Light Snow to Beginning of Spring GL

The black Mercedes drove out of the gray brick alley. He Xueyan stood on the steps of the door and looked at it for a long time, feeling empty in her heart, just like the dark cloud-covered dusk at this moment. He Xueming kindly took away five calligraphy and paintings, which were worth nothing. People say it clearly, if you say that there is a price, you may be able to exchange for wealth and honor for three generations, and if you say that it is priceless, it is just a few pieces of very torn paper.

A few pieces of torn paper ruined the last part of the relationship between my sister and her.

Maybe it was because she was too naive all along, and she still fantasized about getting a little bit of warmth from her sister's heart, but now the last extravagant hope is in vain.The girl who held her hand, sent her to school, and sold her candied haws when she was a child, probably disappeared.

Standing in front of the door pier, He Xueyan exhaled white air, looked dazed, and slowly turned and closed the door.He locked the gate and stood in the yard for a while, as if absent-minded.

When I was numb from the cold, I heard the phone ringing in the living room.

She walked back to the living room with tired steps, as if she had lost the strength to hold the mobile phone, her fingers were not flexible enough, they were frozen hard, and she almost dropped the mobile phone on the ground.Like a body shell, press to answer, there is Yan Fei's voice.

"Xueyan, the vice president called and asked me to participate in the new book promotion meeting tomorrow." Yan Fei reported the situation to her, and said in a somewhat embarrassed way: "But sister Yu has to have an inspection at 7 o'clock tomorrow morning. It’s probably too late to rush there, but it shouldn’t be a problem if I don’t speak, right? I want to go later.”

"En." He Xueyan didn't know if she understood, so she just replied lightly.

"Xueyan?" Yan Fei felt something was wrong, got up and walked towards the corridor and said, "Are you busy?"

"No." He Xueyan's mind was at a loss, and suddenly her sister's words came up again, you just say it's okay...you keep saying it's okay all the time.

"Do you want me to visit you at night?" Yan Fei smiled, ready to coax her: "I can bring you something delicious, are you at home or in the hospital?"

"Aren't you going to accompany Shen Suyu for the examination tomorrow morning? Is it too late?" He Xueyan was very calm.She sat silently on the mahogany sofa in the living room, never felt such peace, her heart was empty.

Yan Fei didn't reply for a few seconds, she probably struggled a bit and said, "I'll just go back to the hospital at 5 in the morning."

"Forget it. I'll be with my parents in the hospital. You can handle your affairs with peace of mind." He Xueyan gave her the answer, held the phone tightly, and said lightly: "You won't be able to make it tomorrow, and you don't have to go Well, it shouldn't be a big deal."

"Okay then." Yan Fei was a little discouraged, and wanted to say something more, but He Xueyan just said: "I asked someone to rent you a duplex house near the work unit, with a yard on the first floor, and a new car parked beside it. Your card I will transfer you 30 yuan. If you need anything else, you can talk about it. I am too tired to take care of my dad now. Let’s talk about it when we meet tomorrow."

"Xueyan?" Yan Fei was a little confused, not sure what she was singing, but the tired voice on the phone was real.Maybe He Xueyan is really too tired... Yan Fei was grateful for her doing so for herself, warm and happy: "Thank you for doing so much for me, I don't know what to say, but I don't need you to give me so much money , I have enough salary, so I will take advantage of you..."

He Xueyan hung up the phone gently before she finished speaking.As she said herself, she was a little too tired.Sitting silently in the living room, ruffling the hair on her forehead, the pain in her heart gnawed at her heart, even worse than when Bai Linyu left.

Maybe at that time it was the stones rolling down from the mountain stream, and the whole body was hurt by thorns all the way down, but this time, it was like going through a long journey, after being rounded and finally fell to the bottom of the valley, silently, she Her struggles and her resignation to fate seem to have come to an end here.She finally understood that her fate was not bad, it was not others who caused the distortion of her life, it was not who took away her happiness, or who could bring her happiness.

