The private use of sugar ginseng

, asked Xu Gan.

"No need." Xu Gan put the chili sauce back in place, and pulled him forward.Walking from the seasoning section to the food section and to the fruit section, Xu Gan stood in front of the banana rack, picking and picking one, and weighed it.Then, I chose a small box of cherries, a small box of strawberries, and a bag of mangoes.Lou Jun likes to eat them all, probably did his homework in advance.

After checking out and leaving the supermarket, Xu Gan held a big bag of fruit in his right hand and led Lou Jun back with his left hand.

After returning home, he put Lou Jun on the sofa, Xu Gan went to the kitchen, washed the cherries and strawberries, warmed them with boiling water, brought them out, and placed them in front of Lou Jun.Holding the black leather manuscript, he continued to study.

Lou Jun went to wash his hands, came back and took a strawberry, looked at it for a while and made a decision.His upper body crossed the table, and he stretched out his hand to Xu Gan's face, "Taste it, it's quite sweet."

Xu Gan, who was paying attention to his movements, turned his head, thinking about the reason for his actions, he was happy, annoyed and a little surprised.After being stunned for a while, I reached out to pick it up, stuffed it into my mouth, and took a bite, it was very sour.He gulped it down, "Thank you."

Lou Jun asked him, "Is it delicious?"

He nods. "Delicious." The sour teeth were soft, and he didn't dare to show it on his face.

Lou Jun smiled, stopped disturbing him, and started eating slowly by himself.

At noon, Lou Xiao called back and said that the two of them had something to do and they would settle it outside for lunch.

Xu Gan made a simple lunch for two. After the meal, he saw that Lou Jun drank the medicine and arranged for Lou Jun to take a nap.

After tucking in the quilt, Xu Gan turned and left, closing the door.

Lou Jun opened his eyes, staring at the ceiling in a daze.After an unknown amount of time, I heard footsteps coming in and the door opening, and I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep.It was Xu Gan, who could be identified by the sound of footsteps.He walked to the bed and looked around, sat gently on the edge of the bed, his warm hands got under the quilt, grabbed Lou Juan's foot and rubbed it.This is something he has to do several times a day in the past few days, especially when Lou Jun is sleeping, it never stops.Both legs and feet are warmed up, and then gently leave.

Lou Jun heard him close the door and walk away, opened his eyes without sleepiness, sat up from the bed, stared at the door in a daze.He didn't know how long he sat there, but the moment Xu Gan opened the door and came in again, he admitted to himself that he was tempted.

When Xu Gan came in, seeing Lou Jun sitting, he was taken aback for a moment, and asked, "Are you awake?" Then he noticed that Lou Jun's upper body was only wearing a sweater, his expression tightened, and he hurried over, grabbing his hand with one hand, and Hold his forehead. "Why aren't you wearing a coat?" He looked concerned and spoke impatiently.

Lou Jun smiled, "Forgot."

As soon as his cold hands and forehead touched Xu Gan's warm palm, he trembled uncomfortably, his head throbbed and ached.

"How long have you been sitting? It's so cold on your body. Lie back first." Tucked the corner of the quilt tightly, turned on the electric blanket, and pushed it to the high temperature to cover it.He walked out of the bedroom quickly, poured a glass of boiling water, put in a straw and served it to Lou Jun. "Boil water, be careful not to burn it."

Lou Juan obediently drank slowly, the heat flow from his mouth to his stomach was warmed up, and the bed board under his body was warmed up, his body warmed up, and the comfortable person was drowsy.Lou Jun cheered up and asked Xu Gan, "Why do you like me?"

Xu Gan, who was serving him water, was taken aback for a moment, and after thinking for a long time, he replied, "I don't know." He took the straw away from Lou Jun's mouth, put the water glass aside, and massaged Lou Jun's head.

Lou Jun squinted his eyes, as if he hadn't slept yet. "do you understand me?"

"It doesn't count."

