Holding hands can only be happy

Three months later, all the recruits who joined the army participated in the title ceremony on the training ground. At that time, they silhouetted in their minds the pain, tiredness and fruitful results of these months of training. In an instant, powerful strength filled their chests. Shouting "I am the Chinese People's Liberation Army, I swear..." At that moment, there was a majestic echo in my ears, and the solemn oath made me deeply feel the soul of the army that shook people's hearts. It was deafening, and my courage and belief became abnormal. firm!

The day before the next company, the platoon leader called me aside alone, and said earnestly: "Yu Tong, you have always made me and Squad Leader Li feel very proud. The happiest thing for us in the past three months is watching you A little bit of progress, step by step growth, I am very pleased with your persistence. After the next day, you have to face more. You must remember: those who smile at you are not necessarily good for you, and those who are strict with you It doesn’t have to be bad for you, don’t believe anything or anyone lightly.” Seeing the worry in the platoon leader’s eyes, I nodded half understanding.

If the three-month recruit company passed through chaos, then the next company is a truly dark beginning. Our group of comrades who have gone through rigorous training and fought side by side did not escape the disintegration in the end.

On the first day, we were very happy to be taken to the 'service agency' to call home. When we were in the recruit company, we could only communicate with our home through the old way of writing letters.I finally heard my mother's long-lost voice, her nose was sore, and tears couldn't stop falling. On the phone, I repeatedly told her to take good care of herself and wait for me to go back. The 10 minutes were over quickly. When I came out, I saw everyone's eyes were red, and then they smiled comfortingly at each other. At this moment, Squad Leader Li came over and looked around us coldly, "Put away your tears , otherwise don’t come here in the future.”One sentence knocked us back to reality.

Walking back to the class in a neat queue, we stood in a row in a standard military posture and looked at the squad leaders of second-year soldiers who filed in, and shouted "Hello, squad leader" according to the rules. Northeast dialect pointed at us like a shrew and yelled at us one by one. One of the class monitors stared at Shunjun: "I heard that you are the most beautiful in this group. Look at her eyes, she looks pretty good." Yes, I can tell you that if you hook up with people everywhere and engage in relationships with male and female soldiers, I will make you die ugly." Hearing this, an unknown anger made my whole body tremble, and suddenly I was struck by a powerful force Pushing to the edge of the wall with strength, I regained my senses and saw a squad leader of a second-year soldier pressing me against the wall, staring at me fiercely, and slapping my face with his hand: "What? I'm not convinced. Huh? Talk? Are you unconvinced? Hmm?" I stared blankly at Squad Leader Li who was standing there with an indifferent face, and at my comrades who were still standing straight, finally gritted my teeth and said nothing Did not say.Then she continued: "Hey, do you still have a temper? You see, this temper is not small..." Finally, the nightmare of more than an hour ended as they walked out cursing, and I felt myself being beaten. I couldn't get over my hot cheeks for a long time, and suddenly my face became cold. When I looked up, I saw Shun Jun's hand caressing my face, staring at me sadly with cold eyes, and said, "It's okay." ", waved her hand away and walked away.I don't know what I am angry about?Are you angry at the indifference in the eyes of the recruit squad leader who keeps saying that you are like his own children, or are you angry at the cowardice of your comrades-in-arms?I knew very well in my heart that there were only 9 of us, and no matter what happened to more than 20 of them, we would be at a disadvantage. But when I was singled out, the chill was really from head to toe.Chilling, chilling very thoroughly!

