Holding hands can only be happy

The return of Xiaoyu and the others two months later did not bring us joy, but another 'rectification' given to us by the second-year soldiers, but I did not stand with them this time, because when they were punished in the middle of the night , Squad leader Yang would call me over and sit by her bed to chat with her. She always let me sit on her bed, but I would always stick to my duty as a recruit and just sit on a stool.Every time I go back to the class, I will hear a line of ridicule, "Hey, the little follower is back..." Xiaoyu doesn't talk to me, and Shunjun doesn't even look at me. For a long time, I was a People are silent, neither speaking nor explaining.

One day at the beginning of summer, some special situations happened in the duty room. The squad leader Zhao who took me called me from the class to the computer room to help her. It was ten o'clock in the process, and the lights were turned off when I returned to the class. I went to wash up again, but the bed was already made. I was full of doubts. Now my comrades-in-arms are afraid to avoid me, so why would they make my bed?I took a basin to wash up, and happened to meet Squad Leader Yang coming out of her class, "I see that you haven't come back after turning off the lights, so I'll make the bed for you, go wash up and sleep quickly." At this moment, I was completely shocked , We have always helped them make their beds, fold their quilts, boil water... How could this happen now?I have been guarding my bottom line all the time, but why did it become like this? I would rather be punished together with my comrades-in-arms, at least suffer together and laugh together, rather than being squeezed out by them like this now. (Later Shun Jun said that she wanted to help me make the bed that day, but the bed was already made when she came back from helping the monitors)

After lunch the next day, I have forgotten who started it, and an explosion kicked off. "Xiao Yuzi? Are you a good eunuch?"

"Everyone has come to make your bed for you, we are so envious!"

"Did you sell us all?"

"How on earth are you flattering? Didn't you see it before?"

"What advantage did XX Yang give you to treat us like this? Is it because of you that we are living like this now? You better know in your heart that they are going to retire this year, and we are soldiers of the same year!"

Listening to these stimulating words, I was so angry that my whole body couldn't stop shaking, the blood rushed to my brain quickly, and I yelled loudly, "I said no! Will you believe it? Okay! You don't believe it! I will prove it to you Look!" When I rushed out of the class, I saw Squad Leader Zheng who was about to go back to the class. I ignored Sanqi 21 and pulled her and pushed her against the wall, "Why did you take me under the knife just after leaving the company? Why did you hit me?" My face? Why do you let me smell your clothes and look for your pants?..." Before I finished speaking, the group of second-year soldiers rushed out, kicked me to the corner of the wall, and shouted " Are you going to rebel?" "Come out, the recruits are going to rebel?" I could only hug my head and kick them next to them, and in a trance I heard the voices of Squad Leader Yang and Xiaoyu. In the dark.After they were tired from the fight and left, I felt that Xiaoyu was hugging me tightly, and I didn't know how many feet I had suffered for me. She slowly helped me up, and when I looked up, I saw Squad Leader Yang The red eyes stared at me, and the slumped eyes pointed directly to the heart. I could feel how disappointed she was, but, finally, it was over, it was all over!In such a decisive way, let everything return to zero, always opposite, this is the most correct position.

Xiaoyu helped me back to the class, Shun Jun frowned, and asked nervously with her pale face, "What's the matter? Why did you do this? Where did you hurt?" I shook my head, unable to speak. "Where is the injury? Where is it uncomfortable? Change your clothes first, your collar is torn, I will sew it for you, and you will be on duty in the afternoon, and you should be on duty in a while." I looked down at my clothes and trousers. It was full of footprints, and the short-sleeved shirt had been ripped off where the rank hung.Suddenly, I broke away from Xiaoyu's hand, ran to the company headquarters, knocked on the door, and shouted 'report'. After getting permission, I pushed the door in and shouted 'Good company commander'. A series of standard actions, the company commander looked up and down I asked, "Yu Tong, what's the matter?"

"I was beaten by the squad leader of the second-year soldier." Without the slightest hesitation, I straightened my shoulders neither humble nor overbearing.

"Oh, that's it, you go back first, I'll take care of it" I shook my head helplessly, does this mean it's nothing?yes!This is the army, what more can I expect?The bone-chilling cold eroded me, and I went back to the class and changed into a shirt, told Shunjun and Xiaoyu not to touch that shirt, then headed up and went to duty as if nothing had happened. (Later, I took it back home in the same way, and every time I saw it, it reminded me of those years.)

Without asking for leave, I insisted on training as usual, with pain all over my body. Every step I ran, every joint screamed for pain, which stimulated my nerves. Big cold sweat slid down my forehead, breathing heavily, biting Gritting her teeth, she desperately told herself: Persevere, persist, and don't let them look down on you!