She just lived with some failures.The last front line of strict defense, her arrogance of being independent from the world, and her vision of guarding the painting until she dies of old age, were torn apart by He Xueming.It's not that the woman is invincible, it's just that he flinched weakly when he saw her put on such a cold posture.

There is no way to fight against it at all, and I don't want to know how far people can go for fame and fortune.

She would rather live in her own world all the time and not want to deal with anyone.

That's nice and safe.

How nice that is.

……

She didn't eat, didn't turn on the lights, she didn't know when she went back to her room to sleep, maybe she sat in the living room until midnight, maybe she cried, she couldn't remember any of these, she just felt very tired.Her brain was stained with the pillow, and she felt comforted by the darkness around her. The bottom of the valley was quiet, and she felt that she didn't need to be woken up by anyone, so she fell asleep.

At dawn, it was Song Li who knocked on the door.The driver of the publishing house's bus took him to take He Xueyan to the press conference.Jumping out of the business car, he looked a little beaming, and he called He Xueyan first as if he had done his best.

No one answered the call for a long time, he nagged, didn't we make an appointment by sending a text message last night?I had no choice but to give up the phone and go to knock on the door of He Xueyan's house.Impatient, with strong hands, there was only a sound of thud, and he stammered: "Xueyan! He Xueyan! Are you at home? I'm here to pick you up!"

Her head hurt like drunkenness, He Xueyan stared in confusion, heard the shout outside the yard, lay in bed for 3 minutes in a daze, and gradually recalled what the sound was.She was a little impatient, so she let the man make noise outside, got up slowly and changed her clothes before opening the door.

"Xueyan, where are you at home? I've been yelling for more than ten minutes. I almost went to the hospital to look for you." Song Li saw that she couldn't help smiling, and was afraid that standing too close would make her abrupt, so he took a step back towards the steps , looked at her like that very much: "The driver is waiting, the editor-in-chief specially asked me to pick you up, let's go, hurry up. Many friends came today, Wang Xudong and the others are all here."

He Xueyan didn't want to care about it either, and said lightly: "You wait for a while, I'll clean up."

She turned around and went back. Song Li wanted to enter, but she closed the door.Song Li found it boring to be outside, and felt that maybe the He Mansion had many rules, so he was willing to wait outside.The wait lasted for half an hour, and He Xueyan didn't know what to do. She wasn't like this in the past, she was very punctual and dedicated, and she called as soon as she had something to do.

Fortunately, Song Li liked her, so he let her go. If it was someone else, he would have scolded her in his heart.He Xueyan didn't really care too much, she only got into the car after cleaning up according to her own temperament, and the driver almost got angry.Song Li said good things beside him: "It's okay, there are still two hours, let's drive faster and take a shortcut."

"Drive fast if you say so, and I won't be responsible if you can't catch up." The driver was unhappy.

Song Liqian laughed twice and apologized. He Xueyan sat in the back row with her head turned away and didn't make a sound at all. She didn't care whether she was happy or not. It’s no big deal if you don’t go, just drive like that.”

Song Li really couldn't refute for a while, but after thinking about it, he felt awkward and said: "Anyway, you have put in so much effort, there must be a beginning and an end."

Isn't it He Xueyan's hallmark to give up halfway?She couldn't remember what she had done that had a beginning and an end.With drooping eyelids, he was too lazy to answer, so he leaned against the back of the car and slept.

Song Li tried a few words, but she remained silent.It was quiet in the car.

Fortunately, the driver is an old driver, he knew the shortcut, posted a few more violations along the way, and finally arrived before the meeting.

First there is the press conference, and then there is a project to visit the resort, a dinner, an afternoon work seminar, and a dinner.

The arrangements are full.

Song Li anxiously pulled her sleeves and urged her to leave quickly, He Xueyan withdrew her hands and said in an angry low voice, "What are you doing, don't touch me."

