I have a Secret

That day, Chen Yue put the love letter in a book. He hid the book in the cabinet of the dormitory, and locked the cabinet. He planned to wait until he got home on Saturday and find a safe place to keep it. He never thought of throwing it away. Every word, every sentence is what he thinks about day and night, crosses out repeatedly, and revises, and pours into the first love in his life. There are sourness and sweetness, enough for him to remember for a long time.

Spring is the gentlest season of the year, the wind is gentle, the rain is gentle, and the sun is also gentle.

Boys and girls wear clean or dirty school uniforms and shuttle around the campus and classrooms. Their young and innocent faces are full of love for spring. The weather is neither cold nor hot. Sleeping is comfortable and class is also very comfortable. Daoti just put his hand to his mouth and let out a sigh of relief. It's great that he sweats when he sits on the chair for a long time and doesn't worry about getting up.

However, Chen Yue was like a frost-beaten eggplant, wilting.

The magazine that Liu Feng stuffed in his schoolbag during the winter vacation was taken away by his mother, and he didn’t say anything. This time, he got two more copies for him, which is enough for buddies. Guaranteed that you will immediately come alive after watching it, and run around the playground ten or eight laps excitedly."

Chen Yue lay on the table with his eyes closed, indifferent.

Liu Feng pulled off Chen Yue's earphones, and hummed, "What? The number one throne is under my ass, are you heartbroken? Difficult to sleep and eat? Life is better than death?"

After he finished speaking those few idioms, he felt that he had made great progress, why he still didn't pass fifty points in Chinese, it shouldn't be.

Chen Yue turned off the Walkman in his desk pocket, got up and walked out of the classroom.

Liu Feng went out with Chen Yue, and lay side by side with him in the corridor to blow the air, "If you have anything to say, just tell me about our strong friendship over the past few years. Don't worry, I promise not to talk about it."

Seeing that Chen Yue kept his mouth tightly shut and said nothing, Liu Feng rolled his eyes, "You have a girl you like, I haven't told anyone about it, have I? Think about it, if I did, it must have happened long ago It has spread in the school, so give me some trust, buddy."

Chen Yue turned around and leaned his back against the corridor, "Nothing happened."

"You have a dead face in and out of class these two days. It doesn't matter whether you are asked to play ball, go clubbing, or ask girls out to eat. You can't go to any of them. You either sleep in the dormitory or in the classroom. What's the matter? Think I'm blind?"

Liu Feng stared at his buddy, his eyes rolled, and he had a guess in his heart, "You didn't write a love letter to that girl and she rejected it, did you?"

Chen Yue's face changed, and he roared, as if he had been stabbed in the wound, "What the hell are you talking about?"

Seeing him like this, Liu Feng knew that his guess was indistinguishable, "Fuck, I'm not talking about you, usually there are many girls chasing you, just pick one at random, why... do it, do it when I Did not say."

Anyway, last year's military training saw some signs and reminded people that if people don't take it to heart, even if they say a flower, they will still be farting.

Liu Feng had just rested for a while, and his instinct to watch the excitement reappeared, "That girl sits in the front, let me guess, Chen Yan is the person we talk to most in our dormitory, she has a good personality, and she is tall. She's cute, and she won't look down on us scumbags, there are quite a few people who like her, but none of them chased her, did she?"

He observed his buddy's expression and said in surprise, "No? That's Wu Fang. She is good at English and her hair is the longest among the girls in the class. It is tied at the back and reaches her waist. When she handed out papers, we She blushes when teased, and doesn't dare to lift her head."

Chen Yue walked towards the stairs.

Liu Feng grumbled behind him, "Neither? You like the type who is helpful, kind and friendly, and has a beautiful heart? Then it's hard to guess, and we have to start with the first one in the first row."

Chen Yue scolded angrily, "Could you please shut up?"

Liu Feng said no, "The biggest purpose of a person's long mouth is to talk, the second is to eat and drink, the third is to breathe, the fourth is to kiss the person you like, but you don't have to try it for a while, because the girl you like... "

Chen Yue's footsteps suddenly stopped, and he turned his head angrily, "Do you want to die?"

