Holding hands can only be happy

After calling home on Sunday, Shun Jun seemed to be shrouded in sadness, ignoring people and not speaking, and returning to work, she sobbed softly in the corner alone.

"What's wrong? What happened?" As soon as the words fell, she burst into tears, and I hugged her tightly and stroked her back, "Jun, tell me, what's wrong ?”

"My father...will...hit mom when he's drunk, and a few days ago he..." She sobbed, emotionally

"Then why didn't your mother get a divorce? It's against the law for him to do so." I asked with a sharp heart

"My mother is very traditional...and very face-saving...she won't get a divorce" I patted her on the back for a while, listening to her intermittent crying

"Okay, okay, stop crying, I will give you a home in the future, a warm home" I finally knew the reason why she ignored the world, and I was more determined to protect this woman who made me feel bad.

At 8:30 p.m., when I was changing my clothes, I heard another roar. When I heard Shi Shunjun’s voice clearly, I was in a mess. come.I looked her up and down nervously. Although I was dressed in a mess, there was a piercing chill in my eyes, as if it would freeze me in an instant, "Are you okay?" I asked in disbelief, "It's Yang XX." Words, I was stunned, seeing that she was exuding the freezing cold all over her body like before, I felt extremely uncomfortable.

In the afternoon of the second day, staring at Squad Leader Yang standing in the corridor, I couldn't suppress my temper, walked over and said coldly, "What did you do to Shunjun?"

"Didn't she tell you?" She still looked forward

"I didn't ask her." I curled my lips, feeling annoyed

"So, you came to Xingshi to inquire about the crime?" He lowered his head and looked down at me with raised eyebrows.

"No, I just want to say that you can come to me directly, no matter how you scold or beat me, it's okay." I looked straight at her and said

"Is this the kind of person I am in your heart? Or is Chu XX the only good person in your heart? Do you really understand her?" She asked a little bit sadly

"Are you still angry with me?" Somewhat confused, I answered the wrong question. Seeing that she didn't speak, I continued, "Then I'll let you beat me up again, will you relieve your anger?" Waiting for her to respond, I rushed into one of the veterans' squads, "XXX, didn't you think I was displeased and wanted to hit me? Come on! Hit me! I'll stand here and let you hit me!" I glanced at the other party With fiery eyes, I have no fear. "Yu Tong" Squad Leader Yang rushed in, pulled me out, and took me away from the atmosphere that could crush me to death in an instant.

"Don't be like this, okay, can you be more mature? Can you think a little bit for me?" After the hysterical yelling, before I could answer, I turned and left, looking at her tall but arched back, I suddenly wanted to slap myself One slap, I always use my own intelligence to do things that harm others and myself.Back in the class, Shun Jun and I both tacitly acted as if nothing had happened, we both hid our own affairs in our hearts, but we were not as close as before.

One morning, when I came back from work, I stared at Shun Jun who was cleaning, and called out "Shun Jun" softly.

"Huh?" She stopped what she was doing suspiciously and looked at me.

"My hair is growing, cut it for me, then those second-year soldiers will talk again." Shun Jun has always been omnipotent in my eyes, and she can do everything well.

"Well, I heard from Xiao Zhou that a non-commissioned officer with a well-cut hair came to the barber shop, why don't you accompany me to try it?" She came over and rubbed my slightly long hair

"Ah? I don't want him to cut it." I was repelled for a while. I really don't like others cutting my hair. It feels like I am completely controlled by others.

"I cut it, and I'll cut it for you when I come back after I finish it." He glanced at me helplessly.

"Oh, shall we go now?"

"Well, you go to ask for leave first." She nodded

"Okay" got the order I quickly got up, to carry out

On the way to the barber shop, Shun Jun suddenly leaned into my ear and said "I love you" and my heart stopped beating in an instant, and I stared blankly at her with normal eyes, as if it was an auditory hallucination.For a whole day like this, I felt like I was floating in the sky, and she sighed as she looked at me like this.

The haze dissipated, and the happy days passed quickly. Shun Jun was also transferred from the major that was on duty at night to another major that did not have to be on night shift like me. Seeing that she was no longer haggard, she was in good spirits, with a pair of gradually With gentle eyes, it seems that the coming winter in the north has become less cold.

In October, I was still on duty in the computer room on a night of thunderstorms. The rain was getting heavier and heavier, and there was no tendency to stop. The person on duty came to change shifts. I stood at the door without an umbrella, tied up my trousers, and wanted to rush and go back. Change clothes again. "Let's go, let's go back," Squad Leader Yang said gently, wrapping me in her arms with one hand. She was nearly 1.8 meters holding an umbrella, protecting me in front of her body, and took me with difficulty. The water directly covered my knees, but only reached her calves. There was loud thunder, mixed with lightning, and it was a short journey, but it was a very hard walk. When she reached the company, she didn't say a word, and went straight to the water. Lou left.I looked at her soaked clothes with mixed emotions in my heart. When I returned to the class, Shun Jun looked me up and down anxiously, "How did you come back? Did you get wet? Take off your clothes quickly, and the water for washing has been prepared for you." Alright, let’s wash it quickly, the lights are about to turn off!” I looked down to see that I had only wet the rolled up part of my trousers, and said softly, “It’s okay, I borrowed the squad leader’s umbrella to come back together.”

