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Going to work, I was not in the mood. What happened yesterday was so sudden that I couldn't react. I didn't sleep well all night. I sorted out my thoughts a little bit, and then I realized that my heart was completely cold.

When Li Xiao was in love with Ge Yun, he must have thought about marrying her. As he himself said, she wanted to use Ge Yun's relationship. If he and Ge Yun were just in love, her father would not believe him so easily. After all, no matter how good his relationship with his daughter is, he is just an outsider, but if they get married, it will be different, they are people on the same boat, and I, who is so stupid, was really so easy to be Li Xiao's attitude is perfunctory, I believe that Li Xiao may really not like Ge Yun very much, or despise such a high-ranking daughter like Ge Yun who does not treat others as human beings, but he must have thought about it in the future, otherwise He won't propose to go back with me. When I go home and start a company with him, he will have more reason to run away. No one doubts him, at least I don't doubt him. I never thought he would be here marry!

He acted so naturally, even if he was exposed once, he was still so confident and not guilty at all, I just felt that I couldn't get along with him anymore, how could he lie so nonchalantly, especially to me, his heart Don't you feel guilty?I really want to ask him.

I lifted the quilt, went to the table to get my phone, there was a text message, it was from Li Xiao: "Xiao Can, are you up, the temperature is cooling down today, remember to add more clothes, you always refuse to wear more"

I wanted to throw the phone out, but when I held it in my hand, my knuckles turned white, I pulled out the phone, my mind was spinning fast, thinking about what vicious words I would use to scold him after he answered the phone, I was so angry The blood rushed straight to his forehead, and he just wanted to scold him for being a liar.

But no one answered his phone. I called him three times, but no one answered. I threw my phone on the bed, and I was so angry that I couldn't stop hitting the wall. What should I do, I thought.

I spent the whole morning in a daze, and when it was time to eat, I slumped on the sofa, closed my eyes, and felt that everything was boring, and the phone rang. I don’t know if it was Li Xiao. Let him go, let him go, it's my own problem, I like you, I'm not firm, I only think that others are cannon fodder, I am the protagonist, life is like this, if I stood firm at the beginning, then I could see through Li Xiao a long time ago, this is retribution, after thinking about it, tears came out again, Fang Can, can you be more useless!I scolded myself in my heart.

After two o'clock, I felt very hungry and uncomfortable, but I really didn't want to move. I didn't sleep well at night, and my body was weak. By four or five o'clock, I was probably too hungry, so I didn't feel anything. The phone didn't ring. I thought, Li Xiao should show up in these two days, and then the showdown will be complete. I curled up on the sofa, feeling sad.

When it was almost six o'clock, there was a sound of opening the door. I opened my eyes and slowly sat up from the sofa. Li Xiao came back.

Seeing me sitting on the sofa without turning on the TV or the lights, he asked, "What's wrong?"

"Li Xiao," I said, without looking at him.

"Huh?" He took off his coat and put it on the sofa, sitting next to me.

"Congratulations, happy wedding"

He didn't expect me to say such a word so abruptly, he stood there in a daze and didn't respond for a long time.

"Who told you?" He sat down next to me, with a hint of anger in his voice.

I sneered and said: "Is this important? You are getting married, why didn't you tell me, are you afraid that I won't break up with you, or are you afraid that I will tell your wife? Li Xiao, you are doing well."

"There is no way I can marry her. I have to rely on her father. Don't you know that? How did you know that I was going to break up with you?! I said I just want to be with you, don't you fucking do this Talk to me!" Li Xiao suddenly yelled at me uncontrollably after being caught with a sore foot.

If I had a little bit of luck in the first place, his attitude now shows the authenticity of this matter. I looked at him angrily, and shouted back without giving in: "How can I talk to you! You It’s so greedy, you hide one at home and raise another outside, you just want to be with me?! Fuck your shit, you planned to marry her a long time ago, if I didn’t see those photos, you fucking I simply plan to act like nothing happened from the beginning to the end, you are not like what I reported, why didn’t you say this?! Eh?! You are so clever that you can fool people, and you play me like a monkey. yes"

After being together for so many years, this is the first time we have such a violent quarrel, and it will probably be the last time. We all know what we will face after the quarrel is over.

