Tentative

Then every day when Qu Zhe got off work, he could see Shen Yizhuo waiting outside.When he was on the day shift, people outside were wearing suits, obviously coming directly from the company; but when he got off work at night, Shen Yizhuo usually changed into casual clothes, standing outside smoking a cigarette and waiting for him, with a subtle youthful feel.

"You don't need to pick me up."

Qu Zhe said this to him, but Shen Yizhuo just smiled and said "coincidentally", "passed by", "go back to get things", etc., which were obviously excuses, so that Qu Zhe couldn't say anything to refuse.But he just came to wait for him to get off work, and then he would send him home. At most, he asked if he wanted to have dinner together, but Qu Zhe refused.

Qu Zhe naturally wouldn't mention the topic of tattoos, but Shen Yizhuo didn't bother.

When he went to Qu Xiaoyu's place, Shen Yizhuo basically didn't show up as usual.He occasionally asked his sister if Shen Yizhuo seldom came home, but she just said embarrassingly, "Yizhuo is busy with work, but he often comes back to eat with me."

Qu Zhe was not sure whether Qu Xiaoyu's reaction was due to the secret relationship between them as Shen Yizhuo said, or simply not getting along.

He could no longer tell which of Shen Yizhuo's words was true and which was false.

But occasionally Qu Zhe would feel owed - he lived in Shen Yizhuo's house, but kept a distance from him that was more like indifference than politeness.If everything from the past is erased, it is indeed a bit unreasonable for him to behave like this.So one month after Shen Yizhuo insisted on picking him up from get off work, Qu Zhe suddenly took the initiative: "Let's have a late-night snack together."

He was also not sure how Shen Yizhuo would feel, after saying this, Shen Yizhuo was obviously stunned, and immediately nodded: "Okay, what do you want to eat."

"I can do it, how about you?"

Shen Yizhuo thought for a while, and said, "Wait for me here, okay, I'll go drive."

"……it is good."

After he agreed, Shen Yizhuo immediately walked quickly towards his company.His company was indeed very close, and it was a 10-minute walk away. If Shen Yizhuo hadn't mentioned driving, he would have almost forgotten that the other party had a car.Every night when he came to pick up Qu Zhe, he walked on foot, and then sent him back on foot.

I can't tell what it's like. I used to be someone who I couldn't reach, someone who would make him so happy that he couldn't sleep with a little tenderness, but now he is quietly by his side, not saying a word, not much do one thing.Qu Zhe vaguely felt that after many years, he and Shen Yizhuo had finally switched positions, but often after thinking about it, he would immediately deny it, only thinking that it was an illusion.

The last thing he dared to do in this world was to trust Shen Yizhuo.

But he thought to himself, it would be nice if time passed a little slower.

Soon Shen Yizhuo drove over, and Qu Zhe sat in the co-pilot. Shen Yizhuo didn't ask what he was going to eat, but just drove forward silently.

He brought Qu Zhe to a porridge shop that was open all night, carefully asked him what he wanted to eat, and ordered some small snacks and cold dishes that were sold well here, carefully avoiding pasta.

As long as Qu Zhe didn't speak, Shen Yizhuo hardly spoke.

After ordering, the two sat in silence. Qu Zhe finally spoke after thinking for a long time.

He didn't want to go on like this—a person who can't swim falls into the water, and he can't decide whether he wants to drown; he can't keep himself out of the matter in Shen Yizhuo's tenderness.

"You don't need to pick me up every day." Qu Zhe looked at him and said, "I know you are very busy at work."

"It's not too busy," Shen Yizhuo looked at him, the corners of his mouth slightly raised, "I wanted to see you, so I came here."

"...I know what you're thinking," Qu Zhe lowered his voice, his eyes dimmed, "If you want to make up for me, you really don't have to... At that time, I was willing."

Shen Yizhuo knew what he was talking about.Although he knew it well, he didn't expect Qu Zhe to say it so... calmly.He seemed to be speechless and licked his lips, before speaking after a while: "I didn't want to make it up to you..."

"I told you, I will leave sooner or later."

"Well, I know." Shen Yizhuo said, "So before I leave, I want to accompany you."

——Maybe the other way around, I want you to accompany me.

Speaking of this, the porridge was also served, and the two of them buried their heads in eating, and no one spoke again.

The supper ended in silence, and when he walked out of the porridge shop, Shen Yizhuo suddenly said, "Let's go for a walk by the river, it's nearby."

Qu Zhe froze for a moment, nodded and said, "Okay."

He was wearing a cheap cotton padded jacket that he had bought with his wages. It was already winter, and it would still be a little cold when blowing the wind.The two walked side by side, and Shen Yizhuo seemed to deliberately match his pace, standing beside him, keeping a distance not too close or too far, until they reached the scenic belt along the river.

At night, the beautiful neon lights of the scenery belt were on, and they walked along the river bank.Qu Zhe had been to this place before, and he was brought out by Guan Tian to run at night before, and he ran along this place.Suddenly there was a gust of night wind, and the leaves were rustling. Qu Zhe shrank his neck subconsciously—he was afraid of the cold, and he always wore scarves in the past winters, but he forgot to buy one for himself this year.

Shen Yizhuo never wore a scarf, as if he was not afraid of the cold.

Just as Qu Zhe was thinking, he suddenly heard the sound of cloth rubbing against each other. He turned his head, and Shen Yizhuo had already taken off his thick down jacket.He is tall and his clothes are big, so he handed over the down jacket without hesitation, and put it on for him: "...Don't refuse, you will feel uncomfortable if you catch a cold."

