years and years

Shuci had a dream.

There was a hazy scene in the dream, and he could only see a large yard around him. At this moment, he was running in the yard, panting in panic, and wanted to stop when he was tired, but a voice in front of him kept looking back at him, He was still shouting: "Sui Sui! Come on, if you can catch up with me, I'll give it back to you!"

"Brother, brother..."

He heard someone calling brother, but who was calling?Is it himself?

"Brother, Sui Sui is so tired, I can't run anymore..." He stopped and stood there gasping for breath, his chest feeling uncomfortably tight.

The figure in the distance stopped and saw that he was unwell and walking towards him. It was a boy about eighteen or nineteen years old. He was clean and noble, but his face was a little pale. Looking down at him from above: "It's really useless, I'm in such poor health and I still want to play shuttlecock, give it back to you, let's play!"

With a "snap", the shuttlecock was thrown at his feet, and the boy passed him and left without looking back.

He turned around in a panic, and regardless of whether his body recovered, he picked up the shuttlecock and was about to catch up. Just as he called out "brother", his head became dizzy and he passed out directly.

At the same time, Shuci woke up.

Waking up inexplicably, he seemed to just close his eyes and open them calmly, but the dream just now was so real, just like what he had experienced before.At that time in the dream—Shu Ci frowned and thought about it, it was the period of the Republic of China.

But he couldn't remember what the face in the dream looked like.

Probably because he thinks about it every day and dreams at night, his dreams have always been wonderful.Shuci stayed for a while, then turned his head to look at the window, the curtains were tightly covered, and he could vaguely see the faint light coming from outside. He took out his mobile phone and checked the time, it was 5:31 in the morning.

No wonder, it turned out that the sky was already bright.

It's still early, and I can sleep again.Shuci closed his eyes, turned over again, and prepared to fall asleep again with the quilt in his hands.The surroundings were silent, except for the occasional horns of vehicles outside, and then calm again.

So he could clearly hear the door opening from outside.

You Yezhi is back?Why did he go?No... This sound is clearly the door of the next room opened.

When he thought about it like this, he lost sleepiness in an instant, rubbed his face and stood up.

The door to the side room was open, and the lights were bright, illuminating half of the living room.Shuci hooked his head to look, there was no one in the room, and the light in the bathroom was off.

Shuci didn't see the man's face clearly, but there was only You Yezhi besides him.

You Yezhi came out to go to the bathroom, but he never expected to see a black figure when he came out, he was stunned for a moment and saw who it was, and said slowly: "Come out to see me if you don't sleep?"

"Cut." Shuci snorted and yawned: "I woke up and heard the movement outside, so I came out to check. What if it's a thief, how dangerous are you alone."

You Yezhi was wearing pajamas, his hair was a bit messy sleeping, and his face was expressionless at the moment.Shu Ci thought to yourself that you still have a cold face when you come out to go to the bathroom in the middle of the night, why bother.

"...to worry about nothing."

It's a bit of worrying, but Shuci won't admit it, saying: "I'm worried about you."

You Yezhi didn't look at him any more, he just closed the door to reveal a gap, and with a "bang", the door was closed directly.

Shu Ci stood outside the door, speechless for a moment in the darkness, stretching out his fist as if to smash the door.The urge to urinate hit me, and I went to the toilet again.

After such a toss, Shuci couldn't open his eyes even if he closed them, and it was extremely difficult to wake up in the morning.The alarm clock rang five or six times, the sound was so loud that You Yezhi heard it from outside the door.

Shuci almost dropped his phone, it was all because of that dream, which made him sleep badly.

He walked out of the room with his eyes closed, and there was a clear sound of pots and spatulas colliding in his ears, and the smell of rice came, but today's dictionaries had no appetite.

He slightly opened his eyes and looked towards the kitchen, and he saw You Yezhi.He casually said hello to leave, and said as he walked, "The biological clock is too regular, just like my grandfather, why don't I like to sleep late in the morning."

There were only two people in the room, so quietly it was impossible not to hear.When You Yezhi heard the sentence "Like my grandfather", he raised his head and glanced at his back, emphasizing: "I can hear you."

"I just told you." Shuci turned to look at him: "Old people work and rest."

You Yezhi didn't speak, to be precise, he was too lazy to talk to him.

