I have a Secret

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Jiang Huai leaned against the tree, and rubbed his feet against the turf, "Motherless child, what should I do if I don't understand? Are you waiting for God to reach out? God is busy and can't take care of it."

Huang Dan knew that the man was thinking of his parents.

It's a pity that the pictures he saw only stayed when the man was six years old, and he didn't know where his parents were now, whether they were dead or alive.

Jiang Huai asked after a while, "Aren't you alright, ancestor, you've been soaking for a long time."

Huang Dan came out of the latrine, smelling all over his body, "I'm not the only one eating porridge, why are you alright?"

Jiang Huai put one hand in his pocket, "You are delicate."

Yellow list, "..."

His hand was held, and a man's voice was next to his ear, with a smile, "It's okay, brother, you must be squeamish."

Throwing the latrine away, Huang Dan said, "I didn't wash my hands."

Jiang Huai stared at him angrily, "Why did you say it? I've already ignored it."

Yellow list, "..."

Jiang Huai talked with A Yu's sister for a while, and then scattered his ashes on the land, and Huang Dan accompanied him all the way.

Falling leaves return to their roots, which is probably the reason why Ayu chose to come back here.

Ayu's father was being treated in a hospital in the city. Huang Dan and Jiang Huai went there.

Everyone has the right to choose life and death.

Ayu's father doesn't want to die, he wants to live, so he is still insisting, even knowing that his child will have a hard time because of his huge medical expenses.

A few days after that incident, Huang Dan received a letter.

It was sent by Ayu during his lifetime.

There wasn't much content in the letter, so Huang Dan read it without missing a single word.

Ayu knew that Huang Dan and Jiang Huai would go to her hometown. She said in the letter that she was sick, but she didn't say what the disease was. She only said that there was a sum of money in the card, and the password was the day when she and Yan Er met. The wall of the shared house.

Part of the money in the card is for younger brothers and sisters, and part is for father's medical expenses.

Later in the letter, Ayu said that she didn't want to get medical treatment anymore, and she wanted to be selfish for a while.

So she avenged herself before she was taken away by the illness, and after quitting her drug addiction, she went to another world to find Yan Er cleanly.

—I'm glad I'm leaving.

This is the last sentence Ayu wrote.

Huang Dan thought, when the young woman wrote this, she must be smiling.

After Jiang Huai came back, Huang Dan showed him the letter, "You can take care of things tomorrow."

"Okay, let's go tomorrow."

Jiang Huai folded the letter and put it on the table, "Ah Yu can go to Yan Er, I have a companion."

He didn't know it before, but now he knows how having a partner will change his life.

The premise is that the partner is what you want.

After autumn, the weather turns cooler, and the cold winter is getting closer and closer.

Huang Dan received a call from Lin's mother and asked him to go back, saying that it was his uncle's grandpa's birthday.

Mother Lin was chatting with someone over there, her voice was quite messy, "Son, when you come back this time, Mom will introduce you to a girl who is a top student, graduated from a key university, and is now a sales manager, and she is also pretty. "

Huang Dan heard Lin's mother's voice in one ear, and the sound of water on the balcony in the other ear. The man was cleaning his sneakers.

"I don't have time."

"Why don't you have time on weekends? Don't make excuses with Mom. Your cousin has booked tickets for you. You are in your twenties. Don't be so ignorant."

Mother Lin babbled a few words, then hung up the phone.

Huang Dan squeezed the phone, turned around and saw the man standing behind him, he heard everything, he was sure.

Jiang Huai held the shoe brush in one hand and the foam of washing powder in the other. The corners of his lips were hooked, and there was no smile in his eyes. "Graduated from a key university, sales manager, beautiful person, your family will really find you."

Huang Dan said, "Go brush your shoes first."

Jiang Huai threw the shoe brush into the pool on the balcony, "What kind of brush, come here!"

Huang Dan came closer, "Swipe later."

He touched the man's thin lips that were drawn into a straight line, "You come home with me."

Jiang Huai's breathing stagnated, "What did you say?"

Huang Dan said, "I'll ask my cousin to return the ticket. I'll buy four here, and I'll buy both of our round-trip tickets."

Jiang Huai stared at the person under his nose, "Why do you want me to go back with you? Are you afraid that your family will think too much?"

"Lin Yi, as long as we stand together, even if we don't make any gestures of intimacy, there are still some things that cannot be hidden."

Huang Dan said, "I'll tell my family when I go back this time."

Jiang Huai's brows were knotted, the breath around him was chaotic, something was wrong with him, he was afraid.

He was afraid that Huang Dan would be shaken by his parents' persuasion, and he was even more afraid that Huang Dan would choose the former between filial piety and affection.

Huang Dan said, "Don't worry, I don't want others."