A few days later, some of the bruises on my body finally dissipated. Squad leader Chu came back from vacation, dragged me to the corridor and asked straight to the point, "What's the matter with you? Why are you so uncomfortable? Is there any point in making such a fuss? Lian Li It must be towards them, what do you think? Are you stupid?" The angry words made me shake my head helplessly, "I can't get through in class, I have no choice." She sighed, " Do you know who I said before that you resembled me? It was Yang XX, who was equally stubborn and stubborn. Back then, she also said that she was very envious of me and liked me. Gu Zi walked away, without the fairy spirit of the past, and his absent-minded appearance made people feel pity. Looking at her back and thinking about what she said, I don't know what happened between her and Squad Leader Yang. They are not only strangers, but also stand in the opposite direction.

"What did she say to you again?" At this time, Shun Jun's voice came coldly, "Do you know that she and Li X are in the same group?"

"What do you mean?" I frowned at her.

"Are you really stupid or fake stupid?"

"What right do you have to say about me? Where were you when I was told by them? Where were you when I was beaten?" I got angry and accused her like an abandoned child.

"Do you still remember the time when you were called out by Chu XX? Li X said in the class: See, some of you are about to change. Later she often told us, look, this is you Comrades, you have to be careful, the better her life is, the better you will suffer," she said slowly.My brain exploded with a 'buzz'. I vaguely remember that some time ago she told me to be careful of my fellow soldiers. She didn't take it seriously at all. It turns out that what the platoon leader said meant this.Shun Jun hugged me in a dazed way, and her slightly cool breath calmed me down, "They scolded you, I don't know how to defend you, but I'm actually very angry that you walked so close to those second-year soldiers, So when you rushed out, I didn't go there, but when I saw you being beaten, I immediately regretted it, and I was very distressed. Leave everything to me after that, trust me, I promise it will be the same as before, don't mess around like this The sky is gloomy, you should be full of sunshine, like the sun!"

Perhaps because of Shun Jun's relationship, and I don't know how she did it, the friendship between my comrades-in-arms and I seems to have returned to the original friendship.Gradually, I started not to think about anything, and all my heart was on Shun Jun. She was on nights out, and I helped her make her bed and bring breakfast; The cold eyes that looked at me became softer, and the topics gradually increased, but most of the time it was she who listened to me talking vividly and dancing.

Late at night in early autumn, we were sitting in the corridor, studying and working, but unable to sleep. Occasionally, I heard Shun Jun and other comrades talking about their boyfriends, and I immediately pricked up my ears to listen and stare at Seeing her calm and emotionless appearance, unable to figure out the secret hidden under those beautiful eyes, some subtle feelings were fermenting in her heart.

A second-year soldier celebrated his birthday. I don’t know how to get a lot of boxes of beer. When I was still smacking at their skills, those people called us over, saying that it was for them to celebrate. When the pile of wine was placed in front of me, my scalp felt numb. I watched the comrades skillfully open and toasted them without reaching out, but soon they noticed the difference in me and mocked, "Oh, you Look at this little recruit who doesn't give you face at all!" Knowing that no matter how I explain it, it is unnecessary, I picked up the first bottle of wine in my life and said "Happy birthday to the squad leader" and poured it into my mouth , the tip of my tongue was full of bitterness, and my throat was so hot that I wanted to go back to rest after the bottom of one bottle, but I was forced to drink two more bottles and finish it in one go with my eyes closed.

Back in class, I lay on the bed in a dazed state, and I was able to go to bed before twelve o'clock for the first time, but I couldn't tell the difference between east, west, and north, and my heart was full of desolation.Suddenly, a familiar coolness brushed over my hot cheeks, and I couldn't see her cold eyes clearly, and said sadly, "You know, when I was very young, my parents quarreled, and my mother fell asleep while I was sleeping." Afterwards, she drank desperately. When she woke up at night, she was already foaming at the mouth and laying on the table. No matter how much she yelled, she couldn’t wake up. Unable to hold back, she called 120 and sent her to the hospital. She waited at the door for a day and a night before she woke up. At that time, she looked at me beside the bed and promised that she would never drink again. Things like wine. Today, if I were alone, I would not drink no matter how they punished me, for fear that they would implicate you again, and the most unacceptable thing for me is that you are punished for me. Do you know, do you know, I I love you, I'm in love with you..." As the eyelids became heavier and heavier, he fell asleep uncontrollably.I had no dreams all night and was very peaceful. When I woke up in the morning, I felt very refreshed and didn't have any headache symptoms. When I saw Shun Jun coming back from washing, she glanced at me lightly and ignored me.I was just dizzy last night, but I didn't lose my mind. I knew exactly what I said. Thinking of Shun Jun's appearance just now, my heart suddenly became cold.

After I was on duty, I wanted to talk to her, but I found that she was not in the class, and I found the toilet. With a scream of "Ah!", I realized that she was taking a bath, and covered her frightened eyes with a towel in a panic. With a dry smile, he pretended to be calm and immediately backed out.I knew I shouldn't be so impulsive, but now I can't even be friends.Sitting in the class waiting, seeing her come back with a basin, she stretched out her hand to take it, "Don't touch me" There was a distant look in her cold eyes, like a sharp sword piercing straight into her heart, she took it back resentfully, and walked away .

