Reflection fireworks follow the water flow

I don't know whether to stay here or cross to the other side of the river. I am eager to wander and search for the meaning of my soul. I don't know what to do now, how to redeem myself!Now I want to find the traces left by time in the wandering of youth, although I can't keep the youth that has passed by in a hurry.

The flashy restlessness of spring and autumn, who can redeem myself?I am waiting for a redemption, a miracle of life, maybe this waiting will be an endless delay of death, maybe this will be the only reason for me to live!I am looking up, I know that no matter how serious I am, I can't see through the height and depth of the sky, I know that I must play according to the rules of survival in the world, otherwise I will definitely die!The irony is that sometimes the longing for death is the best way to get rid of life and the only event that has been most dreamed of for many years!I know that I have been exhausted from living, and I have buried my heart prematurely when I was young, exhausted prematurely, withered prematurely, and died!

I am waiting, waiting for the helpless passage of time every day, waiting for the white clouds to pass over my head, waiting for the moment of desolation, old age and death to come. A docile and obedient child, who takes every day in a hurry seriously, satisfying the sense of harvest of a candy, the most important thing when going to bed is to forget yourself!Then I can go through each day insensibly, otherwise I will die in a sudden awakening one night.

I long for the cessation and peace of the soul, and long for the exhaustion of the body to fill the vacancy in the mind. Seen and invisible, we need to survive, because we are still alive, so we are not qualified to talk about death-this sacred ceremony comes The peaceful enjoyment of time.

Life means that you still have to spend every day exhausted, 24 hours, and you can't escape the torment.

Maybe through death we can live stronger today, maybe through death we can see the meaning of life, maybe heaven is after hell, and all we have to do is - cross over!