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December is over, and the Chinese New Year will be in less than two months. I think of the scene when I went to Li Xiao’s house during the Chinese New Year last year. I have to say that time really flies by. Where we go is really up to us.

Naturally, it is impossible to have a winter vacation as an intern in the company. During the Chinese New Year, there are only seven national holidays. Li Xiao said that he would go back once, contact his classmates, and prepare for starting a company there by the way. What else can I say so far, I just kept this in my heart and asked him if I would take him to the train station, he said no, he will be back soon, I didn’t force it, to be honest, I really hate the atmosphere of seeing off , making people feel depressed.

I really don’t think it’s enough to let it go for only seven days during the Chinese New Year. Thinking of this every year in the future, I instantly feel that the profession of teacher is extremely attractive, but it’s impossible for me to realize it.

After returning to work, I did not return to the Development Department, but stayed in the Accounting Department. The reason is that I have an accounting certificate and I am hard-working. However, I personally feel that the real reason for staying is that I am more useful. I have no problem with point, anyway, I just got to work, it is always good to learn more things.

In a blink of an eye, it was May again. Last year, I ran the joint annual report with Master Tian. This year, I was transferred to the finance department. I am as busy as a dog, but I am satisfied with what I have gained. I feel that I am growing day by day. Although I am still very immature in dealing with people and working attitude, compared with myself a year ago, the progress is still obvious. At the same time I can understand Li Xiao's decision better. What he has to do is not easy in the first place. In addition, he has no background and no financial resources. He must make the best use of any useful resources in order to be close to success. , but even so, the goal he wants to accomplish is not as easy as reaching the sky for him. Sometimes I think, can he do it?It should be possible. Li Xiao is so calm, good at thinking, and has a long-term vision. As long as he is given a chance, he will never miss it. Success should only be a matter of time. It is only a matter of our relationship before he succeeds. . .He will always be put second, but even so I want to support him.

In mid-June, the head teacher called to inform us to go back to school to get our graduation certificates and attend the graduation party by the way.

Hearing the word graduation suddenly made me feel very emotional. Although I have graduated many times, from elementary school to middle school, from middle school to technical secondary school, after this time, we will really bid farewell to the identity of students and set foot in the society. Those who are not good students will go their separate ways in the future, and everything depends on their own ability and luck.

The party was booked in a hot pot restaurant. A dozen people gathered around one table, and four tables were settled. The separation was imminent. Everyone was much more enthusiastic than usual. No matter how well they usually get along, they could relax and chat together at this time. The atmosphere was very lively. Very soon, from time to time, men and women would go around clinking glasses with bottles, and we were the loudest in the whole store. Are our classmates so enthusiastic? I am really eye-opening.

I sat at the same table with Li Xiao. He didn't eat much, but he drank a lot. Some classmates came to him to clink glasses, and he accepted them all. I couldn't stand it anymore. He I usually don't drink well, and I get drunk with beer, and we never drink when we are together. I know the reason for him, and my mood is actually very complicated, but he is not the one who loses control and suffers later.

"Stop drinking, how can you go back when you get drunk later, I can't move you"

"It's okay, I have a measure." He smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled, but he didn't intend to stop at all.

I took his glass over and said, "Don't drink it, eat some food"

He picked up the chopsticks, picked a few tribute balls and put them into the bowl, but didn't eat them: "I'm about to graduate, why can't I feel happy at all, before, I always wanted to graduate soon." His voice was full of melancholy.

He turned his head to look at me, and every time I looked at him like this, I didn't know what to do.

"You drank too much." I looked at my watch and said, "Let's go, I'll take you back, it's getting late"

It's really getting late, some students have already gone home, and those who stay are preparing to go to the second wave, the head teacher has also retreated, I don't have a particularly good relationship with other students in the class, only Zhong Wen, I went to talk to him After saying hello, he patted me, and then glanced at Li Xiao: "Call me"

I said: "Sure"

After saying hello, I pulled Li Xiao up and walked out the door. He was indeed too drunk, and his feet were numb. I had to hold him firmly, lest he accidentally sit on the ground.

"Li Xiao," I called him: "Do you have strength? Let's take a taxi at the intersection. Can you still walk?"

He waved his hand, asked me to help him walk to the corner, and squatted down in the corner: "Let me take it easy"

It was already past ten o'clock in the evening. Even if the wind is strong in the summer night, people will not feel cold. Li Xiao sat against the corner of the wall. The wind messed up his not very long hair, and the alcohol made his Bozi and his face became red, and even his eyes were red. He squinted slightly, looking at the passers-by on the street in a daze. I could see his sadness from his eyes. Is it the confusion about the future, or Resentment about the upcoming separation?

I stood in front of him, with bitterness spreading all over my body. At this important turning point in life, the melancholy of being separated could not affect the mood of the students at all. We are all still young, and the best time in life is about to begin. We are all full of hope for the future. Confidence and eagerness to try, but Li Xiao, his past has left him with an inescapable burden, his future is full of unknowns and thorns, no one can help him, and I can't be by his side, even if Doing nothing but being in the same space with him, how can I not understand his heart, but I am too weak to do anything.

