I still don't want to go to school today

"Student?" His mother raised her head. "Which classmate?"

"Hey, is that the one—the one I've seen?" Grandma narrowed her eyes, "That thin, tall boy."

"How did you meet his classmate? When, why didn't I know?"

Fu Luojia stood up with his back tensed. "...Then I'll go to the outpatient clinic first and come back later."

"I'm asking you something—"

"I said it," he raised his hand as if to make a gesture of interruption, but it failed to form, and it looked like a funny line was drawn on his chest. "I'll be back in a minute."

"Is there anything else on your side?" He cut off the fucking conversation again.

It can be seen that this disease wears down a person's body and will, even the biggest reliance in his mother's life - anger - has been eroded.There was only a haggard look of puzzlement and shock on her face.

"You rest first." He said. "……mom."

He wasn't completely unconscious these days.It's not that he doesn't have some thoughts and ideas of his own in his head, on the contrary, he has many-but there is only one thing he has the perseverance to think about and think about clearly.

When he found Xu Zhibian, Xu Zhibian was sitting on a bench in the outpatient department of the hospital playing with his mobile phone.Although he was said to be "low blood sugar" and "fallen down", he looks normal now, and even looked up when he saw Fu Luojia, his eyes lit up slightly, as if they were going to play somewhere together next Same.

Fu Luojia knelt down and looked at him.

"Can the others hear us?"

Xu Zhibian then moved a little closer, "What do you want to say? Why is it so fast, have you met Auntie, how is it?"

"I don't think she'll ever escape again," he said in a breathy voice. "But she's doing well now."

Sure enough, Xu Zhibian was very tolerant of his nonsense.After he said that, Xu Zhijian nodded seriously: "Well, that's good. How about you, how do you feel?"

"I feel more than a little like you."

Xu Zhibian probably wasn't used to this type of crazy talk.He didn't make a sound for half a minute, and he didn't reach out to rub the back of his neck or the top of his head like he used to.

"I don't dare to take the initiative to hug you anymore." Xu Zhibian said with a slight smile, "You punched me last time, it hurt me so much."

Fu Luojia then put his arms around him.It must have been an uncomfortable hug, Xu Zhibian lowered his chin in several positions. "Someone is watching us."

"We don't have any flowers for them," Fu Luojia said. "Are you still dizzy?"

"The doctor gave me a vial of glucose. It's sweet, but tasteless. What's next for you?"

Fu Luojia let go of him. "I'll be back in the ward later."

"Ah, good. Then I'll—"

"Go back."

Xu Zhijian froze. "……What?"

"You go back. Go back to the county seat."

"Go back? Now? How is it possible, you alone and I—"

"I have my mother." Fu Luojia said in a relaxed tone. "I have my lovely family. Our family will never be separated."

"Foraka—"

"It's not worth staying with me. Did you forget the 300 yuan you paid for soiling the sheets?"

"You just said that you..." Xu Zhibian paused for a moment, "Are you feeling unwell now? Let's rest for a while, let's talk later—"

"My dad probably came here by car. He can drive you back. It may take a long time, but you can listen to music. There is orange aromatherapy in the back seat, it smells less likely to get motion sickness..."

"You stop first." Xu Zhijian covered his mouth and then slowly released it, and asked word by word: "Why do you suddenly want me to go?"

All of his energy to speak was taken away at once, and he collapsed limply.

"Because when you're next to me, I feel especially... out of control."

Xu Zhibian rarely had such an unnatural expression. "……I see."

"Do you want me to disappear now?"

"..."

"I didn't expect that the longest thing you said to me in so many days was to say this... Then why did you say you like me first."

It's not just like it.he thinks.

His mother was upset because she couldn't get the whole story from him.He ignored it, still sat on the stool, lowered his hair and chatted on WeChat.

"Have you got off the highway?"

"Now in line at the tollbooth. Is there anything wrong?"

"Have."

He clicked on the edit bar again, entered "Dad, I like boys", and sent it.

It's an addictive word once used.Hearty.

Your phone has an incoming call.

hang up.

Call again.

hang up.

The reply message jumped out. "What's going on? Gaga, answer the phone!"

His typing speed dropped too much, and he typed for six to seven minutes, during which many calls came in.

He hasn't muted yet.Amidst the endless ringing, his mother gradually changed from doubt to anxiety: "What the hell are you doing!"

Dad said, you are not very calm, if there is any problem, we will solve it face to face.You answer the phone first.

I'm serious.I'm seriously going crazy.he replied.

Jiajia, you are so old, you have to know how to be responsible for what you say.

I am responsible.

Well, why are you telling me this all of a sudden?You said you like boys, so who is that person you like?

Are you trying to stop me?Is this wrong?

It's not about right or wrong, it's more serious than right or wrong, it's about whether your personality develops normally or not.But Dad believes that the fault is not necessarily your fault.Your mother... Maybe I should insist on not letting her take you away.

After a long time, he sent this message: I like the boy sitting in your car now.

You can start stopping me now.

……

The accompanying bed in the hospital was hard, which prevented him from getting up for a long time the next day.

After the doctor checked the room, the next bed turned on the TV, and the atmosphere suddenly became lively.He first found a disposable cup to wash, then took a bite of the meat bun bought by his grandmother.

If you haven't eaten meat for a long time, you will want to vomit immediately when you get fishy.

This reminded him to take his medicine.

He stood on the bed in a daze for a long time before reaching for the kettle that was there.As he was pouring he found his mother staring at him through the steaming mist, motionless.

"What are you holding?" She couldn't stop asking questions. "You haven't been quite right lately. I can feel it."

He glanced at the pill in his hand, and suddenly felt free to answer, so he bent down and spread the things in front of her.

"You should know it."

She looked closer.She recognized it.Fu Luojia became extremely terrified when he saw her, as if he saw a severed human limb.

He felt amused and a little sad at the same time, stuffed them into his mouth, moved his upper and lower jaws, and chewed.A strange taste exploded in his mouth, and tears flowed out.

He slid along the edge of the bed and sat down on the floor.

"Mom, why did I become like this?"