I have a Secret

Every year before Huang Dan's birthday, Chen Yue would leave his job and go back to China. He would stand downstairs in his house and smoke a few cigarettes. After zero o'clock, he would sing a birthday song in the corner to wish him a happy birthday.

It's a habit.

When that day was approaching, Chen Yue unconsciously increased his work efficiency and spared time to travel across the ocean to look at pornographic orders, even though he didn't take himself seriously.

On Huang Dan's birthday last year, Chen Yue went back to China to see him, and the accident happened on that day.

The weather was bad and it was raining heavily. From a distance, Chen Yue saw that Huang Dan was blocked by a man, and he even stuffed roses into his arms.

At that time, Chen Yueli ran towards Huang Dan, and did not pay attention to the cars that were driving wildly on the sidewalk. He was hit and flew and died on the spot.

At that moment, a voice appeared in Chen Yue's mind, and his life changed from then on.

The system worker who claimed to be S01 told Chen Yue that he was just out for fun, happened to pass by there, fell in love with his obsession, and said he was a lucky one.

As long as he completes the ten-volume mission, he will have a chance to be reborn.

Chen Yue said that he could not have a relationship with anyone other than pornography, there was no way to do it, even a virtual one, S01 said that he didn't need it, he was just going to be a male supporting role, and acting according to the affectionate persona was fine.

The timeline of the task world is different from that of the real world. Chen Yue successfully completed all the tasks and woke up. Only a second or two later, he was still lying in the heavy rain, but he could not find Huang Dan, and he left.

Last year, Chen Yue was recuperating from his injuries. One day S01 asked him if he would like to work part-time, and he agreed.

People have instinctive curiosity about unknown fields, and they also want to touch magical fields and explore higher technological civilizations.

Chen Yue thinks more and more deeply. He can get a chance to be reborn by completing the task. This is something that no one dares to think about. If it really happens, he thinks it is a dream. Do something.

Just in the first half of this year, after S01's extraordinary recommendation, Chen Yue's part-time job changed. He took over the job of the former caretaker and formally took care of the main program network.

The main program network does not have a table, a chair, a brick or a tile, or even a speck of dust. There are countless light spots, and each light spot is a virtual world, which cannot be counted by the naked eye unless you look at the statistics.

Only the main system can come from the main program network. Chen Yue saw S01 there, an ordinary person like him, and said that he was leaving, and a new main system would appear soon.

After that, the S01 really disappeared.

Chen Yue's part-time job is extremely boring, all he has to do is to check countless virtual worlds, and report any abnormalities, and he has nothing to do with the rest.

Every time there is a new host, the main program domain will record personal information, and the corresponding virtual world will also be enlarged, and then return to its original size after a few seconds.

When Chen Yue saw Huang Dan's name, he confirmed it over and over again. During that time, he thought a lot and did it all.

Five or six minutes later, Chen Yue told Huang Dan everything, "If you have any doubts, you can ask me, and I will explain everything to you."

Huang Dan's thoughts were chaotic. After he learned that Chen Yue had died once, he had already thought of countless possibilities, but he denied them one by one. The last one left was to be received by the system workers.

Because Huang Dan has lived for nearly 30 years, only this matter is out of his cognition, completely out of the knowledge points he has mastered.

That S01 was the third brother's former boss, but it's a pity that it's gone, otherwise Huang Dan would like to express his gratitude to him.

It wasn't him, Chen Yue's life stopped at the age of 28, and he left with regrets. Huang Dan lived in the framework he built all his life, and would never fall in love with someone. He didn't need it, and he didn't have the urge to try.

Many things have changed because they happened to meet a certain point, and the world was turned upside down in an instant.

Chen Yue remembered something, "Every time I go in, I don't have the memory of the previous world. I can only copy a few data so that you can recognize me earlier."

He has a lot of selfish intentions, as for the outcome, it all depends on the yellow list.

