[Black Basket] Cherish words

Come back quickly, Ah Zheng, I miss you.

Even though I prayed like this, Ah Zheng will never come back until he comes back, and Brother Yuchen arrived before Ah Zheng.

I turned the teacup in my hand and watched the tea ripples intently. Brother Yuchen sat opposite me, also silent.The two of us sat speechless for a long time in the house rented by Ah Zheng. This weird feeling like two psychopaths breaking into someone's house to drink tea has been lingering in my heart.

I dare not speak.I didn’t know the existence of the necklace before, Brother Yuchen took the initiative to hand it back, on the one hand because he thought he took my necklace and caused the wrong karma, so he said to me "I did something wrong"; on the other hand, It was also his intention to let go.Things have developed to the present, and if I want to resolutely regain my old love for Ah Zheng, I can't do it at all; the guilt for Ah Zheng will torture me for the rest of my life, and the changed feelings for Brother Yuchen can't be changed just by talking about it. Zheng's feelings are sincere, I can't let go of them, and I don't want to let them go.Brother Yuchen understands me, and also knows that Ah Zheng has gone to that world, and now he comes to me, either to say goodbye or to make a last-ditch fight, but no matter which one, I don't want to face it.

"Xiaoyu." Brother Yuchen couldn't hold me back in the end, he gave up silence and spoke, but the question he asked was beyond my expectations: "Now I have the only chance, do you want to go back there?"

"If I go back, what time will I go back to?" I pursed my lips and smiled wryly. Brother Yuchen really understood me and knew that the only thing I couldn't let go of was my father's affairs.

"I'm not sure, the most likely is the 24-year-old corresponding to me now, or when you left."

"Why don't you go ahead and talk about it? Before Ah Zheng appeared, maybe I would go back to save my father." I lowered my head and looked away from Brother Yuchen.

"I can't tell you this kind of lie." Brother Yuchen took out a cigarette, just about to light it, hesitated for a while, then cut it in two and threw it away.

He is conflicted.He wanted to take me away, but he knew that I would not agree to the current situation, so he used the world over there as a bargaining chip. The most important point is undoubtedly my father. If my father is still there when I can go back, then let me I am enjoying the ease here and let my father be killed, I can't do it; but Brother Yuchen refuses to lie to me, he can't do it by tricking me back to see me suffering and seeing me hate him.

Besides, the question now is whether I will give up Ah Zheng and go back for him. This question is very important to Brother Yuchen.

"How are you sure I can go back?" Even if I didn't say no, Brother Yuchen must have understood what I meant.

"Actually, I'm not sure." Brother Yuchen finally took out a cigarette and lit it, "I've experienced so many things in the past two years, I probably have a guess direction for these weird things. The necklace is the key, and I was The purpose of bringing it here is to return it to you. Now that my function is over but it has not been thrown back for a long time, it shows that my will has a certain effect; if your will is strong enough, I will be your connection with that world , will probably be successful."

"It's a very subtle feeling. The Jie family has always been rigorous, but now you are required to keep making assumptions and bet with speculation. But the necklace, I gave it to Ah Zheng." I already knew about my situation, but I hadn't had time to tell Yu Brother Chen, his guesses were correct, but the cruel reality has already cut it off.

The cigarette in Brother Yuchen's hand burnt a lot and fell off, he was still stunned.

"Brother, I'm sorry, give up on me."

I have a lot of things to say, I want to persuade brother Yuchen to be like in the past, because Xie’s family can’t tolerate us, even though my heart is bitter, I always have the psychological construction that I will marry someone else; I want to tell brother Yuchen that I saw it, he loves me more than me Much more; I want to ask Brother Yuchen to forgive my selfishness, and I have obtained happiness unilaterally.But these words were stuck in his throat, and he couldn't say anything.These persuasion and consolation are not for brother Yuchen at all, but for my own peace of mind and to resolve my guilt. Brother Yuchen can only make him more painful.Rather than sprinkling salt on the wound seemingly gently, it is better to cut it cleanly.So all I can say is "sorry" and "give up".

"You have really changed, you are no longer my Xiaoyu." With difficulty uttering a complete sentence, Brother Yuchen put out the cigarette butt, got up and left.

"Brother..." I was worried about his condition, but it was hard to keep him.Brother Yuchen didn't even look back, he reluctantly raised his hand and waved it as farewell.I didn't go after him in the end, I'm superfluous to Brother Yuchen now.

Two days later, I received an international call. Brother Yuchen’s condition is still sluggish, but he asked me to take good care of myself as if he was telling his funeral. Don’t be too honest and be bullied by Ah Zheng. Apart from peace of mind, I feel a little bit sad about the phone bill.

Brother Yuchen finally told me that he had completed the household registration for me, and as long as I didn't do anything to change my household registration, I wouldn't be investigated.

Didn't you deliberately provoke Ah Zheng to bully me! (Because you need to change your household registration when you get married, Xiao Hua means that you should not get married.)

