni quickly found her, and her smile disappeared.Looking at Ah Zi, he was full of hostility and anxiety.

"...Hello, my name is Azi." Azi walked over slowly and softened her voice, "What's your name?"

"...Ani."

"Do you like animals too?"

"...En." Ani touched the kitten's head, a little lost in thought.

After that, the two got in touch.

Ah Zi has never forgotten the smile she saw back then, she always wanted to take good care of A Ni and make A Ni smile more.

But I don't know when it started, that pure feeling changed.

"That's right, I don't understand." Ah Zi quickened her pace, and said softly to herself, "Otherwise I'll be disgusted."

Azi's idea is actually very simple, she wants to protect Ani's smile...forever.

This is enough.

However, Annie always looks preoccupied, and she never wants to fully open her heart...

in the afternoon.

After Azi came to the classroom, she suddenly found someone drawing on Ani's desk.

"Wait! What are you doing!" Ah Zi rushed forward and pulled the other party away, her gentle voice became severe and decisive, "Don't you think it's very rude and boring to just scribble on other people's desks casually?" ?!"

"Stop meddling in your own business!" The other party pushed Ah Zi away with agitated attitude and disgusted eyes, "What do you know! Because this woman's mother seduces men everywhere, my parents are divorced!"

For a while, no one else dared to come up to try to persuade them to fight. The other party's name was Ayi, and she was a well-known bad girl in the class.

Ah Zi was stunned for a moment: "You...you might have misunderstood something..."

"What?" Ayi looked Azi up and down several times, looked at her and sneered, "Aren't you on good terms with this woman? You don't know what her mother does?"

The hostility surged again, and the other party violently overturned Ani's table.

The books and utensils in the desk suddenly spread all over the floor, making a loud noise.

"Bitch!" Ayi's tone was extremely fierce, but tears rolled down her face unknowingly.The ferocity of the expression and the weakness of the tears twisted together, which made people feel shocked for a while.Ayi stomped on the things that belonged to Ani on the ground, and let out her inner emotions with a wild laugh, "Why don't she and her **** mother die!"

There were only the sounds of cursing and trampling on objects in the classroom, Ah Zi finally came back to his senses, and yanked off the other party's clothes and dragged them back.

"Stop it, what her mother did has nothing to do with her!" Ah Zi stopped in front of A Ni's position, staring at A Yi with wide eyes.

It would be a lie to say that she is not afraid, but Azi is even more unwilling to be bullied by others.

Ayi stared at Azi, but didn't make a move directly, so the two of them were in a stalemate.

At this moment, Ayi's eyes turned and swept towards the direction of the back door of the classroom, and his face became grim again in an instant.

A bad premonition flashed in Ah Zi's heart, and when she turned her head, she saw A Ni who was looking at her with her eyes wide open.

I can't tell the look on Annie's face at the moment, whether it's shock or fear, or... self-loathing.

When Ah Zi's eyes fell on her, A Ni seemed to have suffered some substantial damage, she backed away abruptly, turned her head and ran away.

"Ani wait!!"

When Azi chased her out, Ani's figure disappeared at the end of the corridor.Ah Zi didn't have time to think about it, so she chased after her in that direction.

Why run!stop!

Azi's heart was filled with deep worry and uneasiness, she had never seen such a look on Ani's face before.Suddenly remembered Ani's strong resistance to her going to Ani's house before.

Is it because of my mother that I don't want to let me go to her house...?

Ah Zi vaguely guessed something from what A Yi said just now.

On the other side, Ani came to a forgotten place where no one will come, which is the deserted back door of the school.

This is a deserted meadow, where weeds are growing wildly, enough to reach the knees of the students.

Ani squatted down with her knees hugged, her face pale, and she was breathing rapidly, as if she was extremely hypoxic.

She squatted like this for a while before her breathing gradually eased.She sat down on the grass and rolled up the sleeves of her coat.