"Actually, I'm not sure that you will like me. I just want you to notice me, talk to me, and smile at me. When all your tasks are over, I will come back to see you from time to time as before. You, knowing that you are fine, I will be fine."

Huang Dan asked, "How many times have you appeared in front of me?"

Chen Yue glanced at him, "I can't remember it, I have appeared in front of you 130 times in these years, and the tickets are all here."

Huang Dan was shocked by this number, he had no impression at all.

When he went back to the past, Huang Dan only stayed until his senior year. He missed Chen Yue so much and came back. In the following years, he didn't experience it again, and he didn't have the opportunity to observe the people and things around him.

Chen Yue touched his face, and said twice, "Brother, I don't have a public face, why don't you have an impression? There are many times when I have the cheek to go up to say hello to you, who knows next time we will meet again, you Seeing me is still a stranger."

Wanting to ask Huang Dan for a meal, it is impossible to create an opportunity for contact. He lifts himself out of everyone's world, especially those who have a purpose for him.

Huang Dan lowered his eyelids, because he had a problem with his attitude towards life, and he was equally indifferent to everyone, "I'm sorry."

Chen Yue was taken aback, he quickly raised Huang Dan's face, frowned and said, "Why tell me you're sorry, you're right."

Huang Dan pursed his lips, as if about to cry.

When Chen Yue saw Huang Dan like this, he felt very uncomfortable. He took him into his arms, kissing each other, "It's okay, it's okay, you're not wrong at all."

Huang Dan rubbed his eyes, "Aren't you sad that you didn't see me when you woke up?"

If Chen Yue said he wasn't sad, that would be too fake. He was too sad to cry, "I was thinking at the time, you wouldn't be with that man, would you? I don't know if you would agree to the castle I bought for you. want."

Huang Dan turned over and lay on the bed, his eyes were closed, and the corners of his eyes were moist.

Chen Yue lay beside him, stretching out his arms for him to pillow on, "Life is full of accidents, I have experienced them, life is full of surprises, I have also experienced them, and now is the biggest surprise."

"Don't think about it, we still have a long way to go, we will walk together in the future, don't rush forward alone and ignore me."

"Well, let's go together, we won't ignore you."

Huang Dan asked what troubled him, "Then do you know why I time travel?"

Chen Yue shook his head, "I only take care of those task worlds, and I can't control anything else. Every system worker has a different personality, and the conditions for selecting a host are also different."

This answer was expected by Huang Dan.

From the moment he crossed inexplicably, the unfathomable universe has blocked in front of him, forcing him to fantasize and study hard.

Chen Yue asked abruptly, "Have you looked for your parents?"

Huang Dan nodded, "I've looked for it, but there's no clue. They don't seem to exist. I couldn't find the result when I asked Song Min."

Chen Yue frowned and said, "I suspect that they are not from our world."

At that moment, many guesses appeared in Huang Dan's mind, and he suppressed them all.

Chen Yue said, "Think about it, you have been taken care of by that person since you were born, and he raised you up. During this period, you have not seen your relatives. It is too abnormal."

It is indeed abnormal, but Huang Dan has no way to break the status quo recklessly, because Song Min is not the housekeeper to him, but his parents.

Chen Yue held Huang Dan's hand and squeezed it, "I've been trying to find a way to investigate, and I'll let you know when I find out."

Huang Dan paused and asked, "Do you know Mr. System?"

Chen Yue said he didn't know, "Only the main system can enter and leave the place I am in charge of. I heard that all system workers do not communicate with each other. Even if a friend is my colleague, they will not know it face to face."

Huang Dan said, the secrecy work is done very well.

Chen Yue pulled up the quilt, "Go to sleep, it's late, let's talk tomorrow."

Huang Dan couldn't sleep.

There are so many things in his mind at once, he needs time to sort them out, and accept them in categories, "Chen Yue, have you ever been to the world where Mr. System is?"

"I haven't been there, but I can apply. If you want to go, I'll apply."

