under the filth

After leaving the ward, Lu Sheng didn't take Tang Cen away immediately, he pushed Tang Cen to the corner of the ward door, and kissed his bitten lips brutally and directly.

Lu Sheng kissed fiercely, the tip of his tongue pressed back and forth against the wound in Tang Cen's mouth, blood continued to seep from the cracked mouth, the blood and saliva mixed together, making the rough kiss even more bloody.

The bloody smell in Tang Cen's mouth did not dissipate. After kissing for a long time, he felt sick, but when he could not help retching, Lu Sheng let him go.

The kiss exhausted Tang Cen's last strength. He leaned against the wall and gasped for a long time, and when his breathing became stable, he lowered his head and asked with a sleepy expression, "What do you want me to do to let my uncle go?"

After confirming Su Yuqing's safety, Tang Cen's heart that had been hanging all this time finally returned to the original place. His tense nerves suddenly relaxed, and the discomfort in his body became clearer and clearer.

Ruoyou's low-grade fever and pain made Tang Cen no longer want to resist, and Lu Sheng's kiss made the situation worse. After the short-term lack of oxygen, Tang Cen felt top-heavy, and felt as if he would fall away anytime he left the wall. It's possible to fall down, and I don't have the strength to say anything more to Lu Sheng.

Seeing Tang Cen's expression of not wanting to say more, Lu Sheng was not angry. He put his arms around his waist, wrapped him in his arms, and helped him walk towards the elevator.

"Now the initiative is in my hands. I will let you go when I have had enough fun. And don't forget what you said when you begged me yesterday."

Tang Cen leaned obediently on Lu Sheng's chest, quietly followed his pace and walked forward slowly, without any rebuttal to every word he said.

Lu Sheng's tone was very gentle, and the strength of the hands around his waist was just right, holding him steadily without hurting himself. If he didn't listen carefully to what Lu Sheng said, Tang Cen even had the illusion that they were still dating. .

However, Tang Cen did not forget the vicious appearance of Lu Sheng when he broke into his house that day, nor did he forget what he said when he begged Lu Sheng to let Opera Chow go.

"I promise you everything."

Those seven characters turned into a muddy path full of thorns, and at the end of the path was an endless abyss. Plants covered with thorns spread along the path to deeper and darker places, and a cage was built in the abyss.

Under the pressure of violence and murderous intent, Tang Cen's unscrupulous and easy promises gave Opera Cun the hope of surviving, but he dragged himself into a cage of thorns, completely cutting off his retreat.

"With Su Yuqing's current physical condition, let alone being discharged from the hospital, it is even difficult to walk on the ground..."

Lu Sheng was still going on, Tang Cen didn't have a good rest for three days in a row, he only hoped that Lu Sheng could end this long torture soon and give him a short rest time.

The distance from the corner to the elevator was less than ten meters, but Tang Cen felt that it was very far away.A blinding white light began to flash in his vision, and the windows of the corridor and the door frame of the elevator were shrouded in white light, becoming blurred.

The white light engulfed all the sights in Tang Cen's sight. After his vision completely turned white, the thick black quickly engulfed the white, turning everything in front of Tang Cen into darkness.

Tang Cen lost consciousness. When he woke up again, the scene in front of him was still blurry. He could only vaguely see a figure beside him, but he couldn't make out who it was.

The figure seemed to have noticed that Tang Cen had woken up. He moved up to touch Tang Cen's forehead, and asked softly, "Do you need help?"

Tang Cen could tell it was a young woman, but his vision hadn't recovered yet, Tang Cen couldn't see her face clearly, and couldn't confirm her identity.It's just that there was still some worry in the woman's voice, which made Tang Cen want to ask for help.

Although she didn't know where she was, if she asked her to call the police, she might still have a chance to escape from Lu Sheng's clutches.

However, Tang Cen moved his lips, and before he could speak, the door of the ward was suddenly opened from the outside.

"Are you awake?" Lu Sheng's voice came from the door, and Tang Cen quickly swallowed his unspoken words. He heard Lu Sheng's footsteps getting closer, and finally stopped in front of him.

