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Compared with him, I am lucky. Our company is not big. There are only about 40 people in the investment and development department and the accounting department. There are more women than men. This is probably a common problem in this industry. The investment and development department has two Men, the two bosses are men, and the rest are women, and most of them are aunts who are married and have children. I think I should ask my mother how to get along with aunts, but it’s okay, after I go in I was assigned to the development department and helped a master surnamed Tian. He is a middle-aged man in his [-]s. I started from the top to the bottom, and then taught me how to do things. There are not many things arranged every day, and I can completely digest them. My mother said that I met a good person, and I also felt that, so I am very grateful to Master Tian, ​​and I can do things better. Work hard and be careful.

Half a month after I joined the company, the annual joint annual inspection began. This is what the Development Department does every year. There are quite a few companies looking for us. Master Tian said that these two months are busy every year. Not sticky, tell me to be prepared to work overtime, but there will be a bonus after the work is done.

I don’t really care if I work overtime or not. I think it’s very meaningful if I can learn something and do my job well. After all, I’m still young and just stepped into the society. In my opinion, work without technical content is also necessary to learn. When I told my parents, they finally showed a gratified expression and asked me to work hard. I called Li Xiao and he joked that I Mature, I smiled back and said to him, I am not as familiar as you, I can hear the tiredness in his voice, he said that when we are all done working for a while, we must come out and have a good meal when we get the salary and bonus.

When I really started to do things, time passed quickly. As soon as I arrived at the company in the morning, I opened the express first to see if the certificates and documents sent by the customer were complete. Then start copying, because it is an annual inspection of several departments, each department needs a set of original certificates and audit reports, and the materials to be submitted by each department are posted on the wall, copied and bound together according to the requirements, and finally put in the file In the bag, everything is ready, it's almost afternoon.

After Mr. Tian finished delivering the materials from the previous day into the company, I handed over the completed materials to him, and he separated them by area. We divided into two groups. He drove me to the nearest submission office, and I queued there. Submit the documents, come back to correct any problems, and drive to a distant place by himself. He can’t finish running in the afternoon. He will run again tomorrow morning. We rush around like a war every day, running like dogs, and finally in Submit all the companies in hand within the deadline.

This busy work lasted for two months. When I got the bonus, I still had a small sense of accomplishment in my heart. I called Li Xiao during the lunch break. We haven’t met in the past two months. First, Li Xiao was on a business trip, and then he came back and I worked overtime on weekends. We couldn’t get together. We all understood each other. The only way to express our concern was to send text messages every day and sometimes call.

As soon as the call was dialed, the other side answered it. Li Xiao's voice was cheerful: "Are you done?"

"Well, I got all the bonuses, if you are free, come out for dinner"

"This Friday, let's find a place to have dinner in the evening, and then go shopping, and I will also get a bonus."

I felt restless all day on Friday, and my heart was beating wildly. Actually, I haven’t seen him for two months. I think he is real, but I don’t want to think of this kind of nympho. Don’t jump, really !I clutched my chest and despised myself ten thousand times in my heart.

Master Tian said: "I have an appointment with my girlfriend tonight."

"Ah? No, I have an appointment with a classmate"

Master Tian smiled: "I can't wait to make an appointment with my classmate, that's all right, let's go early"

"Ah?" Happiness came so suddenly that I couldn't stand it.

"Ah what, pack your things and go, don't be so stupid all the time, okay?"

When I got on the subway, I looked at my watch. It was only 05:30. I made an appointment with Li Xiao on the pedestrian street, because it happened to be between me and Li Xiao’s company. We both got off work at six o’clock. After so much, I might as well go to his company and wait for him. Anyway, I know Li Xiao's company, so I went for an interview.

It was exactly six o'clock when I got off the subway, so I quickly took out my phone and wanted to call Li Xiao, in case I missed it along the way, I would be speechless.

As soon as I took out the phone, it rang, Li Xiao, I picked it up.

Li Xiao said, "Are you off work?"