Liu Feng looked at his buddy's injury, and felt that his ability to bear it was too poor. How could he get along in society when he grew up? "Isn't it just being rejected? It's a big deal, I don't know how many times I have been rejected, 'You like me is your business, what has anything to do with me', the truth of this sentence should be better than us People like to understand."

There is a beast living in Chen Yue's heart, licking the wound silently, whoever provokes it will go crazy, "You know what a fart!"

Liu Feng hehe, "I don't understand, you understand, I think you just reject girls too much, God can't see it, let you have a taste of what it's like."

Chen Yue kicked his ass, "Get out!"

Liu Feng cursed in pain, "Fuck, you want to kick me to death, don't you?"

The two stared at each other in the corridor, looking like they were so angry that they were going to have a fight at any time, but they didn't do that, they just sat down on the dirty steps.

Liu Feng rubbed his butt, gritted his teeth and said, "It's no big deal, this is the first time you've been rejected, and you'll get used to it after more times."

Chen Yue talked nonsense.

Liu Feng spoke thoughtfully, and his childish face was a little more mature, "Do you know what liking is all about? I like it today, I don't like it tomorrow, and I like it again the day after tomorrow. Don't take it too seriously. In the future One day you will find out how stupid you are now."

Chen Yue took out the cigarette case from his pocket, and pulled out a mouthpiece from it. He fell in love with pornography the first time he saw it, and he has always liked it since then. He never thought about changing his liking one day.

There will no longer be anyone in this world who will let him just take a look in the crowd, just like seeing the brightest star, there will never be any more.

Seeing this, Liu Feng bumped him on the shoulder, "I don't know when I hid it, so give me one too."

Chen Yue lowered his head and took out the lighter and tapped it to spark a flame. He lit a cigarette for himself and took a puff with half-closed eyes, then threw the lighter and the cigarette case to Liu Feng.

Liu Feng said that cigarettes are better, "Let me tell you, girls' hearts are hard to guess. If you have that energy, it's better to smoke two more cigarettes. Think about what you eat for three meals a day."

Chen Yue has never guessed any girl's heart, and he doesn't want to guess. He just wants to guess Huang Dan's heart. If he can figure it out, it would be great.

In the past two days, Chen Yue was very conflicted. On the one hand, he felt that it would be good if Huang Dan didn't read the love letter, so that he could maintain the status quo, provoke each other as usual, continue on if it's not good or bad, and what should he do if he deceives himself Neither happened.

But on the other hand, he was very unwilling and wanted to be brave once. Even if he was rejected and treated as a pervert, or even sued to the teacher, causing him to be discriminated against by the whole school and asked to drop out of school, he did not want to regret his cowardice and withdrawal in the future.

Chen Yue smoked silently. If he confessed his love face to face, there was a great possibility that even his classmates would fail.

I still want to be brave once, just once.

In the end, Chen Yue just didn't want to fall in love with someone for the first time, and he didn't even dare to say he liked him. He felt that if he didn't say it now, the longer the time and the older he was, the less he would dare to say it.

Liu Feng said suddenly, "No, I heard the voice of the teacher in charge, run!"

Chen Yue came back to his senses immediately, got up and ran back to the classroom with him after he pinched his cigarette.

When Lao Wei went upstairs, he smelled a smell of smoke, which was quite strong. He should have just slipped away. He said to the female teacher beside him, "Children nowadays don't learn well at a young age."

"It's just a rebellious period, everyone has it, it's just that the way of expression is different."

The female teacher was much calmer than him, "That Chen Yue in your class really surprised us. After he entered high school, he didn't go around causing trouble like he did in junior high school. Instead, he confronted the teacher and led a group of people to fight with other classes. His grades even improved. , Are you in love?"

Hearing this, Old Wei almost stepped on the empty steps. He stood firm and said, "No way? There have always been many girls who stuffed him with small things, but I haven't heard of any girl he fell in love with."

The female teacher didn't think so, "Have you ever thought about it, Chen Yue is the last one every time, which means that he doesn't care about the ranking in academic performance, what other people think or evaluate him, unless he likes a good student. Don't take him seriously, he wants to let the other party see himself."

Old Wei frowned, he had his own way of paying attention to students, and most of the information was accurate, "As far as I know, many girls with good grades admire Chen Yue."

As a person who has experienced it, Wei can understand what kind of psychology it is. The better they are, the higher the expectations of their teachers and parents, and the greater the constraints.

