I still don't want to go to school today

Fu Luojia thought, there is no need to be too shocked - of course Xu Zhiyan has the freedom to do anything.But he still couldn't help but rummaged through the apps on this phone, but couldn't find the blue icon.Then he clicked on the photo album again, and after a cursory scan, he didn't see even a photo of Xu Zhijian himself.

Just like what Xu Zhibian posted in Moments, the photos are full of other people's faces.The most recent photo was taken two months ago. It was taken of a crowd in the distance. It was out of focus and the angle was very random. Fu Luojia even suspected that it was the result of a mistaken touch.

The videos are mostly recordings of some parties.Among them, the billiard room scene that he is more familiar with appears every seven days, and the duration is not short. He couldn't help but wonder if Xu Zhibian took pictures from the beginning to the end with his mobile phone.

He didn't click to see the specific content inside, exited the photo album, and accidentally touched the memo with a trembling finger.

The memo actually has a lock.It was hard for him not to think of his own habits, and after some hesitation, he entered four sixes.

Then he opened his eyes wide.

There are countless images in the memo, but there is only one person in the image.The shooting distances may be near or far, the angles may be frontal or sideways, and the equipment is also different - some are obviously not taken with a mobile phone, and judging from the aspect ratio, most of them come from Xu Zhijian's SLR.

He dragged it from the beginning to the end, and slowly determined: this character is himself.

When was it filmed?

He was completely unimpressed.

A faint smile on his face that lasted less than three seconds quickly turned into sadness.Then he clicks "Select All".

"Delete all selected items?"

In the end, only one newly deposited photo remained in the memo.Although I don't know why it was posted on a certain website, it is undeniable that this is a very good photo, like a gentle conversation.

Xu Zhibian is in the center of the screen, looking at the camera with a smile in his eyes, it should be that he has full tacit understanding and trust with the invisible person who pressed the shutter.

Free and calm, open and above board.

Fu Luojia couldn't take this kind of picture.

……

When Dad proposed to go for a run in the park with him, Fu Luojia felt that the suspension of school would turn around.

Therefore, although his father told him "your mother's prognosis is relatively poor", he was still in a relatively relaxed mood.

"If this disease gets worse again and again, no one can hold on. The worst case...we don't want to see it. She is mainly in a bad mood. Your grandma said that she loses control of her emotions as soon as she wakes up..."

He didn't react too much, and said "hmm".

After so many days, summer has passed, and the lotus leaf bushes in the artificial lake are holding out a few flower buds from under the water surface.The buds are still tightly contained, and will not bloom in a short time.

"...Actually, many years ago, I thought about whether you would hate us. Now I don't even have the courage to think so. But I still hope you can understand, we all wish you well, especially your mother..."

"I know." He answered just in time.

"I hope you and your mother can get through this. It may be difficult, but you must not give up. You see, you have obvious results now."

"You want to go back to school, that's fine. But, I have to entrust you to Teacher Ye. You have to live on campus, and you have to listen to her—"

funny.But to be expected.He nodded.

"Won't this trouble her? There are other people in the class..."

"You should know that you are different from other students with her. She loves you just like us and doesn't ask for anything in return."

He was silent for a moment, then asked abruptly, "Then what do you mean by love?"

Dad seemed to be questioned.Fu Luojia quickened his pace to pass him, took a deep breath and started the last sprint of the long-distance running.

——Maybe one more tablet of Valium may be missing before going to bed.Insomnia rarely comes back, except the night before going back to school.But not because of school, but because of fucking.

He lay flat on the bed, clasped his hands, and a familiar plot began to play out in his mind.She still wanted to strangle him persistently, but when she reached out, he pulled out the hanging tubes from her body, and watched her collapse on the ground with a gurgling sound in her throat.

Every time she reached out to him, he stepped on and broke her wrist bone.

She died soon after.She was placed in his present position and pushed into an incinerator under a high chimney.The band played and played, and the sound of mahjong continued all night.He's a latecomer, wailing half-truths on the finale's finale.

Then he walked out of the ice-cold funeral parlor, and saw another woman in a long skirt standing under the paulownia tree on the street corner, with a gloomy face.