Shu resigned to take a shower, combed his hair, went back to the room and changed his clothes, and glanced at the time before it was too late.You Yezhi had already cooked the rice, put the fried rice in a bowl, and looked up at him: "Do you want some food?"

Shuci just wanted to refuse, but he rubbed his belly again... Strange, I wasn't hungry just now!

The two of them haven't talked for many days since the last time they had a bad fight. To be precise, the diction has a backbone and they ignored him.You Yezhi didn't care at all, every time Shu Ci got angry, he didn't make a fuss, this was the first time he felt what it meant to take himself too seriously.

He was eating, secretly glanced at You Yezhi, and asked, "Do you have any brothers or sisters?"

You Yezhi looked up at him, thought for a while, and said, "No."

Shuci snorted, and leaned closer to him: "I saw you always buy bread before, and thought you bought it for your younger siblings or something. Do you still want it? Or eat it yourself, and I'll give you some."

You Yezhi raised his eyes to meet his gaze, and there was a strange look in his eyes, and he said slowly: "No, I don't like to eat these. The last time I bought it was for someone else."

"Oh, okay."

You Yezhi keeps a good distance from people, neither far nor close, you say he is indifferent, but he will definitely respond when you approach him, you say he is not indifferent, but he really won't let people get any closer.

Shuci has nothing to do with such a person, he has no temper, but he is worthless, and he likes to eat food cooked by others.

That's all, cannibalism is short-handed and soft-handed.

I don't know what came to mind, Shuci's eyes lit up, he calculated in his heart, and said seriously: "These pots and pans are all mine, and they are for you to use."

You Yezhi glanced at him, knowing that it was not that simple, and waited quietly for him to finish.

"...I will buy things when they are gone. I can also buy some meat and so on." Shuci coughed a few times, not embarrassed to look at him, and lowered his head to take a bite of his rice: "Just bring my share when cooking."

If you refuse again, you will really lose your face, You Yezhi chuckled for the first time, lowered his head and didn't look at him, and replied: "It's okay."

"Then you agreed?" Shuci stared at him for a long time when he saw that he smiled.Thinking of his tone of clearing the line that day, he said leisurely again: "Don't dislike me."

You Yezhi didn't speak after listening, and fell ill again after Shuci finished his meal. He lowered his head and said in a low voice: "That girl felt very sorry for dirtying your clothes in the store that day. You felt guilty for a long time after you left, and you were detained. Qian, are you not angry?"

You Yezhi was drinking soup with a spoon, shook his head and looked at him, and said after a few seconds, "I didn't take it to heart."

"Then you don't hate me, right?" You Yezhi still remembered clearly what he said that morning, and he added: "Actually, I'm a pretty good person, as long as I don't know how to cook."

You Yezhi didn't speak.After the beginning, only his father knew about him, and almost no one saw him unable to stand up in pain.So when You Yezhi moved in to share the rent with others, he, who was used to being alone, would feel particularly awkward.

He has no friends, doesn't know how to get along, and doesn't want to get along, so he mistakenly becomes the "dislike" that Shuci thinks.

You Yezhi thought, it's not that I hate you, it's just that I don't know how to face you yet.

Shuci put away his frustration, didn't go home directly after work, and found Fat Hu to regain his confidence.

Fat Tiger admires him starry-eyed, and his diction is also very good to him.After work, he took him to eat pizza. Fat Tiger was so good at eating that there was only one piece of the whole pizza left. Shuci looked at him with a smile: "Is my brother treating you well?"

"it is good!"

"Then do you like brother?"

Fat Tiger took a sip of orange juice, nodded, and said affirmatively, "I like it! Brother Shuci is the best!"

Quite satisfied with the calligraphy, thinking of You Yezhi's cool, attractive and repulsive appearance, he muttered something heartless.

Time flies, the holiday is over, Shuci greeted the store manager, and said that when there is no class, he will come directly to check in. Every day counts as a day, and half a day counts as half a day.

Xia Qingqing pretended to cry for a long time without shedding a tear, and Shuci couldn't take it anymore: "Crying for funerals! What if I die? Are you still crying so fake?"

"If you're fine, come here often."

Shuci glanced at her, how could he not know her thoughts, he had to know You Yezhi's movements from him every day, how could he be reluctant to bear him, obviously he was reluctant that she could not inquire about You Yezhi immediately .

