I still don't want to go to school today

The mobile phone that Fu Luojia held in his hand—that is, the original one of Xu Zhibian—was finally tossed until it ran out of battery.So he put away his cell phone and Cony Bunny, stood in the middle of the ward in a daze for a while, and finally put them into a paper bag with the logo of a certain high street brand printed on it.

The paper bag was stuffed into his hand by the grandmother who concealed it.He didn't take it, and the paper bag slammed to the ground.Grandma bit her cheek and glared at him, bent down to pick up the paper bag, looked at his mother while pinching his arm and pulling him to the corridor.

"Today your dad and the others came to pick you up and go out for a night. Have a meal, take a shower in the hotel and change your clothes - the clothes are yours... your aunt bought them for you. You first check if the size fits No, you can change it."

Grandma picked up the T-shirt from the bag and showed it to him.He still didn't raise his arm, and his eyes didn't know where to look.He waited until grandma let out an exclamation before slowly rolling his eyes to look back.

Somehow the clothes fell to the floor.

"Hey, there's still water on the ground... I have to wash it off first."

"... Throw it away." After saying this, he turned and went back to the ward.

"What to throw away, it's a nice piece of clothing—but the floor is probably terribly dirty...It should be okay to wash it with disinfectant." Grandma was still muttering.

She didn't know where she got the clothes, but the bag was empty anyway.After putting the things in, he folded the mouth of the bag a few times and taped it up.

I was a little distracted when sticking, so I used up a small half of the tape.The bag was so tangled up that it was bent.

He moved the stool and sat on his mother's bed, burying his face face down in the sheets.His mother pushed him and he didn't move. He didn't raise his head until his consciousness was a little blurred due to lack of oxygen, panting while looking at her.

There is still a tube in his mother's stomach, and she has to keep eating or drinking, so she loses weight very quickly.But her eyes were swollen—it had been swollen for days, all over her face.She looked odd and tired.

"Why did you have a problem... I took you to take a test when you were a child... Obviously there is no problem..."

He remembered that the nurse had explained that the tube would still affect his speech. "……What did you say?"

"You obviously..."

This time he observed her expression carefully, and he was sure that talking would make her especially painful.So he guided her on. "When was a child?"

……

He followed his grandmother downstairs.Dad's car couldn't pass, so he had to walk to the place where he sent Xu Zhijian away.

Dad was standing under the street sign with a cigarette in his mouth as before.

"Thank you for sending him down."

"It's not a big deal, so why not be polite. Take him to have a good meal. I'm tired these days..."

As soon as grandma left, he raised his foot to go to the car, but was held back by his father. "Gaga."

"..."

"I've been thinking about what you told me these days—in fact, you lied to Dad." He said. "You said you liked classmate Xiao Xu - Dad didn't quite believe it. Why did you suddenly say that, can you tell me?"

"... Lie to you? Why should I lie to you?"

"I don't see that you like him. Maybe, you think that's a liking, but you don't?"

He smiled without emotion, "...Do you want me to prove it first? Then how should I prove it? I told him that I like him, I kissed him, and I helped him—"

"This kind of thing is not black and white, you are too young—"

"Did you tell him that too, in the car?" he interrupted. "Does it work?"

"Gaga—"

"Shouldn't you tell him how terrible mental illness is? I thought you would say that. Just like you rejected Aunt Lin before, move out grandpa to scare people away-or is that what you said?"

"Your Aunt Lin is here!" Dad quickly turned his head and glanced behind him, "There is no need to raise your voice so high—you seem to be making trouble for no reason now, do you know that?"

——When he opened the back door, he didn't expect that Lin Guoren was still sitting on the seat.Lin Guoren was very excited at first and wanted to say hello to him, but was scared by the atmosphere and shut his mouth.

"Dad scolded you?" She thought her voice was very low, but the two people in the front seat heard it. "Don't cry."

"What's going on?" A deep female voice asked. "Can't you tell people well?"

"..." Dad silently lit the fire and pulled the handbrake.

"Jiajia, there are some fried chestnuts in sugar that I just bought at the back window, but I asked for them, and there are still some left. I don't know if you like it or not—"

"Mom, put it there like this! No wonder I can't find it."

"Do you want to find it and eat it? You don't even look at your teeth—"

Lin really turned his head to look for it. "Oh, whose hat is this?"

"..."

"Huh?" Only Aunt Lin answered, "What hat?"

"...Classmate Jiajiata must have accidentally left behind." Dad's tone was a little unnatural. "I sent him back a few days ago."

"Why did classmate Jiajia come here?"

"He came to see his mother with Jiajia..."

"Ah, then this classmate is really nice, loyal. You have a good relationship, right?"

Fu Luojia was robbed when he was about to speak. "—Yes, the friendship between students is very precious, and we adults are all envious."

"Is it necessary?" he said.

Dad stopped talking again.

"Is Jia Jia unhappy?" Aunt Lin turned her face to look at him from the seat, "Don't get angry with your father, it's not like you don't know how immature he is."

"Do you want to go back with us? I'll take you to see Fu Linlang! The little one is full moon, and her face is very easy to touch - she doesn't cry when I hug her, you can try it too -"

"Ran Ran."

Lin really fell silent again.

"But speaking of this," Aunt Lin rolled down the car window a little, "wouldn't it be inconvenient for Jiajia to be here? The hospital is not a good place either. It's definitely not comfortable to live in for so many days, and no one takes care of him." -"

"It's not that I haven't thought about it...his grandma told me that too. I went to see him in the county some time ago before he was on vacation. At that time, the situation was not very good, so I didn't pick him up. Fuck now, after all Sober... It's not easy to tell her."

"Every time you think about it, you worry about this and that, but you don't ask others what you think." Aunt Lin said "tsk". "Jia Jia, what do you think, live with grandma or stay with mother?"

"……I do not go."

"Okay." Aunt Lin agreed briskly. "That's the end of this topic, let's go have a big meal."

He almost thought it was going to be a peaceful evening, until Dad answered Grandma's call.At this moment, Lin Guoren and Aunt Lin were sitting close together peeling shrimp.Dad held up his mobile phone, put down his chopsticks as he listened, his face became serious.

Grandma said that what she told his mother was that Fu Luojia would go to the place where his aunt lived to rest for a while today, but for some reason, his mother didn't believe it.His mother wanted to call him on the mobile phone, but the mobile phone number was immediately turned off.

Grandma didn't feel anything, but her mother's emotions broke down at that time.

"She is clamoring to find you. She has to stay in bed—isn't this a life-threatening joke. The nurses came several times and almost couldn't hold her down. Now she's still crying..."

"She doesn't know why she thinks something will happen to you... She doesn't listen to her advice, and she says something inexplicable like 'my son is dead and I won't live'. I asked her why she thought so, and she said—"

"She said the knife was missing."

Fu Luojia suddenly laughed when he heard this.

Dad looked at him, frowning. "Did you tell your mother something too?"

"Say I'm gay? Not yet."

Dad went to see Aunt Lin again. "... Be careful when you speak your words, and give yourself some leeway. Let's go, I'll take you back."

He poked at the scallop meat in the bowl. "I want to eat first. Wait until I finish."

He turned the scallop meat over again, and continued to poke it, without any intention of sending it into his mouth.

"...Did you do it on purpose?"

He didn't answer.

Lin Guoran jumped over with a smile and put a piece of shrimp meat to his mouth. "this is delicious."

He swallowed without chewing.