Reflection fireworks follow the water flow

On November 11, meet midnight, a girl wearing a mysterious color.

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Hello there!

Hello there!

Today is the first month and 27 days since I came to Xi'an. I am still lonely here. I feel like a girl that no one understands. Things seem to be done but I can't do them.

For example?

For example, the more I can't get something, I will chase it at all costs, even if it will cost a lot of money!But when I get some things, I give up and leave!I must be a very weird person.

Yes!You come and go very casually, never tell me you're here or say goodbye.

Is this necessary?When I leave, you naturally know that I don't need to disturb you when I come.

Do you think it will bother me?

That's right, because I don't know when you want to chat with me, or when I want to say something, you don't necessarily want to hear it.

So a lot of the time you don't speak even though you are online.

I think no one will really understand me, do you understand me?Many times, when I talk to you, do you know what I am thinking on the computer side?Do you know what my inner world is like?

I chuckled, took a sip of green tea, then leaned back on the chair behind me, lit a cigarette, and looked at the trivial words that kept jumping up on the screen, sometimes cold and stern, sometimes with a lot of words, Like lines of sad and beautiful poems.

I don't understand you, but I feel that you are poignant and beautiful, and I feel uneasy in my heart!

So, I kept walking, stopping at different places, and then moving on to the next place.

Is it an inner escape?

escape? !Why should I escape?

I took a puff of my cigarette and tapped on the keyboard through the smoke in the dark.Because you have been escaping, only those who are escaping will keep running around but at a loss, you have no destination!

No, I have!Just didn't find it!

Maybe you will never find it.

maybe!

Would you regret it then?

Do you say sorry?I have no idea.When I was alone with a simple backpack and followed the crowd into the mausoleum to see the Terracotta Warriors, I felt like crying inside. I was shocked by the scene in front of me and felt that I heard this Piles of yellow sand and clay figurines are shouting, like decadent post-modernism, like heavy metal that is nowhere to be heard.

You are a very different kind of girl, alone and rebellious, wandering all over the body, I like your character very much.

She smiled, then suddenly stopped talking.

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Tell me, why are you going to Xi'an?What are you doing there?

I don't know, I just remember that I used to have a diary with a map of Xi'an, so I want to go to Xi'an!It's in the country, why not?So close, do you want to treat it as a page of map for the rest of your life?How easy it is for people to live, why don't you go to the place you want to see? !In the future, I may go to the Alps to see the ice and snow there!

Tibet is also good!The snow there is peaceful, clean and transparent!

That is the way to the gods.The Alps are different, extreme climbing, when you stand on the Alps, overlooking the entire silver-white glacier will be a lifetime shock!I like the feeling of my heart trembling, just like the first pure and simple man I fell in love with, he was wearing a simple white shirt, and then stood on the roof to watch the scenery. At that time, I stood silently in the corner and watched quietly Looking at him, I saw that his hands on the iron railing were tightly clenched, so hard, and then he raised his head against the sun.I think he wants to conquer the world!But he didn't take me with him, because he is my world, but I am not his world. He hopes to leave that small town and start a business in a bigger place!

And you?Do you have your own business?

I don’t, my whole life’s career is to wander, maybe wandering is my natural mission, when I stand on the bridge, I’m often in a daze, I don’t know where I’m going to go next!

Do you care about being right or wrong? !

No, I don't care!

Some people say that people who don't care about right and wrong are terrible, as if they don't care about life and death!

Ha ha.

What happened after that?How did you do after that?

She paused, then said, he's gone.

In fact, I never told him that he was standing in the wind in a white shirt like a pigeon about to take off, he looked so beautiful!It was a shock, a deep shock in my heart.

Later, you also shocked other people's hearts, didn't you?

Yes, many people regard me as their love, but love is a rare thing in this world.Dancing with strange men in the bar, smelling the smell of cigarettes mixed with alcohol in their mouths, often makes me feel intoxicated, I think it is also a smell of love, it is so dangerous that people want to be close to those who smile at you with clean teeth Pure and white man, but when you put your whole body into it, you will get a icy cold feeling, as stinging as walking out of a water cellar. They are not love, but dangerous temptations!

You are a fragile butterfly, passing through the silver coldness of steel, easily destroyed by them.

You are wrong, love is steel!Love will destroy people!Only then will people's hearts be scratched!Nothing else can make you feel the slightest pain!I like to be intoxicated by the moment of love when it is dark, and then forget its existence when it is bright.If love is painful, I don't need to see the truth of it!

How should I put it...Midnight, you are a confusing girl, you are like a butterfly shuttling outside the iron cage, sometimes flying in playfully, sometimes flying away ruthlessly, a person locked in an iron cage I can only watch you dancing, but I can't keep you.Even if you beg hard, you will fly away for freedom, and unless you are destroyed, you will still fly away even if you break a wing!

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After putting out the cigarette, I watched the faint white smoke drifting in, and finally blended into the night lightly. I looked at the computer screen that had been static for a long time, and then raised my hands and started typing.

Midnight, when will you fly away?It doesn't matter, I think on some nights when I can't sleep alone, I will think of you, at midnight I will think of you about midnight.