Like that woman, Lu Sheng reached out and touched Tang Cen's forehead, "The fever is gone, do you feel better?"

Tang Cen did not answer Lu Sheng, but the young woman standing beside Tang Cen's bed told him a few words: "You can leave the hospital after the infusion, but you should pay attention to rest during this period, and if you feel unwell, you should go to the hospital in time." Come to the hospital."

"Okay, thank you doctor." Lu Sheng thanked the doctor, asked her a few things, and sent her out of the ward.

Tang Cen was lying on the hospital bed, silently listening to the conversation between the two.His vision hadn't fully recovered, but he could see better than when he woke up.Before Lu Sheng closed the door, he caught a glimpse of a white figure from behind.

It turned out that the person just now was a doctor, so he is probably still in the hospital where my uncle lives.Fortunately, he didn't ask for help rashly, no matter whether the doctor in this hospital was Lu Sheng's accomplice, whether his care for him was a routine greeting or he really wanted to help him, he couldn't take this risk anymore.

Tang Cen stared at the medicine bottle hanging above his head in a daze. Lu Sheng, who had sent the doctor away, walked back to the hospital bed, pulled out the chair and sat down.

Lu Sheng crossed his legs, half lying on the edge of Tang Cen's bed, and looked at his empty eyes. After watching for a while, Lu Sheng suddenly laughed, "Do you think this scene is familiar? Does it seem like you were hospitalized after a suicide attempt?" that time?"

Tang Cen's hand on the quilt trembled slightly, and the transparent plastic hose also shook.He didn't know how long he had been asleep, but now that the fever was gone, his head was finally clear.

Looking carefully at what happened in the past two years, I found that everything that happened to Lu Sheng after his derailment was surprisingly similar.The current situation is like the time when he attempted suicide, and more like the time when he cheated on Eisen in the hotel and was bedridden with a high fever before he broke up with Lu Shengti.

Going to bed with a lover and someone he doesn't love behind his back, dragging his sick body to escape from right and wrong, being comatose due to a high fever, and "living together" with someone he doesn't love...

Tang Cen's life is like an endless loop of Mobius. In order to escape from his original life, he moved to a new environment and lived with completely different people.He kept walking forward, thinking that it was a new beginning, a brand new life, but he didn't find that the surrounding scenery was still the same as before.

"Ah Cen, we are back where we started." Sitting beside Tang Cen's hospital bed, Lu Sheng smiled hypocritically at him.

Misfortune keeps repeating itself.

Tang Cen lay dully on the hospital bed, staring blankly at the ceiling.

After the fever subsided, the discomfort in the body disappeared, and so did other senses. Pain, sadness, anger... Tang Cen couldn't feel anything from the moment he woke up.Even if Lu Sheng was sitting next to him, playing with the infusion tube and the needle moving under the skin, he would turn a blind eye to it.

But Lu Sheng always had a way to convince Tang Cen, he took out his cell phone from his jacket pocket, and threw it on Tang Cen casually, "I changed a new phone card for you, and saved Aisen's phone number in it by the way." How about it? Give your boyfriend a call?"

Tang Cen slowly raised his head and looked at Lu Sheng. He didn't understand why Lu Sheng made such a request. A scene of him breaking up with Lu Sheng on the phone in a London street telephone booth suddenly flashed through his mind.

"What do you mean?" Tang Cen sat up propped up, and rolled his phone to his hand. He asked Lu Sheng with a sullen face, but he didn't realize that there was a little more panic in his voice.

Lu Sheng turned the roller on the regulator to increase the infusion speed to the maximum, "The doctor told me just now that Su Yuqing's kidney is failing and needs to be replaced. If you don't change it, you can live for half a year at most, but a kidney with the right type...is not good. try to find."

Tang Cen closed his eyes, and slowly picked up the mobile phone that was at hand.This time Tang Cen didn't hesitate any longer, unlocked the screen, found the number in the address book and pressed it.

Like every time before, Tang Cen was picked up not long after he dialed out, and a voice with electric noise came from the receiver: "Hello? How are you?"