In this way, they will be curious about Chen Yue, and envy him for his freedom and fearlessness, plus his appearance, it is not surprising at all.

The female teacher said, "But not all of them."

Old Wei sounded quite reliable, and he sounded the alarm in his heart, not worried about Chen Yue, but worried about the girl who was attracted by the other party.

No one can list the impact of puppy love one by one, but the disadvantages must outweigh the advantages. Judging from Lao Wei's teaching experience over the years, as long as they are in love, few people can make progress together, and many people fall behind together.

Old Wei separated from the female teacher, he went to the left and entered the classroom through the back door.

During the ten seconds when Old Wei entered, the noise in the classroom had almost disappeared, and one or two unresponsive ones were still chatting with their necks twisted. When they found out, they immediately sat upright, their faces flushed and their hearts beating faster. Scared to death.

When Old Wei passed by Chen Yue's table, he took another look. He didn't say anything, and walked slowly to the podium to start class.

Huang Dan lowered his head to write notes from time to time, and his mind drifted a little far away. He filled in the task that night and completed it, but he didn't leave and stayed in the past.

The previous time travels, the yellow list can be harvested and enriched life experience, this time is the same, he thought it was over, but he didn't expect it to be.

What would be waiting for him to blow off the dust covering it and expose it to this old time?

Old Wei called Huang Dan to get up to answer the question, but he didn't respond, he walked around blatantly, and for the first time, everyone in the class was so fresh that they all craned their necks to watch.

Chen Yue in the back supported his head, and his eyes drifted there.

Old Wei was about to step off the podium and knock on the table when Jiang Long secretly pinched Huang Dan's leg. Huang Dan regained consciousness immediately and stood up from his seat.

Looking at the students, Old Wei frowned and asked with concern, "Is there something uncomfortable?"

If Huang Dan said no, he would be taken as a liar, because his face was pale and his eyes were still red, so he had no choice but to nod.

Lao Wei immediately asked Jiang Long to accompany Huang Dan to the infirmary.

Everyone else is whispering, good students are different, if you feel uncomfortable, you can go to the infirmary directly, and you don't even need to write a leave note.

Old Wei threw the chalk end on the podium, clapped his hands and said, "What are you talking about? Speak up, let me participate."

The class immediately fell silent.

Chen Yue's heart went out with Huang Dan, he turned the pen a few times and dropped it a few times, and threw it on the table angrily.

Old Wei glanced over, "Go out if you don't want to attend class."

As soon as his last word came out of his mouth, Chen Yueren had already left the classroom.

Why is there an illusion that if a student wants to fall asleep, he will give him a pillow?Old Wei's facial muscles twitched.

Chen Yue ran downstairs in a few strides, looking for Huang Dan while running, and found that he didn't go to the infirmary, but went to the dormitory, so he stopped to catch his breath.

Damn, I'm so nervous that I'm about to have a heart attack.

Huang Dan went to the dormitory, and when he entered the door, he looked at the poster on the wall.

Jiang Long followed his gaze, curled his lips and said, "Chen Yue is precious, don't let him touch or talk."

Huang Dan didn't sit on Jiang Long's bed, he was standing, and his peripheral vision kept falling on the poster.

Jiang Long wanted Huang Dan to lie on his bed for a while, but before he said a word, there was another person in the dormitory, "You must have been kicked out by the head teacher."

Chen Yue's tone was harsh, "If you don't speak, no one will treat you as dumb."

Jiang Long glared at him, then turned to Huang Dan and said, "I'm going to pee."

Huang Dan and Chen Yue were the only ones left in the dormitory. They had the same young body, mentality, memory, and experience, but there was a huge gap.

Huang Dan wanted to go outside, and Chen Yue went in, and the two bodies accidentally bumped into each other. This is a very common physical contact between boys, and it's not a big deal.

Chen Yue had a normal reaction on the surface, but his heartbeat missed a beat uncontrollably. He suddenly felt aggrieved, and got angry at the innocent plastic bucket.

Huang Dan didn't speak.

Chen Yue grabbed the railing and gave up the idea of ​​going to bed again. He said, "Why are your eyes so red like a rabbit?"

The yellow slip still didn't respond.