Standing numbly on the sentry platform, although standing still, his thoughts no longer know where he flew.Suddenly a figure broke into the eyes, the hat that was originally worn on the head was held in her hand, and it was shaking slightly with her nimble steps, coming in from the outside, a delicate face revealed She has a fairy-like temperament, as if she is not walking but walking on clouds, and her military rank should be a non-commissioned officer.I stared at her in a daze, forgetting to shout "Hello monitor" She looked at me, frowned and asked softly: "Little friend, what's wrong with your face?" I responded blankly, "Ah, no, it's nothing She pursed her lips helplessly, smiled and shook her head, and walked upstairs.After returning to the class after a shift, he knocked on the door and shouted 'report' until he heard the word 'in' from monitor Li, and then slowly opened the door and went in and shouted 'Hello monitor', his eyes suddenly fixed on the very temperamental At this time, she was sitting next to Squad Leader Li and chatting about something. She returned to her seat and looked at them secretly, thinking that there would still be such a fairy-like person in this army. After a while, Li The squad leader introduced to us: "This is 'Chu XX', you can call her 'Chu squad leader', she is my soldier of the same year, we are in the same batch." (Later Chu told me that when she saw me like that, she knew that I was beaten by a second-year soldier, but just looking at my stubborn stupidity, I guess I will suffer in the future. At that time, they were talking about my recruit company. I feel that my strong and stubborn expression is very distressing, making her seem to see the original appearance of 'that person' again.)

What kind of sadness is it when listening to screaming has become a part of everyday life?Every day, there are always people who pick the thorns to their heart's content, and then whip us like monkeys for fun.

At 9 o'clock in the evening, when we were doing the evening physical fitness, a piercing scream, accompanied by the sound of things breaking, pierced the seemingly peaceful night, the familiar cry, we all immediately realized that it was Xiao Zhou, When we wanted to rush out of the class to take a look, we were stopped by a group of second-year soldiers, and then Shun Jun's voice came one after another. Since it was too far away to hear the reason for the dispute, we could only be anxious.In the early morning, we changed shifts late at night, and when everything calmed down, we were still carrying the so-called 'number' in the corridor. At this time, Shun Jun said leisurely, it turned out that Xiao Zhou smashed a porcelain bowl just now and was about to commit suicide. I heard the shocking thing, but I heard it was unusually calm. The comrades around me tried to persuade Xiao Zhou. I looked at Xiao Zhou sadly, and said in a hoarse voice, "Xiao Zhou, if you really want to die , we, accompany you, we came by the same train, we can either go back together or leave together!" At this time, Shun Jun's tears had soaked her cold and proud eyes, and she slowly took out a small book from her notebook. Blade, with a firm tone, "Yes, we will accompany you" Listening to her words, my dead heart suddenly beats again for half a quarter, this Shunjun!When did she hide the knife?When did she start getting desperate?yes!Those eyes that were originally as cold as snow have become more indifferent and world-weary.After one scene, we who have experienced "living together and dying together" seem to have returned to the time when we were in the recruit company.

In the army, I feel the most helpless thing is to memorize the number. After recruits are assigned to majors and then start to be on duty according to their majors, but only those who are assigned to the telephone professional need to recite the number. The so-called "custom" handed down is Everyone has to recite the number, and whoever recites it well will go to the telephone service major.I don't know when Shun Jun and I have tacitly united the front, and we firmly believe that we will not recite the number.According to the regulations of those second-year soldiers, they cannot go back to sleep without reciting the number of the day, but she and I still insist on it silently. The winter in the north is very cold, and there are no radiators in the corridor. The coldness growing on the soles of the feet just leaned on each other for warmth, and stayed until dawn in the severe winter, and then when the legs had lost their intuition, they forced themselves to go to the training ground for training.

After a few nights, I originally planned to fool around like this, but when I worked overtime at night and memorized the number, those second-year soldiers made a strange move, asking us to put our feet on the stool and do push-ups, a group of 50, side by side. Do side memorization, and you can stop when you recite it. That was the time I used my extraordinary memory, and I recited it when I reached 100. In the end, some of our comrades made it to 500. It was really inhumane torture.