Chen Yue sat on the bed, "Your parents' matter, maybe you can find some clues there, I'll apply as soon as possible, the process is very slow over there."

Huang Dan said, "It will be faster if I can contact my third brother."

Chen Yue's face is weird, "Sometimes he is more indifferent than you, sometimes he talks and laughs, and he changes as soon as he says it. As far as I know, he made up all the mission worlds for himself for the assessment of the main system. Set yourself to participate in the assessment with a completely different personality, and if you pass the assessment, you will be promoted from the system to the main system."

"His other half was created by him, and there seems to be internal conflicts in the family recently."

Huang Dan's mouth twitched slightly, "It's really complicated."

"Every family has its cupboard."

Chen Yue took the cigarette case and lighter, "I'll come back after I go out to smoke a cigarette."

Huang Dan grabbed one of his hands and said, "Don't go out, just smoke in the room."

Chen Yue held a cigarette in his mouth, "Give me some time to prepare, I will work hard to quit smoking, you supervise me."

"Okay."

In the second half of the night, Huang Dan didn't close his eyes very much, neither did Chen Yue. They did it once in the bathroom standing up in the morning.

Chen Yue put the sweater cuffed on Huang Dan's hair, and pulled it down for him, "Every time I go back to China, I book a hotel closer to your home, and I've stayed in them all. My plan was to open a hotel by myself next year." , so convenient to see you, now there is no need."

Huang Dan asked him, "Where were you when you couldn't afford a hotel?"

Chen Yue worked hard all the way with his own hands, and spent a long time on the ground floor, "Speaking of this, I am quite depressed, your home is in a high-end community, and there are no cheap small hotels nearby, just a Park, I go there if I don’t have money to stay in a hotel.”

Huang Dan pursed his lips tightly.

Chen Yue teased, "Why, do you love me?"

Huang Dan said seriously, "Well, my heart hurts."

The smile on Chen Yue's face disappeared, and his thin lips raised again, "Fool, what's so distressing about this, I'm very happy when I come back to see you."

Huang Dan grabbed one of his hands and rubbed his fingertips against the calluses in his palm, "Your hands were not rough or calloused back in high school."

Chen Yue's hand was a little itchy from being rubbed by him, "At that time, there was no such thing as a big deal all day long. I didn't work when I was full. taste?"

Huang Dan touched Chen Yue's butt, "It's different here."

Only now did he realize that Chen Yue's small thoughts secretly brought some of his own characteristics into the mission world, in order to let him remember that if he didn't like it, he would come back to the real world and meet again, maybe he could take a second look.

This kind of thinking is humbled to the dust.

Chen Yue's breathing became heavy, and he clasped Huang Dan's wrist, "Don't let go, you don't want to go to work in the morning, right?"

Huang Dan said, "I have a lot of things to do in the morning, so I can spare half an hour in the afternoon."

Chen Yue liked the way he spoke earnestly, "You underestimate your brother too much, you can only kiss for half an hour at most, and you can't do anything else."

Huang Dan looked up at the man and said nothing.

Chen Yue put on a tie for Huang Dan, stepped back to look at him, his eyes were full of doting and infatuation, he couldn't help leaning closer to kiss him on the lips, "Why don't you talk anymore?"

Huang Dan said, "You don't think you've waited too long?"

Chen Yue heard what he meant, and couldn't tell whether to laugh or cry, "What are you thinking, if you weren't accidentally picked by a 444 system worker, and I happened to go to work there, and I had the opportunity to cheat, otherwise I wouldn't be waiting for 14 Years, it's a lifetime, when I get old and can't walk anymore, I won't be able to find you, and I won't be able to see you until I die."

If there is no accidental death, the obsession is not strong enough, the attention of the system staff is not attracted, the interview and assessment of the main system field workers is not allowed to participate in the interview assessment of the main system because of outstanding performance, and the yellow Dan does not like me.

Then the direction of his life is to get what he wants, and there will be no other possibility.