"What's the matter with getting married? I will divorce her. You can't pretend you don't know. Nothing will change. Why do you have to be so fussy? Are you tired? Do you have to make a mess?"

"Yes, that's how I am. If you marry her, you will have a good time. I will have nothing to do with you in the future."

Li Xiao stood up as if he couldn't bear it any longer: "Are you going to break up with me?!"

I looked at him and wanted to say yes, but I couldn't summon up the courage for a while: "It's you who want to break up with me"

"I said, if it wasn't for the people on the same boat, how could they help me? It's just a stopgap measure for me to marry her. What are you struggling with!"

"What am I struggling with?" I laughed disdainfully: "I don't want to know the reason why you married her. I only know that you and her are now in a married relationship. This relationship is protected by law. Between you and me, you What I think in my heart, what I say in my mouth, it doesn’t mean anything to me.”

This sentence is tantamount to questioning Li Xiao's feelings for me. He stood up and pointed at me: "What do you mean? Are you beating around the bush and calling me hypocritical!"

"You admitted it yourself, not me. You thought about marrying her before, but how did you tell me when I found out? Whereabouts, but in fact, you didn't intend to tell me what you really did. What you told me was to cover up what you were really going to do. Li Xiao, don't tell me that you believe in you. Feel your conscience and ask yourself, if I hadn't doubted you before, I wouldn't have found out about your things at all, and you still have the nerve to ask me to believe you, ha, it's so funny!"

He had a ghost in his heart, and he could only keep his mouth shut in the face of my questioning, or maybe he really felt a little guilty, and he said: "I admit that I do have subjective intentions in some things, but if I don't do that, you can Forgive me, if you had known that I might marry her, you would have broken up with me long ago."

I was trembling with anger. It turned out that he had always known my background clearly, but he stepped over without the slightest hesitation, mercilessly and full of deceit.

I was suddenly worthless for myself. I compromised again and again for him, but the most important thing in his heart was still his revenge. Maybe it was so important that it took up Li Xiao's entire life, but in his heart I Isn't it worth his giving up for me? !

"Li Xiao," I said, "Let's break up."

"No!" He roared almost crazily: "I'm not allowed! It's all at this juncture, can't you calm down a bit, I said I only want you alone, what are you dissatisfied with to force me into it? dead end"

I looked at him and felt that the tears couldn't stop pouring up. I told myself not to cry, not to cry!

"I'm not forcing you, I'm helping you." I said coldly, "It should be a good thing for you if I quit. In the future, you don't need to make excuses or make up lies, just be happy and relaxed." "

"Thank you, I don't need it! You just have to pretend you don't know, and you don't need to worry about anything else"

Not only did I sneer, but I retorted him: "I'm going to find a woman to get married tomorrow, maybe I'll bring a baby back one day, and then tell you that my heart is with you, how everyone should live, you can accept it calmly , I accept it!"

After yelling, I stood up from the sofa and walked into the room to pack my luggage without any hesitation. In fact, I haven’t made up my mind about where I’m going, and it’s unrealistic to go home so soon, but I just want to leave, and I don’t want to leave for a moment. stay here.

"What are you doing?!" He followed in and panicked when I took out the suitcase. "You're still in the mood! Did I say we were going to break up? Stop it!" He packed all my clothes into the suitcase Throw it out, even throw the suitcase directly out of the bedroom, grab the clothes on my chest, and press me against the wall.

"Are you going to fight with me?!" I grabbed his arm, and we glared at each other furiously.

After being silent for a while, the anger in his eyes receded a bit, and his attitude gradually softened: "I didn't cheat, believe it or not, although I thought it might be possible to get married, but I have been procrastinating, if I can I don’t need to get married, I definitely won’t get married, but now I have no choice but to escape, so I agreed to marry her, I can’t offend her now”

"Have you touched her before? She's pregnant." Thinking of this, my mood became more complicated. I'm about to have a child, so no matter how much I can't let go of him, I will force myself to let go.