We really don't know if we are lucky or unlucky.Because our company did not go down to the squad where the second-year soldier squad leader was, but was still in the same squad, led by the recruit squad leader Li. Although we still had to help those second-year soldiers, we still hid in our own squad. It was quiet, after all, those people had to come in groups if they wanted to provoke trouble, and it was precisely because of this that they were even more jealous and angry, so their anger towards us was even greater.They tried their best to make us learn majors in different classes during the day, the purpose is to do chores for them, and occasionally vent their anger. In order to have a better life, we can only work hard in our own world. None, just alive, gradually, we began to learn to live 'cunningly'.

Both Shun Jun and I were not assigned to the telephone major as we wished, and Xiao Zhou and I were in the same major, and the second-year soldier squad leader of that major was the one who pushed me against the wall last time, so I can only tell I have to be 12 very careful in the future. Fortunately, she chose to teach Xiao Zhou, and I was taught by Squad Leader Zhao, a non-commissioned officer squad leader.Xiaoyu went to the base for training shortly after he was assigned to the telephone major. There were only 7 of us left, and it was even more difficult.

Just when we needed Squad Leader Li's protection the most, she added fuel to the flames and punished us more severely (I can't remember the specific thing now, but it's nothing more than looking for trouble and finding fault). Groups of 50 When we reached 500, Squad Leader Chu came in, looked around us, and said to Squad Leader Li: "I'll come over and ask someone to help." Squad Leader Li nodded in agreement, and she called "Yutong"

I immediately answered "yes"

"you come with me"

"Yes" I followed her out of the class, seeing her silent in the corridor, I asked softly, "Squad leader, what do you want me to do?"

She turned her head and looked at me with a smile on her face, "I just passed by your class, and when I heard your squad leader Li getting angry, I saved you by the way, don't thank me too much!"

At this moment, she is playful, let me breathe a long sigh of relief, staring at the banished fairy who fell into the mortal world in front of me, the tension in my mind has been relaxed for a long time, "Squad leader Chu, I envy you very much, um... I admire you very much." character, you can live so comfortably in such a cage without restraint."

But she withdrew her smile and frowned helplessly and said, "I just don't care. You are still young and don't understand. Don't be confused by the surface of some things."

"The platoon leader told me that those who smile at me are not necessarily good for me, what about you?"

She looked at me, but did not answer, "I will not be in the company for a while, you take care of yourself." After returning, I saw the exhausted comrades, and I realized that they had done 1000 squats. Since then, a bomb has been planted for our breakup.

"Yu Tong!" I was sitting on a stool looking at the order, and a sudden cry made me get up reflexively, and I answered loudly "To" at the moment I stood up, I rubbed my head against an unclosed iron. The sharp corners of the cabinet suddenly made my scalp tingle and numb for a while.I fought back and ran to the class that called me, "What's wrong with your head?" a class leader Yang, who I was not familiar with, asked. "No, it's nothing. I was too anxious just now and accidentally bumped into the cabinet." "Your head is bleeding, do you know that?" She pointed at my head and said eagerly.As soon as I stretched out my hand, I felt a burst of stickiness. I opened my palm and looked in front of my eyes. I was suddenly terrified, good guy, no wonder it hurts so much. "Hey, don't touch it with your hands anymore, I'll take you to the health team" She grabbed my hand and quickly asked for leave in the company, and helped me go to the health team. I struggled away, but I couldn't match her height of nearly 1.8 meters. I kept telling myself: She is a second-year soldier, one of those second-year soldiers who have been trying their best to bully us. The hair around the wound was cut off, and iodine was applied to reduce inflammation. It was so hot that I gritted my teeth, and finally bandaged it.On the way back, Squad Leader Yang said softly: "Is it still hurting? I will go to the company to ask you for a few more days off later. Don't go out for training in these few days. The weather is starting to heat up, and it is easy to get inflammation when you sweat." I silently He listened intently, but didn't answer, but his heart had put her away from those people. Maybe, she was different from them.