Chen Yue thought about it, Huang Dan could fall in love with him, probably because of the so-called right time, place and people?Apart from this, he couldn't think of any other factors.

Whether it is excellent or not, the yellow list will not care.

Huang Dan's brows tightened, "Stop talking, I don't feel well."

Chen Yue didn't speak, just looked at the yellow list, his eyes were full of tenderness and gratitude, and he said after a while, "From the moment I fell in love with you, all my sacrifices and waiting are willing, don't worry about it for me. Sad, don't blame yourself, you are the best person in the world, you just didn't like me in the past, it's nothing, emotional things can't be forced, I won't be the kind of person who is rejected by you, just look for life, run away come to hurt you."

He touched his lover's head, "One thing I hope you can understand is that because I like you, I can live a fulfilling life every day these years, and I have a goal in life. It is you who make me grow."

Huang Dan said, "Hold me."

Chen Yue opened his arms to hug him, "You can say these two words several times a day."

Huang Dan didn't make a sound.

Chen Yue pulled his face out a bit, and changed the subject, "By the way, will it be inconvenient for you to draw a picture and wear a ring?"

Huang Dan said, "I wear it on my left hand."

"..."

Chen Yue bent down and put his chin on his shoulder, sighed and said, "Honey, you have to get used to my idiots and idiots."

Huang Dan said, "I've been used to it for a long time."

Chen Yue muffled a laugh, and hugged his arm tightly.

The door next door was open, and Liu Feng stretched his neck to look at the corridor outside the door from time to time. When he saw the two people passing by, he immediately ran out and greeted as if he didn't know anything, "Good morning."

Huang Dan's eyes swept over Liu Feng who kept peeking at him, and he took another look at Chen Yue, and after making eye contact, he went downstairs first.

Liu Feng pulled Chen Yue into a corner, and swished his eyes at him, "You two didn't rest all night, did you?"

Chen Yue straightened the collar of his coat, "Why?"

Liu Feng lowered his voice, "What's the matter, did you look in the mirror before you came out? You look like an overindulgent ghost now."

Chen Yue rubbed his forehead, there was a blue color under his eyes, "I think so."

Liu Feng's face twitched, and he cursed, "I was worried all night, and I was ready to call an ambulance for you at any time and go to the hospital for first aid. When I woke up in the morning, I found that I was still holding on to my phone."

Chen Yue said, "I'm not you."

Suddenly, blue smoke rose from the top of Liu Feng's head, and he held his breath, unable to speak any nonsense.

Back then, he dated a girlfriend, and it was the first time for both of them. He was inexperienced, so he went on a rampage with a lot of strength. He hurriedly ran to get his mobile phone to call 120, and called Chen Yue who was far away abroad to borrow money. He thought he was going to be hospitalized for an operation, and even made up his mind to contact his family.

Later, every time he thought about it, Liu Feng wanted to find a place to squeeze in, but gradually he stopped thinking about it. It was a painful love experience.

Because just when Liu Feng was about to marry his girlfriend and be responsible to her to the end, he was kind enough to send him a text message to say goodbye, call him and turn off the phone directly, and meet again to attend the other party's wedding.

When I asked the reason for the breakup, the other party said that I couldn’t feel happy in bed with him. When two people are together, harmony not only needs to be harmonious off the bed, but also harmonious on the bed. Both aspects are very important and cannot be separated.

Liu Feng saw a doctor during that time, and the doctor said that he had no physical problems, but he was not relaxed enough in the process of acting, and he did not take care of the feelings of his partner.

"Fuck, did you expose your brother's scars like this? Do you want me to expose you to see if it hurts?!"

Chen Yue has just one scar, which has never healed. It hurt even if he didn't remove it before, and it won't hurt if he removes it in the future.

Liu Feng was still in shock. He woke up in the morning without shaving his beard or combing his hair, "Then what, let me tell you, Huang Dan's cry last night was really scary. I heard my scalp go numb next door. It's not that I'm smart enough, Jiang Long will definitely knock on your door, and then the old classmates on both sides will come out, and you won't have anything to play with."

