years and years

Although I was annoyed by their twittering every day during the hospitalization, it was only when I was quiet that I realized the benefits of being noisy.

Every night in the hospital, Bai Xingxing always pulled him to talk, babbling and chatting, and he didn't even have time to be dazed, and he was forced to play poker for three or four nights.

But now that life has returned to normal, he sits alone at night with nothing to do, and all he thinks about is You Yezhi.

Shuci thought that when he came back from the last Chinese New Year, he was lying here to send messages to You Yezhi, holding his mobile phone and smiling like a fool.

He would stare at the six words "the other party is typing" until You Yezhi sent a message and he replied in seconds.Sometimes his words are too blunt and You Yezhi is too embarrassed to answer, and it's him who changes the topic to find a way for him.

Taking the mobile phone to the living room of the North House, under the tree in the yard, Shu Ci still remembered that he took a picture of the little bud and sent it to You Yezhi.

I don't know if the little bud is still there.

Turn on the phone and find Zhiding, the editor of Shuci said, I miss you so much.

Not a day goes by without thinking.

Breathless as if his chest was stuffed with cotton, Shuci sat up and lit a cigarette. After smoking, he went to the yard under the tree, and pulled the little sprout with the flashlight on.

But there are more than one, he can't tell which one he sent to You Yezhi at the beginning, so he just ignores it, just treat it as if you are growing up.

The sound of cicadas is endless, and the summer night is windless and muggy.Shuci looked up at the starry sky and thought it was so beautiful.

In the past, whenever he encountered good weather or a night sky full of stars, he would take You Yezhi to watch it together.Sometimes when You Yezhi is not around, he will take a picture and send it to him, so that he can watch it with him in another way.

Shuci looked up for a moment, buried his face in his palms, and sighed heavily.

Suffering from insomnia, he didn't want to go back to his room, but mosquitoes always bit him in summer, Shuci couldn't take it anymore and finally went back to the air-conditioned room.People here rest early, unlike City A, where everything is still bustling at this time.

It's like the two of them didn't sleep in the middle of the night, Shuci would drag You Yezhi to eat noodles, and then go home after eating the noodles for a walk.

Every time he suffers from insomnia, You Yezhi will say that I will accompany you.But after he couldn't say a few words, he closed his eyes and became sleepy. Shuci looked at him, smiled, and said good night softly.

Shuci slapped his face violently to try to wake himself up.

Why can you think of You Yezhi when you do anything?Stop thinking about it and count sheep.

a sheep...

Shuci was watching TV at home that day, and suddenly remembered that Bai Xingxing said that Pleasant Goat and Big Big Wolf were banned.He didn't believe it, so he took the remote control to look for it, but all kinds of series came out, and they weren't banned at all.

So he clicked on the cartoon full of his childhood memories.

four sheep...

——How old are you still watching this?

You Yezhi said.

Shuci finally collapsed, panted heavily, and covered his head with the quilt.

Sleeping late and waking up early, Shuci thought in a daze that he was at home, and poked his hand to the side, until he found the cold wall.He opened his eyes and realized that he had come back yesterday.

Knowing that he likes to sleep late, Mr. Mu didn't call him, so Shuci went out to use the toilet. When he came back, he met Mr. Mu who came into the house after shopping for groceries. He stared at him a few times and said, "What time did you sleep last night? Red do you know?"

"I don't know." He only knew that he opened his sour and astringent eyes naturally, and gradually he couldn't fall asleep.

The four words listless can't describe the current diction, and Mu Lao felt distressed, and said, "Go and sleep for a while, and get up at noon to have lunch."

Shuci lay on the bed tossing and turning, closing and opening his eyes, tossing and turning for an hour before falling asleep again.

In the evening, two figures came running outside the door, one of them was running and hitting the ball, and when he reached the door, he shouted, "Grandpa Mu!"

Shu Ci looked up while holding the phone, and heard Mu Lao answer: "Hey!"

Opening the window a little, Shuci could see who it was.Mu Laoying went out and let the two of them into the house, saying: "Shu Ci is in the house, go find him."

The door opened as soon as it was unlocked, Shu Ci looked at Zi Luo and Jiang Yu, and said with a smile, "Long time no see."

The weather in the evening was not as hot as in the afternoon, and the two of them had just come out of the air-conditioned room, Zi Luo said, "Why are you back so late?"