In November, the closer to the day when the veterans leave the army, the more sorrowful the troops will be. The single song "Camel Bell" is played on a loop every day during meal training. Squad leader Chu tuned it away silently. I haven't seen it for a long time. She only found out later.Those second-year soldiers who are about to be discharged from the army have also become less troublesome, but are very happy to pack their things and prepare to go home.Our life was very quiet, but also filled with a touch of sadness, accompanied by such unspeakable emotions and entangled feelings, finally came the day before they were discharged from the army, Xiaoyu pulled me into the corridor "You don't want to talk to me?" Will XX Yang say goodbye?"

"Why should I go?" I carefully hid my emotions and said with my head down

"In order not to let yourself regret it" she pressed on step by step

"I won't regret it" I'm categorical

"You'll regret it" she didn't budge

"Why do you act like you know me very well?" I have carefully considered my words, but I am still annoyed at being seen through

"Because I know you better than Shunjun Geng." She looked directly at me, as if I really had nothing to hide in front of her

After a fierce psychological struggle, I walked to Squad Leader Yang with heavy steps. I didn't know how to speak. She looked at me and said with a smile.

"Can I ask you a question I've always wanted to ask? How old are you?"

"I'm 90 years old"

"Impossible, there must be 95, 96 without 92, 93"

"If you don't believe me, you can see my ID card"

"Didn't you know that the ID card can also be changed?"

"..." I was amused by her, and the atmosphere became cheerful.At this moment, she is no longer a second-year soldier, and I am no longer a recruit, just like a very familiar old friend.Suddenly, her eyes were moist and she said: "Looking at your face, I feel that you are so small. In this army that eats people and does not spit out bones, I just want to protect you inexplicably. Maybe I am overestimated and ignored it. You can’t be separated from my same-year soldiers. I didn’t figure it out at the time, and I was very angry with you. I’m sorry for hurting you. I’m leaving tomorrow. You’ll be fine, and you’ll be fine with Shunjun!” I was surprised Looking up at her, "Can you tell me the story between you and XX Chu?" She just shook her head and pulled the corners of her mouth far-fetchedly. "Then when I join the team next year, I'll go to you, and you can tell me again, okay?" Facing my questioning, she only gave me one word "yes", and didn't say 'I'll wait for you to come' Like, maybe she knows I won't be going again. (In fact, after leaving the army, I never went to the Northeast again. The answer is actually not important.)

After the veterans retired, the military ranks on our shoulders were changed from privates to privates. When the "two crutches" that were originally carried on the shoulders of those veterans appeared on our shoulders, it seemed like a world away, both familiar and strange. It was wet, and finally it was over, and finally passed the dark and dark time safely.

Because new recruits came, we were divided into three classes according to majors. Shun Jun and Xiaoli were in class 8, Xiao Zhou and I were in class 9, and Xiao Yu and squad leader Li were in class 10.My professional squad leader, Zhao, was elected as the squad leader of this batch of recruits, and he was going to the recruit company to train recruits, so the professional work and the things in the class were all handed over to me. Shun Jun's love is right, so we are inseparable all day long and live a very comfortable life.We are also looking forward to the arrival of the recruits. The days of the army are not only training but also training. It is really too boring, but the consensus of our group is that we will never bully the recruits. I hope this perverted behavior can be completely ended here. .

When the Chinese New Year was approaching, we welcomed a comrade transferred from the art team, let’s call her 'Daxian', because she never participated in training with us since then, she danced every day, and the company commander also There is nothing I can do about her, her parents have also come and persuaded her, but nothing works, she is still immersed in her own world, and in her world, there is only dancing, and her comrades joked that she might become a dancer just by dancing. Immortal.

Shunjun's birthday, which I had been looking forward to for a long time, finally came. I bought a cake from a male soldier in my same profession. I took the cake and ran to her class happily. I didn't see her. A cake, stepped forward suspiciously, looked at Xiao Li beside him and asked, "Who sent this?"

"XXX" Xiaoli said (XXX is a male soldier in the same batch as us, and I can't remember what his name is now, because he also studies art, so he often publishes blackboard newspapers with Shun Jun, although his name is Shun Jun 'Senior Sister', I can also see that he likes Shunjun, but Shunjun is condescending and indifferent to everyone except me, so I didn't care)

"Where is she?" At this moment, a burst of anger that came out of nowhere had rushed straight into my forehead, and it made me burn up.