Chen Yue patted him on the shoulder, "Thank you."

Liu Feng said that this should be avoided, "Young master Huang Dan is so delicate, he is still very afraid of pain, even if he breaks his skin, he will shed a small puddle of tears, and it takes a long time to recover. You are not afraid that he will not let you mess up next time." Come?"

Chen Yue pressed his temples a few times. He only did it once last night. He went to the bathroom to solve the rest. He didn't dare to do more. He did it once this morning. The speed was comparable to that of a snail. Speed ​​up.

It's not a problem for Huang Dan to be in such pain, we have to find out why his pain nerves are different from ordinary people.

In one of the mission worlds, in order to feel what Huang Dan felt, Chen Yue took the initiative to apply to modify the pain nerves. Just being scratched on the body, the data corresponding to the pain has far exceeded the level of women during childbirth. In the past, he only felt sorry for Huang Dan, but he couldn't imagine how much it hurt.

Only after experiencing it will you know how much the yellow sheet has to bear, being misunderstood, despised, regarded as an alternative, and even ridiculed. These strange eyes test a person's psychological endurance.

Huang Dan's ignorance of others after childhood is also a way of self-protection for him.

Liu Feng saw that his buddies were silent, thinking that he was worried about his future sex life. After all, he had been secretly in love for more than ten years, and the baby was going to die. "How about I get you some movies to study?"

Chen Yue said that there was no need, he and Huang Dan have been married for several lifetimes, but they have never been in the real world, so the first time will inevitably be a bit difficult, "I got along with him after a while."

Liu Feng had a face full of shit, "You fucking speak yellow accents early in the morning!"

Chen Yue walked towards the stairs, "What's the name of the ghost, I have dirty thoughts, and I'm the one to blame."

"Wait, I'm not finished yet."

Liu Feng quickly caught up with Chen Yue, tucked the sweater into the waist of his trousers, and then lifted the trousers up, hanging as much as he wanted. He opened a shop and became the boss, and it still looks the same. "Have you really decided to be together? Although he has no parents, there is... how should I put it, someone who regards him as the apple of his eye. I don't think the other party will sit idly by."

Chen Yue kept walking, "Huang Dan is a person and not an object. He has his own ideas. Whether he wants to go east or west, no one can make a decision for him."

Liu Feng narrowed his small eyes, "So what? Who would be happy if the hard-working Chinese cabbage was crushed by pigs? Just watch, he will take the initiative to find you."

Chen Yue didn't care about Liu Feng's bullshit metaphor, he snorted, "I'm just waiting for him to come to me."

Liu Feng was heartbroken. What happened between Chen Yue and Huang Dan last night made him feel a little sore for no reason. The fact that the two of them were able to get together after going around in circles was definitely due to fate. "Then are you going to bring Huang Dan home? Work in an office, the salary is very good, the car is similar to yours, he is willing to give up such a good job to go with you? Besides, there are your parents, if they know that their precious son likes a guy, and likes ten For a few years, not getting married, not going on blind date, not dating is just for each other, can they swallow this breath?"

Chen Yue said indifferently, "That's nothing to worry about."

Liu Feng glanced at his buddy, and found that although he had a sleepy face, his whole body was covered with pink bubbles, and it was different when he was in love, "It seems that I just need to congratulate you for getting your wish. "

Chen Yue said, "It's a dream come true."

Liu Feng muttered to his back, "Is there a difference? Isn't it all luck."

This kind of thing can't be encountered by others, and they won't persist for such a long time. It's too scary, and it's hard to understand. Anyway, he can't understand it.

The snow stopped at dawn, and the sun was lazily peeking out at this moment. The weather was fine. Everyone had breakfast in the shop opposite, and the tables and chairs were almost full.