"It's a bit of a delay." After speaking, he looked up at Jiang Yu. The boy he bullied had grown up, "You've grown up pretty fast. You haven't caught up with Ziluo last year. This year, you're almost as tall as Ziluo. gone."

Jiang Yu and Zi Luo are the same age, and they are very similar in stature, so many people mistakenly think that they are brothers.With the ball under his arm, Jiang Yu said unconvinced: "I will grow again, sooner or later I will be taller than Luoluo."

Zi Luo laughed: "Go, go out and play."

No mood, no mood to do anything.Shuci hesitated to refuse, so Elder Mu pushed the door open and came in: "Go and play with Luoluoyuyu, or you will be depressed if you don't go out."

Unable to write, he was kicked out of the house by Mr. Mu himself.

There are trees on both sides of a road, and the cicadas keep singing.Jiang Yu patted the ball and ran in front of them. Zi Luo was really depressed after reading the book, and asked, "What's the matter with you, you seem to be in a bad mood this time?"

"No."

Zi Luo said: "Don't be too obvious."

The breeze blew, and the book said: "It's nothing."

Seeing that he didn't want to talk about Zi Luo and didn't ask any more questions, the few of them played golf against the setting sun. As the sky gradually darkened, they went back to take a bath, and made an appointment to have a barbecue together.

It is still the familiar shop, which opened when Shuci was a child.The business is very good, and the environment has improved a lot after the renovation. The first floor is full and only the second floor has seats.After Jiang Yu finished ordering, Zi Luo asked, "Drink?"

Jiang Yu stretched out his hand: "I drink."

"You don't drink." Zi Luo ordered him a bottle of milk and said, "Let's not talk about your drinking capacity, Aunt Jiang and Uncle Jiang will tell you again if they find you drinking."

Shuci looked at him from the opposite side, and said with a smile, "Why, Jiang Yu is quite addicted to alcohol?"

Zi Luo shook his head and said, "It's okay, but I like to fight and I'm dishonest."

How can I say that I have also been beaten since I was a child, and I know the scriptures, so I asked: "Is there a lot of injuries?"

Jiang Yu was banned from drinking by Zi Luo, and said listlessly, "Small injury."

Shuci asked, "Where's your girlfriend?"

"I'm single now." Jiang Yu's expression didn't change, he and Zi Luo looked very mature, not like children, "It's not interesting to talk about a new relationship before."

In fact, Jiang Yu is like Shuci from the past few years, with similar personality and temperament.He likes to fight, but the only difference is that Jiang Yu has been in puppy love since junior high school. With his handsome and cute baby face, there is always no shortage of girls around him.

"You are amazing." Shuci took a bite of the cold dish, "You have more love history at a young age than I do."

Jiang Yuman smiled nonchalantly: "What about you, Brother Ci, are you still single?"

"How could it be?" Shuci said, "We were talking, something happened, otherwise I would have come back with me this time."

"Do you have a photo?"

"Yes, I have."

Jiang Yu became interested: "Show me!"

Shuci replied: "Moments, look for yourself."

The two people on the opposite side were taken aback, and they didn't remember that Shuci's circle of friends had posted a picture of a girl.Only then did Zi Luo raise his head, watching Jiang Yu look for him with his mobile phone.

Shu Ci said to Zi Luo: "Don't be like Jiang Yu, I don't know how many girls' hearts you have broken at such a young age."

Zi Luo glanced at Jiang Yu and laughed.

"Where is there?" There are only a few in Shuci's circle of friends, which are easy to flip through. After reading it twice, there is no girl. Jiang Yu wondered, "There is no such thing, only a photo of you and other boys."

Zi Luo raised his eyebrows, took out his hand to look at it, saw the video and group photo, raised his head and asked Shuci: "Is he the one?"

The diction is generous: "Yes, handsome."

Zi Luo's performance was not surprising, he looked down again, and said, "Indeed."

"What? Who?" Jiang Yu asked, leaning his head.

Zi Luo put the phone on the table: "Don't even want to know about your IQ."

"Tell me!" Jiang Yu begged, "Otherwise I won't be able to eat this meal."

Simply annoying, Zi Luo said, "Didn't you see the group photo? That's it."

"The lighting is bright..." Jiang Yu paused and looked at Shuci, "Brother Ci, are you gay?"

Shuci said: "Yeah, is it surprising?"