After a long time, seeing that Li Xiao had no intention of getting up, I knelt down in front of him and said, "Get up, Li Xiao, let's go home."

Li Xiao still closed his eyes and didn't move, I could only sigh, and sat down beside him, hearing Li Xiao's cohesive breathing, my heart trembled, and when I turned around, Li Xiao's tears flowed down my cheeks.

This is the second time he's crying in front of me, I don't want to see him like this, it hurts so bad I can hardly think, I have to say something, I said to myself.

So I sat down next to him, looked up at the dark night sky, and hummed this song softly: "I am an angel, a lonely and romantic angel, who likes to fly around the earth, but is desperate for finding no sweet love." Heartbroken, you are a dolphin, the sea is a city without walls, looking up at the sky with a rainbow, you have the scars of lost love in your heart, when the angel understands the sadness of the dolphin, when the dolphin cherishes the heartbreak of the angel, our meeting becomes a change It's so precious, we left tears of joy in the wind" Because it was originally sung by a girl, I hummed it a little out of tune, but it doesn't matter, as long as it can convey my meaning.

"Have you ever heard this song, Li Xiao, I heard this song when I was shopping with my mother in the supermarket, and I thought the lyrics were really good. We were just together at that time, you know, at first I was Hesitating, this song really touched my heart, do you know which line I like the most?" I continued to hum: "This kind of love may not be easy, but only you make my heart move deeply."

I raised my hand to wipe away the tears from the corners of Li Xiao's eyes, and told him firmly and calmly: "I have hesitated before, but there is one thing I can't deceive myself, that is, I am deeply moved for you, Li Xiao, this is me. The only feeling I have ever had from birth to now, maybe we will walk very hard for a long time in the future, and we need to compromise on many things, but in my heart, the joy of being in love with you has never faded with time And lighten up a little bit, do what you want to do, Li Xiao, I will definitely wait for you"

Li Xiao couldn't stop crying anymore, he turned around and hugged me tightly, weeping for a long time, luckily it was almost midnight, we were not on the main road, but at the alley on the corner of the street, occasionally There were a few passers-by who smelled the alcohol on Li Xiao's body and watched him hug me and cry into a ball. It was just an alcoholic playing drunk, as far as he could go.

Li Xiaohong looked at me deeply with his eyes, and then he said: "Xiao Can, if I beg you, will you go with me?" He was so serious, so serious, that I couldn't answer.

"I can kneel down, or you say, what do you want me to do, I will do it." He actually changed his posture to kneel in front of me.

"Don't be like this Li Xiao, if I can go with you, I will never hesitate, you clearly know the reason why I can't go" I pressed him to prevent him from kneeling.

Li Xiao shook his head, the choked up voice made me flustered.

"You don't understand, Xiaocan, I can't live without you. Maybe this is ridiculous to you, but all this really happened to me. My mother died in front of me. She was covered in blood and was dying, but I But there is nothing I can do, I can only watch her life go by little by little, and feel her body temperature dissipate little by little. I couldn't sleep well for a whole year, and then I had faith in my heart, so I forced myself to go through it, but I I never turn off the lights when I sleep at night, I am afraid of the dark, I can’t tell anyone about the loneliness in my heart, until I find myself in love with you, love may have no reason, but it is your tender heart that first touched me Heart, for me, love is not a pledge of eternal love, not you and me, but getting along and accompanying each other every day, it is the communication and mutual tolerance of the soul, if even the simplest companionship cannot be given to each other, then for me It’s more painful than death, I can’t stand parting, I can’t bear that anymore, please stay with me, Xiaocan, I know it’s selfish of me to say that, I don’t understand your situation at all, but the bond between you and your parents No one can cut off the stumbling, the same blood flows in your body, but I am different, if I lose you, then what will I use to keep you?"

Li Xiao undoubtedly understands me. If it is said that I rejected him because of my reason, then his words at this moment are enough to break all my pretense and dissect me to the softest part of my heart. I can no longer restrain myself. In my heart, I want to protect him and want to be with him, even if it is impossible to recover, I don't want to be separated from him.

Li Xiao murmured and asked unwillingly to give up: "Xiao Can, Xiao Can, don't separate from me..."

I swallowed the soreness in my heart, and tears welled up in my eyes: "I'll go with you"

Right and wrong, there is no way to give up, and the only thing I can do is just idealism.

So one month after I got my graduation certificate, Li Xiao and I left here, the city where I have lived since I was a child, and pursued a bright future with our dreams and love.Until I left, I didn't dare to tell my parents that I was going to leave, I knew they would definitely not agree.

On the day I left, I put the written letter on the table in the living room, and simply told them that my classmates and I went to other places to start a business, and asked them not to worry, and I would call them when things stabilized.

On the side of this letter, I left my mobile phone there, I am afraid that they will call, I am afraid that they will question my innocence and ignorance in a disappointed and angry tone.

At that time, I was too young, too confident, and I regarded love as bigger than the sky, and I also regarded everything as too simple. I never thought that I would leave in such a reckless way, how much it would be to my parents Blows and injuries, they gave me selfless love and dedication, but I turned a blind eye to them.