On the weekend, on the way to the service agency, I saw Shunjun pointing to the leaves on the roadside tree and joking with other comrades in arms. His right foot slipped and fell to the ground, and the severe pain stimulated the nerves in his brain.

"Yutong! Yutong, how are you doing?" Her eager voice was next to her ear

"It hurts, I guess I twisted it." My face twitched in pain, and I couldn't speak

"Can you stand up?" After a while, I nodded, and slowly helped me up, "Why are you trying to be brave, why are you picking the leaves properly?"

"I, I, you like it, I just want to give it to you" whispered aggrievedly, still holding the leaf in his hand

"You are such a fool." She looked at Ye Zi, held my hand tightly, and helped me back to the class with a half hug. Now it's all over. I didn't go to the service agency, and I couldn't make a phone call. I don't know. Did anyone see it just now? It's so embarrassing. I didn't get hurt on the training ground, just for a leaf, alas!

Because I felt ashamed, I didn’t ask for leave. I still ran in the morning and trained. My strong willpower has been supporting me. I ran like that, and when I walked, I tried to take normal steps A comrade-in-arms also injured his foot when he was in the recruit company, so he walked with a limp. After the injury was healed, he was used to walking like that, and he still walks like that until now. Try to walk normally) When walking in the queue, those second-year soldiers whispered behind us, "Do you think this movie is going well?" "Yes, it must be fake, this recruit" "I heard it is I fell when I went to the service agency." I seemed to hear the voice of Squad Leader Yang in a daze, and continued to walk without hearing it. That's it. If you can relieve your anger, you can say it. After so many things, I have already experienced many battles .

Xiao Zhou came back from duty, excitedly hugged the things sent by Shun Jun’s boyfriend, and put them in front of her like offering treasures. Amidst the envy of my comrades in arms, I felt my heart was deeply torn apart, and I couldn’t stand the things in the class. The air was almost suffocating, and he walked out decadently.

For my physical fitness in the afternoon, I suppressed the soreness in my heart and the pain in my feet and slowly ran around. Xiaoyu ran to me and said worriedly, "Don't run if your feet hurt, don't hold on." I shook my head and continued to run. I didn't speak, and she asked, "What's the matter with you and Shunjun?"

"Nothing" I don't want to continue this topic

"Do you know that you smile the happiest when she is by your side?" After she finished speaking, she didn't look back and ran to the front. When did this feeling start to become obvious, knowing that I couldn't let it go, but I told her with the strength of alcohol, now I'm in a dilemma, raised my head and took a deep breath, exhaled heavily, and decided at the moment, I can't be like this anymore, I can't Because of his own selfishness hurt her.

In the next few days, I saw her avoid and hide when she could. During the political class, she sat in the front and I sat in the back. I no longer sat at the same table with her for lunch, and I tried to talk to Xiaoyu when I was reading in the corridor at night. I no longer have any intersection with her.

A week later, when I was tidying up the internal cabinet, Shun Jun dragged me to the toilet when she came back from the big night. I looked at her abnormal behavior in a daze, and asked blankly, "What's wrong with you? "

"Are your feet okay?" She said with a somewhat unnatural expression.

"Well, it's almost fine." I didn't want to be alone with her, so I turned around and prepared to leave

"What about me?" I was startled, but when I turned around, my cold eyes were covered with mist.

"I'm sorry." I was flustered and didn't know what to say. I didn't know what happened to her.

"I don't want your sorry, I don't like you chatting happily with others without even looking at me, I don't like you avoiding me, ignoring me, I don't know what I'm thinking! "Tears poured down, deeply burned my heart

"Okay, okay, don't cry, I was wrong, I won't ignore you anymore" I have never heard such aggrieved words from her, he stepped forward to embrace her in his arms, and coaxed her softly.

"I don't know what love is anymore, I've never felt like this before, you can't ignore me, you can't leave me" she whispered softly in my ear, smoothing my melancholy for many days.

"I won't leave you, I'll wait for you until you know what love is." I said firmly, and an extremely slight "hmm" made me tell myself with more certainty that no matter what the result is, I will admit it.

At night, lying in bed, recalling what happened during the day, lamenting this unbelievable, unimaginable thing.Suddenly, I felt someone pushing me beside the bed, bringing a familiar coolness. I realized that it was Shun Jun, who immediately moved in, and she took advantage of the situation to lie down.Immediately, my heart beat faster and faster like a drum. I exhaled quietly, trying to calm myself down. Smelling the faint and cool breath, I didn't feel sleepy at all, and counted the sheep motionlessly.After a long time, listening to her regular breathing, she relaxed her already numb body, and with a slight movement of her stiff fingers, she touched her slightly cold hand, holding her gently before her thoughts.The next day, we all acted in tacit understanding as if nothing had happened. The difference was that there was a smile in the corners of those cold eyes, and I was even more excited and just smirked when I had nothing to do. My comrades joked that I was dreaming of picking up money.