The whole world prevents me from jumping into the river

"I'm already a dead person." After Tao An'an finished speaking, he felt that his facial expression was too tense, and his expression was serious like a female ghost possessed. He was afraid that he would be frightened in this thunderstorm night, so he pretended not to be afraid. Su Ruanruan bared her teeth and smiled.

But he never thought of smiling like this, the revealing of white teeth is the source of frightening Su Ruanruan.

Su Ruanruan immediately stopped talking and didn't criticize her. She touched her forehead carefully and found that she didn't have a fever. Her hair was wet from the rain, so she touched her face and held her hand for a while. After looking at her for a while, she didn't feel Tao Anan Like a dead person, Tao An'an has red lips, white teeth, white eyebrows and clear eyes, his eyes are not blackened like a hanged ghost, his skin is still soft, his smile is still beautiful, the brilliance in his eyes is not diminished, and even his hair is not dry.

"Nonsense." She complained, "Don't scare me, aren't you living a good life?"

"I've already died once...ah no, I've died probably, one, two, three, four...more than 100 times." Tao An raised his eyes solemnly, "I have a reason to die."

"No one has to die to live well!" Su Ruanruan patted her on the shoulder, "As the saying goes, it is better to live than to die. No matter what happens, I will help you if I say I will help you! Isn't it Zhang Musheng? Can I still hold him back?" In the end, Su Ruanruan's voice got higher and higher, and after standing up for a while, she realized that her chest was not big enough, so she was discouraged and squeezed beside Tao Anan, " Sometimes I find that I still don’t know you very well, you tell me a lot of things, but you don’t actually talk about what’s in your heart, sometimes I feel very close to you, but at the same time feel far away, I can’t grasp you.”

"There's nothing...you won't believe me when I tell you, I'm a dead man, literally."

"Nonsense. I don't believe this kind of obvious nonsense." Su Ruanruan waved her hand, "If you are a dead person now, then I am not far from death. Everyone has to look forward, things can always be resolved Yeah, I can control this, don't you keep thinking about that bitch—"

"It's not him - rest early, there is class tomorrow."

"Say more, you still say!?" Su Ruanruan simply turned her upper body and stared into her eyes, which shone like stars in the darkness, "Then you have to say, am I not counting you?" Who is it, you don’t tell me anyone, you don’t even know what you’re thinking just by guessing, is your mind full of solid iron, and you don’t even have me!”

Her cheeks were so hot, Su Ruanruan suddenly realized that she seemed to have said something terrible, and she stopped, but Tao Anan pursed her lips and smiled, with a faint smile, always in the usual gesture, and quietly reached out her hand He touched her cheek, reached over and pinched her ear, which was still hot.

"Ruan Ruan."

"Ah, why are you called so nasty?"

"I'm dying." Tao An'an's voice was crying, but she still had a grinning expression on her face. She was too close, and her wanton smile could be seen in the dark. What was behind the smile? ?It's a sour sorrow, she was about to die, but she confirmed the heart of the living, like a warrior overcame thorns and thorns, fought bloody battles, finally defeated the big devil, arrived at the castle and saw the princess, but lost too much blood due to serious injuries, and died in front of her beloved princess before.

"You're talking nonsense again——Tao An'an, let me tell you, I, Su Ruanruan, have grown up since I was a child. When I opened the Xinhua dictionary, I didn't like to read such negative words. I had to cross them out and throw them away. You are not living a good life. Why did you say you were going to die?"

"I'm literally dying."

"Okay, what about the evidence?"

evidence?Where does she have any evidence?The evidence is the inexplicable voice in her head reminding her that she is going to die, the evidence is the inexplicable laughter and crying in her head?The evidence is that I dragged her to the river to jump for a try?Then she's really out of her mind.

Without saying a word, Su Ruanruan thought she had nothing to say, and began to put on her earnest attitude as a cadre: "Hey, I know that you have been in a bad mood because of Zhang Musheng, but can you stay in mainland China? How many days? You see that you are excellent, and you will have a good development after staying in Ludao for a few years. It is not impossible to settle here and take root. You will have a great income and good career prospects. Isn’t that job fair Does a boss always think that you are trying to pull you? Although you may not necessarily go, it can also prove that you are a very capable person. Why do you have trouble with him? Tell me about everything in the future, You can't hide everything from me, what is this—"

"I knew you wouldn't believe it—I didn't hide anything from you..."

"Okay, then let's assume that what you said is true, you are going to die. No matter how long it is, at least you have a few days to live, right? Just because you are going to die, you will not be able to live for a few days. Plan to live well? Then I have a few years to die, so I can’t pass these few years. Everyone sits on the kang and waits to die? Why can’t you figure it out because you are so smart? Can’t you live well? "

"There are still one hundred days, only one hundred days."

"99 days, 52 hours and [-] minutes." The long-lost voice reappeared in her mind to remind her of the exact time, and she suddenly remembered what she should explain to Su Ruanruan.

Su Ruanruan sat by her side, her eyebrows and eyes were so close, she tried to get a little closer and take a closer look.Su Ruanruan didn't notice any abnormalities either. She leaned against her and frowned: "One hundred days? So accurate? What disease do you have? Don't listen to the doctor's nonsense. I had lung disease when I was young. At that time, the doctor said I was going to burp. You see, I am still alive and well, my health is better than the average person, and my lung disease has long been gone."

"I fell into the river, so I have to keep jumping into the river. I am a resentment now, and I have to keep jumping into the river to eliminate my resentment." Tao Anan felt that what he said was a bit strange, so he described his first day From the beginning of sliding down the river with a squeak, to the countless times of falling from the river with a squeak, I told the story again, omitting the things I had experienced before, omitting myself and Su Ruanruan and Xu Zhihuan What was said, that is a matter of another time and space, and should not interfere with the current time and space.

So Su Ruanruan pondered for a long time, then reached out to touch her forehead.

"I don't have a fever. What I said is true. If you don't believe it, forget it."

"No, no, no, I believe it. If you say there are such things as ghosts and snakes, then you will have them. Although I don't think so—" Su Ruanruan fell into deep thought again, "I believe it, but if you live well, the worst thing is to wait until the hundredth day I will watch you dance, and when others come to disturb me, I will beat them away. You will be free after a hundred dances, and you can live a good life at ordinary times. Really, don’t waste your life on such useless thinking. It’s late at night. You scared the hell out of me."

"On the [-]th day, you watched me dance for the first time, and then I was back to today, and then someone would obstruct me, so I couldn't dance anymore." Tao Anan analyzed the pros and cons for her with his fingers, Su Ruanruan waved her hand: "How can you be sure that someone must obstruct you?"

Because people have been blocking me so far!Tao An'an didn't dare to say.