The whole world prevents me from jumping into the river

The moment when the four eyes meet, it will not be like the expression in the anime, crackling fire and splashing everywhere, just the moment the eyes meet, Su Ruanruan walks over, she is a well-educated girl, her walking posture is very correct, some boys walk with a hunchback , or shake her shoulders, and she can put a bowl of water on top of her head smoothly, upright, with the aura of the protagonist.

"uncomfortable?"

"I'm going to the bathroom." Tao Anan said nonsense.

"Let's go."

"There are few clothes."

"It's okay." Su Ruanruan supported her, and suddenly let go, pointing to the corner at the end, where there is a place to draw hot water, the heat is so hot that you can't see clearly, pointing at nothing, "Turn right, go by yourself."

"...Is there any paper?"

Su Ruanruan looked all over her body, but only found a few pieces of paper soaked in water, she shook her head slightly: "I'll find it for you later."

"No, I'm not going." It seemed to be angry, but it was not, but he was relieved. Tao Anan knew that she must have no paper, but she didn't expect Su Ruanruan to take a roll of paper in a daze Hand it over and throw it roughly to her.It seemed that getting the paper was a great thing, and it seemed that if Tao Anan didn't go to the toilet today, she would strangle her to death.

In desperation, he had no choice but to hold the paper and force himself to go to the toilet and walk in the direction Su Ruanruan pointed.

"Tao——" Su Ruanruan seemed to be calling her, turned her face away, Su Ruanruan shook her head, "It's okay, I have a premonition, a very strange premonition, that you will leave."

Tao An'an then remained silent, Su Ruanruan was inexplicably sensational, erratic like clouds, did she know that she was going to seek death?Maybe she knows it, but it's just going to the bathroom. Does Su Ruanruan still want to watch her crouch?

"fine."

"Let's go when your clothes are dry." Su Ruanruan suddenly changed her mind, she regained her composure slightly, "I'll go get some motion sickness medicine."

"Thank you."

"fine."

It's easy to think of waiting for the cat bus in the rain, but when the rain stops, the bus is a bloated monster.Because it was not rush hour, the car was empty. Someone picked his nose while talking about where to play tomorrow, and there was a couple sitting in the back, whispering and touching.

Both of them were more or less motion sick, but it was not far from the school, nor could they walk for a long time. They sat in the back seat, two rows away from the lovers, and kept silent.Tao An'an thought that after returning to school, he could jump into the river, and then he could eliminate some grievances.She wanted to stop hesitating after crossing the river. The river was so fast that if she jumped down, the brilliance of life would dim.

Su Ruanruan still gets motion sickness, she doesn't usually take a car, she lives in a house near the school, walks or rides a bike, and takes a motion sickness medicine to go to a distant place and falls asleep, waiting for someone to wake her up.

But he insisted on lowering his head to play with his mobile phone, and Tao An'an also kept a pale face and said nothing.

"Come to my house." Suddenly, Su Ruanruan uttered a sentence, which was very strange. Tao Anan turned his face away in surprise. Very low, tilted to the head, the clavicle line is nice and tight.

This phone call was too long, until she got off the car, Su Ruanruan still called that person, first straight to the point, haha, long time no see, how is it going, then she started talking about some things, reporting on her life, talking about seven aunts and eight aunts, Looking for something to say, Tao An'an heard Su Ruanruan's reluctant laughter, and felt that it was impolite to interrupt others, so he couldn't say the words of refusal.

After passing the school gate, Su Ruanruan quickened her pace. Tao Anan wanted to go back to school to seek death, but Su Ruanruan quickly grabbed her and dragged her away involuntarily. She continued to greet the other party's aunt who had a baby. What brand is it? With a steel frame in his hand, Tao An'an is dragged to another street.

The cat bus passed by the road quickly, splashing mud and flung half of Su Ruanruan's trousers on the left. The spots on the black trousers were very unsightly. Looking from a distance, someone came out of the cat bus that was used as a kindergarten school bus. Waving his head and saying sorry, his voice curled up like nothingness.Su Ruanruan continued on the phone, asking what happened when the neighbor's son was on a blind date wearing a red suit, green tie, black socks and red long johns.

Tao An'an was silent, interrupting this boring topic, Su Ruanruan would not blame her for anything, but her habit is not to interrupt other people's conversations, Su Ruanruan was extremely excited and fired various topics like a cannonball, even her She also wanted to participate, but Su Ruanruan was holding her wrists, and it was very difficult for her to look back, so she suppressed not looking at Ludao University, which was left far behind, where there was a river carrying her soul, she was about to die There, get relief.

Now Su Ruanruan prevents her from jumping into the river to die.

It wasn't until she walked into the house that Su Ruanruan's phone calls finally stopped, and she let out a long breath. It turned out that Su Ruanruan also thought that this long meaningless speech was very exhausting.Tao An'an, who was dragged in, could finally express that he didn't want to stay here, but Su Ruanruan disappeared immediately again.

Give her no reason at all to leave and say goodbye.

She can't leave without saying goodbye, maybe that's okay for others, but not for Su Ruanruan.

Discouraged, she lowered her body and changed her shoes, dispelling her desire to die today. Su Ruanruan has control over everything controllable like a finger, and she happens to be within Su Ruanruan's controllable range. She was willing to be controlled by Su Ruanruan.That's it, she has to admit that Su Ruanruan is different.

I came here once before, and the layout of the room was the same as usual. Su Ruanruan didn't clean up the room very much, and she came here very rarely. The last time she came, how did she clean up the room? It's roughly what it looks like now. Tao Anan went to look for Su Ruanruan, and wanted to see Su Ruanruan. How Ruan Ruan will prevent her from jumping into the river.

Everyone knows certain things, and Su Ruanruan must also know that she didn't jump into the river with a so-called sprain, but just kept it hidden. Su Ruanruan can control her, but she can't control her all the time.

Su Ruanruan slowly plugged in the refrigerator, and the house began to return to normal, before she wanted to say anything, the man who delivered the water came upstairs, and Tao An'an suddenly fell silent, sitting on the side thinking how to say goodbye, the best time to say goodbye in the dead of night It's a good time to jump into the river, and no one can look at it.

It seems that there is something obstructing it, Su Ruanruan is playing with her mobile phone, and after a while, she runs up to deliver couriers, takeaways, two beef soup from the same store must be delivered twice, and there are salesmen, selling Insurance, plumbing repairs, surveys, everything, this deserted house suddenly became lively, people came and went, Tao Anan kept opening the door, was dragged by Su Ruanruan to eat, so he kept silent.

After tossing until midnight, Su Ruanruan's mobile phone finally turned off automatically, and she couldn't hold on to her dictatorship, she was relatively speechless, everything was done, even the curtains were washed and dried, there was really nothing wrong.

Her lips fluttered for a while, and she mustered up her courage, but Su Ruanruan pulled the curtains that had just been replaced: "Are you free tonight? Help me find out what's wrong with this plan."

...You already pulled me over and you hypocritically asked if you were free...

"Su Ruanruan." Tao Anan decided to leave.

The author has something to say: It has been greatly changed since this chapter, and you cannot see the original version.

I just want to remember some things myself, and occasionally write them in the text.

But the teacher said it was terrible for a writer to write about himself all the time.

Although I am not a writer, I also hope that one day I can stop writing too many things that have my own shadow.

Well it has nothing to do with the text.It means the unmodified version. This chapter of the unmodified version is very heavy, and a lot of small green characters were written, all of which were deleted.