"Why don't you give up after being rejected?"

"You are not married."

"You have confidence in yourself?"

"No."

"Then what are your persistences now?"

"I want you to be well."

"Ah."

With a soft sound, Lou Jun closed his eyes and stopped talking.Xu Gan couldn't tell whether he was asleep or awake, so he didn't dare to move, and accompanied him quietly.

I don't remember how long I sat like this, but when I suddenly came back to my senses, my legs were completely numb.Lou Jun in his arms moved, rubbing his cheeks against his palms, his temperature was hot and he had a fever.

"Xiaojun, Xiaojun?" Xu Gan called him repeatedly, but he didn't move, and there was no distress on his face, so startled that Xu Gan's heart jumped, and he got out of bed and fell to the ground.He beat his legs hard and was barely able to walk. He took a thermometer to measure his temperature, and it was 38 degrees five.

Lou Jun.

Doctors.

Call grandpa.

Reduce fever.

Cold compress.

……

For a moment, countless thoughts flashed through Xu Gan's head, and he panicked, but he did not forget his ability, and gave Lou Jun a simple inspection methodically with shaking hands.

Simple physical weakness, cold and fever, no other symptoms.

Xu Gan made a judgment, but he was not at ease.He quickly called Grandpa Xu to explain the situation, and when Grandpa Xu came over, the simple fever reduction treatment was messed up.

Grandpa Xu came very quickly, because he was frightened by the nasal sound in Xu Gan's voice, which made Xu Ling speed up all the way.Sitting on the bedside to see a doctor, he confirmed Xu Gan's judgment, ordered Xu Ling to decoct the medicine, saw Xu Ling go out, and slapped Xu Gan on the head, which made Xu Gan tilt his head, and reprimanded in a low voice : "Xu Gan, how many years have you studied medicine with me?"

"More than 20 years." Xu Gan bowed his head.

"For more than 20 years, this is how I taught you? Panicked and irritated, losing control of your emotions, you look like a doctor! What about your sanity? What about your profession? Such a small cold scares you out of your mind?"

"I'm sorry, Grandpa." Xu Gan's voice was muffled, and he lowered his head. Grandpa Xu couldn't see his expression clearly, so he paused, then sighed silently, and changed his tone.

"You care about him, you care about losing yourself, I don't care about these. But you have to recognize your identity. In front of patients, you are a doctor first! As a doctor, when a patient is sick, he will give effective treatment as soon as possible Saving people, this must be your instinct! Especially for Xiaojun, any mistake may endanger his life, you must not do anything wrong! Look at what you did when you were waiting for me to come What did you do? Huh? How is it like a doctor? What is it that makes Xiaojun rely on you? Also, you took care of Xiaojun by his side, and even made Xiaojun's condition worse. Tell me what you did ?."

"I'm sorry, Grandpa."

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, is it useful to say sorry to me? You said there will be no accidents, how can you tell me to explain to the Lou family! You boy, you..." There was a sense of hatred in the words .Grandpa Xu blew his beard and stared at Xu Gan, wishing he could beat Xu Gan with the crutch in his hand.

Xu Gan didn't look at him, it was as if a knife kept stirring in his heart, the pain from the bottom of his heart.

Grandpa Xu felt sorry for Xu Gan's depression, and finally got on the crutches to slap Xu Gan, knocking Xu Gan out of his emotions, and said: "Xiao Jun is a patient, you are a doctor, you must firmly remember this. "

"Yes."

"Xiaojun still needs your care, and she is in a daze, hurry up and go to work."

"Yes."

Fever comes and goes quickly.

After feeding Lou Jun the medicine, Xu Gan took off his coat and went to bed, holding Lou Jun in his arms to cover his sweat.At night, the heat gradually receded, and the next morning the body temperature was normal.

After a good night's sleep, Lou Jun woke up earlier than Xu Gan.Opening his eyes, he saw himself in Xu Gan's arms. He moved his body and found that his limbs were imprisoned. Lou Jun couldn't understand his mood for a while, so he looked up to find Xu Gan's face.

