years and years

I got out of the car and walked slowly home, walked downstairs to Shuci and looked up at the third floor, wondering what I was looking forward to.The expectation in my heart was still defeated when I saw that the window was black.

Go upstairs and open the door, everything is dark, You Yezhi's room is also dark, no one comes home at all, only himself.

Shuci stood at the door for a while, no appetite to eat, the first thing he did was to turn on the air conditioner, after the hotness in his heart faded, he took his clothes to take a shower.

The nightgown that he wore that night had already been thrown away by Shuci, because as soon as he saw it, he remembered that he and You Yezhi had a bad fight.

I closed my eyes and turned on cold water, sprinkled it from my head and drenched my whole body. It wasn't cold, and I couldn't feel the cold numbly.

A towel was placed around the neck, and the hair was not blown to drip water.Shuci sat at the desk and looked at the phone for a while, and the chat box with You Yezhi was on the top, and the two of them had a tacit understanding and did not send messages these days.

Putting down the phone to look for a book to read, but the book went to nowhere, he put it in this place in the morning——

Shu Ci's hand was hanging in the air, and suddenly found that something was wrong.

The books were stacked one by one, the clothes on the chair were gone, and he got up in the morning without a quilt, and now the quilts are all flat.

You Yezhi helped him tidy up.

Shuci's heart softened, and he took out his mobile phone to send a message to You Yezhi, asking: When will you go home?

He stared at the phone, and the next second it was sent, he vaguely heard a conversation coming from outside.The voice sounded so familiar, Shu Ci stood up and stretched his head to look down, and saw two figures.

You Yezhi and He Jianqi, He Jianqi were sitting in the car, You Yezhi had already got out of the car, and was talking back to He Jianqi.

Shuci clenched the phone in his hand, and hastily withdrew the message.

The voice was so low that I couldn't hear what the two of them were talking about. Not long after, I heard the car drive away. Counting the time in my mind, I heard the sound of the door opening.

He originally wanted to muster up the courage to take the initiative to find You Yezhi, but now he is afraid.

He didn't know what You Yezhi was up to lately, did he eat when he came back so late at night, who did he eat with, He Jianqi?

You Yezhi went to the company to meet an old client in the afternoon, and was invited by He Jianqi to have dinner with him in the evening.A message was displayed on the phone screen that Shuci had withdrawn. You Yezhi looked at Shuci's closed door, paused slightly, and went straight back into the room.

Hearing the last movement, Shuci felt a dull pain in his stomach, and rushed directly to the big bed that was blown cold by the cold wind.

The room was pitch black, and Shuci didn't fall asleep until after two o'clock in the evening. He had something on his mind, and he closed his eyes and thought about it. His mind was even more chaotic, and he couldn't sleep at all.

Shu Ci scratched his hair irritably, got up and walked to You Yezhi's room barefoot.

Are you asleep?It's all dark.

The sound of cicadas chirping outside could not be heard, and Shu Ci slowly sat on the ground leaning against the wall, with his body half sideways, sitting in a posture of snuggling in front of his room door.Shuci didn't speak, listening to his own heartbeat, he couldn't hear anything else.

Go to bed.

"Ye Zhi, you are sleeping now, do you dream of me?" Shuci looked at the branches illuminated by street lamps outside the window, and whispered in the night, "Obviously we live together, and obviously you will come back, but why? , why can't I see it?"

No one answered him, and when his voice stopped, he couldn't hear anything.

Shuci's voice was hoarse: "...I miss you so much, do you miss me?"

"I'm reflecting on myself. I don't know if I like you too much, so I imposed some of my own ideas on you, or controlled you too much, causing you to say that I am strong and immature."

"...I was really thinking about it, but I couldn't think of it."

Shuci lowered his head and buried his face in his arms: "I miss you so much."

I don't know how long it has passed, and You Yezhi doesn't know whether Shuci has left or not, but he really can't hear any sound, and he doesn't even dare to use his own breathing.

The moonlight outside silently poured into the room, illuminating half of the bed.You Yezhi sat by the bed, staring at a certain place with a blank expression on his face.

The phrase "I miss you so much" seems to still be lingering in my ears, with the depressing and painful voice of the book.