"What?" Li Xiao didn't seem to expect that I would ask such a question, and loosened his hand pressing me.

His reaction undoubtedly confirmed what I thought in my heart. I just felt that the blood in my whole body was boiling. He also said that he hadn't cheated. Pushing him violently with all his strength, he fell onto the bed all at once: "Li Xiao, my mother, you bastard!"

I didn't even want to pack my luggage, so I turned around and rushed out. I couldn't stay here for a second.

"Wait" Li Xiao chased him out.

"Get out!" I pushed him.

We wrestled together again, and Li Xiao put me on the sofa and pressed me tightly with his body.

"Listen to my explanation," he gasped, "she is indeed pregnant, but the child is not mine. She was revenged by her ex-boyfriend and raped her after getting drunk. She seems to have had a few abortions before. If this time If you lose it again, you may not be able to have children in the future. She cried to me, and I said I don't mind, and I will continue to fall in love with her. In fact, this is exactly what I want, and it will make her completely trust me and help me with all her heart, but her father knows Later, she wanted us to get married right away. I took advantage of the situation and said that I would talk about marriage with her after thinking about it. I said that this matter might be risky, and I couldn’t drag her down. , her daughter couldn't afford it, and promised to help me after marriage. I spent the night at her house. We had sex, but we didn't make it to the last step. I said I was afraid that it would hurt the child and her. I know What can I do to make her believe that I really want to spend the rest of my life with her, and at critical moments, I always have to offer snacks."

He hugged me, buried his head into my neck, and said: "Actually, I can only tell you part of it, but I really don't want to lie to you. This is my truest thought. Although it is ugly, it is not deceitful. Now that it has been exposed , I don't want to hide it either, you should know my heart, Xiaocan, I'm sorry, I know it's unfair to you, but I can't help it, this is a shortcut, I must seize this opportunity, if I succeed, I will once and for all”

I was pressed on the sofa by Li Xiao, feeling the weight of his body, and the sorrow surged up in my heart, I was still shaken, again.

Because I still love him, I closed my eyes, trying to ignore this emotion, not to be shaken by the emotion in my heart, I looked at him, and said word by word: "No matter what, you are married, you have to treat you Be responsible for your behavior, sign the paper, at least during the duration of your marriage, you should remain faithful, this is the most basic principle, and it is also the bottom line that should be abided by."

These words are actually implied, I know I shouldn't be so ambiguous, but I can't let him go.

Li Xiao obviously understood. He looked at me with red eyes, tears streaming down my face.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry...I'm sorry" Li Xiao pulled me up from the sofa, and apologized to me with sobs.

We sat from evening until late at night, Li Xiao sat next to me, and I could feel his restraint.

I haven't eaten for a day, and my stomach feels uncomfortable. I think, I'd better go to the kitchen to see what to eat, or my stomach will hurt again.

So I stood up, but probably because I hadn't eaten all day and sat for too long, my legs felt weak when I got up, and I almost fell down.

"What's the matter with you?" Li Xiao quickly rushed over to help me and let me sit on the sofa.

"It's okay" I said: "I haven't eaten all day, I'm very hungry"

"I'll get you something to eat, what do you want to eat?"

"Whatever, hurry up"

"it is good"

He got up and went to the kitchen, and about a quarter of an hour later, a bowl of noodles came out, with a poached egg and fried vegetables in it.

"Eat it." He handed the chopsticks to my hand: "Be careful it's hot, I'll blow it for you," he said.

I looked at the hot noodles in front of me, and I felt my nose was so sore, he always took care of me like this, but he was married, no matter what his intentions were, he now belonged to another person, I slowly ate the noodles, one bite at a time Swallowing them in one gulp was extremely difficult.

I can't be shaken, this is the most responsible result for me, Li Xiao, and his new wife.

