Holding hands can only be happy

In January 2012, I was living aimlessly and just living like a walking corpse every day. All I could think about was that the world would end soon, and I would be relieved when everything was over.According to the established trajectory, he was admitted to ZG company, and the place related to the "country" was doomed to a rigid system.

On the day of registration, my parents excitedly invited me to go to the company to fill out the form with me, walked into the human resources department, and looked at the partners who were in the same batch as me, chatting enthusiastically with each other, and I stayed out of it like a spectator.My dad looked at this and that with great interest, and finally stared at a girl with a long ponytail who was filling out the form on the table, and whispered to my ear, "Look, she is ****6 She is from the same military branch as you, do you know her?" I murmured in my heart, how could I know her, even if I am from ****7, even if I am really from the same military branch, in such a closed environment Impossible to know all of them.

After receiving the form handed over by HR, I filled it out silently. Suddenly, my mother introduced me, "Hello, little girl, this is Yutong. You will all be colleagues from now on. Leave a phone call. If there is any news in the future, I will let you know." You can notify each other" I looked up at the person in front of me, isn't this the girl who filled out the form with ponytail just now, but I was surprised at just one glance, this girl gave people a very complicated feeling, like a combination of contradictions, but It blends well with her, she has Han Yi's coquettishness and Chu XX's elegant expression like a fairy, the most important thing is that I seem to see Shun Jun's cold eyes through her eyes.Seeing that I didn't respond for a long time, my mother took out her hand and exchanged phone calls with her, and then asked, "What's your name?" Her indifferent eyes stared at her red and black plaid coat, which fit her temperament very well, and I no longer dared to look at her in a trance.

"All of you go to the small meeting room, and the director will hold a meeting for you in person later." The words of the personnel made everyone walk and follow into a meeting room. There was a row of small stools, I watched everyone sitting in the middle, and saw that there was the last chair. Just when I was about to slowly sway over, the girl named Yao Jia sat on it, dumbfounded. After a long time, he sighed and sat down on a small stool beside him.

After waiting for a long time, finally a woman in business attire walked in slowly, with big waves casually scattered on her chest, with exquisite makeup, looking around us in a formulaic way, and after sitting upright, she said, "Today was originally given by Director Zhang himself. There is a meeting, but she is still in the leadership office, so it won't waste everyone's time. Let's start first. Let me introduce myself. I am the deputy director of the human resources department. My surname is Li. It is an internship in the county, and I hope everyone will do a good job and show the enthusiasm of the young people. I will not emphasize the discipline aspect of coming from the army. Now there is a temporary notice. The company's annual meeting will be held soon, and the leader asks you This group of newly recruited veterans will put on a show, so I will choose two people to organize it, one man and one woman, Chen Dong and Yutong, both of you are party members, take the lead to make a show, if you need my help, please Come and meet me in my office."

The sharp yet gentle words woke me up from the chaos of the past few months. When I was dumbfounded and had no time to digest the information, she said again, "Now you introduce yourself, you can also talk about What are the specialties, starting with XXX" I was still analyzing what she said before, and I heard other people showing off like offering treasures in my ears, showing off all kinds of basketball and various balls. After a while, it was my turn to introduce In fact, I knew in my heart that the more I said at this time, the more conducive to the development of my future work, but I still stood up stubbornly, and said in a deep voice, "My name is Yutong, I am a soldier in XX, and I am the XX Army. Bing" said briefly and felt a strong sense of oppression after sitting down, who is looking at me?In confusion, he raised his head and met the man's gaze, Yaojia?Facing her searching gaze, I frowned and immediately looked away, unable to stand the familiar eyes that could no longer be familiar.Shunjun, Shunjun, knocked heavily on my aching heart.

Until the end of the meeting, Director Zhang never showed up. Director Li left me and Chen Dong, still maintaining the same curved smile, and said lightly, "Today is Friday, and starting from next Monday, the program should focus on the troops. , you guys go back and think about it, this is the list and contact information of all the people, you can take it." Then he handed it to me and took it with both hands, wondering why he didn't give it to Chen Dong, when he turned to look at him with an idiot look on his face , I suddenly felt helpless, how can such a person work together in the future?