After the company is released, there will be a company-wide internal inspection every week, and the results of the inspection will be written on the blackboard next to the sentry platform at the entrance of the company. It was Shun Jun. In the past two years, her name appeared on the blackboard almost every time. She could always fold the tofu cubes into a square shape and pinch them with edges and corners. She said it was possible. It was because of her art studies, and it was precisely because of this that every time, whether it was the sergeant squad leader or the second-year soldier squad leader, she would ask her to make the quilt, especially on the day of the internal affairs inspection, she would be very tired.Sometimes I have to work overtime at night to publish blackboard newspapers. (Later, she said that one of the things she regretted when she came to the army was that her specialty was art, and the most lingering fear was the time I was beaten.) Regarding the matter of making quilts, Neither my talent nor my hard work have any effect, but fortunately there is Comrade Oguri, so I will not be the worst in terms of physical fitness or internal affairs.Because of the gauze wrapped around my head and the pain of my scalp being pulled, I glared angrily at the quilt I folded out, and sat there to give up on myself. "What's the matter? Does your head hurt again?" Although Shun Jun's tone was still warm, but seeing her tired eyes, I knew that she must have just finished folding the quilts for those monitors.She didn't answer, she looked at my quilt, sighed, spread out my quilt and folded it silently, following her swift movements, the pile of quilts that had never been straightened a couple of times, unexpectedly fell into place. Fang Zheng stood up.But I only glanced at the quilt, and all my eyes fell on her. Even after doing something, my hands were still cool, and I patted my cheek lightly, "Okay, prop up the sheet yourself." The soft tone made me only want to hold her in my arms.I sat blankly for a long time, and I was frightened by such thoughts, and my thoughts were disorganized and difficult to sort out.Although my internal affairs were praised this time, my mind became more and more heavy.

Although May 3st is a holiday, the troops are still on duty, and they must be on guard against emergency gatherings. When I was standing guard, I heard a random sound of guitar playing, and my heart was itching.Suddenly Squad Leader Yang stood in front of me wearing a belt and a hat. I just remembered that she was the one who took over my post, but there was still half an hour. Why is she so early? They are all a bit late, the longest is half an hour late, it is good to be on time, so what does it mean for her to pick up the post early.Seeing my doubts, she curled her lips and said, "Little kid, go to rest." She changed posts with her in surprise and confusion, and instead of going back to the class, she just walked to the activity room where the sound came out just now, and slowly Slowly pushing open the door, there was no one inside, and when he raised his eyes, he saw the guitar standing on the cabinet, and he just stared at it quietly.Thinking back then when I knew I was going to the army, I played the guitar and recorded a lot of old songs my mother liked to listen to on the popular MP12 player. She often told me on the phone that she would listen to those songs every night to fall asleep. I don't know what my mother is doing now. The recruit company was just in time for the Spring Festival travel rush. She stayed at the train station for [-] hours in a row just to see me on my birthday. She dragged two big snakeskin bags by herself. The moment I saw her was the most heartbreaking moment in my life.Since then, I will not mention any suffering in the army in letters or phone calls. I will only tell her that I am fine and miss her very much.I don't know how long I stood there, "Take it up and play for a while." Squad leader Yang looked at me sideways, seeing that I was silent, she dragged me with one hand, took the guitar in the other, and walked upstairs. I was stunned and told her Said, "Squad leader, you are still on guard." "I have already been laid off," she said angrily.Pushing away the students in our class, she sat on monitor Li's bed, pressed me on the stool next to the bed, and said, "Play a song." I took the guitar and thought about it, but Shun Jun's song appeared in my mind. That warm-hearted pair of big eyes plucked the strings, tried the sound, and sang softly:

I can't forget the first time I saw you

a pair of charming eyes

in my head

Your figure can't go away

Hold your hands and feel your tenderness

I'm really a little breathless, I want to cherish your innocence

I will be sad to see you wronged

I'm afraid I'll fall in love with you myself

Don't let yourself get too close

I'm afraid I have nothing to give you

Loving you also takes a lot of courage

I'm afraid I'll fall in love with you myself

Maybe one day I can't help myself

Missing only makes myself suffer

It's my last choice to fall in love with you

It's my last choice to fall in love with you

....................................