Jiang Long, who was wearing a chicken nest head, had no energy. He had a nightmare. In the dream, he proposed to his girlfriend with a rose and a ring in his hand. The girlfriend refused and told him not to contact him again, wishing him happiness.

Even rejected his marriage proposal, what a bliss.

Huang Dan got the general idea from Jiang Long's mouth, "Dreams and reality are opposite."

Jiang Long took a bite of the steamed stuffed bun, "Well, it must be the other way around. When I was suffering the most, Xiaoxiao followed me and helped me through the difficulties. Now life is getting better, and it will get better and better in the future. Impossible Do not accompany me to enjoy happiness."

Huang Dan took a sip of soy milk, knowing that Jiang Long's words were trying to comfort himself, but it didn't work, and he was still depressed.

Jiang Long secretly prepared for the marriage proposal for several months. The plan was to propose to his girlfriend yesterday in front of the old classmates and the homeroom teacher, under the witness of good friends, but she did not show up.

Jiang Long's voice was vague, "Could it be that she was aware of it and didn't come because she knew I was going to propose to her. She had pre-marital depression? Or marriage phobia?"

Huang Dan said, "You're too nervous."

Jiang Long glanced at the ring on Huang Dan's hand, "If only I could be as smooth as you."

Either don't make any noise, or make a big one, suddenly put on the ring, still on the ring finger, this kind of thing happened to Huang Shan, Jiang Long was unbelievable, because he is not an impulsive and emotional person at all, and he can't beat it , There is a detailed plan for going out for a meal.

Jiang Long swallowed the food in his mouth, he thought to himself, Huang Dan must like that person very much, so much that he can even change the principled things.

The shop is full of noise, housewives are talking about their children's growth and education, bosses are showing off their wealth, and office workers are gossiping about the boss and colleagues, all of them are full of interest, as if they are saying a few more words You can drink two more bowls of porridge and gain two catties of meat.

Huang Dan's table has his same table and the back seat. Others look at the table of Chen Yue and Liu Feng, which is very eye-catching.

Although Chen Yan was pregnant, she was in good condition, she didn't have any symptoms of morning sickness, and her appetite was not affected at all, "Chen Yue, last night we asked you when you got in touch with Huang Dan, but you haven't told us yet."

Several other people also looked over, Liu Feng was purely watching a show.

Chen Yue gave Huang Dan the porridge that was not hot, "We have always been in touch."

puff--

Jiang Long squirted out soy milk, he stood up, very emotional, "We have been in touch all this time? Huang Dan, what Chen Yue said is false, right?"

Huang Dan said, "It's true."

Jiang Long curled his lips in disbelief, "I don't know at all."

The yellow sheet pulled him down.

Jiang Long sat back on the stool, he stopped talking, and asked Huang Dan out for a chat when he was free.

Liu Feng sympathized with Jiang Long, and also looked down upon him. Your buddy stood next to my buddy, and his eyes were full of care. It doesn't matter if others can't see it, but you can't see it either?Fortunately, you also have two big and round eyes.

Seeing that Chen Yan and the others were still asking questions, Huang Dan cut them off with one sentence, "I will go abroad after the next year."

This remark gave everyone a chance to guess. Chen Yue was the only one in the class who was living abroad and his career was in full swing. Using his connections, it would definitely be a lot easier to go out.

Qian Meng said that he wanted to travel abroad at the end of the year, and asked Chen Yue if he had any recommendations, and Chen Yue said he did not, "I usually don't pay attention to that aspect, why don't you ask Liu Feng, he often travels around."

Liu Feng continued, "Let's chat alone later, and I'll recommend it to you."

Qian Meng said yes, even though she was still smiling, everyone could see that her interest was not so high, and the matter would probably be let go.

Chen Yue stopped eating, he turned the lighter with his hands on his head, and the leather shoes under the table rubbed against the yellow sheet. If there were no other people around, he would have grabbed them into his arms, hugged them and kissed them.

Just as Huang Dan was about to speak, the cell phone in his pocket rang. It was Song Min.