A weekend was spent discussing on the phone with Chen Dong, and it was finally decided that the man should do a set of military boxing and the woman would sing a military song.After everyone gathered on Monday, I announced the arrangement. The male compatriots were pretty calm, but several female compatriots, including Yao Jia, said that they could not sing. Looking at their amazing tacit understanding, they frowned and thought about it. Said: "Then let's all sing the military song together at the end!" , there are only a few girls, so you can take care of them more, so it’s settled, Chen Dong will lead everyone to fight, and they should know how to do it. Is there anything you haven’t learned in the army?” Seeing no one speak, I continued, “ If you don't have it, you will know it. We only do the first set of military boxing. The most important thing now is everyone's cooperation. Although we have left the army, we still have to show the aura of a soldier to the leaders. Not much to say, let's start now Come on, Chen Dong!" After handing these hot-blooded youths to Chen Dong, I breathed a sigh of relief, looked sideways at the few girls who were walking towards me and made my head bigger, and braced myself to deal with them as peacefully as possible. "I have something to do today, I need to ask for leave" "Me too" "We don't have anything to do, can we go?" In my impression, it was Yaojia's voice, staring at them and talking to each other, trying to restrain myself from going berserk Tempered, he calmed down and said, "If you want to ask for leave, you should ask Director Li. I don't have that right. They are all doing military boxing now. If you leave now, what will they think? I can do what I can to help you." I will do my best, and please understand me."A turmoil was finally over, watching them sitting in the corner playing with their mobile phones, sighing helplessly in their hearts, this is really a thankless task!

A few days later, some well-dressed female white-collar workers suddenly came into the rehearsal room one after another. Under their unscrupulous scrutiny, our whole atmosphere suddenly became dignified.In a glimpse, his eyes fell on a demure and refined woman, with a capable ponytail, a natural curvature on her forehead, a standard oval face, a pair of intellectual eyes, and a pair of smiling eyes under the curved eyebrows. The pink plaid shirt makes her full of youthful atmosphere.A group of people stopped in front of me, and the woman said quietly: "Hello! I am Chen Xuming, and we are also here to rehearse the show." "Oh..Hi, my name is Yu Tong, and I'm temporarily in charge of the rehearsal for the veterans." In her silence, I seemed a little flustered. After introducing each other, they began to discuss their programs and watched them express their opinions. , and Chen Xuming's indifferent demeanor made my eyes stick to her involuntarily at this moment when I should be indifferent to everything. The inexplicable feeling made me a little manic.The original boring rehearsal was also due to their arrival, which made the morale of this group of young men so energetic that they all felt like they had been beaten with chicken blood.

The days were peaceful and peaceful until today, Director Li brought a dance teacher, both in appearance and walking steps, she was very artistic, I saw that she gathered the white-collar workers in front of her, and demonstrated some While I was looking at them calmly and calmly, Director Li suddenly yelled to this side: "Yu Tong, gather your girls and bring them here, there is something wrong here."I immediately responded "OK", and led the girls around me at the speed of light, and then I heard the dance teacher say, "You first learn the movements from Chen Xuming".After looking at each other in blank dismay, she was placed behind Chen Xuming in a daze. Seeing her vermilion lips parting slightly, a round and jade-like voice came from her ears, "1-2-3-4, 2-2-3-4...", body It also swayed gracefully. I stood there straight and watched for a long time before I realized that I wanted to jump. It seemed that this movement was similar to riding a horse, but it was extremely embarrassing for those of us who can’t dance. Dong Shi imitated me, it was a terrible feeling, we looked completely different in the mirror.Upon seeing this, Director Li made a pause gesture, and said loudly to Chen Xuming, "From today onwards, you will be responsible for teaching them these movements, and let them stay alone to learn after all the rehearsals are over." changed.

After Director Li left, I saw Yaojia's coquettish face full of hesitation and hesitancy, very much like Shunjun's cute appearance, my heart was in pain, and my searching eyes looked at her softly, "I, I My family lives far away, it’s too late and there is no car, can I ask for leave?” Waiting patiently for her to finish speaking, another chubby girl said eagerly, “I have an exam tomorrow, so I need to ask for leave!” I hesitated and asked with difficulty. "I'll go talk to Director Li."Standing in front of the mahogany door of Director Li's office, he tapped one head and two big, followed by a cold "please come in", bravely plucked up the courage to push open the door, and watched Director Li sitting in the large boss chair On the table, the thin and small body looked particularly abrupt, and there were many file folders neatly placed on the table. He was writing quickly on an open file with a pen in his hand. After looking up at me, he continued to bury his head and repeat the previous action "Sit, What's the matter?" Hearing her question, I took a deep breath, thinking that stretching out my head and shrinking my head would be a stab, and I opened and closed my eyes, and said desperately: "Director, Yao Jia said that he lives too far away and there is no car to go back for dancing at night. , Qi Ran explained that I will ask for leave for the exam tomorrow." She stopped her hands and looked at me. The strong pressure made me have to avoid the increasingly piercing eyes, and finally sighed and uttered words that made me feel relieved: " Forget it, you go and talk to Chen Xuming, you don't have to jump anymore, if they want to ask for leave, just ask for it, and you don't have to tell me about asking for leave in the future, you can decide by yourself." Only then did I dare to raise my head , but found that the originally serious expression was now clear as if nothing had happened or anything, and he solemnly answered "Okay, I see" and then turned and went out.

