Holding hands can only be happy

2009

The fireworks on the last day of the year were beautiful

Side by side we are like fireworks

After the dazzling, the ashes fade away

2010

This year, I returned to the place from the army, jumped out of the cage but walked into reality

This year, we need each other, but we cannot get rid of the fateful separation

2011

Sometimes, it only takes a look and a small movement to reveal my thoughts

Feeling very insecure, hiding carefully, but still a complete failure

So what if you're in love, so what if you're together

If it can't last long, it's better to let each other be free

Tired of the so-called persistence

I just want to see through everything, the clouds are calm and the wind is clear

Love is not meeting, but getting along after meeting

Love is not waiting, but a tomorrow hand in hand

Young and frivolous, thinking that if he loves, he can be desperate

But after being polished by the years, Ai always can't escape the reality

In a dark environment, we can hold each other without any scruples

But after the light, immediately, it will be wiped out

Knights and princesses will only live in the fairy tale world

If you can, listen to your song to shake your heart

If possible, I will drink and laugh three thousand times with you

In the winter of 2008, I was about to go to a green and solemn place, and it was the first time I left home. I couldn't express the sadness in my heart.On the train, looking around at the comrades-in-arms who were full of parting sorrow but did not know each other, pretending to be strong and suppressing all emotions, he said, "How about I make a magic trick for you?" Then he took a tissue and performed a very unassuming magic trick, Although everyone saw the flaw, but also relieved the sad atmosphere, they all started talking one after another.But at this time, a cold chill hit me, I raised my eyes, but Shun Jun watched coldly, with eyes that were separated by a layer of ice, wanting to smile but not smiling, I was stunned, and looked at each other. After a long time, he didn't say a word after all. (Afterwards we often talked about the scene at that time, and she always raised the corner of her mouth and said that she was full of doubts at that time, what kind of person is she, who would actually perform a non-nutritious magic trick in order to make others happy)

Recalling the scene when we met for the first time the day before, in the hotel next to the train station, the parents greeted each other warmly because we were about to become comrades-in-arms.At that time, I felt embarrassed, just kept silent, and occasionally answered a few questions. I don’t like to look at people, and I accidentally glanced at that person. The small face and big eyes hide cold eyes. The corners of the eyes are slender and upturned, the eyebrows of willow leaves, the bridge of the nose are tall, without any blemishes, like delicate makeup, it makes people sigh the magic of God's creation, the beauty is so unreal, even if the hair is cut short, it will not affect it at all That finely carved face, and she was looking at me with haughty eyes, like a high god, sweeping her subjects coldly.It seems, seems to vaguely hear her name is 'Shunjun', right? (Later, she said to me, she just wanted to see the person whose mother said so much and ignored her).At that time, because I didn't have breakfast, my mother went to buy a few noodles for everyone. Although the quality of the things next to the train station was very poor, I still managed to chew on my mother's heart. Later, Shun Jun My mother also picked it up and ate it, but she remained indifferent and motionless.After I went out, I whispered to my mother, look at that woman, she is going to serve in the army and put on makeup, so proud! (Later, she said speechlessly that she had absolutely no makeup on that day, and that I either had bad eyesight, or I was absolutely jealous!)

After getting off the train, it was only in the biting coolness that I really felt that this is not a trip, and I can’t go back after two days of fun. I won’t be able to go back for two years, at least two years!Standing there blankly, I didn’t hear the cadre who received the soldiers calling me. Shun Jun called me next to me coldly. I numbly dragged the suitcase and followed the large army forward, with infinite sadness in my heart .After transferring to the bus, we finally arrived at the camp. The cadre who received the soldiers handed us over to a squad leader surnamed Li, and then left without looking back.

Before he was relieved, Squad Leader Li stood at the door with a stern face, and said sharply: "I'll give you 15 minutes, go to the class and find your own bed, take out the toiletries, and put the other things in the private room. The private room is opened once a week. Recruits are not allowed to take a shower, and they are not allowed to take a change of clothes. All the things that are taken out must be put in the internal affairs cabinet, which must be inspected. If I see any extra things, I will throw them away. Let's start now" As soon as I finished speaking, everyone around me rushed into the class. When I walked in in a trance, those beds were already occupied. When I reached the only lower berth, I bumped into Shun Jun. , I glanced at her and walked away. At this time, I looked around the whole class, and there was only the top bunk bed opposite to the squad leader Li. I resigned to my fate and walked over. It was only then that I found out that the person who slept on my lower bunk was a platoon leader. As a recruit for three consecutive months, I never turned over or dared to move on the bed. I often woke up with a stiff body, and I never stepped on the bed ladder. As soon as I stepped on the bed, there would be a 'creak' sound, so I usually just jumped off with a stiff body, until I got off the company. The platoon leader of the recruit company proudly said to the squad leaders of the second-year soldiers, "You guys You can let Yu Tong sleep on your upper bunk, she has very light hands and feet, and can hardly hear her voice."At that time, there were [-] CNMs galloping in my heart!