"I was talking to XXX downstairs, didn't you see her when you came up?" Xiaoli looked at my expression and said timidly.This sentence completely ignited me. I took the cake that person gave me and ran down quickly. I saw them standing at the corner downstairs, throwing the cake on the ground and throwing it in front of them. When I came over, my face immediately changed. At this moment, I didn’t want to see them at all, so I turned around and left. XXX suddenly shouted, "You will not be happy, you can’t get married, why do you want to turn her into a woman?" In this way, not everyone is like you, why can't you let her go, I have my own company..." I couldn't listen anymore, I walked back quickly.Why?What I have worked so hard to get, but he is so easy; why?What I look forward to day and night, but he is only within reach!

In the chaos, I returned to my class and sat quietly.I don't know when Shun Jun came over, she gently took my head into her arms, and hugged me with the other hand, after a while, she choked up and said, "Yu Tong, I'm sorry, I shouldn't let you He hurt you, I love you, why don't you act differently?" Seeing that I was silent, she continued, "I accepted the cake because I was afraid that he would be punished by his non-commissioned squad leader when he took it back. If you want to eat cake, I don’t know you will buy it, but I want to make it clear to him when I go downstairs. I’m wrong, don’t ignore me, if you don’t like it, I won’t celebrate my birthday again, okay?”

"It's the first time I've heard you talk so much, and it's not your fault, why do you say 'I'm sorry'" raised his head, looked at the sad look, and muttered with all his anger gone

"I have my dignity and habits. I apologize because I want to keep you. I love you. Believe me, okay?" The deep cold eyes stared at me softly as if dripping water

"But what he said—" Before she finished speaking, she sealed my lips, licked them tenderly, and then slowly moved up and kissed my tears away.When I came back to my senses, I realized that there was no one in the class. I caught a glimpse of the old god Shunjun, and said with contempt: This woman really has the ability, where did she drive everyone away?

Afterwards, she coaxed me to light candles for her cake. After making a wish, she whispered to me, "This birthday, because of me, makes her very happy" (I didn't know until later that Shunjun really likes cakes. Yes, because on her birthday, there are only a handful of days when there is a cake, and even fewer people remember her birthday.)

New Year's Eve, the day of family reunion, the army seems extremely depressed. It is still on duty on combat readiness, and there will be dinners every festival. It is very rich. It is no longer the usual potatoes and steamed buns. After dinner, there are big fish and meat , Shun Jun and I went on duty.It is said that tonight the whole brigade will gather on the training ground to watch the fireworks. I walked around my computer room for a long time, then went to her computer room to observe, and said to her with a wicked smile, "Your terrain is good, and you can see the panorama."

"It will be released for a while, just come and take a look." She looked at the childish me with a smile.

"That's no good, what should I do if the monitor on duty catches me and says I'm in the computer room?" Pretending to be terrified

"Then I'll cover you, how about it?" She didn't expose me, and continued to 'act' with me

"It's so clear to you that you don't even have a cabinet to cover me?" I climbed up the pole

"Okay, you go to be on duty first, and I will call you when I start later." She rubbed my head and looked at me lovingly

Back in my computer room, I watched the hour hand pointing to 8 and the minute hand slipping to 12. I couldn't sit still any longer, ran over impatiently, closed the door, and hugged her standing in front of the window from behind, "Not yet Let's start, why did you come here?"

"I can't wait, I miss you" I buried my head on the back of her neck, sucking the cold incense greedily

"See you every day and still think about it? By the way, don't you know that the door of the computer room cannot be closed?" Just as the voice fell, bang!boom!boom!Several loud bangs ignited the sky, beams of flames scrambled towards the night sky, reached the highest point, scattered, and fell, illuminating the entire training ground.I hugged Shunjun tightly, praying in my heart that we would not fall like gorgeous fireworks, and never fall.She seemed to feel my emotions, turned around, and kissed me lightly, not satisfied with her superficial touch, the tip of her tongue pierced her white teeth, between the lightning and flint, lips and teeth blended, souls collided, and kissed each other heartily , until I felt that my oxygen was exhausted, I gently pushed her away, panting, looked at her blushing face, and heard her say "little guy, you Won't you take a breath?"

"1-2-3-4, 1234" a burst of shouting brought us back to reality, I immediately opened the door, went out and saw Xiaoli and asked "what's the matter?"

"La is an emergency assembly, and the team has just pulled back." Listening to her, standing at the window and looking out, everyone is carrying a big backpack, and they are in awe instantly. This is the strength of the army.

This year, because of Shun Jun's company, the life will not be miserable. I don't know if the mother in the distance is doing well.This time the emergency assembly was in the form of a zipper, so it continued until we changed shifts. When I got back to the class, a thought flashed through me, and I pulled Shun Jun and said, "Let's wash up quickly and wait for them to come back later, and help them clean up." one time"

"Well, you have finally grown up." She seemed to be full of emotion.After all, don't waste any more time, let's finish it quickly.When I saw them again, their faces were pale and pale. No wonder, after running with heavy loads for so long, I quickly helped unload the backpacks and got busy. At this moment, our group seemed to be back in the recruit company. Warm, harmonious, and considerate of each other.