As if nothing happened, Fu Luojia walked over to lead her, and they walked away from the sun together.

"Foraka."

The sound woke him up.

But what right did he have to dream of Xu Zhijian appearing again?

……

The school's deadline for reporting was at [-]:[-] pm, and at [-]:[-] he came from the office with the final paper, and there were still only a few people sitting in the classroom.

After the number of people increased, the atmosphere in the class was still relaxed. The only difference from usual was that there were fewer people playing with mobile phones, and more people chatting together.

The third year of senior high school started half a month earlier than other grades. Many people were extremely reluctant to return to school. When they saw the empty teaching building on the other side, their mentality became unbalanced, and they complained a lot about the school.

Tang Cheng is quite different. He shared his experience as a slaughterhouse worker during the summer vacation with others, and everyone was very embarrassed.

Fu Luojia was like a blind man in this bustle, he could not see others clearly, nor could he find himself, but he pretended to blend in quite well.He remembered that he seemed to answer Tang Cheng's criticism, but he couldn't tell which sentence it was.

In short, there is a lively and bright air around him.

Whenever chatting, gossip is always indispensable.The topic slipped past a bunch of names he hadn't heard of before, and finally stopped on the three words "Xu Zhijian".

Li Shuyi lowered her voice and said, "Some people say that Xu Zhijian is gay, do you believe it?"

"Wow, I know that one! Have you seen that video? It's so widely spread, my cousin's college classmates have posted it!"

"What, what university does your cousin know about Xu Zhijian?"

"She's a teacher. They don't know each other, so they think the person inside is very handsome, but it's a gay... It's shocking."

"It's fake, Xu Zhijian himself said that the account was not opened by him, and the photos were stolen by others."

"He would definitely say that himself—I think it might be true. Look, there are so many girls who like him. Which one has he dated?"

Zhou Linya didn't participate at the beginning, but when he heard this, he suddenly said, "How do you guys know how to spread rumors? How could it be true? It's obvious that someone else wants to punish him!"

"Yo yo, Xiao Zhou Zhou is upset."

"Why are you so sure, has Xu Zhibian ever chased you?"

"It's not your turn if Xu Zhibian really likes women, maybe you have a better chance if he likes men."

As soon as the words fell, several girls burst into laughter.Zhou Linya kicked the table: "Laugh at your mother, you say it again?!"

The red pen in Fu Luojia's hand to correct mistakes was suddenly taken away. "Stop writing, just chat and have fun."

He raised his head, and the atmosphere was tense at this moment, so he said casually: "All the papers for the end of term are in Teacher Ye's office, and they will be lectured tomorrow, so you can go and get them first."

Zhou Linya stared at him, and burst into tears unexpectedly. First he wept endlessly, and then he began to wail, attracting a lot of attention.A few girls panicked, "Well, let's make a joke...don't cry!"

Fu Luojia looked at her in blank dismay.She hiccupped and raised her hand to shove him on the shoulder: "What have you done!"

Fu Luojia: "..."

"Where's the agreed champion?? How did you let Rudy get the first place? What's wrong with you?! I even copied the notes for you for so long—"

"..."

The summer vacation was too long, he seemed to have never been to school in his whole life, and he had long forgotten his ranking and grades.However, the results of the final exam were not unfair at all, but he did not expect that Zhou Linya was the first to talk to him about this.

I just chatted with Mr. Ye for two hours, and I didn't say a word about the failure of the exam.

"Sorry..." He turned his head uncomfortably. "It's my problem. You don't need to be sad about this kind of thing at all."

Blowing his nose, Zhou Linya took out his mobile phone to poke, touched his elbow after a while, and quickly turned up the screen for him to take a look when the people around him were not paying attention.

He just felt blurred before his eyes, sighed, pulled a page and wrote: I didn't see clearly, what did you say?

Zhou Linya's words slowly crawled out from the tip of his pen: "They think Xu Zhibian likes you, and they just made side-steps, but they actually want to see your reaction, so you have to be careful."

Fu Luojia crushed the piece of paper and squeezed it in the palm of his hand.

His tone was relaxed, and what he said was another thing: "There should be some high school mobilization later, Teacher Ye asked me to give a speech, can you help me find a manuscript on the phone?"