cancer

From then on, Annie pinched and bit herself whenever she felt uncomfortable.

Ani's mother didn't know if she saw the wound on Ani's hand, but Ani's classmates saw it.Somehow, gradually some strange rumors spread.

Ani vaguely understood that her wound was terrible in the eyes of others, so she also wore a long-sleeved school uniform in summer.

In the first year of junior high school, Annie came to the roof of the school with a knife.

Is man born to suffer?What is the point of living in such a miserable world?

She's had enough.

When the knife went down, blood stained the blade red.

Bleeding kept coming from the wrist, very fast, it was the first time Annie saw so much blood.

The blood was very red and gorgeous, watching the blood slide down the skin, for some reason, Ani's mood became more and more calm.

She wanted to cut her wrists to commit suicide, but failed.

She began to feel that she could not die.

For the first time, Annie asked her mother to transfer to another school.

Her mother agreed.

Annie hoped to make good friends at her new school, but things backfired.

Every time after being bullied, A Ni would use a knife to lightly cut the wound on her hand when she returned home.

As long as the blood comes out, it's fine.

As long as the body hurts, the heart will not be sad.

Ah Zi was her first friend, gentle and popular, the only light in her dark life.

So she began to be afraid, afraid that Ah Zi would also stay away from her.She carefully covered up her wounds and refused to talk about anything related to her family.

'Ah Zi...why do you want to be friends with me? '

'Well... When we met for the first time, you smiled at the kitten. I think you are a kind person, which is different from what other people said.You have to smile more, how cute you are when you smile. '

Everything now is ruined.

'It hurts me to watch...'

Uncomfortable...uncomfortable... Sure enough, Ah Zi also felt uncomfortable seeing her wound...

A nightmare from the last school, will it all come back?

The more A Ni thought about it, the more chaotic she became, and her thinking began to lose control.

"Why do you care about me?" Ani screamed, tearing off the gauze wrapped around her arm, "Don't talk to me! I've long been used to no one liking me!"

Azi's heart twitched, and she stepped forward to stop Ani's arm, preventing her from scratching herself: "Who said no one likes you! I like you, and I will always be with you!"

Encountered... AhZi was startled, accidentally...

"Impossible..." Ani smiled miserably, trying to break free from Ah Zi's arm, "Ah Zi, you have so many people like you, you will definitely date and get married in the future, how could you stay with me all the time..."

Ah Zi originally wanted to explain what she had blurted out accidentally, but when she heard what A Ni said, she suddenly felt a twitch in her heart, inexplicably wanting to take a gamble.

Ah Zi tightly hugged A Ni who was struggling violently, leaned her head against her ear, swallowed, and said in a trembling voice: "A Ni... I said, I like you."

"Not just likes between friends."

A Ni paused: "What did you say?"

"I like you, I like you." Ah Zi gently caressed Ani's back and lowered her voice, "I understand you, you are very sad. From now on, let me make up for the love you lost in the past and in the future." Come back, don't hurt yourself anymore, okay? I don't want to see you hurt, physically or mentally."

Annie didn't speak.

The silence of the air made Ah Zi feel uneasy, what should I do, Ah Ni can't accept it?However, it has all been said!

Do you want to say something to fix it?

Ah Zi finally spoke uneasy: "I'm sorry, A Ni, if you can't accept it, we can still be friends... You can pretend that you haven't heard of it, it's okay, I will always be with you. Anyway, I am a woman , no need to pass on the family line.”

Ani was still silent, she didn't push Azi away, but she didn't speak either.

Ah Zi was very conflicted in her heart, wanted to let go but was reluctant to let go, and didn't understand what A Ni's silence meant, so she had to wait.

After a while, Ani hesitated and said, "Ah Zi, are you serious...?"

Not being directly rejected, a flame of hope ignited in Ah Zi's heart.

Ah Zi decided to go all out, let go of A Ni, held her hand with one hand, and stroked A Ni's anxious and suspicious face with the other hand, and said seriously: "Of course I mean the truth, A Ni, stay with me, okay?"

The suspicion and anxiety on Ani's face gradually disappeared, and finally she showed a faint but sweet smile: "Okay."

The afternoon sun is shining brightly, even though the weeds are luxuriant and I can't see the way back, you are holding my hand.

Ah Zi and A Ni who skipped class should have been scolded by the teacher after returning home.

"You go back first." Suddenly, the teacher said to Ah Zi.

Azi looked at the teacher in astonishment when she heard the words, Ani looked a little confused, and looked at Azi with anxiety.

"You go back first." The teacher emphasized again.

Ah Zi had no choice but to give A Ni a comforting look, and then left the office.

Back in the classroom, Azi found that Ani's seat was still in a mess, and no one cleaned up the books and stationery thrown on the floor.

Ah Zi had no choice but to walk to Ani's place, first lift up the table, and then squat down to pack the stationery and books.

"Ah Zi." Ayi walked over, looking down at Ah Zi from a high position, with disgust still lingering in his eyes, "Ah Zi, you are a very nice person, but your sympathy is too overflowing, being with such a disgusting person What are you doing?! You think you are the Holy Mother, so you want to save others?"

Ah Zi's hands tightened, she could count the number of times she quarreled with others on one hand at school.

She doesn't like violence, so she has been peaceful.

But it is clear that many times this hope does not come true.

