Dead fish-eyed male god, ask for marriage!

I stayed in the barracks, did not go to the battlefield, but became a medical worker.I don't have great skills, nor do I have a resourceful head. I only have a little talent in medical skills.The first time I saw the soldier's bloody body, I was so disgusted that I lost my appetite for a whole day, and I felt like vomiting when I saw meat.Only then did I truly understand the cruelty of war, and I was even more grateful that I came here.As time goes by, I have been able to face all this without changing my face, even eating next to the dead body is completely fine.

I stayed with Takasugi's help, and Sakata Gintoki didn't know about it.So, when he saw me in the barracks, he had an ugly expression on his face. Every time he met me, he always had a bad face and always spit out some mean and ruthless words.At the beginning, I was very sad, always crying secretly by myself.But I don't care about it once the number is too many, I think, Sakata Gintoki is just too worried about my safety.Of course, such an idea is somewhat suspected of self-deception, but even if it is self-deception, so what?I, Aoto Zhiko, have decided on Sakata Gintoki, even if he hates me, I will not leave.

Time flies, Takasugi formed the "Ghost Soldier Team", Sakata became the "White Yasha" who shocked the enemy and us, and Gui led his team to kill heaven and man with joy.Before I knew it, I spent a year in the barracks.During this year, many things happened.Whether it is Takasugi, Sakata or Gui, they have all been injured more or less. When I treated their wounds for the first time, I was terrified, and the hand holding the scalpel was shaking non-stop.I think, no matter who among them, I can't face it calmly, because I am afraid.I am afraid that I will not be able to save them who are injured, and I am afraid that they will die in front of me.

Perhaps because he understood my stubbornness, Sakata Gintoki no longer provoked me with words, but just ignored my existence.How can you not be sad when you are ignored by someone you like?But I know that now is not the time for love, but the time for war.I want to stand beside Sakata Gintoki as a person with lofty ideals against barbarians, not as a woman.

After leaving home, I got into the habit of writing a letter a week, although not every letter made it to Mom and Dad.I learned from the letter that not long after I left, my mother was pregnant with a younger sister, who is now three months old.Every Saturday is my happiest day, because on this day I will receive letters from my parents.On this day, as usual, I was going to get a letter from Zetian who was in charge of purchasing supplies, but I ran into Sakata on the way.I'm used to Sakata Yinshi ignoring me, so when he stopped me, I was completely stunned.

"Let's talk!"

"Oh."

Following Sakata Yinshi to a remote place, he was both looking forward to and afraid.

"Ayin, I have received a secret mission and need a female partner, Zhizi-chan, can you help me?"

The originally excited mood slowly cooled down, and the mood began to turn bad.So, did you only talk to me for the mission?But even so, I agreed to him.I couldn't refuse Sakata Gintoki's request, because I liked him so much that I couldn't help myself.

The secret mission that Sakata Gintoki mentioned was to go to Edo to inquire about news by pretending to be a heavenly being.I originally thought this task would be very simple, but Gintoki Sakata also said that it would only take three days, but is it three days?At the beginning, I was in the excitement of being alone with Sakata Gintoki, but I didn't realize something was wrong after the emotions passed.The originally agreed date changed again and again, as if... as if he was deliberately delaying time and trying to keep me here.

I'm not a fool, Sakata Gintoki did this because they were hiding something from me.And things that need to be kept from me, except my parents don't think about it.

When I thought that something might happen to my parents, I panicked, "Yinshi, is there something you are hiding from me?"

"Zhizijiang, what are you talking about, Ah Yin, what did I hide from you?"

"Don't play dumb," I yelled at Sakata Gintoki, "It's my parents, right? Did something happen to them? That's why you keep delaying me from going back, just to prevent me from discovering the abnormality."

Sakata Gintoki didn't answer, just remained silent, which made my heart sink to the bottom.

Holding the last ray of hope, I hurried back to Panqiu City.But what greeted me was not the smiling parents, but their tombstones, cold and unpopular tombstones.

It was a sunny day, but it made me feel cold for no reason, cold to the bone.The gentle and sweet mother, the serious father and the lovely sister are now lying in front of me and will never wake up again.Why, why, why is this?

"Why? Why are they? Why not me? Sakata Gintoki, tell me, why is it that I am not the one who died? I am the one who should be damned, not them. They are not at fault, the one who is wrong is me, it is me... ...."

"Zhizijiang, calm down."

"Calm down? How do you tell me to calm down? The dead are my parents, my family members, how can I calm down? Say it, say it..." I shook Sakata Silver like crazy He just held me in his arms silently and patted my back gently, just like his mother.

"When did this happen?"

Although the words were vague, Sakata Gintoki still understood what I meant, "That Wednesday, the Celestial Being kidnapped them and asked me to replace them."

"and then?"

"I agreed, but my uncle and aunt disagreed and committed suicide."

When I left Panqi City, what my father said rang in my ears again, "Our Aoto family members have backbone. If you are unfortunately arrested, even if you commit suicide, don't betray your partner." Even though I know it's not Sakata Gintoki's fault , but I still vent my anger on him. "Sakata Gintoki, I hate you! Why are you keeping it from me?"

Sakata Gintoki opened his mouth, but finally said nothing.

"Hahaha, aren't you White Yasha? Why are you so ridiculous and useless, even my parents can't save you? Didn't the heavenly beings want your life? Why didn't you die? Why wasn't you the one who died? Why? ?” At this moment, I was crying and laughing, and my whole body was in a state of madness.

Holding my hands tightly, his voice came from above his head, "I'm also thinking, why wasn't I the one who died. It would be great if I could just die!"

"Sakata Gintoki, I hate you."

"I know!"

"Then do you know that the thing I regret the most is falling in love with you?"

Sakata Gintoki let go of me, looked at the sky, "Now I know."

"Hey, Sakata Gintoki, don't appear in front of me again. Otherwise, I can't help but kill you." Even though I said such terrible words, I laughed heartily.I thought, I'm broken.

"Ok!"

Sakata Gintoki left staggeringly, as if he would fall down at any moment.

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