At the end of the song, Squad Leader Yang applauded excitedly, "It's so nice, you little brat, you are so talented!" I just smiled and said, "I'd better put the guitar back, don't let it go for a while." I can’t find the class leader if I need to use it.” So when I got up with the guitar, I saw Shun Jun standing by the door, with a tense face, staring at me with cold eyes, I don’t know if she heard, the song just now In fact, he only wanted to play the song for her, and he didn't dare to look at her, so he turned around and went out.

The company stipulates that female soldiers can report one person to go out every week, and they can help bring back some daily necessities, because last time my mother came to bring me those two sacks, so there is nothing missing, and I have never asked anyone to bring me. .This time, Squad Leader Yang was out. When she came back, she called me to the corridor, and stuffed a Grandpa Ken’s burger and a huge piece of Mou’s chocolate into my arms. I was really shocked again!Looking up at her, she just smiled and asked me to go back to the class. I didn’t dare to share it with my comrades, so I swallowed the burger in two or three mouthfuls and hid the chocolate in the bottom of the cabinet. What a huge reaction it would be to be seen by my comrades-in-arms. I can occasionally feel that they look at me differently from before. The hostility and contempt make me unable to explain. The development of the matter is beyond my control. The most uncomfortable thing is that Shun Jun's indifference to me is getting more and more indifferent every day.

In my major, there is only a small night and no big night, that is, I am up to nine o’clock at the latest. Like some other majors, I have to be on duty in the computer room at night until the person on the morning shift takes over the next day. The day can make up for half a day of sleep, but it is still very debilitating. Shun Jun’s major is even more special. They have only needed a big night for a long time, so she almost catches up on sleep during the day and is on duty in the computer room at night. Afterwards, the times when I could see her were also very rare, but the stern face added some paleness, and most of the time she was very tired, without any expression.

In this dark place, the word "friend" seemed too thin, and the feelings of the recruit company were also fragmented, replaced by their own loneliness and mutual indifference.In a battlefield without gunpowder, jealousy, suspicion, and cold blood accelerated the annihilation of the entire army.

"Get up!" A loud whistle woke me up from my dream, and I opened my eyes drowsily, "Damn it, why did I sleep so late!" Supporting the bed, I struggled to stand up, but it was top-heavy Feeling dizzy, stroking his hot forehead, went to the toilet to wash his face, and then heard the whistle of "exercising", ran downstairs hurriedly as if stepping on cotton, with a wry smile in his heart, according to the regulations: recruits should get up one hour earlier than veterans , After tidying up my housework, I will help the veteran tidy up, but today, no one called me?This is the first time since I arrived in the army that I didn't wake up until I heard the whistle. I was so helpless in this state. What did I do?Make them hate me so much?Thinking about it, I have followed the team and dragged my weak body to the training ground. Sweat gradually broke out, my eyes became a little clearer, and my head was not so heavy.Sure enough, life lies in exercise. It turned out that when I was a child, I was sick for three days five days a week, and my body, which was useless to take medicine and injections, actually recovered from running?Humans are really strange creatures.After the training was over and I returned to the class, I no longer wanted to see my so-called fellow soldiers standing blankly in the corridor alone, looking at the scorching sun, but my heart was very sad. Mom, I used to have a headache and brain fever, and she asked for leave to take care of me at home, and now I am the only one left... I looked up at the sky, tears still fell unconsciously, I sucked my nose, and kept telling myself to be strong , turned around and prepared to go back to the class, Shun Jun didn't know when she was standing behind me, there seemed to be something flickering in her cold eyes, she didn't dare to look at her, she lowered her head and walked back.