You Yezhi didn't move, his heart was in a panic, the tip of his nose felt sour, and his throat seemed to be blocked by a hard lump.Finally, he reached out and put his face into the palm of his hand, the moonlight shone in, and the ring on his finger emitted an inconspicuous light.

After watching for a while, You Yezhi stretched out his hand and slowly took it off.

"You are not allowed to pick it at any time", this sentence has been repeated many times, just like the sentence "I will take you home to meet my grandpa during the holiday".

You Yezhi clenched his teeth to hold back his emotions.

I'm sorry Shuci, I can't do what I promised you.

In the somewhat blurred vision, You Yezhi looked at the ring between his fingers, he turned slightly, and seemed to see a few letters under the faint moonlight.His heart froze, he stretched out his hand to touch it randomly, and with a "pop", the sound was so small that he could hardly hear it, and he turned on the night light.

The line of small English letters finally appeared in front of his eyes——

You are the best of my life.

You are the most in my life.

Something broke in my heart, I heard the sound clearly, it was deafening.You Yezhi let out a gasp that had been suppressed for a long time, and the suppressed emotions collapsed instantly when he saw this sentence.He covered his eyes, and gradually, uncontrollably, hot tears soaked his fingers and slid into his palm.

Shuci woke up at six o'clock the next day, and was surprised to find that there was no one in You Yezhi's room.

He walked in to see that the air conditioner in the room was still on, the night light was still on, the bed was a bit messy, but everything else was clean.

You Yezhi got on the bus at [-] o'clock and went to Baishan Village. It was almost [-] o'clock when he got there. The air was fresh and windy in the morning, and some children came out to play, accompanied by a dog wagging its tail.

The door of Grandma's house was wide open. Sister Mi had just cleaned up the housework when she heard the voice and looked up and saw You Yezhi. Before she could speak in surprise, You Yezhi changed his usual calmness and hurried into the next room.

"...Grandma."

Granny knelt on the mat with a string of Buddhist beads in her hand, opened her eyes when she heard the voice and turned her head, and saw You Yezhi's anxious face.

You Yezhi stepped forward and grabbed her hand, his eyes were bloodshot, his voice was hoarse and hoarse, he looked up at her, and begged slightly: "I want to live, grandma... I want to live."

He lowered his head and said with a trembling voice, "I don't want to die, I want to live."

I don't want to leave, I don't want to die, I want to be by Shuci's side, always together.

Grandma sighed heavily, put her hand on Ye Zhi's hand, and put the string of Buddhist beads in his palm.After turning around for a while, the scenes appeared in front of his eyes. From Sui Sui's birth to remembering later, he knew that he had a sick younger brother every year, because his friends all disliked him.

Since then, he has been bullying Suisui gradually, thinking in his heart when you will get better.

Sui Sui always likes to run behind his ass, and when he is tired and out of breath, he will stop and call his brother, and Nian Nian will play tricks on him by hitting his head with stones, covering his head with a stab, and hitting him with a wooden stick.

Later, when he grew up a few years later, Sui Sui didn't give him a birthday gift every time he celebrates his birthday. Every time Sui Sui came to his room after dinner, he just wanted to hear him say happy birthday.

Years passed like this, and Sui Sui's illness didn't get better, until one day, Sui Sui went to his parents' room and overheard their conversation.

"People from the Ruan family said that this curse can be solved, but the solution...the solution..."

"I don't believe that two children can only live as one, I don't believe it!"

"But Sui Sui's illness can't be cured—! This mantra will follow them every life, who knows if it's true or not, what should I do for Sui Sui's illness?"

"Don't think about it, let's go to the doctor again, there will always be a solution."

The woman's face was full of tears, she was in great pain, but she couldn't speak.No one noticed the small figure of Nian Nian standing outside the door.

Only one of the two children can live. If Nian Nian dies, then Sui Sui will survive. This is what the Ruan family sent to inform them.

How ridiculous.

After that, Niannian didn't bully Suisui like before, and although he didn't look good, the unobvious concern increased again and again.

But the illness would not get better with his care, and his health became worse and worse every year as an adult, and finally broke out completely when he was 21 years old and 23 years old.

