[Black Basket] Cherish words

Suobe Yekaze is shone by the Tree of Origin and favored by the principles of the world. The world will lead a series of causes and effects to her in a favorable direction for her actions.When my father was killed and my connection with that world was cut off and I returned to this world, the cause and effect of a series of events is similar to this. Neither A Zheng nor I did it intentionally, but we both unintentionally led the incident The direction the world wants.

If Ah Zheng wants to say that he indirectly killed his father, then the root cause is myself.For my return, Ah Zheng appeared, and Ah Zheng helped me deal with Gao Yuan, Gao Yuan sought my father's support, and all the follow-ups of the intensified conflict with my father.As I thought before, my father's death was arranged so that I could leave as soon as possible.To bear this psychological responsibility, it should be me, not Ah Zheng.

"It was I who killed my father."

"Everything is for me, my very existence is the murderer who killed my parents."

I stopped trembling, lying in Ah Zheng's arms and narrating calmly.This abnormal calm frightened Ah Zheng, and immediately pulled me to his eyes, patted my face, and emphasized to me eagerly: "It's not you, listen, Ah Yu, it's not your fault, don't think about it."

"I didn't, it was because of me, even Ah Zheng was involved, I..."

"A Yu!" Ah Zheng grabbed my shoulder and shook me vigorously a few times, making me dizzy, and my shoulder was painfully pinched by him. "You didn't do anything wrong, don't blame yourself, I failed to handle it well."

"Ah Zheng didn't do anything wrong, so he doesn't have to bear the guilt. I..."

"A Yu, relax, don't think so much."

"I……"

"Everything will be fine."

"Will you let me say something! You have misunderstood and gone to Java! Hurry up and calm down!" Ah Zheng was so flustered that he didn't even notice his misunderstanding. I wanted to comfort him with nice words He explained to him, but he didn't give me a chance to speak at all.

Ah Zheng was stunned for a moment, and I quickly explained while he was quiet.

"I knew everything about the situation when you disappeared, and I was flustered for a while, but I quickly figured it out. My father was arranged to die for me. Of course I feel guilty, but I want to live well and be sorry. His sacrifice. I figured it out so I'm okay, it really doesn't matter, you just don't think about it."

"Really think so?" Ah Zheng didn't quite believe it. He stroked my cheek with one hand, stared at me for a long time and saw that I didn't change color, and finally relaxed, hugged me in his arms, and at the same time pressed his weight.

"Ah Zheng, have you gained weight? It's so heavy that I'm about to fall over. Let go!"

Ah Zheng turned a deaf ear to my words, and the heavy weight finally brought me down to the ground. In vain, Ah Zheng remained indifferent.I wanted to complain, but seeing Ah Zheng like this, I had no choice but to give up.

When I woke up from the coma and knew everything about the situation, it took me a long time to sort out my mood after being confused. Ah Zheng is already very calm to be able to do what he is doing now.

Suddenly knowing his true role, Ah Zheng figured it out quickly, or skipped his own question, let me worry about it first, I don’t know, but what really made him flustered was not that he indirectly killed his father, it wasn’t that he later How to face me, but if I already know the situation, will I blame myself and deny myself.

Ah Zheng is not worried at all that I will blame him for his fault, he knows that my thinking circuit will not go that way.Once I consider that he indirectly killed my father, I will inevitably be held accountable to myself. This is exactly what he is worried about.

Ah Zheng wasn't really sure if I already knew the situation, but he decided to tell me that his influence caused his father's death.If I don't know it yet, give me a preconceived impression, and when he tells me all the circumstances, I will blame him to some extent for this preconceived impression, and reduce my self-blame; This is to test whether I have considered that I killed my father. If not, it will be the same as the previous situation. If so, I will divert my attention and distract my self-blame.

In short, Azheng was afraid that I would think that I had killed my father, so I made such a plan to resolve it in an extreme time. Because the time for him to think was too short, and he was disturbed, he didn't think about it. I've figured this possibility into account.

When Ah Zheng kept trying to convince me that his influence indirectly killed my father, and I defended him, the tension in my heart made me very concerned, and then I understood Ah Zheng's intention to divert my attention. Let me ignore myself as the root cause in the mood of blaming him.

I understand Ah Zheng's thinking, I want to calmly admit that it is my own crime, explain that I will bear it to prove that I am okay, and use this to persuade Ah Zheng not to put too much pressure on myself, who knows that Ah Zheng is too worried about me , thinking that I was too self-blame that the qualitative change became calm, and I took all my explanations as self-condemnation, the more I tried to explain, the more nervous he became.Seeing him loosen up suddenly now, I really scared him a lot.