After tidying things up, Squad Leader Li brought a military wife to shave our hair, which was already quite short, into a hair. When I observed my appearance, I thought this was a female soldier?Did you come to the wrong place?This is the flat cut of a male soldier!Looking back at Shun Jun, well, good-looking is good, big eyes are good, shaving an inch not only does not make you ugly, but on the contrary makes it more heroic, and with those cold eyes, it is absolutely amazing!During the hellish three months of recruit training, not a single day passed when I felt like I would make it out of the army and make it back alive.I train mechanically every day, thinking about what the army was like watching TV before, it is really outrageously fictional!

For the first time cleaning, Shun Jun and I were assigned to clean the toilets, one person and one hole, I thought I was smart enough to choose a relatively clean one, leaving a dirty one, after she saw my series of small actions , glanced coldly, and walked over proudly.A trace of uneasiness rose in my heart, but because of my face, I didn't dare to look at her again, and brushed silently by myself.It was the first time in my life to clean the toilet. When I thought it was clean, but I pretended to flush it with water, I glanced at Shunjun and felt even more guilty. Compared with the one she cleaned, mine was like It’s not the same as brushing, so I continued to work hard. (Shun Jun often said that I was an overprotected child. Although I was ignorant of the world, I was sensitive and paranoid, so at first she always let me go, then she spoiled me, and finally she hid too many things in her heart... ...)

After a day of high-intensity training, I have to memorize the rules and regulations at night, and I can't walk into the class until after twelve o'clock to go to sleep.I was awakened by a rustling sound at four o'clock in the morning. Since I came to the army, I haven't had a good sleep. I squinted only when I was very tired, and then woke up quickly. Squad leader Li was elected among us. I appointed one as the deputy squad leader, and she was only allowed to wear a watch, and then I heard a very soft 'wake up' every morning, and I usually heard the sound of them going out with the quilt and the bench in their arms, and then I was dazed, hugging the quilt I jumped out of the bed lightly, and tiptoed from a narrow door opening to the corridor. I saw several comrades in arms pressing down on the quilt with stools, and I also followed in a chaotic way. I couldn't open my eyes, so I curled up on the quilt and took a nap until my whole body was frozen, and then I continued to get up and press the quilt.

In the early morning, I opened my eyes in confusion, and found that the sky was bright. I looked up and saw that all the beds were empty, and I was the only one lying on the bed, thinking: this time I will die.Just waiting for Squad Leader Li’s sharp curse to come, I was suddenly pulled up by a strong force and sat up. I blinked and looked at the comrades around me who were trying to move out with light steps. I was so frightened that I broke into a cold sweat. Fortunately, it was just a dream. I am grateful. Looking at the comrade-in-arms who pulled me up, she waved to me, motioning me to get out quickly.In the corridor, I was thinking about the dream just now. It was really horrible. The winter in the north is very cold. In order to avoid the pain of getting up and getting dressed, I not only wore clothes to sleep, but even wore a military coat and a hat. Fasten it, that comrade-in-arms pulled me up by the hood of my coat this morning, pressing down on the quilt mechanically with his hands, but his heart has not recovered from the dream for a long time.

At six o'clock, we have moved the stacked 'tofu cubes' to our respective beds, tidied up our housework, and lined up neatly at the door to prepare for 'exercise'. Every time this whistle is the most stimulating to my brainwaves Frequency, because I have to run to a place nearly 1000 meters away from the company where we live, and I have been in poor health since I was a child, and I lacked exercise even in my school days, so every time I run for a certain distance, I have to shout ' report', and then 'out of line' and slowly walked to the training ground. I have been in the army for nearly half a month. I kept telling myself 'bleed, sweat, don't cry, lose skin and flesh, don't fall behind', but my heart beat wildly and my breathing was not smooth due to strenuous exercise, so I fell to the end of the team again, panting heavily.At this time, the platoon leader walked towards me, looked at me deeply, and said earnestly: "Yu Tong, you can't stop at the same place every day, you must make progress! At least report every day better than the day before. Even if it is a small step, it is progress. You have to believe in yourself, you can do it. Also, don’t breathe through your mouth when running, keep exhaling for three steps, inhaling for three steps, you know? Come on, follow me, I will run with you." I looked at her straight back, followed her steps, and learned the way she taught me to breathe. I never felt that this little man with a ponytail, The platoon leader who slept on my lower bunk made me dare not move. His back view is so determined!In this way, a week later, I ran to the training place without falling behind. When I arrived, I saw her gratified eyes. At that moment, I realized that life should be like this. Stay, no longer as confused and decadent as before!