Chen Yue was so angry that he almost gritted his teeth, he snorted lightly, pretending not to care, "Don't talk about pulling down."

The next moment, he kicked a shoe at his feet far away.

Huang Dan turned around and looked at Chen Yue.

Chen Yue looked like a hedgehog shrunk into a ball, "What the hell, have you never seen a handsome guy?"

Huang Dan said, "You are in a bad mood."

Chen Yue was taken aback when he heard the words, is it obvious?

Huang Dan said, "Obviously."

This time Chen Yue was not only stupefied, but also surprised, what the hell, how did he know what I was thinking?

Huang Dan's mouth twitched slightly, "It's all on your face."

Chen Yue should be panicking now, so my usual stupid behavior won't be seen, right?

No, Huang Dan wouldn't talk to him like that if he was spotted.

Huang Dan had a full view of Chen Yue's emotional changes. He rubbed his eyes, went to open his cabinet, took a water glass from it to rinse, and poured half a glass of water into it with Jiang Long's water bottle.

Chen Yue was peeping, and once he found Huang Dan, he turned his head aside and went to see him again later.

Huang Dan pretended not to know.

In his spare time, Lao Wei chatted with some teachers about Chen Yue, and the Chinese teacher showed him the last test paper.

"The topic of the composition is "Dream", and the requirement is no less than 800 words. When I walked to Chen Yue's desk, I saw his test paper with one sentence, my dream is... 800 words are omitted here."

The Chinese teacher smiled helplessly, "It was only when I corrected the paper that I found out that he changed it later, at least he corrected his attitude a little bit."

Lao Wei turned over the test paper, and the first line of the essay was completely crossed out, and a paragraph was written on the back——My dream is to buy a castle abroad in the future, surrounded by many trees, with a rose garden and a lake inside. , there is grass, and my princess.

The Chinese teacher's smile conveyed his eyes, and he was a very gentle person. "Dreams and dreams are just daring to think. Not bad. Although the number of words is far from enough, it is better than omitting 800 words here."

Old Wei read that paragraph again, the child's inner feelings are very rich, his temperament is not bad, but he is too lazy and has no goal to strive for. If he has...

We'll have to wait until we have it to know what it looks like.

Which girl is Chen Yue's princess?Old Wei ruled them out one by one in his mind, and found that none of them looked like him, his head was too big.

Two days later, it was Huang Dan's turn to be on duty, and he cleaned from the back to the front.

Some students like to spit, and a large piece of the ground next to the seat will be wet.

When the yellow sheet came across something like that, he quickly swept it with a broom, and swept the garbage such as paper ball snack bags to the aisle, and then piled it together.

Chen Yue didn't leave, but squatted in the corner outside, hearing the sound of tables and chairs being moved from time to time, he wanted to go in and help, especially, but he didn't, for fear that he couldn't help touching the pornographic list.

If the two of you are alone, the impulsive devil will definitely come out.

Just like back then, Huang Dan heard Chen Yue talking to himself in the corridor.

Huang Dan stood where he was, and he listened for as long as Chen Yue talked.

In mid-April ushered in the sports meeting.

Huang Dan is not interested in sports that consume a lot of physical strength, and he doesn't want to try it. He is afraid of pain, so he instinctively rejects it.

The saliva of the boys' discussion was flying around, but the girls were much calmer, and most of them didn't want to participate. Some of them had underdeveloped motor cells, and some were just shy.

After all, no matter which project you participate in, there will be many people watching.

Chen Yue is the trump card in the class. With his height and physique, it is unreasonable not to apply for two more events.

The representative of the physical education class went to Chen Yue with the registration form, "You apply for a 3000-meter race, and then a high jump or long jump, do you think this will work?"

Chen Yue said with a smile, "How about I report all the projects?"

The representative of the physical education class also laughed, "This won't work, many events are carried out at the same time, you can't stagger your time, let me show you which ones..."

His voice stopped abruptly, only then did he realize Chen Yue's sarcasm.

Chen Yue was still laughing, "I won't participate in any of them."

The physical education representative opened his eyes wide, with a look of shock on his face, "Why?"

Chen Yue put his legs on the table, "I'm in a bad mood, can't you tell?"

The representative of the physical education class, "..."