Jiang Huai lowered his head and asked, "What do you mean by not wanting others?"

Huang Dan said, "As long as you want."

Jiang Huai's body shook, and he said hoarsely, "You can't lie to me."

Huang Dan looked up, "I'm not lying to you."

Jiang Huai wanted to hug the young man, but remembered that his hands were dirty, so he went to wash his hands, and when he had hugged and kissed the young man enough, he pressed down on the sofa.

The pair of white sneakers lay in the pool for about two hours before being picked up and scrubbed again.

White sneakers are troublesome to wash, they need to be covered with toilet paper, otherwise there will be a layer of yellow attached to them after drying.

Jiang Huai squatted on the ground and spread toilet paper on the shoe, "Give me another piece."

Huang Dan pulled a section and handed it over.

Jiang Huai wrapped two white sneakers into white and fat rice dumplings, "Go to book tickets first, and then go to buy clothes."

Huang Dan asked, "Want to buy clothes? You're doing fine."

Jiang Huai snorted, "I can do better."

"..."

Seeing that the man was so serious, Huang Dan couldn't say anything, so he went with him.

The two of them went shopping from one specialty store to another and bought two pairs of pants at Hai Lan's House.

Black Jianghuai wear, gray yellow single wear.

Clothes are sold on the second floor of the Textile Market. There are men, women and children. Most of them are of average quality, and the prices are even higher. Those who don’t know how to do it will be slaughtered. You can find cheap things.

Huang Dan took a fancy to a T-shirt and thought Jianghuai would wear it very well.

JAC asked how much the T-shirt cost.

The proprietress opened her mouth and said, "This one is 170."

Just as Huang Dan wanted to take the money, Jiang Huai gave him a restraining look, "Fifty."

The proprietress was dumbfounded, with a smile on her face, she was a little stiff, she had never seen such a ruthless knife, "Handsome guy, how can you bargain so much?"

Huang Dan was also in a daze, this was no longer a half-cut, he secretly looked at the man, and if he could tell the price, he was already very powerful.

Jiang Huai glanced at the T-shirt lightly, "I think this dress is only fifty, right?"

The second half of his sentence is a yellow list of questions.

Huang Dan swallowed, nodded without changing his face, "Yeah."

The proprietress still smiled, "You two handsome guys, I can't even get in at that price."

Jiang Huai hung up the T-shirt, put his hands in his pockets, and said lazily, "Forget it, let's go to another house to see."

Huang Dan went out with him.

The proprietress shouted from behind, "Handsome guy, if you buy that T-shirt sincerely, we can talk about the price again."

Huang Dan said, "Fifty shouts are too few, you can shout eighty, and she should be able to sell."

The T-shirt felt good to the touch, and the style was very stable. He planted a handful of grass in his heart and wanted to buy it.

Jiang Huai raised his lips, "Don't worry."

They hadn't reached the end when the proprietress' voice came over, "Okay, I'll leave it to you!"

The proprietress put the T-shirt in a bag, "Handsome guy, I didn't make any money here, so you should take care of me next time."

"Will do."

Jiang Huai paid for the T-shirt and left, raising his eyebrows at Huang Dan proudly.

Although Huang Dan didn't say anything, the look in his eyes was admiration and a little unbelievable.

Jiang Huai patted him on the shoulder, "Learn."

Huang Dan said, "I want to buy a belt."

Jianghuai took the yellow slip to buy, this time it was a half price.

He said that at what price and how much you cut, you divide them into items and shops. The water here is very deep.

Huang Dan has learned one thing, which is to bargain.

Seeing that the young man was still looking at him, Jiang Huai raised his eyebrows, "Why, have you been fascinated by me?"

Huang Dan said, "You know a lot."

Jiang Huai's eyes darkened, and he lowered his voice and said, "Hurry up and take your eyes back, or I will find a place to fuck you."

Huang Dan said, "I did it before going out."

Jiang Huai gritted his teeth, "So just be honest with me and don't seduce me, huh?"

Huang Dan really didn't seduce, "Go to eat after shopping, and go back after eating. If you are in good shape, you can do it."

Jiang Huai's face twitched, "Why do I feel so weird every time I hear you mention this? In your heart, what is sex?"

Huang Dan said, "It's just doing what love does."

Just as Jiang Huai was about to speak, he heard the young man say, "You like me, and I like you, so I can do it."

He thought, he likes that statement.

On the [-]th day, Huang Dan and Jiang Huai took the train back to City Y.

Lin's father and Lin's mother knew that Jianghuai was a policeman, so there was nothing to say about his good attitude, and he couldn't be polite.

The yellow sheet told them not to tell other relatives.

Lin's father and Lin's mother agreed, and the old couple also knew that it was better not to disclose it.

