Song Song

For the next few days, Liu Zhihao kept avoiding Lin Xiaosong.They ran into each other several times, but the child pretended not to see him, feeling guilty. He was always reminiscing about that wonderful night and the other person's good smell.

He has not yet turned twenty, and he has never experienced any messy things. Every night lying on his sweat-smelling narrow bed, he always inexplicably recalls the smell of Lin Xiaosong, and his life from now on will eventually be shrouded in In this piece of memory.

When Chu Yi drove out from the inpatient department, he saw Lin Xiaosong sitting on the curb at the entrance of the hospital, looking back and forth, with a newspaper under his buttocks.

He drove over, rolled down the window, and said concisely: "Get in the car."

Lin Xiaosong grabbed the schoolbag beside him, opened the car door and sat in the back.

Chu Yi pulled his tie and threw it on the passenger seat, glanced at the people in the back seat from the rearview mirror, and asked casually, "Where are you going?"

Lin Xiaosong stared at the man closely, but his expression was flustered and aggrieved, he pursed his lips and said nothing.

Seeing that there was nothing to ask, "Let's go to your place." The man said casually.

Chu Yi started the car, turned on the left turn signal, and merged into the main road.

It was quiet in the car.

After a while, while waiting for the traffic lights at the next intersection, Lin Xiaosong lowered the windows a little to get some wind.

The only thing is that the season is not a good one, the city is full of fluttering, he sneezes first, then coughs again.

Chu Yi took out a bottle of mineral water and handed it back to him.

Lin Xiaosong didn't answer, closed the window, and kept staring outside, as if he was tripped by something.

"You really think I'm a bad guy." Chu Yi teased, with something ambiguous in his voice, "There is no poison in the water."

This is the case with men. When separating the relationship, they still can't forget to take advantage of words.

"I don't drink cold water." Lin Xiaosong said looking at the bottle of water.

Chu Yi withdrew his hand, threw the mineral water directly onto the passenger seat, and said with a "boom," "You weren't so particular before."

Lin Xiaosong seemed to have been scalded in the eyes by a branding iron, and his voice seemed to have been tempered by fire: "It used to be before, but now I'm pregnant."

Chu Yi didn't want to entangle endlessly on this nonsensical question, just as the green light ahead turned on, he stepped on the accelerator and drove away from the intersection.

Lin Xiaosong silently looked out of the window, his fear deepened inch by inch, what if the man still refuses to admit it, what should he do?

A call came in halfway, and the phone was connected to bluetooth, and it was in external mode.

Chu Yi pressed the answer button.

"Dinner is up to you. I've made an appointment to go shopping at Oriental Plaza."

"Got it." His voice was crisp.

The phone was cut off suddenly, and the man explained, "It's my mother."

Lin Xiaosong remembered his mother, who came to the house once, with a sense of local superiority, and he still remembered how picky her eyes were when she looked at him.

He suddenly felt very tired. If he really convinced the man, would his damn critical eyes follow him for the rest of his life.

"Will you move out after you get married?" Lin Xiaosong asked the man tentatively, without any confidence.

Chu Yi didn't expect him to ask this, and he was slightly disgusted, just like he hated anyone showing weakness in front of him, "Why do you ask this suddenly?"

Lin Xiaosong lowered his head and grabbed the hem of his clothes: "Just ask."

"I have no plans to get married, at least not in the near future." This is the truth, men under [-] really haven't had enough nonsense.

Lin Xiaosong twisted his breath, like some kind of mysterious spell: "You will tie the knot."

"Fuck!" The man suddenly uttered a curse word, then honked the horn, killed the steering wheel, and turned back the Cadillac behind who was trying to overtake.

Lin Xiaosong was frightened by the movement, covered his mouth and retched non-stop.

Vomiting violently, even tears came out.

There was a box of paper drawers in front of the car, and it was easy to pass it to Lin Xiaosong, but the man never moved.

After that, he didn't say another word, and the car fell into silence again.

When they got there, Chu Yi asked Lin Xiaosong to get off the car first.

Lin Xiaosong stood outside, through a glass window, the man's side face was hidden in the sway, he knew that the man was angry.

After the car was parked, Chu Yi stepped down, glanced at Lin Xiaosong, and said in a distant tone, "Go up."