Unlike Zi Luo who had no reaction, Jiang Yu had been in love many times, although it seemed like they hadn't.But in his eyes, Shu Ci is a straight man who is more straight than anyone else, he didn't expect it, he didn't expect it.He shook his head and said, "It's quite unexpected."

The waiter brought the dishes and a large bottle of coconut juice, and Zi Luo reached out to take them and poured Jiang Yu a glass.

Shuci looked up and saw that the peanuts in his mouth were tasteless, and couldn't help asking: "Why do you like drinking coconut milk? Why don't you order Sprite?!"

Zi Luo didn't know, so he said, "Do you want to drink? Then I'll get you a bottle."

"No." Shuci controlled his emotions, "I'll drink."

Zi Luo accompanied him to drink a case of beer and a bottle of liquor, but he didn't drink too much.With barbecue in his mouth, his drinking speed could no longer keep up with Shuci.

Maybe he finally saw that Shu Ci was drinking to relieve his sorrow.

Jiang Yu leaned into his ear and whispered, "What's wrong with Brother Ci?"

Zi Luo replied in a low voice, "I don't know."

The box of beer was almost empty, Jiang Yu stopped Shu Ci from opening the beer: "Brother Ci, if you are unhappy, please tell me, I will help if I can, don't hold it by yourself."

Shuci put aside his hand, bit the bottle cap with his teeth, lit a cigarette, and said, "It's okay, I just want to drink."

It's okay if there is something, Jiang Yu can't ask again.

Shuci took a puff of smoke and said, "You two have been stuck together since you were young, and you still have such a good relationship in high school."

"Of course." Jiang Yu smiled, raised his arm and stopped for a while, and put it on Zi Luo's shoulder, "Luo Luo is my best friend."

Zi Luo lowered his head and drank a glass of wine, Jiang Yu could only drink coconut milk, touched his glass with him, and finished drinking with his head up.

"Are you okay?" Zi Luo asked, "Can't you tell us?"

Shuci put out the cigarette butt, but he didn't know where to start.

How should I put it, did you say that you were dumped in front of boys younger than you?Where is his old face?

Fortunately, at this time Jiang Yu asked, "Have you had a fight?"

Shuci said: "Ah, yes, yes."

Jiang Yu retracted his head: "Then I can't help you, if you fall in love with a girl, I can still come up with bad ideas."

"It's fine, no need to make an idea." After all, it's useless, Shuci said, "Let's talk about something else, how are uncles and aunts?"

The topic changed abruptly, Jiang Yu nodded: "Very good."

"Oh."

A case of beer is empty, a bottle of white wine is empty.Shuci's eyes don't know whether it's the redness from drinking or the redness from not resting.Zi Luo looked at him without changing his face, and said, "You still have a good capacity for drinking."

Jiang Yu: "Envy."

After Shuci paid for going to the bathroom, Zi Luo and Jiang met at the gate of their house.Originally wanted to send Shuci home, but he walked steadily all the way, nothing happened. After Shuci greeted them, he walked forward with his hands in his pockets.

There was an old man enjoying the shade under the tree, and everyone in this area knew him. After saying hello, he didn't dare to stay longer, so he walked to a tree and sat down.

His head was a little dizzy, but he was still awake.He took out his mobile phone, clicked on the top, and flipped through several pages of exclamation point messages.

Then he dialed You Yezhi's phone number, it was still the familiar female voice, and the phone was in progress.

Shuci lowered his head, closed his eyes and thought, what is the source of all this?It was he who saw You Yezhi's heartache that night, and couldn't bear to question his concealment.

You Yezhi kept insisting that it was fine, but he didn't believe it at all.In fact, there was no quarrel at all that night. How did it become so serious?

Why on earth does your heart hurt, and what exactly are you hiding from me that I can't know?

Shu Ci covered his forehead with his hands, the tip of his heart was burning like fire.

Why are you so cruel that you blocked all contact information, and didn't even pay him a visit during the hospitalization?Why is everything so sudden, just leave as soon as you say leave?

Is it related to the concealed thing?What did You Yezhi hide?Is it about the heart?

Suddenly, a picture flashed in my mind.In the silent night, there was a scream. He hurried over and saw the blood flowing slowly along the edge of the bed. There was a person lying on the bed with a knife stuck in his heart.

That face is exactly the same as You Yezhi.

He committed suicide by stabbing a knife in his heart.

No, what is he thinking?Is that just a dream? !

Impossible, how can dreams and reality be confused.Shuci thought that he might have really drunk too much, so he stood up and staggered home.