I still don't want to go to school today

It's just that the smile quickly subsided, and a strange emotion—an emotion he had never seen on Xu Zhibian's face before—appeared on Xu Zhibian's face.

Xu Zhibian rubbed his eyes. "...What's written on it?"

"..." Fu Luojia really didn't have the ability to describe it.

Xu Zhibian stopped talking again, he thought for a while that the screen was stuck because of bad internet. "……Hello?"

"I'm here."

"……what."

After a while, there was another voice from Xu Zhibian's side. "The previous things may be a little different from what you think... Let's not talk about that for now."

Fu Luojia was stunned.He didn't expect Xu Zhijian to have such an attitude - no matter how you look at it, the initiative in this matter shouldn't just go back to him.

He had just decided at the dinner table what he was going to do - he was going to whitewash the relationship between him and Xu Zhijian.

It was like a thread in a thousand threads, and when this was pulled out, many other thoughts of his were pulled out—he realized that his guilt had been realized through a classmate record; He is very grateful for all the changes brought to his life and has always looked forward to it; he wants to make up for it, thinking about it now, thinking about it after reading the classmate record, even from the day when Xu Zhijian said "I want to kiss you", he threw away Xu Zhi He was already thinking about it when he lifted his hands.

Classmates are just an incentive.

He thought that Xu Zhiyan would welcome this topic, and it was precisely because of this that he suspected that he was deliberately... to please—or, in other words, he was sticking his feet in the direction of "please".But Xu Zhibian actually said, "I don't want to mention it."

"...It's all my problem, I'm sorry—" Fu Luojia was confused, and his originally clear thoughts were confused again in an instant.He had no choice but to respond with a mindless mechanical apology.

"..."

"Hey?"

"……I am here."

He heard Xu Zhibian take a deep breath. "No need to apologize to me.—Where are you? Out of town?"

"Pro city."

"Ah. Linshi... when will you be back?"

"Tomorrow afternoon."

"Are you going straight home then?"

"It should be, what's wrong?"

"There's a dress rehearsal this afternoon."

"My mom won't be home for a meeting tomorrow afternoon, so I should be able to get back later."

"Then are you coming?"

"...Can you not come to the rehearsal?"

"Actually, whatever you want. If you want to come...do you want me to pick you up at the station?"

"Don't." Fu Luojia blurted out without thinking.

Xu Zhibian didn't speak any more.

"I mean... don't bother..." The silence made him even more anxious.

There were insects chirping in the grass.

He kicked away a deflated soda can at his feet, and the edges and corners of the aluminum can scraped heavily across the ground.Immediately after that, there was a slight rustling sound from a small path in the bushes. He was looking there when a beam of strong light hit his face.

He hurriedly raised his hand to cover his eyes, but he was almost shaken to tears.

It was a flashlight.

Although the beam of light moved away quickly, the spots of white spots on his retina continued to expand until they filled the entire field of vision.

"...Hey, what are you kicking! Wouldn't it be okay to throw it in the trash can?"

He first recognized the fluorescent yellow sanitation worker's vest that was more dazzling than a flashlight in the night.

"Sorry……"

"I'm still hanging out alone at night—" A long, pointed thing stretched out.

He subconsciously ducked back, and when his eyes finally adjusted to the light, he realized that it was a big iron pincer.

"Smoking is not allowed here!" The beam of light swept down again, and a cigarette butt on the ground was picked up by iron tongs.

"I didn't smoke..."

"Then what is this!" The sanitation worker held the cigarette butt in iron tongs and passed it in front of his eyes. "You look like a student, warn you first, and the next time you see you smoking, you will be fined!"

"..."

After getting out of that corner, he panicked and walked to a well-lit avenue close to the roadside shops.

"Why is your face so red?"

"...I ate hot pot tonight."

"Eating hot pot will be the top?"

"The medium-spicy pot bottom they ordered...it tastes a bit hot. If it's okay, I... hang up first?"

"You've been drinking." Xu Zhibian's tone was very firm. "That's why you stood in such a dark place before?"

Fu Luojia hung up the phone with a guilty conscience.

……

I overslept a little in the morning, and after getting up and washing up, it was less than four or ten minutes before the departure time of the train.He originally planned to go out quietly without disturbing anyone, but when he turned the handle of the anti-theft door, his grandma stopped him: "Jia Jia, why are you going?"

He could only stop in the hall. "Well, the train I booked leaves at [-]:[-]—"

"Why did you leave so early?"