Walking in the dark corridor, Lin Xiaosong could hear each other's breathing. The past seems to have not changed, but everything has changed somewhere.He knew it in his chest, and he had already made plans to kill the fish and kill the net.

Lin Xiaosong took out the key to open the door, changed his shoes first, and then took a pair of clean slippers from the shoe cabinet.

Chu Yi also changed his shoes and came in.

Lin Xiaosong asked him: "There are some dishes and leftovers in the refrigerator, do you want to stay here for a meal?"

"No, I'll be back in a while."

"Then you can sit wherever you want."

Lin Xiaosong ignored him, put on his apron, and went into the kitchen to warm up some leftovers for himself.Within a few minutes, he came out with the food, and took a few bites of the food alone, as if enjoying the taste.

Life is full of trivialities, you have to wash vegetables and cook, mop the floor and wipe the table, take care of the big and small affairs of the house, and when the sun is good, you have to move the quilt out to dry in the sun. The complexity of relationships still haunts you all the time.

Lin Xiaosong is a hard worker by nature, born in the year of the Ox. He just dried the quilt yesterday, and he is four months pregnant, but he is not sloppy in his work.

"Brother Chu Yi." Lin Xiaosong called out softly, the chopsticks in his hand still hadn't been put down.

Chu Yi sat in the living room with a distance from him, and said in an ordinary tone, "If you have anything to say, just say it."

Lin Xiaosong was silent for a while, and then said: "You marry me, I want to live a good life with you."

Chu Yi frowned, took out a cigarette and lit it, and after a while, said in secret: "Go back to your hometown, the cost of living here is high, and you don't have a house."

Lin Xiaosong continued to pick up the rice, and a few tears fell into the bowl as he ate. It may be that his mood has fluctuated too much recently, and he always felt that there was endless water in his eyes.

"I won't go back." He stopped crying, "If you marry me, I won't have a house to live in."

Chu Yi smiled when he heard the words, a very shallow smile, which seemed to contain anger, "So that's what you thought."

Lin Xiaosong dropped the bowl and chopsticks with a "slap", turned around and asked him aggressively: "I am pregnant with your seed, and you let me go back to my hometown, where can I go alone!? I also have no money."

Another house, another money.

Chu Yi twisted his cigarette, and suddenly felt that it would be very troublesome to get involved with Lin Xiaosong, but his patience was limited, not to mention that the other party had such a philistine attitude.

"How much do you want?" Chu Yi was straightforward, he only wanted to cut off this relationship as soon as possible.

Lin Xiaosong knew that he would have misunderstood it, and in a moment of impatience, his stupidity became more and more serious. He hesitated and said, "I... I don't want your money."

"Then what do you want? Marry me?" Chu Yi stood up slowly, took his coat and put it on his elbow, and planned to leave, "Then why not give you some money."

Lin Xiaosong also stood up "flying" and held his head high, trying to maintain a sense of self-esteem, "I'm pregnant with your seed, you have to take responsibility."

After the house and money were raised, Chu Yi was really annoyed by the fact that there was an unnecessary child involved. He looked at Lin Xiaosong and told him straightforwardly: "You can't get pregnant. To put it simply, you don't even have normal ovulation for women. , where did the child come from?"

Lin Xiaosong lost his momentum and stammered, "The doctor said...that's what he said, I went to the hospital for an examination."

He has never had confidence in his deformed body. If someone pokes it lightly, he will fall into an irreversible inferiority complex.

After changing his shoes at the entrance, Chu Yi stepped forward, "Then you can sue this hospital, maybe you can even pay a large sum of money."

The man is gone.

Lin Xiaosong lay on the table in a daze. Recently, he often thought of his grandma.

When his grandma was still alive, she always liked to coax him: "One's whole life, in the end, is just busywork, Songsong, you can't be busy in the future, you, be a little cotton-padded jacket for grandma."

He was young at that time and couldn't understand it. Looking back now, only the word "sorrow" remains.

While sleeping, Lin Xiaosong moved the books he had been reading to the bed, and he leaned against the head of the bed, ripping out the ink-smelling paper page by page.

"I don't like reading books in the first place, and I don't want to read books anymore in my life." He muttered, maybe he was telling his dead relatives.

The last sentence, choked in the throat, I don’t know if my relatives can hear it——

"They all bullied me."

The author has something to say:

Songsong will leave this place in the next chapter, so the progress is pretty fast.