"It's off, how about you?"

"I'm getting off too, and I'm heading out, see you then."

I asked him calmly: "What is the subway entrance in front of your company?"

"Looks like Exit [-], what's wrong?"

I gave a meaningful oh and said, "It's nothing, see you then."

After a while, I saw Li Xiao's figure. In the crowd, he was wearing a white shirt, a thin coat, and jeans. I haven't seen him for two months. I always feel that he has become calmer and full of office worker temperament. Sure enough, men still look good in shirts , I touched myself subconsciously, no one in our company wears formal clothes, forget it, I pouted, anyway, even if I wear a shirt, I don’t look as good as him.

Li Xiao was obviously surprised to see me: "Why are you so early? You missed work."

"of course not"

We all seemed very excited, Li Xiao put his hand on my shoulder naturally, I glanced at him, he smiled and put it down.

"What to eat?" he asked.

"Whatever, I don't choose"

He smiled and shook his head.

In the end we chose a Japanese-style seafood buffet. Li Xiao said that we wanted to have a good meal. Although neither of us has a particularly large meal, it is definitely not too small. It is more affordable to choose a buffet, so we discussed it. just went in.

Sometimes I have to say, you get what you pay for, the price of 398 per person, the food is really good, the salmon and senbei feel very fresh, and the oversized crab legs are super delicious, but I My favorite is the sweet shrimp inside. It melts in the mouth. We couldn’t stop eating it. We haven’t seen each other for a long time, and we talked a lot. Before we knew it, we ate it after nine o’clock. When we went out I feel like my stomach is going to explode.

On a spring night, even if there is wind, you won’t feel cold, and it’s comfortable to blow on your body. Li Xiao said, “Let’s go, I’ll take you home.”

"No, your house is not next door to mine, it's so far away, let's go, just go to the subway station together"

Li Xiao smiled, we just walked side by side, slowly, neither of us spoke, but we didn’t feel embarrassed or bored, this was our first date after we bid farewell to school life, because we Miss each other, just because of us, I think even if I have to go on like this, I will not feel tired, love can magnify the little sweetness that belongs to us, listening to his soft footsteps, smelling the refreshing fragrance on his body Taste, my heart is peaceful and beautiful, and being able to live peacefully with this person around me is probably my greatest wish now.

Li Xiao and I both took the subway home, but in different directions. After entering the station, the subway from Li Xiao’s side came, and I said: “You go first, call me when you get home.”

Li Xiao didn't even look over there, he pulled me to my seat and sat down: "Wait with you"

I followed him and sat down on the seat, and said, "Actually, no, it's almost ten o'clock."

Li Xiao smiled, I found that he was always like this, he didn't talk when he didn't agree to me, he just laughed, the key point was that I always had nothing to do with him.

After a while, my car came, and he pulled me up: "Let's go, let's take a ride with you"

"what?"

Before I could react, he had already pulled me into the car, and I pushed him: "Go down quickly, you can sit here and then sit there, you won't be tired."

He didn't move, there were many people around, and I couldn't say much, the car was closed.

After four stops, I pushed him: "How many more stops are you going to take, I'm almost there"

He looked at the electronic screen of the station announcement, and answered me solemnly: "There are still four stations, so it's almost here."

I can't help him: "I said, you've been working all day and you're not tired. It's eleven o'clock when you go back now. Get the hell out of here."

He turned his head and winked at me, crap, this man is still pretending to be cute: "I have a rest tomorrow, and I want to stay with you for a while longer"

One hit hits the nail on the head, and I'm speechless.

Li Xiao rubbed his shoulder against mine, and said in a low voice, "Laugh when you're happy, your ears are red."

I gave him a hard look, but unfortunately there was no majesty.

Li Xiao sat with me until the stop, and I pulled him: "Let's go, I'll wait for the bus with you, and I'll get out of the station and transfer to the bus after you get on the bus."