Huang Dan saw the girl Mother Lin mentioned on the phone, she was indeed very beautiful, but since the other party appeared, her eyes were on Jiang Huai, and she didn't take her eyes off for a while.

Anyone who is not blind can tell that the girl's favorite is Jiang Huai.

Mother Lin was not happy, "Son, you bring friends back, mom has no objection, but why do you bring back someone who is much better than yourself in everything? Isn't this making yourself unhappy?"

Huang Dan was speechless.

Father Lin paced back and forth with his hands behind his back, "Forget it, forget it, children and grandchildren have their own blessings."

Mother Lin said, "It's about giving back your grandson, you don't even have a daughter-in-law."

Lin's father choked, stared and said, "If the daughter-in-law is gone, it will be gone, as long as the son is happy."

Mother Lin said, "I don't even have a girlfriend, can I be happy?"

Huang Dan waited for the old couple to stop talking before he said, "Mom and Dad, I'm very happy now."

Coming out of the closet is mostly a matter of character.

Huang Dan's character is good, after he told about his relationship with Jiang Huai, he imagined kneeling down in pain and being beaten all over the floor looking for his teeth.

Lin's father and Lin's mother did not threaten him, telling him to break up with Jianghuai, otherwise he would not come into the house.

The old couple were dumbfounded.

Jiang Huai outside waited impatiently, the girl didn't have eyesight yet, so she came up to say hello.

"Mr. Jiang, are you also in City S?"

Jiang Huai's complexion was stern, and he put on a posture of repelling others. He just raised his head slightly and spoke lazily.

The girl is a delicate person, seeing that Jiang Huai is not interested in her, she left in time with pride and self-esteem.

The door opened, and Father Lin came out, telling Jiang Huai to leave.

Jiang Huai frowned and remained motionless, he wanted to see the young man safe and sound, "Uncle Lin..."

The yellow sheet that came out from behind interrupted Jiang Huai, "You go first."

Jiang Huai still didn't move, his eyes swept over the young man, he walked normally, which meant he didn't kneel down, and there was no palm print on his face, which meant he wasn't beaten, he let out a breath.

Huang Dan took out his mobile phone from his pocket and pointed it out to the man.

Jiang Huai's gloomy face eased after seeing the text message. He glanced at the young man, turned and left.

At night Huang Dan sneaked out to look for Jiang Huai, "My parents will figure it out."

Jiang Huai asked in a deep voice, "Why don't you let me handle it?"

Huang Dan knew about his parents from the memory of the original owner. If Jiang Huai came out, the degree of difficulty of coming out would soar from two stars to five stars.

As soon as his ears hurt, Huang Dan frowned, "I can handle it."

Jiang Huai kissed the tip of his nose and said in a low voice, "Don't go back at night."

Huang Dan pushed him, "No, that would be a failure."

Jiang Huai frowned, tidied up the young man's clothes, and said, "Honey, you just have one chance, if not, I'll come."

Huang Dan squeezed the man's hand, pinching the callus in his palm, "Trust me."

The battle of coming out lasted for half a month before it stopped.

The victor was Huang Dan, and he returned to City S with Jiang Huai.

On the day of leaving, Lin's father and Lin's mother were all cold-faced to Jiang Huai, telling Jiang Huai not to bully their son.

Jiang Huai laughed, "How dare I bully him."

There is pampering in his eyes, Lin's father and Lin's mother are all from the past, the old couple saw it clearly, there is no need to say what they have prepared all night.

On Jiang Huai's 40th birthday, he made a wish on the cake, hoping to be with Huang Dan forever.

Huang Dan asked him what he wished for.

Jiang Huai refused to admit it, "I didn't make any wishes."

Huang Dan is used to it, he always lies, and he is a duplicity person.

Less than a month after Jiang Huai's birthday, Huang Dan was kidnapped.

That day was so ordinary that when I thought about it afterwards, I was in a cold sweat. Just as Jiang Huai detained a drug dealer, the phone rang, but it was not the voice of his lover.

The phone has been hung up, but Jiang Huai is still standing there stupidly.

A brother patted him on the shoulder. He seemed to be strangled by someone, his eyes were wide open, and he had difficulty breathing.

According to the request of the other party, Jiang Huai went to a place alone.

It was on the rooftop. When he received the call, he looked down. There were several figures in his field of vision, including his lover.

Huang Dan's hands were tied, and his head was raised high. He was shaking his head, trying to tell Jiang Huai that as long as the time was not up, he would not die.

But his mouth was covered with tape, so he could only make a fuzzy murmur.

One or two minutes later, Huang Dan heard the people around him calling and told Jiang Huai to jump down, otherwise he would kill him.

