I love him too today

180

Everything that followed happened very quickly.

Junyan and the benefactor went to heaven, but I was left in the Feng clan.

I know they are worried about my safety, afraid that I will hinder them if I go to heaven, but I still can't help but ask them why.

The benefactor's answer was not what I expected. He said that I have lost my celestial power now, but I want them to pay more attention to me when I go.

I asked him, "What about Junyan?"

In this extremely urgent situation, the three of us suddenly calmed down as if we were frozen, and we didn't say a word to each other for a long time.

I once said that I am stupid if I am stupid, but I can still see most things clearly, but sometimes I choose to pretend to be stupid.

I looked at the embarrassment on the benefactor's expression and caught the flash of panic on Jun Yan's face, thinking about it, I should stop exposing their tricks on this occasion.

At the moment before they left, I said to their backs: "Come back safely."

To be honest, I am afraid that the nightmare of a thousand years ago will come back again.

181

When I was the only one left in Wutong Garden, all my time and all my emotions were given to Qi Luan.

The strange thing is that I didn't shed a single tear when I heard the news of Qi Luan's death.

I cleaned up the broken cups on the ground, and my right thumb was accidentally cut by the shards. Before the blood flowed out and I could cry out the pain, the wound healed itself.

But this wound gave my heart an excuse, and the place where the heart was located began to ache faintly at this moment.There is no spell in the world that can heal this pain.

182

I couldn't understand many things Qi Luan did.

Jun Yan said that he had a hard time.I don't think I will ever understand his difficulties in this life.It is these difficulties that I am most afraid of.

I am his elder brother, and we brothers are the most intimate existence in this world.I have confided with him a lot, but he buried all his plans deeply.

Maybe at a fork in the road, we both walked away at a moment when neither of us noticed.

When my world was occupied by He Junyan, Qi Luan's world was full of benevolence, righteousness and morality, the dignity of gods, and many things I didn't understand.

My brotherhood with him is no longer pure brotherhood, and there are all the impurities from his world in it.

But because of this, I was always proud of having such a younger brother.

And now, my brother is dead.

I don't know whether he was in pain or looked miserable at the moment before he died.I dare not think about it.

At the same time, I forced myself to keep recalling the past between me and him, for fear that I would forget that such a person existed in the blink of an eye.

I felt the same way thousands of years ago.

I feel that God is too harsh and cruel to me.

The only two people I care about in this world died before me.I finally rescued Jun Yan, and now it's Qi Luan's turn.

wrong……

Since I can save Jun Yan, then I can definitely save Qi Luan too!

I seemed to have grasped the last straw to save my life. I couldn't care about anything for a while, and I was thinking about——

I want to go to Wangchuan!I want to go to Wangchuan!

183

I think after 800 years, Po Meng has already bored me.

When I saw her again, I even forced myself to smile at her shyly.

She handed the Mengpo Soup in her hand to the ghost crossing the bridge, and looked at me and asked, "Why, the life of Lord Junyan is over again?"

I thought her words sounded very unlucky, so I quickly explained: "No! Jun Yan has already remembered the past. If there is no accident, I don't need to look for him again in the future."

"Then you are?"

"Unfortunately, my younger brother died in the Heavenly Demon War..." As I spoke, I suddenly felt guilty, and felt that I was really greedy, "I want to find him."

After hearing this, Granny Meng stared at me for a long time, "What an idiot."

"So this time..."

Before I could finish speaking, Granny Meng raised her hand to interrupt me, "Why don't you cherish the person in front of you?"

I looked at her puzzled.

"You said that God Junyan has recalled the past. Isn't this what you have been pursuing for 800 years? Now you are willing to spend another hundred years to fight against the destiny and give up all your hard work for 800 years?"

"Fight against destiny?" I chewed these words carefully.

"Birth, old age, sickness, death, and reincarnation are destiny."

What a destiny.

When Qi Luan was around, he often talked about the destiny, because a destiny annoyed me for saving Junyan and blamed me for a hundred years.

They all said that I don't understand the destiny, but do I really not know? !

Am I not part of the Dao of Heaven?Is it not God's will for me to change my life against the sky? !

I suddenly laughed presumptuously, with tears in the corners of my eyes, and teased myself in front of Granny Meng: "But I am such a non-human and non-celestial being. I feel like this life is meaningless."