"Aren't you cold?"

"It's not cold." Shen Yizhuo said softly, "If you can, wear the ones you bought at home. It's a waste if you leave them alone."

Shen Yizhuo bought the paper bag that time and put it in the cabinet. Later, he bought two more sets for him when the season changed. Qu Zhe put it there for two weeks without looking at it. At some point, Shen Yizhuo also put it away.Even though Qu Zhe didn't want to wear it or look at it, he still bought it, as if the money had no place to spend it.

By wearing the warm down jacket on himself, it really doesn't feel cold all at once.

The original heat in the clothes can still be felt on the neck, which is Shen Yizhuo's temperature.

For some reason, Qu Zhe felt melancholy inexplicably.He looked at the river in the dark night, and said with a little sigh: "We used to take a walk by the river before."

"...Well." Shen Yizhuo obviously didn't expect him to say this.

"At that time, I really wanted to be closer to you." Qu Zhe looked sideways at the river, without stopping, and said to himself, "I didn't expect to have the opportunity to take a walk with you by the river."

"If you wish..."

"You are really good. Although none of these good things were for me, and they may not be true, I thought you were really good at that time. Many people liked you, and I, too, have always admired you."

"Qu Zhe." Shen Yizhuo suddenly grabbed his hand.

He stopped and looked at him in surprise, not knowing why.

Under the dim street lights, Shen Yizhuo's silhouette stood out even more.Over the years, he has become more and more beautiful, with a more mature temperament.

"I……"

He wanted to say something, but he lost the courage to speak.

Qu Zhe waited quietly for him to speak, but he finally shook his head: "Wear more in the future."

Qu Zhe took his hand away, nodded, and said submissively and obediently: "Well, I will."

Those words were stuck in his throat, unable to be uttered, but they were surging and ready to be uttered.Shen Yizhuo looked at him more and more at a loss, not knowing what kind of face he should use to treat Qu Zhe.I used to treat him with malice, even to test my feelings, but there is no doubt that it was wrong.When he tried to be gentle, Qu Zhe was indifferent.He knew him too well to know that the tenderness that everyone loved was just acting, so he generalized them and couldn't believe it.

The sudden episode made Qu Zhe also restrain his thoughts, he didn't intend to continue to lament the past, and said softly: "Go back, I'm sleepy."

"……it is good."

Maybe give him a little more time, and he can make it clear.

Qu Xiaoyu's stomach is much larger than that of a seven-month pregnant woman, because she is twins and has two daughters.Yu Xilian took advantage of the holidays to visit her in her house on the outskirts of the city, chatting with her on twitter.

"I don't think your complexion is very good. Did you sleep well... You can't do this, it's not good for the baby!"

Qu Xiaoyu smiled, and touched his stomach tenderly: "It's okay, it's pretty good."

"Is it two months away?"

"Yes."

Yu Xilian stretched out her hand and touched it with a smile: "Really, the two daughters, I envy you!"

"What are you envious of...but you have suffered."

Aunt Liu cuts fruit in the kitchen. Every afternoon at this time, Qu Xiaoyu will watch TV and eat fruit at home, as if it has become a habit.Soon she came out with fruit, Qu Xiaoyu nodded to her, and then said to Yu Xilian: "How are you recently?"

"It's good, but I'm a little busy." Yu Xilian said, "I don't want to take time to see you. Originally, my colleague invited me to see a private art exhibition. I was afraid that I would not have time to see you later, so I pushed it away." .”

"So busy..." She ate the fruit with a toothpick, "What art exhibition do you really want to see?"

"I really want to go," Yu Xilian said, "But it's okay not to go, I will go next time I have a chance."

"What kind of master's work exhibition?"

"No, he's a new...artist?" She laughed as she talked, "Hey, we are music majors. If you ask me about art, it's hard for me to explain it to you. I have seen her paintings, and I really like them.”

Qu Xiaoyu, who was mentioned by Yu Xilian, also became interested: "Why don't I accompany you to see it."

"Just kidding!" Yu Xilian's eyes widened, and she laughed, "You are pregnant, so it's not good to go out!"

"Who said pregnant women shouldn't go out, and proper exercise is good for the fetus!" Qu Xiaoyu said, "And the art exhibition is not a comic exhibition, and there won't be many people. It's boring to stay at home. Let's finish the art exhibition. Let my brother treat us to dinner."

"This……"

The two of them hadn't reached a conclusion yet. Aunt Liu seemed to have heard it from the side, and reminded softly: "Madam, it's better not to go out, it's not safe."

"It's okay, then, I'll call Yizhuo and ask him to send someone to pick us up in a car, okay." She said, reaching for the phone on the table, looking vigorous and resolute.

But Qu Xiaoyu was really suffocated—after she was pregnant, she had almost nothing else to do except take a walk around the house, and every time she met Qu Zhe, she could only eat or chat, and had no chance to go out to play.It just so happened that Yu Xilian aroused her interest again, thinking that it would be good to go out to see the art exhibition.

Shen Yizhuo didn't say anything, and told her to be safe as usual, and sent someone to pick her up.

"Then you can't wear shoes with heels!" Yu Xilian said worriedly.

"Oh, you are really, aren't you still married, why are you talking so old-fashioned!"

"I'm worried about the mother-to-be!"

"I know, I know!" Qu Xiaoyu grinned back, but obediently changed into comfortable flat shoes, and the two of them walked out the door arm in arm.