At the end of the call, a gun was pointed at Huang Dan's eyebrows. He widened his eyes and saw that the sky had darkened and water was still dripping on his face.

That time his life was hanging by a thread, Jianghuai survived the catastrophe and broke a leg.

Huang Dan waited for the man to collapse emotionally, unable to stand up, but the other party accepted the reality calmly, without even the slightest depression.

Jiang Huai comforted Huang Dan in turn, "You're alive, and I'm alive too. I'm very lucky."

Huang Dan touched the man's chin, which was very painful. He went to find a razor and shaved off the man's beard. "I will take care of you in the future."

Jiang Huai laughed, "Fool."

With a missing leg, Jiang Huai retreated from the front line, and the bureau asked him to become a civilian.

However, Jiang Huai insisted on taking down his police officer's card. His attitude was firm, and it was useless to persuade anyone.

His immediate boss threw down his teacup angrily, "Have you forgotten what you said when you first joined the team? You said that you will protect every citizen until you die!"

Jiang Huai said, "I haven't forgotten."

He flicked the dust that didn't exist on his body, "At that time I was alone, with no worries, but now it's different."

There was a brief dead silence in the office, Jiang Huai said in a low voice, "The general public is protected by you people, he only has me."

After saying that, Jiang Huai didn't say any more, just walked out of the building on crutches. He didn't look back, but he knew that the brothers including Cunbantou were wiping their eyes.

A week later, Jiang Huai took Huang Dan to his hometown.

That hometown is better than Ayu's hometown, the air is not so oppressive, the mountains are good, the water is good, and the people are simple.

Jianghuai has no one on his leg, so he still does the housework, and he doesn't want Huang Dan to intervene.

Huang Dan couldn't even take care of himself, let alone others, but he was studying, he learned to cook, he learned to go to the mountains alone at night to fetch water, and struggled to find his way home.

I am learning many things, and Huang Dan studies very hard and is very serious.

One winter, when the ground was frozen, Huang Dan went to the next door to fetch a bucket of water and brought it back. He didn't pay attention to his feet, and his body fell forward.

Jiang Huai under the eaves was sitting on a chair with a book in his hand. When he saw that Huang Dan was about to fall, he subconsciously stood up from the chair. Just as his uninjured foot took a few steps, it fell heavily. fell to the ground.

Jiang Huai's teeth smashed his lips, and the taste of rust filled his mouth, but he was still lying on his stomach in a daze.

Huang Dan fell and cried at that moment. While crying, he went to pull the man on the ground up, "Why did you run out? You didn't fall, did you?"

Jiang Huai lowered his eyelids, "I'm useless."

Huang Dan frowned, "I don't like to hear that, so don't say it in the future."

He looked at the man's lips, "It's broken, go and rinse your mouth."

Jiang Huai grabbed the young man, breathing tremblingly, "I had a dream last night, I dreamed that you were gone, and you said that you had had enough of me as a cripple and never came back."

Huang Dan wiped off the blood from the corner of the man's mouth, "Dreams and reality are opposite, unless I die, I will not leave you."

Jiang Huai gasped, with a suppressed sob in his throat.

Huang Dan patted the man on the back, "I won't go anywhere except you."

Jiang Huai bent his straight back and buried his face in the young man's neck.

There was warm liquid in Huang Dan's neck, he hugged the man even tighter, the tears couldn't stop, they covered his face.

Since then, Jiang Huai has followed Huang Dan everywhere, and will never let him touch anything he can do by himself.

Huang Dan's physique is afraid of pain. Living in this place is full of hardships.

One day, Huang Dan wanted to kill a chicken to make soup, but he accidentally cut his finger.

Jiang Huai bandaged his wound helplessly, "How did you manage to cut off your fingers by killing a chicken?"

Huang Dan said, "The chicken is struggling."

Jiang Huai smiled angrily, "I pointed a kitchen knife at your neck, are you not struggling?"

Yellow list, "..."

The chicken's life ended in Jiang Huai's hands, and he also stewed the soup, adding goji berries, which tasted very fragrant.

Huang Dan and Jiang Huai finished their chicken soup happily, and lay down together to watch the sunset outside the window.

They turned sideways at the same time, facing each other, and kissed deeply and shallowly.

After kissing for a while, Huang Dan lay down on Jiang Huai's chest, put his arms around his neck and continued to kiss.

The sunset came quietly and did not leave.

A fiery red flower bloomed in the courtyard.

One year, two years... Ten years and 20 years, Huang Dan and Jiang Huai have been living there, just the two of them, and a big bear doll.

Bears are old, they are old.

Many years later, there was another grave on the mountain, and not one person was buried in it, but two people. Their hands were tightly clasped together, and they would not let go even if they died.