Xu Gan's face was very close to him, only his chin was visible, protruding from his extremely short black stubble.Lou Jun tilted his neck, barely passed Xu Gan's nostrils to see his eyes, with deep dark circles and furrowed eyebrows.

Lou Jun had no memory of yesterday's fever, but felt that he had slept deeply.Seeing the current situation, he immediately understood that he was probably sick again yesterday.I didn't feel the physical pain, and I slept soundly, probably passed out at the time.

Lou Jun lowered his head, feeling a little depressed.After lying down for a while, my body became numb, and I forgot about my surroundings and turned over.When he turned his back to Xu Gan, he screamed inwardly.

Xu Gan, who had been vigilant all night, really woke up, propped himself up, touched Lou Jun's forehead with one hand, and took his temperature.Not burned.Lie back, eyes closed and short of breath.

Lou Jun, whose back was pressed against his chest, could feel the powerful beating of his heart, beating rapidly one after another, obviously different from the calmness before waking up.

After a while, there was no relief.Lou Jun turned around and asked him, "Are you feeling unwell?"

Xu Gan was startled, and suddenly opened his eyes to look at Lou Jun. "Are you awake? How are you feeling?"

"I'm fine, I feel fine. How about you?" Lou Jun turned around and asked back.

"Me?" Xu Gan repeated in confusion.

"Your heart is beating fast."

"Heartbeat." Xu Gan touched the position of his heart with his hand, felt the vibration coming through the skin, and suddenly realized. "Just woke up." Xu Gan blinked vigorously to drive away the dizziness caused by lack of sleep, and got up slightly to get dressed.

"Are you hungry? What do you want to eat?" Xu Gan asked Lou Jun after getting off the bed.

Lou Jun nodded while putting on his clothes, "Let's have porridge, I want white rice porridge with pickles."

When Lou Jun put on his pants and got out of bed, Xu Gan was still standing by the bed, holding Lou Jun's arm with one hand.

Lou Jun pushed him with a smile. "I'm really well, I can do it myself." After saying that, he took two steps alone, keeping a distance between Xu Gan.Although he was well rested, dizziness after the fever was still unavoidable, Lou Jun smiled on his face, and subconsciously made a motion of holding something up, and quickly retracted it.

Xu Gan turned a blind eye and nodded. "Then I'll go out and cook."

After going out the door, he took a few steps to the door of Lou Lang's bedroom, knocked twice, and pushed the door open to enter.Lou Lang was awakened, and quickly sat up and asked with a dazed expression, "What's wrong? What's wrong with my brother?" He didn't wake up physically, but he was fully awake mentally.

"Xiaojun's fever has subsided, and he's already woken up. Go over and watch."

"Oh, it's ready." Lou Lang's eyelids began to twitch as soon as he relaxed.

Xu Gan walked two steps in, pinched Lou Lang's ear with one hand and turned around, and covered Lou Lang's mouth with the other.Pause for three seconds, let go and step back. "Wake up? Just go and look at Xiaojun, right now."

Lou Lang was angry, with a dark face, and obediently got out of bed to look for Lou Jun.In order to prevent a sudden situation in the middle of the night, I didn't take off my clothes when I went to sleep, which saved time for this moment.

When breakfast was ready, Lou Xiao also got up and was sitting in the living room talking with Lou Jun. Xu Gan put the meal on the table, then turned around and went into the kitchen again to cook medicine.

When the medicine came out, the three of them had already finished eating, silently cleaned up the tableware on the table, and went back to the kitchen.No words the whole time.

After eight o'clock, Lou Lang and Lou Xiao went to class.

Lou Jun carried the bowl into the kitchen by himself.Xu Gan stood with a cigarette in his mouth, looking out the window.He didn't focus on watching, but when he heard footsteps behind him, his first reaction was to take the cigarette out of his mouth and throw it into the trash can, and his second reaction was to turn around.