The news about Chen Yue's refusal to participate in the sports meeting spread in the class, and everyone's reaction was very strong. If he did not participate, the chance of getting the ranking would be much smaller.

Jiang Long finished speaking, "If Chen Yue doesn't run 3000, no one will be able to run. How can our class compete with other classes?"

Huang Dan said, "Why fight?"

Jiang Long was speechless for a while, "I found that you and Chen Yue have one thing in common, the collective sense of honor of both of you is very weak, it's not right, you know?"

He made a habit of chattering again, "Meeting is fate, a class is a whole, when it comes to major matters in the grade, we must advance and retreat together."

Huang Dan frowned, Jiang Long was right, Chen Yue disdained the sense of collective honor, he didn't take it seriously, it was actually the same.

Seeing that Huang Dan didn't speak, Jiang Long quickly explained, "I'm just talking casually, don't be angry."

Huang Dan was not angry, he was thinking about the sports meeting back then, Chen Yue had the same attitude at the beginning, but finally he participated in the 3000 meters and won the first place.

In the evening of the same day, Chen Yue was called to the office by the head teacher to give him one-on-one ideological education.

Old Wei cut to the chase, "You don't want to participate in this sports meeting?"

Chen Yue didn't follow him, "Yes."

Old Wei looked him up and down, "The reason is that you are in a bad mood?"

Chen Yue said, "That's right."

Old Wei looked kindly, "Why are you in a bad mood? Tell me, and the teacher will enlighten you."

Chen Yue grinned, "Teacher, I appreciate your kindness."

Old Wei took a sip of tea, "You know how to talk poorly, which means you're not in a bad mood. It's the 1500-meter and 400-meter relay, or the 3000-meter relay. You choose one to participate."

Chen Yue raised his eyebrows, "Is it still forced?"

Old Wei sighed, "The teacher is not forcing, but strengthening your sense of collective honor."

He stood up and patted the student on the shoulder, "Those who can do more work, 3000 can only run for you, the teacher is optimistic about you."

"..."

Chen Yue returned to the classroom and learned from everyone's comments that Huang Dan had also applied for a project, throwing shot put, and his mood suddenly improved.

Having a sports meeting means that there is no need to attend classes, and you don't need to listen to the teacher's ramblings.

The refueling manuscript was written by Chen Yan. After she finished writing, she asked the yellow slip to correct it, and it was passed after handing it in.

The slogan was thought up by several class cadres, a total of three were thought up, and the whole class voted, and the one with the highest number of votes was - Class [-], Class [-], unstoppable, Class [-], Class [-], absolutely not ordinary!

On the day of the sports meeting, all classes gathered on the playground. They were wearing school uniforms, wearing school badges on their chests, each with a small flag, and their faces were full of excitement.

The principal came to the stage to speak, and the students looked around, looking for beautiful women and handsome men, but no one was listening.

It wasn't until the headmaster raised his voice, saying that the sports meeting had officially started and wished all classes good results, that everyone applauded in unison.

The first race is the 100-meter sprint, and the announcement tells the participants to get ready on the runway.

Liu Feng waved his hand like a leader, he scored No.2 and made a very good start for Class Five.

A few good students would bring their homework to the playground. They didn’t participate in the projects, and they didn’t pay attention to the scores of the class. Huang Dan didn’t do that back then, but he also held the attitude that it had nothing to do with him.

This time he participated, because Jiang Long said that experience is very important, and that life is a constant experience.

Huang Dan thought of time travel, and also thought of going back to the past, so he decided to experience it once.

This little thing shouldn't change the big picture.

When Huang Dan threw the shot put, Chen Yue cheered him on in the crowd. He caught the opponent's figure, slipped his hand and missed the throw, and didn't get the ranking.

When Chen Yue saw the young man frowning and pursing his lips, he felt a little distressed, it's okay, don't be sad, the important thing is to participate.

If I had known it earlier, I would have given him my wristbands. Chen Yue put his hands in his pockets, pinched the five-pointed star between his fingers, caressed it casually, and followed the figure all the time with his eyes.

Liu Feng chuckled, "We made a bet and said that the yellow sheet would not get the ranking, but the result really made us sure."

Chen Yue squinted, "Don't you still have a 400-meter relay? Don't you need to warm up?"

Liu Feng cursed, "Don't talk about it, the first one is Jiang Long's short winter melon, he can run a fart!"