And when I was not excited for a long time, I ushered in a bigger test-'3000 meters', just listening to the number of kilometers that made my brain starve for oxygen.When my heart was about to jump out, my legs were as heavy as lead, and when I couldn't take another step, I finally stopped. I thought I was the last one, but when I looked back, there was another comrade in arms Xiaoli was behind me, and I glanced at her, and I suddenly felt relieved, thinking: It’s okay, it’s not the worst.At the end of the hike, I ran for 25 minutes and she ran for 26 minutes. I was actually quite proud at the time, at least I insisted on finishing the run and I was not the last one.In this way, under the daily high-intensity training, I made little progress in the three kilometers every day.

The last few days of the three-month recruiting company is the next company assessment, and the passing time is 17 minutes and 30 seconds. I worked hard, and there was only one belief in my mind, "Come on, you must work hard, hold on, and I can go home after running Now, I want to go home, I want to go home...', I finally gave my recruits a perfect answer sheet in 17 minutes and 20 seconds, and I felt like I was reborn after running.Suddenly, I realized that I have no limit, and only by persisting can I have a day of Nirvana!Comrade Oguri still failed in the end.

The most embarrassing thing about the three months of recruits was the first bath after joining the army. At that time, Squad Leader Li took us to a bathhouse and said, "Gather in 10 minutes." Watching them take off their clothes quickly and neatly, I At that time, I was stupid. Although they were all women, they never took a bath with others. My mind was dazed, and my whole body began to sweat. The training of recruits was full of countless sweats every day, and my body was extremely uncomfortable. When I was thinking, I saw that they had already entered one after another, and when the water boiled, white mist rose up.Suddenly a thought popped into my mind, 'I can wait until the inside is full of white smoke before going in, and come out quickly after washing, so no one will see it', I was suddenly happy.But the reality will always give you a blow to the head. When I came out at the fastest speed, I saw Squad Leader Li standing in the clothes of the room, and then said leisurely, "Yutong, you are so fast. Coming out soon." I was so frightened that I immediately covered my body with a towel, and said weakly, "Squad, monitor, yes, can you turn around a little bit?" What surprised me the most was that she listened to me?After getting dressed at a record-breaking speed, she shook her head and said helplessly, "You will get used to it in the future" (what I want to say is that I haven't gotten used to it until now, the whole recruits and I have always been Fast in and fast out like that, borrow two thermos bottles, boil the water by yourself, and wash in the toilet when there is no one, I can’t accept such a big bathhouse from the bottom of my heart)

During the past three months, I also met a very important comrade-in-arms——Xiaoyu. Because she came from the county town, she had low self-esteem. Although she was the best in our class physically, she was still withdrawn and introverted.She and I can talk because we are from the same city and can speak some 'local dialect'. She is very straightforward and doesn't hide any thoughts. Listen quietly, and I will never have to worry about her hurting me behind my back.Most of the time, she would run slowly with me and stay by my side quietly. During the two years in the army, she used her way to guard me silently like a breeze.

One of the must-learn items in the army is military songs. After Squad Leader Li taught us a few times, he asked us to sing one by one. When we arrived at Shunjun, she held back for a long time without singing a word. Seeing her silently sucking her nose, raising her head, her cold eyes were red, I was shocked, it turned out that this cold, arrogant and all-powerful woman also has weaknesses.Thinking of the last time I was punished for running, she still encouraged me even though she fell down, and I couldn't help but sigh in my heart: This is like a flesh and blood person!

In the past two years, the biggest challenge for me may be 'eating steamed buns', because I was a soldier in the north, and our group is all southerners, so it is really a headache for the pasta in the north.Sometimes I was tired and hungry after training, and I watched other comrades stuffing steamed buns into their mouths, but I could only forcefully swallow the soup.The recruit company eats in the cafeteria, and squad leader Li only gives it 5 minutes. Most of the time, everyone puts the steamed buns in their pockets and takes them back to the squad, and eats them secretly when the squad leader doesn’t see them. I’m just hungry After eating four, usually two, she couldn't eat any more. At that time, Shun Jun and her comrade Xiao Zhou ate 25 steamed buns, which became a glorious achievement she was proud of. (In fact, Squad Leader Li knew all about it, because she later said that every batch of soldiers came here like this, and it became a 'custom' to carry steamed buns.) Once the squad leader deliberately made things difficult for us, and asked us to put the steamed buns inside within 5 minutes. They were all resolved. As a result, many comrades threw the steamed buns into the trash can. After being discovered, Squad Leader Li severely told us to pick them up and continue to eat. At that moment, we looked at each other's red eyes, and that was the first time we felt An insult to dignity and dignity.