Hearing Aisen's voice, Tang Cen suddenly felt sour in his throat. He took a few deep breaths of air-conditioning until his throat was no longer sore from the cold, then he bit his lower lip and said in a low voice: "...Yes I."

Before Tang Cen spoke, Eisen on the other end of the phone had been waiting quietly, but when he heard Tang Cen's voice, he suddenly became anxious, "Tang Cen! I'm back now, where are you?"

Eisen is back?Did he understand the code he left?But why is he!Why not one day earlier!

At this moment, countless voices suddenly appeared in Tang Cen's heart, weeping, roaring, and the noisy voices exploded in his brain.On the one hand, he was glad that Eisen had returned to Paris, and that he might still survive in Opera Cerbera, but on the other hand, he couldn't help complaining that if Eisen came back at a later point, he might be able to stop Lu Sheng.

However, no matter how many things he wanted to say to Eisen in his heart, Tang Cen couldn't say them out. He just said lightly: "I'm back in China. My uncle... is sick. I'll come back to see him."

Eisen asked anxiously, "Is it serious? Do you want me to go find you?"

"No need, I just wanted to talk to you when I called you." Tang Cen paused for a while, then said in a trembling voice, "I'm sorry... I can't be with you anymore... You don't want to Come find me again..."

A lie must be fulfilled by another lie, so it is better to be more straightforward and cut off all the evil karma.It's going to hurt, but he'll be free after it's over.

Tears rolled down the corners of Tang Cen's eyes and hit the back of his hand where the needle was pricked. He bit his lower lip tightly and swallowed his sobs, before apologizing to Eisen in a barely steady voice: "I'm sorry."

"Tang——" Eisen only shouted a single tone, and Tang Cen hung up the phone, and their relationship of more than a year ended.

After hanging up the phone, Tang Cen sat on the bed in a daze. Lu Sheng folded his arms and said sarcastically, "You are so ruthless in such a hurry to get rid of the relationship."

After Lu Sheng finished speaking, he turned and left the ward. Before leaving, he did not forget to collect Tang Cen's cell phone.

It wasn't until the door of the ward was closed again that Tang Cen regained his senses.He lay on the bed and cried loudly, with his hands hugging his shoulders, and the nails of ten fingers poked into the skin on his shoulders and arms due to excessive force.

In the first autumn of breaking up with Lu Sheng, Tang Cen met Eisen and Opera Cen, and in the second autumn he lost them one after another.

"I go with Lu Sheng only in the hope that he won't hurt others, even if the price is myself. I don't want to see anyone hurt because of me."

Five years later, in the ward of the nursing home, Tang Cen's arms and shoulders were still covered with bloodstains from fingernails, blood was oozing from the deep and shallow wounds, and there were streaks of blood spots on the hospital gown.

The future Eisen painted for him was so beautiful that Tang Cen forgot what kind of life he had lived.But no matter how beautiful the dream is, there will be a day when he wakes up. The moment Tang Cen saw Lu Sheng standing in front of him, he knew that his life was completely over.

The memories of living together came to an abrupt end that autumn, and there was no follow-up, and all the barely good memories of the first love were erased by Lu Sheng himself at that time.

With the turbid blood and body fluids, there are still three fresh lives.

"I can't save Uncle, I can't save Opera, I can't save anyone... I really... have no other way..."

Tang Cen's crying voice even changed its tone at the end. He Xiu saw his lips opening and closing, but couldn't hear what he said.He tried to appease Tang Cen, and tried to pull away the hand that was tightly clutching his arm, but Tang Cen was too strong, breaking it apart forcibly would only hurt him.

He Xiu tried for more than ten minutes but failed to calm Tang Cen. In the end, he had no choice but to find a doctor in the nursing home to give Tang Cen a sedative.

The tranquilizer took effect very quickly, and Tang Cen calmed down not long after. He Xiu helped him to lie down and covered him with the quilt. The drowsy Tang Cen suddenly stretched out his hand from under the quilt and pulled his quilt. sleeves.

"I miss him so much..." Tang Cen's voice was hoarse, and there was still a cry that didn't subside. He Xiu stroked his forehead and said softly, "He misses you very much, too."