"Let's go, take the bus"

"No." This time I really can't let him go: "What time is it, you really want to have it delivered home, wait until you don't have the subway to go back"

"It's okay, let's go"

I frowned and said, "No way"

He flicked my forehead and pulled me to get out.

I grabbed him: "what's wrong with you?"

I looked at Li Xiao, and suddenly thought: "Do you have something to tell me?"

Li Xiao didn't answer me down, just said "Let's go, we'll talk in the car"

I became serious, "What kind of car are you getting in? I'm asking you something."

Li Xiao sighed and faced me: "Let's talk about it when we get to your house. If you really don't want to see me then, I know you're back home."

I think I know what Li Xiao is going to say, I feel a little uneasy, but I don't want to escape: "Let's go, go to your house, I'll stay at your place today"

I called my mother and told her that I would not go back tonight. Li Xiao followed me silently. We took the subway together and then changed buses. I could feel that Li Xiao was looking at me from time to time. I didn’t want to talk to him. Really, why is this guy always like this.

I followed him into the house, and he poured me a glass of water: "Are you angry?"

I rolled my eyes at him: "Whoever has time to be angry, just say what you have to say, this back and forth, you have so much time"

Li Xiao smiled helplessly, pulled me to a chair, and then found a chair to sit down: "I just think the topic I want to talk about is not easy, so I want to find a suitable place."

I frowned, and said sullenly: "You mean, are you going to leave after graduation?"

"kindness"

"Oh" Hearing his answer, I just feel that all the good mood of the day has disappeared without a trace.

"I have a house over there, it doesn't matter if I go back to live, there must be no one guarding it, but if I want to sell the house, those people will know." He thought for a while and continued: "My resources are all there. There are also two classmates who are very close to me. They are both locals and have some connections there. I have been in touch with them all the time, and they agreed to come to help me.”

We looked at each other, and he told me: "If there is no difference between here and there, no, even if there are some differences, if I can choose, I will definitely choose here, because you are here, but now, I have no money, nothing Experience, I can't do anything without help, I have no qualifications or ability to choose anything, Xiaocan, do you understand?"

I understand, but it doesn't mean I can accept it calmly. He is going to another city. I don't know if Li Xiao has thought about what this means to us. He wants to start his career in that place without me. This means that for an unknown period of time in the future, there will be no communication between us. As time goes by, as long as either of us wavers a bit, then we will be strangers who have nothing to do with each other. In the future, I really don't know.

There are thousands of words in my heart, but the only one that blurted out is: "Are you sure we can go on? Or do you want to break up with me?"

Li Xiao frowned, and said in a very serious tone: "If I have these thoughts, why should I drag you here? We are about to graduate, and then I will just leave."

I was blocked by him and had nothing to say, but my heart calmed down a little because of his words.

He came over, knelt down slowly in front of me, held my hand with both hands, looked up at me, and said, "I know how uncertain my future will be with this decision, but Fang Can, any Don't doubt my feelings for you all the time, not even a second."

"I have no doubts, I just feel that I can't see the future"

"I'll be back." He grabbed my hand with increasing strength, as if he was afraid that I would not believe him: "It may not be realistic to say two or three years, but I still have confidence in five years. For you, I will will work hard”

I think I'm being persuaded by him, but I still don't feel at ease. "Didn't you say that those people have great wealth and background, and you have nothing now, and you can get it done in five years?"

He shook his head: "Of course it is impossible. Those things may not be possible in ten or even twenty years, but I will not give up. I will fight for that goal all my life, but I am not going back now for this, I said , where my resources are, to earn the first pot of gold, it is only possible to achieve it there, and when I have a foundation, I will definitely come back.”

"Five years" I murmured.

He hugged me, choked up and said, "I want you to go with me more than I go by myself, but I can't be too selfish, right?"

I didn't say anything, I just buried my face in his neck, my nose was a little sore, I was thinking, why on earth did we have to go through so many setbacks.