Ah Zi gave A Yi a cold look: "It has nothing to do with you."

After finishing speaking, she continued to pack Ani's things.

Ayi snorted a few times and left.

From then on, a strange atmosphere began to spread in the class, and people who didn't know the situation began to inquire about Ani's affairs.

When the second class was about to start, Annie came back with her head down.Although there was no expression on her face, Ah Zi noticed A Ni's hands clenched into fists.

The veins covered the pale fingers, which looked scary.

Ah Zi was very worried, so even after class, she couldn't concentrate, and kept quietly paying attention to Ani's side.

But Ani picked up the ballpoint pen and swiped fiercely at the back of her hand.

A'Zi was startled, unable to step forward to stop it, she could only watch Ani scratching her metacarpal bone with the pen tip again and again.Ani's expression didn't relax until she saw blood on her hand.

Ah Zi felt very terrified.

After finally getting out of class, Ah Zi hurriedly dragged A Ni to a place where no one was around.

"Ah Zi helped me tidy up the desk..." Ani rolled her hair behind her ears and smiled shyly, "Thank you, Ah Zi."

Shocked by that smile, Ah Zi stayed where she was for a moment, her ears turning red gradually.

"No...not right." Azi came back to her senses, remembered her purpose, grabbed Ani's shoulder, and said seriously, "Ani, you can't hurt yourself anymore!! Listen to me, this is wrong! "

A Ni was at a loss, looking at A Zi with wet eyes: "I'm sorry, but this is my habit, I can't help it when I feel uncomfortable..."

"Ani." Azi gently held Ani's injured hand, put it on her lips and kissed it lightly, and said sadly, "If you feel uncomfortable, come and tell me, don't hurt yourself. Promise me that you won't hurt yourself again, okay?"

A Ni's face was somewhat startled because of Ah Zi's actions, then she blinked her eyes, blushed and looked away: "En..."

Never hurt yourself again.

Because there are still people who care about themselves.

Ah Zi laughed and touched Ani's face: "Smile more in the future, you look really good when you smile."

"kindness……"

When school was over, Azi and Ani were still walking home together.

"Ani, would you like to tell me about your family?" Azi turned to look at Ani and asked, but she was afraid that Ani would be under pressure, so she quickly added with a smile, "Of course, if Ani doesn't want to talk, it's okay of."

Ani bit her lip when she heard the words, hesitated for a while, and then said cautiously: "Ah Zi...you don't despise me, do you?"

"Of course not!"

When Ani got a satisfactory answer, she smiled like a child getting candy, and then began to talk about things in her family: "My mother...she never liked me. Or, she didn't like everything related to marriage. Not yet When I divorced my father, my mother would always take some strange uncles home while my father was working. At this time, she would lock me in the room and wait until my father came back to open the door.

Then one day, Dad discovered those strange uncles, quarreled with Mom for a few days, and finally decided to divorce.

My father didn't want me and pushed me to my mother. He said that he didn't want to raise children for others. "

"..."

Ani's voice began to tremble, revealing her unbearable past.

"After the divorce, my mother began to raise me. My mother never scolded me or beat me, but she... never ignored me. If I go back, sometimes she will cook for me, and sometimes she will give me money to let me go out and buy After eating, I can choose where to go after eating.

I remember when I started pinching myself, biting myself, and getting scars on my hands, for my mother to see.But my mother didn't care at all, even if she didn't ask a word.Later, I cut my wrist and my mother saw it, but she still ignored it.

Once, my mother was drunk, and she said to me, I can do whatever I want.She doesn't like me and thinks I'm a bondage to her free life; but since I'm out of her belly and no one wants me, she has to take some responsibility for raising her..."

Ani's voice became crying, and Ah Zi could only hold her trembling hand.Ani shook Azi's hand back violently, so hard that her nails were deeply embedded in Azi's flesh.

AhZi cried out in pain, "Ani?"

A Ni paused and let go of A Zi: "I'm sorry..."

Deep nail marks were left on the palms and backs of AhZi's hands, and it felt like the skin had been torn and would bleed soon.Ah Zi resisted the fear in her heart, and smiled flawlessly: "It's okay, are you okay?"

A Ni tugged at the hem of her clothes, and looked at A Zi sadly: "A Zi, is it true that no one wants me? Will no one like me?"

Ah Zi's hands started to ache, she shook her hands indistinctly, and said with a smile: "What are you talking about, it's definitely not. Even if it's true that no one around you likes you anymore, at least I still like you"

Therefore, we must make Ani a normal person.

Annie nodded, smiling through tears.

After returning home, Ah Zi recalled what happened that day, and felt very dazed.

She... really likes Annie.

I like it very much.

I didn't expect Annie to accept herself!

But Ani she...

Thinking of the injury on Ani's hand, Ah Zi's excited mood gradually calmed down a bit, with a bit of worry and fear.

It feels like Annie can get out of control sometimes.

It should be the reason why I didn't get love since I was a child!Ah Zi cheered up and smiled.

It doesn't matter, she will take good care of Ani in the future, let her light shine on Ani, even if Ani doesn't like her at first, she will gradually like her!

Ah Zi took out her mobile phone, logged in to QQ, and modified her signature: Many things happened today, but there was an unexpected harvest! ! !

Just after I changed my signature, someone sent me a message.

Avi: Are you in a good mood?