Every time when Sui Sui vomits blood and the room is full of servants and doctors, Nian Nian chooses to escape, because he dare not go to see Sui Sui's appearance of falling ill again and again, he is afraid of Sui Sui If he can't wake up, he will leave him at any time.

As soon as the screen changed, the family was in distress and lifeless.Grandma pushed open the door and saw the knife stabbed into her chest, and Nian Nian, who was out of breath, and Nian Nian, who later ran like crazy and froze in place.

Later, my grandma couldn't bear the blow and died a few days later, and then I couldn't see anything.

All the things were connected, and the scenes were recorded in his heart. You Yezhi opened his eyes, and his eyes were foggy.

Grandma pondered for a while, then lowered her head and asked him, "Where is that jade?"

You Yezhi slowed down and said, "I'm resigning from the book." After he finished speaking, he opened his mouth again and asked, "So you don't know, do you?"

Grandma said: "Use that jade to see what happened later. I don't know if you can save Sui Sui with your life at that time, and I'm not sure if the blood curse will exist in this life. But you My heart hurts every day from the beginning, which really proves the existence of this thing. Grandma is useless, and I don’t know if you can cross the 24-year-old threshold now.”

You Yezhi's hands drooped heavily, and Grandma called him earnestly, saying I'm sorry, grandma couldn't protect you well in previous lives, including now.

I didn't eat yesterday and took a shower with cold water. My stomach has been uncomfortable since the morning.The slight pain at the beginning turned into a prickly pain in the afternoon, and the book was forced to hold back, just wanting to finish the last exam and go home.

His stomach hurts so much that he could hardly sit still, Shu Ci frowned and finished writing the questions, everyone looked relaxed after the last test, but he only wanted to find You Yezhi.

Cheng Cheng shouted at him: "Why are you walking so fast?"

Shu Ci clutched his stomach and did not return: "Go home."

He looked really strange. Cheng Cheng caught him and knew what was going on at a glance: "Don't rush home if your stomach hurts like this. Go to my dormitory and lie down for a while and get you a glass of water."

Shu Ci was originally unwilling, but his stomach ached and he couldn't even walk, so he had no choice but to agree.Lying on the bed with restless heart, he took the hot water handed by Cheng and called You Yezhi.

No one answered the first time, but Shuci continued to call without giving up.

It took a long time to get through the second ring, Shuci tightened his hand holding the cup, he couldn't hear any quiet voices over there, but he knew that You Yezhi was listening.

Shuci asked, "Where are you?"

You Yezhi's deep voice sounded: "Home."

"I've finished the exam." Shuci closed his eyes, "Let's meet up."

"it is good."

"Then you wait for me at home."

You Yezhi was silent for a while, then said, "Okay."

After hanging up the phone, Shuci couldn't wait for a moment. He drank the tea in the cup and was about to leave. Cheng Cheng hurriedly called him: "Wait for me! I'm going out to eat!"

Shuci strode forward, and Cheng Cheng had to quicken his pace: "Is the stomachache better?"

Still a little sore, but completely negligible.Shuci said: "It's almost done."

What does it mean, good or bad, Cheng Cheng said helplessly: "It's not too late to go home, if you have a stomachache, just lie down a little longer, so anxious."

Shuci said: "I can't wait for a second."

Is it not enough to wait for a few days and think about it for a few days?Shuci turned a corner and was about to pass by the abandoned factory building to take a shortcut, and said to Cheng Cheng, "Let's go."

"Okay, let's take care of it when we go back."

This road is too broken, next to it is a garbage dump, surrounded by abandoned factories and buildings.Almost no one came here, and his so-called shortcut also required climbing over the wall to pass.

Shuci pinched his still aching stomach, seeing the wall in front of his eyes, and the sound of footsteps on broken floor tiles seemed to be heard behind him.

Getting closer, Shuci turned his head slightly, turned around and saw a figure running towards him, he bent down to avoid the blow, and stood still to see the person in front of him clearly.

The two people who pretended to be waiting at the door that time, and the three people who followed him into the car and wore hats.But it was far more than that, there was at least one person in front of him, and there was another person walking towards him with an iron rod not far away.

Shuci instantly recognized who it was.