Seeing that it was Lou Jun, he reached out to take the bowl. "Give it to me, you go to rest."

Lou Jun handed it over, looked at Xu Ganxi, and did not leave.After Xu Gan finished washing, he put it in the cupboard, looked back at him puzzled, and asked, "Do you smoke?"

Xu Gan looked at the complete smoke in the trash can.Shake your head. "I once tasted two cigarettes, and now I put them in my pocket for pretending." The two cigarettes I tasted were used when I first found out that I was gay, to pretend to be mature and hook up.

I don't know if Lou Jun understood, but he nodded and changed the subject, "Have you had breakfast yet?"

Xu Gan brought all the breakfast to the living room, and there was not a single grain of rice left in the returned pot.

Xu Gan nodded, "I've eaten."

Lou Jun looked at the kitchen, it was very clean, and there was no trace at all to determine the truth of Xu Gan's words. "I troubled you yesterday."

"I want to do it myself."

"Now, do you want to rest?"

"No, I'm reading."

"En." Lou Jun nodded, followed Xu Gan to the living room.The black leather manuscript is still on the wooden shelf under the coffee table in the living room, and Xu Gan sits in the same position as yesterday and flips through it.

Lou Jun was also sitting across from him, holding a book in his hand, and didn't turn the pages for a long time.He stared at Xu Gan for a long time, intently, as if he was reading a profound tome.

Xu Gan was made very uncomfortable by his gaze, and tried his best to restrain himself from devoting himself to the manuscript, but the effect was minimal.The notebook in his hand was full of ink blobs that had been revised repeatedly after writing, and it was black with hairy corners.Finally couldn't help it anymore, he looked up and looked back, pretending to be indifferent. "What's the matter?"

"No." Lou Juan shook his head, without hiding his gaze.

Xu Gan glanced at himself and asked again. "Is there something on my face?"

"No." She looked straight ahead, with deep eyes.

"What are you looking at?"

"Look at you."

"What's wrong with me?"

"No."

Xu Gan held his forehead depressed. "So why do you keep looking at me?"

"I'm thinking about you."

If it was normal, Xu Gan would ask back: How did you think about it?Are you happy with me?Now, Xu Gan carefully observed Lou Jun's expression, he didn't seem to be talking nonsense.Just ask: "Think about me?"

Lou Jun was surprised for a moment.With such a good atmosphere, he took the initiative to bring up the topic. He thought that based on Xu Gan's past performance, he would definitely take the opportunity to express his affection again.He looked at Xu Gan more deeply.It wasn't his illusion, Xu Gan's attitude really changed.When did it start?Yesterday morning, after making him angry? ...or after waking up this morning?

"Thinking about you, why are you suddenly so cold. Are you still angry, what I said yesterday?"

Xu Gan was taken aback for a moment, he didn't expect his emotions to be so obvious. "I'm evaluating myself, whether it's suitable for you as I said, and whether I can take good care of you."

Lou Juan's thoughts turned, "Because during your care, yesterday, I had a fever again?"

"A small part of the incentive." Xu Gan admitted generously. "You are Lou Jun. You are the person I like and also my patient. My ability to bear it seems that I am not strong enough to not panic when you are sick. The value of me staying by your side as a doctor is gone. "The weight is gone, how can you be trapped.

Lou Jun was silent, with mixed feelings in his heart, he took it easy and asked, "The premise is that I don't like you?"

When Xu Gan heard this, a wry smile flashed on his face. "Facts are the premise."

Lou Juan opened his mouth, and the words twirled around his mouth, and finally swallowed them back.bowed his head in silence.

The two sat quietly for a while, when Lou Jun's cell phone rang, it was Lou Xiao's call, the content was simple, and they didn't come back for lunch.

Only then did Xu Gan look at his watch, and the pointer showed that it was past eleven o'clock.