I received the item that afternoon. Among the relatives, brother Yuchen recorded himself as the elder brother.In this world, we are also brothers and sisters. Is brother Yuchen trying to restrain himself formally and let himself stop thinking about it?

The next day I called, Brother Yuchen didn't answer and hung up.Brother Yuchen didn't answer my phone call. He should have been very worried, but this time he felt relieved, and believed that he was fine without any other evidence.Now I have to worry about myself.

With only a few days left before the new year, my aunt had already called to ask Ah Zheng and me to go back to Tokyo. I was vague about it. If Ah Zheng didn’t come back, I really had no choice. Either I told a big lie, or I had to tell the truth.I don't want to despise myself either, just let me make up a perfect lie to explain why Ah Zheng is neither here nor answering the phone, which is exactly the same as being missing. I think the effect is no different from me telling the truth. Go to the hospital to see a psychiatrist.

I lay on the guardrail of the roof overlooking the quiet and deserted Luoshan campus during the holidays, seriously considering asking Brother Yuchen for help with the cheek.

"A Yu." The indifferent and cold voice sounded so naturally, as if the person was always by my side, so that I didn't realize it for a while when I was in a daze, and answered with a casual "um", and then I was surprised that something was wrong.As soon as I turned around, Ah Zheng was right in front of me. I screamed in fright, and reflexively retreated. I bumped into the guardrail of the roof with a "boom", and half of my body was already out of the guardrail.

My panic was not dangerous, Ah Zheng had seen my backing movement early, so he grabbed me early and dragged me back.I patted my chest and breathed, thanking the Eye of the Emperor from the bottom of my heart for the first time, I will never complain about its amazing name anymore.

The reunion, which was supposed to be a sensational one, started so muddled and messy. I looked at Ah Zheng who was wearing my Rilakkuma apron, and couldn't help laughing in his arms.

"A Yu..." Ah Zheng hesitated, I looked at him strangely, my hair grew a little longer, but I couldn't stop his obvious apologetic expression.

"What's wrong?" I don't understand what went wrong to make Ah Zheng show this expression.

Ah Zheng didn't want to face me anymore, he hugged me into his arms, and pressed my head with one hand uneasy.

"Is that all right?"

I nodded, the matter that can make Ah Zheng uncharacteristically, and even ignore our reunion, is probably as important as him not wanting me.

"Have you ever thought about why I went to that world, Ah Yu?"

"Aren't you going to pick me up?" Brother Yuchen told me, that's what he thinks.

"That's right." Ah Zheng smiled wryly, "But how can I pick you up, Ah Yu? Do you know what your conditions are for returning to this world?"

"I already know, about my condition, I already know somehow. I have lost contact with that world..."

"You understand? Just before I came back here and opened my eyes, I suddenly knew my real purpose. Ah Yu, I want to pick you up, so I want to cut off your connection with the world over there. My role , killed my uncle."

What is Ah Zheng talking about?What the hell is he talking about?I don't understand, what is he talking about?

A Zheng's words were passed into my ears word by word, and I received them into my brain, but I couldn't understand them. No, it was my brain that refused to think, refused to understand. After going to bed, the brain has shut down and no longer thinks.

My body trembled uncontrollably, and I firmly grasped Ah Zheng's clothes, biting my sleeves tightly and not daring to let go.

No, it shouldn’t be like this. How could it be like this? Did God not just play tricks on humans to embellish the repertoire, but wrote an outright tragedy?No, it won't be like this, it's not like this, there must be something wrong, it won't be like this!

"It's Gao Yuan... the father of Kill, Kill." I bit my sleeves, murmured words and spelled out sentences.

"It doesn't mean I did it myself, Ah Yu, it's my influence. Without me, things wouldn't have gotten there."

"It's possible, it will develop, not necessarily, don't, think so." The roof is empty, and the morning wind is cool, such a blow, I feel cold all over, and I can't speak well.

"When Xie Yuchen came to talk to me in the small hotel, I had recovered all my memories and guessed a lot of things. I hope you come back, so I won't tell you if Xie Yuchen didn't ask; if you tell Xie Yuchen, with his prudence, he will Protect you and uncle, and there will be no such things."

"Then what should you do? You didn't know it would happen, so stop talking!" I cried out.

Strange isn't it?Ah Zheng wanted to convince me that he indirectly killed his father, but I desperately tried to find reasons to justify him. Our positions are completely reversed, right?

"I'm sorry, but I have to tell you."

I can't respond, I don't know what to do.

Just like the king in "The Twelve Kingdoms", existence itself can bring stability and drive away demons, A Zheng uses existence itself to play a role, causing his father to be killed.But how can I blame him, he was for me from beginning to end.I don't blame Ah Zheng, although I thought so, but there is still some injustice in my heart, there is a hurdle that I can't get over.

Yes, I see.

"It was I who killed my father."

The author has something to say: Friendly reminder, Akashi and Tianyu are not as simple as they seem