Holding hands can only be happy

Beyond the mortal world, in the world of mortals, are you willing to hold me and hold your hand?

Under the sword, on the battlefield, can you look back?

Waking up in Yaojia's arms every day, the sunlight outside the house diffuses in with a small curtain that is not completely closed, and the small glimmer is enough to illuminate the whole room.

I never thought that I would see Chen Xuming, whom I had no connection with, at this time. I was in the same company, so I knew that she had transformed into the vice president of the big boss Yu Jiantao a few years ago, but when her assistant gave me When I called to ask me to come over, my heart was still tangled.

Knocking on the door, opening the door after getting permission, everything is extremely unfamiliar.

The person in front of "Mr. Chen" paused slightly, looking a little surprised.

After a few years of working in the workplace, I have been polished from the dullness of the past to the point where I can wink at people. After a moment of surprise, she quickly adjusted her mood and said: "I will transfer to the head office, although city y is the capital city of province x , but after all, the development prospects are limited, will you come with me?" I silently thought about the meaning of her words, and quickly drew the key points: "Yutong, do you remember what you said to me that year? Would you like to go with me? Shall I go to the head office together?"

"It's too late. We didn't take that step at the time. Now it's all over. I was the one who was impulsive and said some nonsense." The decisive answer

"It's over?"

"Yes! It's long gone" firmly without the slightest hesitation.Relatively speechless, I asked abruptly: "Why did you transfer to the head office? Was it too sudden?"

"What do you mean?"

"I……"

"Am I that unbearable in your eyes? Or do you prefer to believe those rumors? Forget it, have you made your choice? Get out!"

"I'm sorry, I already have someone to spend my whole life with" nothing but apology

"Okay, I wish you happiness"

Looking directly at the thoughts in my heart, I have to admit that I believed those rumors. The feelings in my fantasy are pure. Complicated factors will only make me stick to the status quo and stagnate. If the person standing in front of me today is Shun Jun, I don’t think I’ll look back, just like the gap between Yaojia and me all the time, I care about some unnecessary things in form, and I’ve become what I hated before before I knew it, but that’s just my own thinking The fuzzy one-sided part of life is nothing more than suffering in the world.

In fact, the true perfect love and the miraculous characters only exist in novels. In the colorful dye vat of modern society, who can live a pure and flawless life without being stained with a trace of gray paint.If possible, who doesn't want to live in the hometown of fairy tales and live a lifetime ignorant of the world; if possible, who doesn't want to be a fool and live under deliberate protection.

He raised his head and looked straight at the scorching sun in the sky. When his eyes began to glow with colorful lights, which was unbearable, he closed his eyes and the red light was flickering, and he began to miss that person in his heart.

When Chen Xuming asked the question, my choice was already in my mind, and before I knew it, I had already drank the poison given by that person, and it was hopeless.

The autumn wind came quietly with the fallen leaves, except for the slight coldness on the body surface, and the dry mouth.

Couples who have been 'pressed' for a long time will naturally want to fight back. After repeated resistance to no avail, I was grabbed by the wrist again, pressed on the bed, and said "let go of me" out of anger.

"How is it possible?" She looked at me contemptuously from above, a deep light shone in her exquisite peach blossom eyes

"Let go, I'm really angry." Ignoring my words, I moved my head closer to my ear, rubbing it intentionally or unintentionally, and immediately softened, giving up the unnecessary struggle.

The night is low, the stars are depending on each other, and the sudden drizzle moistens the dryness while playing, and in an instant, it is muddy...

After the storm, I gradually regained clarity. I still felt unwilling and aggrieved after thinking about it. I stood up and turned my back to the evil spirit. After a long time, the familiar embrace still came to wrap me tightly, like being imprisoned In a cage called love.

"I'm happy to see you sitting here alone, angry." Turning around, just about to push her away, I saw that eyebrows curved like emerald feathers, bewitching and enchanting, and the old god was as expected. Bearing the heart, whispered "I hate you"

"Well, it's enough for me to like you" One sentence is enough to melt everything. The magic power of this demon lies in turning the tangible into the intangible, permeating my whole heart little by little.