When we went to bed, we were all very excited or hungry, and the eyes we looked at each other dimmed a lot. I don’t like this, it’s too uncomfortable, I’m a pessimistic person, it makes me feel that we are really It's coming to an end, if one day there is really no way between us, then it's better to break it now, long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, but I don't want to, as long as Li Xiao is willing to persevere, I am willing to accompany him .

Li Xiao pressed my head on his chest, and hugged my body tightly with both hands. I listened to the beating of his heart from his chest, and felt that such a moment was hard to miss.

"I already have a general direction. The families of my two classmates also have some connections. We work together. As long as we are willing to endure hardships, it shouldn't be a big problem to start a company. There are many things in the early stage, but I can't come back to see you often. After I stabilize Come back every week, you can come too, I will give myself five years, and after five years, I will definitely come back to you with capital, and I will accompany you to make a home here."

What Li Xiao said was so true that it made me relax a lot from my uneasy mood.

"I can't be with you, I'm sorry" I can't do without my parents, and he has his persistence. Love is so beautiful, but it can't be the whole of life. Facing the reality, the only thing we can do for each other is probably patience Alright.

After all, life still has to go on. Since that in-depth conversation, we haven’t talked about it again. I think this is probably the tacit understanding between us. Meeting every week has become an unshakable thing for us, even if he is away on a business trip. When he comes back, he must find time to come to me. I told him that there is no need to do this. It’s okay to see him twice if something happens. Anyway, we have been in contact with each other on the phone. He always accepts it humbly and refuses to change after repeated admonitions. Forget it, I think, even if he wants to do this after graduation. It can't work anymore, so I had no choice but to let him go, but every time I think of this, my heart is always sweet and sour, and I am silent for a long time alone.

Li Xiao's birthday is December 12th. I didn't know his birthday at this time last year. It should be said that I didn't think of this problem. Later, when I celebrated my birthday in February, he gave me a pen. I got up and asked when his birthday was, he said it had already passed, so this year is our first birthday together, I have been wanting to give him something since October, I tested him a few times, he is not true Fake reply to me: "I want to give me a birthday present, don't bother, just ask you"

I rolled my eyes at him and decided not to rely on him. I thought to myself, let’s use a mobile phone. His current mobile phone has been used for a long time, and it is a very old-fashioned one. Before my internship, I pestered my mother to buy me a Samsung smartphone. , It's good to use, I bought the same one for Li Xiao, although it's a little expensive, it's worth my two months' internship salary, but I'm happy.

I bought the mobile phone a month in advance and gave it away on my birthday. As a result, at the end of November, the company became very busy, and I was transferred to the accounting department to help. Calculating income tax, writing accounts, etc., I am exhausted. The 11th is Thursday. I almost forgot. Fortunately, the printer for general ledger in our company is broken. It has not been repaired for several days. The financial teacher complained that it was on the 20th. Yes, she still has more than 18 clients' general ledgers to be typed, and it will be too late for binding, so I realize that Li Xiao's birthday is two days away, and I haven't made an appointment with him on the 20th to meet him, so I don't know. I don't know if he is free, their company should be super busy.

I called Li Xiao, but the result was disappointing. Li Xiao was rushing around with the audit teacher, and he might not be able to come back from other places on the 20th. He said he would come back to see me. Although it was a bit regretful, there was no way. It seems that this year's birthday Missed again.

The next day, because the company was already very busy, and Li Xiao was not around, I put the matter of celebrating Li Xiao’s birthday on the back of my mind for the time being, and stayed busy until nine o’clock in the evening before returning home. , when I lay down on the bed, it was almost eleven o'clock. I looked at the clock on the wall and thought of Li Xiao like a habit. The phone was next to me. I took it and put it in my hand to play, even though I was very tired. , but I still want to wait until twelve o'clock, until December 12th, no need to call, just send a text message, and wish him a happy birthday.

I was lying on the bed surfing the Internet. In order not to accidentally fall asleep, I turned on the stereo and listened to music. An hour passed quickly. How should I send a blessing message? Express my heart, but not too nasty, I miss you so much, love you and so on, I get goosebumps just looking at it.