"Ah Zheng, how useless I am in your heart, can't bear the blow, am I narrow-minded and can't think?" I came to this conclusion a little depressed.

"No, apart from being a little stupid, what you said is not obvious." Ah Zheng obviously recovered.

"Do I want to thank you for such a high evaluation!"

"Okay." Ah Zheng stood up with his elbows propped up, his face was relieved, and he came over with one hand pinching my chin.

"Stupidity is contagious, don't kiss me."

"It's okay, you don't have enough levels to infect me."

"You, uh..."

Then, there is a time when protest is futile and resistance is impossible.

Ah Zheng came back, and the matters with his uncles and aunts and the team supervisor were all settled with one phone call.Ah Zheng and I compared the situation we know, I know a little more than him, nothing new came out to destroy the world view, it's great.

Ah Zheng rested and adjusted for a day, digesting the differences between the two worlds and my differences between the two worlds.

I used the matter of brother Yuchen's letting go first to pave the way, but I couldn't make Ah Zheng take it lightly. The household registration matter really annoyed him. Things, really can only rely on brother Yuchen to handle.

I spent the New Year in Tokyo, and my uncles and aunts always looked at me as if I was still called uncle and aunt, and I didn’t hurry up, and they deliberately piled up things in one bedroom, using this as an excuse to only make room for me and Ah Zheng. room.Although Ah Zheng can get married at the age of 18, and even though we slept together for a while in Kyoto, why don’t you be so blunt that I have acne on my stressed face, as an elder, it’s not good to do so!

As I expected, Ah Zheng didn't take it seriously and was happy to see me struggling, and finally didn't say that you were annoying, and used practical actions to make uncles and aunts realize that they should stop disturbing him—the whole new year passed Until he left Tokyo, he never asked for me once.If I knew that the price was to return to Kyoto and be torn apart by him, I would not be happy so early. I would rather he took his time in Tokyo.

After the new year is the last semester of Azheng's senior year of high school, and there are not many days until the college entrance examination. He is busy with his studies, and temporarily puts down basketball and shogi. He only goes out for a run in the morning and does some basic physical training.I am very happy to see Ah Zheng studying and studying non-stop from morning to night every day. The feeling of "my sister is already here, so you can continue to struggle oh hehehe" is really refreshing.

After hanging up on my phone, Brother Yuchen's call interval dropped from one week to three days, and then he made an international long-distance call every day before going to bed, telling me about the deeds of my second grandfather and grandpa as a bedtime story, and finally Ah Zheng couldn't bear it and snatched the phone After exchanging a few words with Yuchen brother, I have to admire that Ah Zheng managed to exchange seven sentences with Yuchen brother who has been in charge of Xiejia for many years, not to mention an old fox, at least a medium fox.

After that, Brother Yuchen's phone calls gradually decreased, from every two or three days to a week, and then, finally, there was no news.

When Ah Zheng threw his mail package to me, I was still confused. When I opened it, there was only a thin Chinese newspaper clipping.I couldn't help it, I laughed with a pop, and with a smile, there was a mist in front of my eyes.Brother Yuchen has gone back, so I feel relieved.

But speaking of it, brother Yuchen is really unkind, even if his subordinates are casually looking for him, he can at least arrange a way out for him, and if he disappears, he will disappear. Of course it doesn't matter if he goes back. It's okay to pat his ass and leave. Don't you hurt others?Is this deliberate nonsense?

Ah Zheng's college entrance examination went very well, it is impossible for him not to go well.He went to East University to study mathematics. The first time I heard about his decision, I felt like vomiting blood, so I volunteered to study mathematics.Ah Zheng explained that he was very interested in logic, but there were no good philosophy departments in China offering a major in logic, so he had to choose a similar mathematics.After hearing his reasoning, I wanted to vomit blood even more. Your logic is already so meticulous that you will pull away a lot of people around you. If you learn logic again, we will go crazy.

In the summer vacation of his freshman year, Ah Zheng went to take the professional shogi examination.Relying on the money from part-time jobs and the family sponsorship of the Akashi family, I rented the store and opened a small cake shop. The profit was decent and I was able to support my life.

The turning point that broke the ordinary and fulfilling life happened when the summer vacation of Ah Zheng's sophomore year was approaching.

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