Jiang Long on the opposite side tugged at Huang Dan's school uniform, "I feel like Liu Feng is scolding me."

Huang Dan raised his eyelids and looked over.

Liu Feng raised his little finger at him, but was dragged away by Chen Yue's collar.

The 3000-meter race is the finale, and all teams are dispatched by athletes.

Both sides of the runway were full of people, cheering on the people in their own class, and not only that, they also cheered on the other classes.

Youth is full of vitality, like a running zebra, but also naive and cute.

Chen Yue took off his school uniform jacket, and the girls around him were full of expectations, pointing at him and throwing it into their arms.

Huang Dan was talking to Jiang Long, the light in front of his eyes dimmed, and his head sank at the same time. He took off the coat, and Chen Yue's neat back was in his sight.

Jiang Long looked puzzled, "There are so many people around, why did he throw the school uniform to you? You don't know each other well."

Huang Dan put Chen Yue's school uniform in his arms, which happened back then, and he threw it to the class monitor.

Chen Yan grinned, "Master, if you weren't the school belle, they would definitely be in a hurry with you."

Yellow list, "..."

Chen Yan put her hand over her mouth and whispered, "Nine o'clock in your direction is the second class flower. She fell in love with Chen Yue at first sight, and she also fell in love with you at first sight. It is said that she has been worrying all day because she wants Chen Yue to be her. Boyfriend, let you be her boyfriend, if she can have one wife and two husbands, she will definitely want both."

Huang Dan said, "You don't like her."

Chen Yan's face turned red, and her eyes were erratic, "Where do I have it, don't talk nonsense!"

She doesn't like it, because the other party is too pretentious and self-righteous.

Huang Dan didn't say anything more.

Teenage boys have a wide range of physiques, ranging from thin and small to tall and strong.

Chen You had two other things, he was naughty and handsome, the other boys didn't like him very much, and they didn't dare to show it.

With a gunshot, everyone flew out like sharp arrows.

One lap or two laps, Chen Yue ran at a moderate pace, always in the middle position, everyone could see that he obviously didn't go all out.

Such a famous person, school girl, has many people paying attention, and now they all have their own ideas, some think that he is deliberately attracting others' attention, some think that he is hurting his feet and legs, in short, he is just uncomfortable.

Some were so worried that they could not help but run after him, cheering him up with snot and tears.

The fifth class exploded, and none of them thought that Chen Yue would have any problems.

"Liu Feng, do you know what happened to Chen Yue?"

"do not know."

"Aren't you on good terms? You should..."

"What should be, no matter how good it is, it's not the roundworm in his stomach!"

"If he doesn't run, he won't be able to catch up."

Liu Feng lost his temper, "What the hell, eyes grow on the ass? Isn't he running all the time?"

He cursed and stared at Chen Yue on the runway, buddy, what people said is right, hurry up, don't be so handsome, or it will be too late.

During the last lap, Chen Yue saw from a distance that there was someone more at the finish line. He suspected that he was wrong, so he blinked his eyes, and a drop of sweat fell down, his vision was blurred and clear. When he looked again, that person was still there.

That's right!

Chen Yue wiped his sweaty cheeks, he grinned happily, fuck, he is really the boy he likes.

Then everyone saw that Chen Yue suddenly increased his speed, and he overtook one by one, the speed became faster and faster, as if he was about to fly.

The atmosphere in the fifth class became high-pitched, their faces were flushed, and they shouted loudly, "Chen Yue, come on! Chen Yue, come on!"

There were two people in front of Chen Yue, he gasped heavily, his heart beat violently in his chest, and his ears were buzzing, he couldn't hear anything, he couldn't see anything, there was only one person left in the whole world .

That's the guy he likes to meet him at the finish line.

Hurry up, Chen Yue's face was covered with sweat, but his eyes were extremely black and bright. There was a fire burning inside, and his soul was boiling hot.

The fifth class raised their hearts to their throats, either clutching the people around them, or clasping their hands, they shouted in their hearts, go over!over go!

Everyone, including Liu Feng, held their breath. A few seconds later, they shouted loudly, and fierce cheers resounded through the sky.

Chen Yue was the first to reach the finish line. He didn't stop, and ran straight towards the boy he liked.