It was supposed to be the car in the afternoon, but he changed it after he came back yesterday.I was still dazed when I changed my ticket, and only when I opened my eyes in the morning and saw the departure reminder text message sent by a certain ticketing software did I know that I had really done it.

"I have something to do in the afternoon."

"Ah? Then you can wait a little longer, I'll call your father and ask him to take you—"

"No, the time may be a little too late, and it's not far away."

"I'd better talk to him, you go first, I'll let him drive the car out. If he can catch up with you, you can take his car."

"...That's fine."

He felt grandma relieved.

Dad moved very fast. He walked on the road for less than 10 minutes and a white Volkswagen drove slowly to his left from behind.

The car smelled of orange freshener.

"I'm sorry Jiajia, but the interest class ended early this morning, I went to pick her up—"

He glanced at the rearview mirror in the car.The redness on Dad's forehead has not faded.

The same goes for his neck.

So it's genetic.

"It's okay." He used these two words here by heart.

Dad ordered wine yesterday and didn't intend to ask him to drink with him - he took the initiative to take a glass and filled it up himself.

The capacity of the beer glass is not very large, and it can basically go down more than half of it in one sip.Halfway through the meal, when the water in the pot became less salty, he downed at least six cups in a row.

Dad ordered a few more bottles.

He had no idea how much he drank, and when he finally cleared the bottle, he realized that he had finished at least four bottles by himself.

Dad may only have two bottles - but when the two of them left the hot pot restaurant, their faces were of the same color.He guessed that he and his father were having a good time drinking and chatting, and he was a little excited.

"That's right, after all, it's my own..."

"Pay attention to safety." Dad helped him carry his bag for a while, and stopped at the place where he entered the station.

Then he reached out to help him straighten his wind-torn hair.

He also glanced at the suit and uniform on his father. "The tie is a little crooked."

"Really?" Dad bowed his head.

He also reached out to help Dad straighten his tie.

"Then, bye?" Dad raised his hand and waved, his movements looked a little clumsy. "Come and see more when you have time, if your mother allows it. However, she... likes brother very much. You haven't seen him before..."

"……I see."

……

After lunch in the afternoon, he went to the school by himself, and when he saw Xu Zhijian, he didn't think about what to say.But Xu Zhijian directly reached out and put his arms around his shoulders.

He was so shocked that he didn't grasp the strength properly, and when he flung it away, he also pushed the person away.

Xu Zhibian said blankly, "Can't you make it through?"

"..." Fu Luojia wondered if he missed some important plot in the past night. "What do you mean?"

"I don't want to do what you want anymore." Xu Zhibian paused every word. "It was me who went the wrong way from beginning to end."

"..." Fu Luojia couldn't get the amount of information, so he turned around and changed his clothes.

After taking the stage, Xu Zhijian stood directly opposite him.

This time he sang the whole song while looking at Xu Zhibian's chin.

There are new audiences every time, and weekends are no exception—there are quite a few stay-at-home students.They leaned on the railing of the audience stand, tilting their heads and whispering.

When the prelude played, he held the microphone to calm his breath, and his eyes unconsciously glanced at those people all the time.

The position where Xu Zhibin stood was quite special—it was the referee's seat next to the net of the volleyball match, which was a little higher than the stage.

Xu Zhibian was holding a DSLR this time, covering more than half of his face.As soon as Fu Luojia saw the black fire-like thing in his hand, he didn't dare to glance around, and his head and neck stiffened as if he was really compared with a wooden warehouse.

He didn't dare to stare at the camera, so he had to change places.

He remembered that there was a red mole on the right side of Xu Zhibian's chin.Of course you can't see this distance, but you can rely on impressions and memories.

It would be great if Xu Zhibian could keep silent like this.

But he wants to talk.He also has to hold a megaphone and speak. "You pull up the hem of your clothes when you laugh."

"……what?"

Xu Zhiyan was unmoved, he could only say into the microphone: "...Why are you pulling your hem down?"

The speakers next to the auditorium were on.

"Make a sweat-wiping motion."

"...I'm not sweating."

"For stage effect. If you don't move, you lack... tension."

From this distance he could hear the laughter of the audience.

"..." Fu Luojia was really sweating now. "no need?"

"But I think so."

Xu Zhibian finally put down the camera and speakers and looked at him.He couldn't see Xu Zhijian's expression clearly.He was stunned for a while, and Xu Zhijian began to urge again: "Quick."

When he lowered his head to pick up his hem, he was almost deafened by the screams from the audience.

He recalled a bit, and found that there were actually traces of Xu Zhijian's current situation.Then it occurred to him that there was no way to whitewash the peace and return to the original.

Even the original appearance has been deformed.