"I don't really hate you"

"I know"

"I love you"

"I love you too, very much, very much"

In the new year of 2015, Yaojia was going back to his hometown in H City with his family to worship ancestors. The night before leaving, Yaojia and I had another quarrel

As I am getting older, it is natural to be urged to marry by my family. At this time, Yaojia proposed the idea of ​​"marrying" to me. What I thought was that marriage is not a child's play. Even if it is a fake marriage, you have to bear the burden Responsibility, the original world of two people, if several families are added, it will become extremely complicated.

"I will not agree to a marriage"

"It's up to you, just keep consuming like this."

This is the final conversation.

At the beginning of the new year, I spent my time in silence. It turned out that all thoughts were lost because I still had thoughts. Now, I am completely empty, completely empty. I don’t eat or drink, and I can’t speak.

From now on, I don't believe that phone call. On the highway from City Y to City N, the car driven by Yao Jia collided with a large truck traveling in the same direction, and all five people on board were killed.

At the end of the seven-day vacation, I was still sitting on the bed in human form, because there was still Yaojia’s breath on it, and the water and food that my mother forcefully poured down, vomited out every drop after 1 minute, repeatedly, In the end, she could only help me ask for leave from the company. She had no choice but to look at me without blinking, secretly saddened.

A month later, she took me to the hospital, numbly staring at the sign "Psychiatry" in front of me without saying a word, I don't know how bad I am at this time, all I can think is: I want to see Yaojia, I miss Yaojia very much.

I don't know how I came to the small mound where Yaojia lived, maybe it was some kind of traction, looking at the photos on the stele, there were no tears, only longing.

"Yu Tong, I'm back, even if you drive me away, please come back too, please?" Looking up, I saw the high-ranking Shun Jun walking towards me, but his eyes were full of pity, No longer cold.

The previous vows of eternal love were just a black and white movie

The once vigorous, but also a silent mime.

The picture was frozen in my mind,

Shun Jun in that year was cold and aloof

Yaojia in that year was charming

In that year, I was still childish

Life and death, whether it is time or the beating heart that is old.

I suddenly opened my eyes, and saw the sleeping person beside me, the wet corners of the eyes, and the stickiness on the clothes. I was glad that all of this was just a dream. Feeling a little relieved, this series of actions woke her up, she wrapped her arms around Wu, patted my back repeatedly, "What's wrong?" with a half-dream and half-awake tone

"Ka, I love you"

"Well, I love you too, go to sleep, it's almost dawn"

"If, I said if, there is no other way, then let's get married"

"Hmm! Hmm? What?"

"I said I am not opposed to physical marriage"

"Fool, take it one step at a time, you said before that I have thought about it, I will handle it well, trust me"

"Okay" and then said worriedly, "When you go to the countryside for a while, drive carefully, and call me when you arrive."

"Okay, okay, you, you are getting more and more verbose, you are almost an old woman, okay, okay, what? You started to miss me before I left?"

Under her teasing tone, I didn't have the slightest intention of bickering with her as before. I snuggled into her arms and murmured, "Yaojia, you must always stay with me as you promised." The answer to me was The abnormally tightened embrace, such a moment of suffocation, has a certain joy of regaining it.

When I became rational and mature, I met Yaojia who was full of patience. Under the test again and again, her perseverance and perseverance withstood the changes of fleeting years.

Dependence is caused by a dream, but it is also because of this dream that I have an epiphany.People are always obsessed with what they have never got, and then ignore what already exists like air around them. In fact, in the end, what is most cherished in their hearts can only be seen through when the flowers are gone.Therefore, taking this as the ending of the story in this chapter is also to remind myself to let go of what has passed away, cherish what I already have, and only by living a good life can I be worthy of all those who care about me.

May Yaojia and I not forget our original intention in this life, and go to the covenant of Baishou!

May all those who can be with love, never lose, never forget, never bully and never bear!

the end of happiness