Ugly scars crisscrossed his arms.

With the other hand, Ani was groping on the ground, picked up a stone after a while, and suddenly stroked it on her arm.

The very rough stone quickly scratched Ani's skin, and blood quickly flowed out from the wound.

Ani's tense expression quickly relaxed, and the stone in her hand scratched her arm again and again.

The blood quickly stained the stone red, and the more blood flowed, the more relaxed Annie felt.

This rare sense of relief is addictive, like mental opiates.A Ni was immersed in this wonderful feeling, her whole body was dizzy, as if she could grow wings and fly to a place where there would be no more misfortunes.

At this moment, someone roughly grabbed the stone in her hand and threw it away, brutally crushing her illusion.

"Ani! What are you doing!"

A Ni opened her eyes and saw the flustered A Zi.

Ah Zi knelt on the ground, helpless to support A Ni's bloody arm.

"Ani, why did you do this?!" Ah Zi's voice became a little crying, "You...why do you have so many wounds on your hands?"

Why...why come to interrupt her...why come to prevent her from reaching heaven...

"Ani! Are you okay!" Azi was very worried, and shook Ani's shoulder vigorously.

No, no, this is her only friend...

Ani became more awake, her lips moved, and she didn't know whether she had said the words: "I'm fine, I feel very happy, I feel very happy."

AhZi looked terrified: "Ani..."

All the misfortune and sadness flowed out of the body together with the blood, leaving only peace.Ani now feels very peaceful and will not feel pain anymore.

There was a burning pain on the arm, and the blood reflected the pale skin, mixed with some sand.

When the pain reaches its peak, it will never hurt again.

Ah Zi pulled Anil to the bathroom.

It was also the first time she encountered such a situation. Seeing that there was still sand on Annie's wound, she just wanted to clean it up quickly and stop the bleeding.

"Ani, you, you stay here first, I'll go buy some medicine and come back!"

Later, A Ni's wound was bandaged by Ah Zi, who bit her lip and frowned while bandaging, her eyes were covered with a layer of water mist.

Ah Zi finally knew why A Ni always wore long sleeves in summer.

"Ani...why did you do this?" Ah Zi was puzzled and felt extremely uncomfortable.

Ani was silent for a while, clenched her hands into fists: "I, why can't I do this?"

"Eh?"

"This is my own body, no one will care anyway. I feel better doing this, why can't I do this?!" Ani stared at Azi stubbornly, afraid but refused to admit defeat, "Why can't I Do this?! Why?!"

Ah Zi was stunned by A Ni's words for a moment, and it took a while before she said distressedly: "A Ni, you can tell me if you feel uncomfortable, and I will share it with you. But don't hurt yourself, okay? I feel very sad when I look at it. "

These words touched A Ni's nerves somehow, and A Ni's voice became a little sharp: "Are you afraid? I am so scary, right? Ah Zi hates me too?"

"What...? No! Ani..."

Ani stood up, kept stepping back, and grabbed at the corner of her clothes: "I know! It's been like this from before to now! No one has ever liked me, never!!"

In fact, Annie's character was not like this at the beginning.

She didn't study here when she was in elementary school, her parents divorced when she was very young, and she lived with her mother.Before the divorce, the mother always secretly took many men home, but after divorcing the father, she had no worries at all.

When she was a child, she didn't understand many things. When she started elementary school with anxiety and expectation, everyone in the class rejected her.Throwing things at her, doodling on her textbooks and homework, hiding her things...

The teacher has punished those people, but as long as they are not caught, the other party refuses to admit it, and the teacher doesn't know, there is no way, isn't it?

Annie's mother never cared about her.

Give her food and shelter, but never care about her.

Ani was afraid when she was a child, so she liked to hide in small spaces.

Feeling uncomfortable, he bit his hand.The more pain in the hands, the more relaxed Annie felt.So Ani bit her hand more and more vigorously, even biting the skin, and blood came out.