Only now did I realize that this should be the workplace. Facing this unknown journey and unfamiliar environment made me feel strongly uneasy. I picked up the phone and pulled out the number I knew so well, but I couldn’t press the green button. Shun Jun, I I need you to calm me down, I need you to tell me what to do, I need you to accompany me on the road that makes me dread, I need you, I miss you very much, you know?A sense of grievance and powerlessness surged up, his eyes were red, he looked around the brightly lit cubicles, clearly knew where he was, sniffed, suppressed the sadness forcefully, and walked quickly and bumped into a hard Due to the speed of the object, I felt that my forehead was almost sunken. I was stroking my forehead and seeing stars, when I heard a suppressed exclamation, "How are you? Are you okay?" He raised his eyes to see the source of the sound, What appeared was Chen Xuming's warm and eager face, "Are you okay?"

"It's okay" Her appearance caused me another kind of anxiety, so I just want to stay away from her as soon as possible

"Are you crying?" She looked at me searchingly, her warm eyes made me feel like a spring breeze, but what she said made me flustered

"That was just bumped into, by the way, Director Li just said that we will not learn that dance in the future." I didn't care about the politeness I should have, and tried my best to hide my weakness. I didn't want her to continue to study, so I had to change the subject immediately

"Oh, that's good. I'm also going to tell Director Li that you are not suitable. In fact, even if there are not enough people, it is far-fetched to let people without foundation dance." The simple words make people feel like they are bathing in the warm sunshine in the severe cold

"Yeah" I can only nod my head

"Since you have already settled what I have to do, then I have nothing to do with Director Li, let's go down together?" Warm voice mixed with caution

"it is good"

"Are you Yusen's daughter?"

"Huh, huh?" Her question made me confused all of a sudden.

"I was an intern with your dad back then, and he taught me a lot. Later, he said that he sent you to be a soldier. Recently, I heard that you joined the company. The first day we met, I thought it was you, you and Your father looks quite alike." The soft tone hit the scar that I didn't want to face the most

"Really?" This will always be a thorn in my heart, it will not soften with time, it will only continue to corrode and then burn a deeper mark

Seeing that I was a little depressed, she didn't say anything, and walked all the way to the rehearsal room without saying a word. When she brought the "good news" to everyone, these girls were relieved. No waves, no waves, no worries, looking at Yao Jia in a blink of an eye, Wang Yang's eyes couldn't hide the joy on his face, and the tight string in his heart was a little loose, Shun Jun would never have such an expression, even if Han Mou It doesn't melt hot enough to be hot.

One day during the period, when I was shopping with my mother, my phone vibrated suddenly. In fact, after Shunjun left, whenever there was a message or a call on my phone, I couldn’t wait to take it out, for fear of missing a call from Shunjun. The message caught my eye, "I have a fever, I need an injection in the hospital, and I will take leave for the next two days---Yaojia", through the fluorescent light of the screen, thinking that I can no longer be by Shun Jun's side when she is suffering , can't take care of her, accompany her, and return to 'OK, drink plenty of water and take good care of yourself' full of sadness.

The days of rehearsals passed quickly, and Yaojia and I gradually became acquainted after the last illness incident. We would occasionally chat during breaks, but most of the time she was holding her mobile phone to play games, or laughing. Yanran called her boyfriend. During the conversation with her, I learned that she had a boyfriend who stayed in the army and was a non-commissioned officer in the army. Most of the time, I was sitting on the sidelines in a daze, immersed in my own world. Live in the memories of He Shunjun.

When the music of "Horse Pole" sounded, I was startled and then broke into a burst of sweat, thinking to myself, who is it?Playing such a song, you can see Chen Xuming dancing with the music when you look up. His elegant appearance is like a clear stream in a pool of mud. Such a tacky song is so clear at the moment, with a hint of sweetness, the fresh aftertaste of the clear spring Infinity, even in rehearsals, she is meticulous, every movement is relentless, and her earnestness is fascinating.