After eating the noodles, my body felt a lot more relaxed, at least I didn't feel cold again and again, but I was so tired, I really wanted to lie down on the bed and rest for a while, I don't know if Li Xiao will come in, now, I really don't want to care about these things Some do not.

I stood up and said, "I'm going to sleep for a while"

"Okay, okay, go to bed, I'll do the dishes"

I didn't say anything more, I went to sleep in my room after washing up, today was really bad, and my mind was in a mess until now, in fact, I talked a lot with Li Xiao today, but it seems that there is no result. I don't know what he is thinking now, and what kind of relationship will become between us after today, I rubbed my face vigorously, just wanting to relax a little, and then I don't know when, I finally fell asleep.

When I woke up the next day, there was no one at home, Li Xiao left, and there was a letter on the table. I had achieved my goal, but my body started to tremble slightly, and I didn’t even dare to go over to read the letter. What, I'm afraid it says breakup, but obviously, I was the one who insisted on breaking up yesterday.

"Xiao Can, I'm sorry, I thought about it all night yesterday. From our acquaintance to falling in love, and later you came here with me, the trust I built at the beginning seems to have been destroyed by me. I don't want to quibble for my lies. , this will make me feel that I am not worthy of you. If I had to do it all over again, if I had to choose between losing you and cheating you, I might still choose to cheat you, because the price of losing you is too high, and I really can’t bear it. So at the moment when I was exposed by you, I couldn't help venting my inner panic, you are right, since I signed the paper, I should be loyal, Xiaocan, I will be loyal to you this time, Don't lie anymore, so I hope you can wait for me, give me another two years, don't leave, this time, I will keep my promise, and when I appear in front of you again, I will be the complete Li Xiao, your identity I took it away, it’s not that I don’t believe you, but that I can’t believe that there’s anything worthy of your nostalgia for me like this, you can understand my low self-esteem, don’t you?”

I went into the bedroom and opened the closet, and all the clothes belonging to Li Xiao had been taken away by him. I sat on the bed blankly, looked at the half-empty closet, and remembered that when they first moved in, their clothes were all There are not many, and there is still a lot of space in the cabinet, so I buy some every time I go shopping and find something I like. The two of us are one size, I wear 175, Li Xiao wears 180, but later I got fatter and wear 180 Although the ones are a bit big, they are loose and comfortable, so I bought 180 later, and I can wear them interchangeably. Now the cabinet is suddenly halfway up, and I sit there, feeling empty and unspeakably melancholy.

After lying at home for another day, I went to work. There are many things in the company. Now I am in charge of finance and administration alone. go to work.

When I arrived at the company, Chen Yuan was holding a morning meeting for the staff in the living room. When she saw me coming in, she was taken aback. I smiled at her and said, "Morning."

She realized that there are still employees waiting for her, so she nodded to me: "Morning"

I turned around and walked into the financial room, washed the cups, made a cup of tea, and then turned on the computer, ready to do things.

Chen Yuan came in, with a hesitant expression on his face, he asked, "How's it going?"

"Solved" I said.

"How... how to solve it?" She hesitated for a while before asking, I knew that with her personality, she couldn't hold back.

I showed Li Xiao's letter to her, and she returned the letter paper to me after reading it, and said angrily, "That's it, don't believe him! How could he be like this, he's really married!!! He's a liar !"

Chen Yuan looked really angry, as if she was the one involved. I was really touched by her concern for me, and I appreciated her affection, so I was willing to speak out what was in my heart to her.

"I still love him"

Chen Yuan looked at me with a crying expression on his face: "I shouldn't have told you"

"No" I shook my head: "Thank you for telling me Chen Yuan, really, no matter what the result is, I don't want to live in a lie"

"Are you really going to wait for him?"

"Should be, anyway, the company can't leave, so let's just work here for another two years." I comforted Chen Yuan like this, and I also comforted myself.

Finally, Chen Yuan said unconvinced: "It's not fair."

She still reported my injustice, but in this world, what can be truly fair.