I didn't ride a bike today, and Shuci was at the door for a while with my phone, the sun was so bright that I couldn't keep my eyes open.He was wearing light blue short sleeves, white trousers with a space letter theme on his lower body, and a pair of pure white sneakers on his feet. When he went out, he grabbed his hair and made a random hairstyle. He was so handsome.

Cheng Cheng has already returned from home, contacted him, and said that he would come out for dinner at night, and the book agreed.

Waiting for the traffic light on the road, the sun was so poisonous and hot, Shuci narrowed his eyes slightly.There are always girls around him secretly watching him, the traffic policeman stands in the middle and blows his whistle, there are more than 40 seconds to go before the red light, the books are boring, and the eyes are squinting.

A few boys stood on the opposite side of the road looking in his direction, head to head, not knowing what they were talking about.The leading boy has tattoos on his body, which are very conspicuous.

Shu Ci recognized who these people were at a glance, and looked around again. The red light had passed, and the green light was on. He turned around and walked away before crossing the road. Come quickly.

Shu Ci understood what was going on, this group of people came clearly prepared, there were seven or eight opponents, and he alone would definitely not be able to beat him, so let's run first and then talk.

Shuji sneered, cursed a fool, and went upstairs a few steps, ready to go back to take a shower, change clothes and go to school.He just opened the door and before he had time to change his shoes, he looked up and saw a figure just coming out of the bathroom.

You Yezhi was dressed casually, with slippers on his feet.His face was pale, if he hadn't been in such a good figure, Shuci would really have thought he was malnourished.

"You are at home?"

You Yezhi hummed.

Shuci didn't ask any more questions, went back to the house to get the clothes, passed You Yezhi's room and looked around, saw an easel, and asked suspiciously: "What are you painting?"

You Yezhi raised his head and glanced at him. On the paper was his draft, and he could only guess that it was a dress.

"You do design, clothing design?"

You Yezhi took a sip of water and nodded: "Yeah."

"Amazing." After reading Shuci for a long time, he turned to look at him and said with a smile, "Is there a chance you can design one for me in the future? I had the idea of ​​buying a suit before, but I never looked carefully."

Seeing his playful smile, You Yezhi didn't take his words seriously.Glancing at the pajamas and underwear in his hand, he asked, "Aren't you going to take a shower?"

"What's the hurry, it's still early."

After he finished speaking, he sat down on You Yezhi's bed, threw the clothes in his hands, and touched the drawing paper: "I'm serious, I went to the men's clothing store to see suits before, but I was in a hurry to see them that time." Gone in a few seconds."

You Yezhi folded his hands on the back of his head and looked at him for a while: "Okay."

"Really?" Shuci smiled happily, and patted his chest: "What you say is what you say, wait for me to think about it, and I will tell you when I think about it."

After a while, Shuci calmed down, turned to look for his clothes, and didn't know where to throw his underwear.You Yezhi sat on the chair and looked down to see a pair of underwear dropped by the bed.

He bent down to pick it up, and threw it towards Shuci with a slight force of his arm.

Satisfied, Shuci went to the bathroom to take a shower.

When he left, he closed the door of You Yezhi's room, there was no noisy voice, and the surroundings became calm for a moment, just like those years, he was too familiar with it.

When he got home and had dinner, he locked himself in the room, and his father ignored him, hoping that he would not go out.I am also used to not opening the curtains every day, so I can only draw pictures in the room, but I can't draw anything without inspiration.

18 years old was originally a beautiful age full of longing for the future, but You Yezhi's 18 years old has simply entered a psychedelic world.

Since then, he has been dreaming. The home in his dream is a big house, including him, his parents, and his family.There is also a younger brother named Sui Sui, who always likes to run behind him.

Everyone in the dream didn't know what they looked like. You Yezhi thought of the past and present lives that grandma said, and found it absurd. He didn't know if it was true.In fact, he didn't want to believe it in his heart, but grandma treated him very well, so there was no reason to lie to him.

No one would understand his mood when he heard those things, and neither would his father.No one will know how painful it is at that moment at nine o'clock every night, it hurts almost to death.

Everyone thought he was lonely and weird, and he never took the initiative to approach anyone.

His physical condition, including what happened in his previous life, if it is true——

Then, if you can't waste your energy, don't waste your energy, and if you can't stay, don't stay.