Before I could conceive, the phone rang, and it was Li Xiao. I quickly answered the phone: "Hello." I felt my voice was trembling a little, although I didn't know why I was so nervous.

Li Xiao chuckled when he heard my voice, and said, "Why did you answer the phone so quickly? Didn't you sleep?"

"Not yet, sure... ready to sleep, work overtime today"

"Oh, Xiaocan, it will be 12 o'clock in half an hour, I want you to be the first to wish me a happy birthday"

This guy stole my lines.

"Are you listening, Xiaocan?"

I can only smile wryly, "I'm listening, I'm actually waiting too, I wanted to wait until 12 o'clock to send you a text message"

"Really? I'm so happy" probably because of the relationship in the night, Li Xiao's voice was very clear, as if someone else was by his side, "Xiao Can, I want to see you"

I want to see you too "Really, then you fly over, I'm at home"

"Then you come down, I have already flown to the end"

I froze for a moment, feeling my scalp was numb, I ran to the balcony of the living room quickly, even wearing my slippers backwards, in the thick night, only two street lamps shone faintly, illuminating the man who was breathing air-conditioning, The man who smiled at me on the phone was still wearing the clothes I gave him and was carrying a big bag. My mood at that moment was indescribably wonderful.

Li Xiao, Li Xiao, Li Xiao, he is just downstairs, facing the severe cold, travel-laden, just to spend his birthday with me, the surrounding is very cold, but my heart is already extremely warm, at this moment, I can even feel To Li Xiao's heart, his heartbeat, his heartbeat, he cherishes our feelings, Li Xiao, and I do the same.

"Why are you here?" I asked knowingly.

"What do you think?" I can't see his face clearly upstairs, but I can imagine his expression at the moment.

I turned around and ran downstairs as fast as I could. He stood at the gate, looked at me slightly out of breath, and smiled slightly.

"Go" he reached out to me, and I held his hand, which was cold as expected.

It’s almost midnight in the winter, and the chill is penetrating to the bones. I haven’t felt very cold when I just came out of the house. Now I’m sitting in the small garden with Li Xiao. : "Put on, it's cold at night"

“How about another place? There is a 24-hour KFC nearby”

Li Xiao grabbed me and shook his head: "Let's stay here."

I just had to sit down, too, it's too conspicuous to go there at this time.

Li Xiao leaned his body towards me, and we sat side by side, warming each other with our body temperature.

"Did you just come back from a business trip, didn't you go home?" I asked him.

He didn't deny it: "I came back by the train in the afternoon, and everyone else in the group is on the train tomorrow morning"

"Tired?" I looked at him.

He shook his head, then turned to look through his backpack.

"What are you looking for?"

He took out a square box from his bag and handed it to me "this is for you"

I just remembered that I didn't bring the gift I gave Li Xiao. "Why did you give me a gift for your birthday? I bought you a gift too. I was upstairs, but I saw that you were so excited that I forgot to take it."

He just didn't care, pointed to the box and said, "Open it and have a look"

In the box is a watch.

I don't know much about watches, but I still know the Rolex logo. I really don't know how expensive it is, but I'm afraid I can't buy it without a hand according to common sense. My expression is more frightened than surprised. : "Where did you get so much money??"

"You are very knowledgeable, come, bring and have a look"

"I don't want it, where did you get the money, take out the kidney and sell it"

Li Xiao looked at me with a funny face: "I'm not stupid, it's the money I've been saving, the bonuses from business trips, and the money my mother left behind before. Don't worry, I've got the bottom line."

That's true. . . .

I looked at the watch in confusion: "Can I return it if I haven't worn it?"

Li Xiao was speechless, grabbed my hand and put the watch on my hand: "I can't return it, don't even think about it"

"Why did you give me a watch? It's your birthday"

Li Xiao sighed, and the mist slowly drifted around.

I waited quietly for him to speak.