On the day of the performance, I spent time in chaos. In addition to performing on stage, I also received a temporary task from Director Li to lead the veterans to decorate the venue with ribbons and other things. I looked at myself in the mirror in the bathroom, wearing spring and autumn uniforms, shoulders Carrying "two crutches" on my shoulders seems like a world away. Now, the military uniform reminds me of only Shun Jun, the army, and only Shun Jun. Everything in those two years, the only thing left in my mind is Shun Jun.

I was quietly watching the performance off the stage. I never thought that Chen Xuming would have to go on stage to receive awards besides performing. I saw that she had changed out of her costume and put on an elegant and simple white shirt and black suit. Under the well-fitting tailoring, the shoulders are shaved, the waist is as usual, striding forward, the ponytail on the shoulders swings back and forth at the same frequency as her walking pace, the warm smile as usual, and the certificate from the boss in a graceful manner. Still, in the whole venue, I can only see her, standing under the spotlight, full of beauty and beauty.

"Look at Chen Xuming, what I like the most is that she always has a straight back, very energetic! Compared with some young people who are hunched over now, even standing there is different." Listening to Yu Boss words.I suddenly realized that this is what makes her different from others. What has always fascinated me is her unusual demeanor. I stared at her speech, which was neither humble nor overbearing. She was radiant and captivating. I couldn’t help picking up my phone to take a picture. That straight silhouette.

"It turns out that the boss is called Yu Jiantao. There are very few people with the surname Yu. Hey! Yu Tong, she doesn't have any relationship with you, does she?" Seeing that I didn't respond, Qi Ran bumped my elbow and repeated. said it again

"I still want to have a relationship. How about I find a relationship and get a relative?" I used a joke to cover up the desolation in my heart. I also hope to have some relationship with this man named Yu Jiantao, so maybe my career path will be much smoother in the future.

Destiny is difficult to grasp in the rugged reality, and so is love, which may be eternal in an instant, or youthful in an instant.

One day after the performance, I was standing on the bustling street that I used to walk with Shun Jun. Due to the cold weather, the originally bustling street became bustling, and I saw groups of thinly dressed shiveringly passing by occasionally. The young boys and girls who looked at me indifferent to all the questioning gazes, their feet numb from the cold, couldn't resist the bone-chilling cold in my heart. The temperature of "Yutong" just sounded in my ears, and what appeared in my sight was a pair of almond eyes that were still smiling, a slender jade neck, a plain waist, and an elegant blue dress, outlined by silver lines. With clever patterns, long skirts swaying in the wind, and long and well-proportioned legs, perhaps only Chen Xuming can fully interpret wisdom, calmness, grace and femininity. She looks like a snow fairy in the cold weather, so dazzling It made me dazed, "Why are you standing here stupidly? Isn't it cold?"

"You should be colder than me, right?" Looking at her serious look, I couldn't help joking, and for the first time, my heart that had been tense for a long time showed signs of loosening.

"I..." Seeing that she didn't continue talking, I was about to take off my clothes and put them on for her, but was stopped by hands that were as cold as mine, "Don't take them off, you won't get better after standing for so long Where to go, I live nearby, go to my place and sit down?"

"Okay" I can't refuse her at this moment, she naturally wraps her arm around me, and the temperature in winter today seems to be a little different from the usual.

Walking into Chen Xuming's home, the small rooms and halls are neat and clean, with warm tones, as soft as her person. When I was looking at the surrounding environment, I was stuffed into a cup of steaming water. With plain boiled water, staring at the warm eyes, he said softly, "Hurry up and change your clothes."

"Okay, then you sit down first, I will change my clothes, and I will take you out for dinner later"

"No, I should go back." He directly refused, not wanting too much contact in his heart

"Have you had lunch?" He raised his tone in surprise but still maintained his original gentleness

"No"

"Then why don't you go?"

"Okay, then I'll treat you to eat" I didn't know how to refuse the soft but tough pressing step by step, so I thought of a compromise

"I'm older than you, I should be the one to invite you no matter what." The charming eyes are probably what the ancients called warm and fragrant nephrite

In the restaurant, I was still tepid and didn’t talk much. She didn’t eat but kept serving me food. The warm warmth permeated

"Eat more, you're too skinny"

"You look very handsome in military uniform, and you look so heroic. Although you are dressed the same as other girls, I still think you are the most conspicuous inside."

Listening to the quiet words in my ears, I became more and more silent. After eating quickly, I excused that I had something to do, and left quickly. I didn't know what I was afraid of. in the turtle shell.