Li Xiao looked at me, and our hands were held together: "Time, I want your time in the future, can you promise?"

"I know I'm selfish. It's because I have to go. It's because I don't have a decision, but I want you to promise me that you will only look at me in the future, but I'm really worried. I can't let you Time stops, only to tie you invisibly, let you always remember me, money is sometimes very important, but it can never be compared with you at any time"

"Li Xiao" I was speechless, looking at Li Xiao who was so restless, he was very different from the calm and leisurely young man in my impression, which made me feel moved and distressed, "I won't, if I like you, I won't treat others Tempted, and our company is very busy, and there are no women around me, I mean I am not married, I will do what I say"

Li Xiao hugged me, "I really feel that I am useless like this, like a little daughter-in-law."

I seriously answered him "Indeed"

We laughed at the same time.

"I've lost all my money, you dare to forgive me, I'll chase you down"

"I can't bear it, you are really handsome for only three seconds, how about a little grace?"

"People are gone, why do you need style, eat it as a meal"

I shook my head powerlessly, "I really don't know why I fell in love with you at the beginning."

We walked hand in hand on the road "I have both ability and political integrity"

I laughed out loud: "If you don't know how to use idioms, don't use them. You have both ability and integrity, and you have both talent and appearance, Hua girl."

"I will make you happy all the time, you trust me"

"Okay, you are getting more and more nasty, coax girls"

Li Xiao kept sending me downstairs to my house.

"Go up, I'm still at work tomorrow"

I hugged him: "Go back to sleep for a while, even if you can't wake up, it's better than not sleeping at all"

I turned back and walked inside.

"Xiao Can," Li Xiao called me.

I turn back.

"Can't you really come with me?" He looked calm all night, but now he seemed to be unable to hide at last, his eyes were full of expectation.

"Don't worry, just go up." In just a second, Li Xiao's wavering was hidden by him.

I smiled at him, turned around and continued walking, until I walked home, closed the door, and lay down on the bed with a cold body. After all, I couldn’t calm down. I almost said that good word, but after saying it? , Can I really go with him? The gift for Li Xiao lay quietly on the desk, I looked at it, and I didn't fall asleep until dawn.

At noon the next day, I took advantage of the break to go to Li Xiao's company. On the way, I bought a small cheesecake and handed it to him along with my mobile phone. Today is his birthday.

We met downstairs in his company, and he seemed very happy to receive the gift: "Thank you, it's a waste of money"

I showed him my watch: "Compared with this, mine is not enough."

He patted me on the shoulder and said, "Let's go, treat you to dinner"

"No, I have to rush back"

"What about lunch?"

"Bought a hamburger on the way. I haven't eaten it for a long time. I think about it very much."

He nodded: "Let's go then, I'll take you to the subway station"

There is no wind today, so even if the temperature is low, it is very comfortable to stand under the sun. If I didn't sleep last night, I think I must be refreshed now.

"You're just impatient. You can deliver things in two days. You slept so late last night, so you're not tired."

"Today is your birthday, and it's not very far away, I mean"

Facing the sun, I saw the corners of Li Xiao's mouth slightly raised: "Go back to bed early today"

"Got it, long-winded"

"How dare you dislike me?" Li Xiao patted my forehead.

"How dare you?" I touched my forehead, "Li Xiao, I like you, I only like you, so don't worry."

Li Xiao looked at me, as if he was a little surprised that I would say this suddenly.

"Why do you say that I am getting more and more creative now? It's not time to leave yet. I don't trust you for no reason. If you give me a watch, I will give you a watch, and I insist on saying something." Li Xiao smiled and scratched His head, at the moment he is like a big boy who is at a loss.

I laughed along with him, "Don't worry, I understand you, you know that in those TV series that my mother watched before, I like you, I love you, I can't live without you, every time I hear I get goosebumps, but looking at myself now, hey, I want to roll my eyes to the sky"

We all smiled at each other knowingly, we don't need to say what we feel in our hearts, we just need to understand it.