It was a very disgusting tone, Song Li was completely stunned, and finally realized that there was something wrong with He Xueyan, and wanted to open his mouth to ask, but He Xueyan was cold and silent without looking at him from the corner of his eyes. It was the first time we got along, and he felt a little sour.

The resort was very luxuriously built. The hostess led her to the lobby. Cars were parked in front of the yard. When she reached the entrance of the lobby, many friends she knew were calling her.

He greeted her a few times mechanically, and walked towards the hall without looking at anyone. Wang Xudong stretched out his arms to stop her, with a playful smile on his face: "What's the matter, is this the way you see your brother? Are you a bit human? I haven't seen you for a few days and missed me." without?"

He Xueyan glanced at him lightly and said: "I will have a speech later, and I will go back to take care of my dad after the speech." After a pause, he said coldly: "My attitude is like this. If you don't like it, you can ignore me. It happens that I don't want to either. You ignore me, you talk too much glib nonsense, I get a headache when I hear it."

Wang Xudong looked at her in surprise, touched his head, then touched He Xueyan and said, "Are you okay? You took the wrong medicine, and my brother didn't do anything to you. I asked myself that I haven't done anything wicked recently. As for you ?"

"It has nothing to do with you, well, I won't talk about it. Go and play with Zhao Song and the others yourself." He Xueyan replied perfunctorily, and stepped up to the seats arranged at the front desk. On the left were several leaders of the publishing house. Bai Linyu sat alone on the right.

She didn't even look at her, she just looked down at a few documents on the table.Wang Xudong sat next to Bai Linyu with a thick face, smiling at the camera and waving hello to so many reporters in the audience, while whispering to people: "Xiaobai, your old classmate didn't know what medicine you took wrongly, and you are bored today. You inquire about it."

Bai Linyu was wearing a dark blue thin windbreaker, the coat was put behind her, her hair was pulled behind her head in formal occasions, and she sat tall on the rostrum. The host said: "She doesn't want to talk, so ignore her."

Wang Xudong babbled and said: "It must have been a fight with that little fox Yan Fei. I told you to break up and you didn't listen. It's so embarrassing now. In addition, you should make it clear that you should not hurt the innocent when you quarrel with her. Your love is eternal. Xue Yan..."

He Xueyan threw the materials in his hand and hit him in the face, and said coldly, "You're never finished, can you just shut up?"

The beating didn't hurt, the key was in front of many reporters.Good Lai Wang Xudong self-proclaims that he is a powerful idol male writer, and the spiritual mentor of thousands of progressive young people and progressive women.After this trouble, I can't get off the stage.

Thanks to Zhao Song who was beside him, he hurriedly held down Wang Xudong, and shouted at the people in the audience: "It's sad today, it's a pity that such a big scene is not for our brothers, I think the leader is biased, we are dead and alive with millions Words are not as solid as Teacher Bai’s 10,000+ words.” He paused and said, “I told Lao Wang that I would cry too much, and Teacher He hates iron but not steel. Just kidding, the press conference will start soon, everyone should listen to it.” host."

The host was also savvy, and answered very well, and started talking in a daze.

Wang Xudong almost forgot how the press conference was held. He just remembered being so angry that he didn't bother to pay attention to He Xueyan.According to the procedure, the leaders spoke one by one, and He Xueyan also spoke, speaking in a perfunctory tone like ice.She is the master's daughter, and no one paid attention to her walking sideways. The editor-in-chief couldn't bear it, and the others could only applaud.

The press conference ended like this, and the people from the resort ran out to introduce the village project, and the hostess called everyone to go for a tour.The reporters and ordinary staff of the publishing house all quit, and Wang Xudong and the others accompanied the leaders of the publishing house to go sightseeing in the mountains and rivers to relax.

He Xueyan asked the editor-in-chief for leave and asked the driver to take her back.He came in a hurry and left in a hurry.After leaving the hall, everyone dispersed. She walked through the hall and courtyard to the parking lot alone. At the corner of the corridor, Bai Linyu called her from behind.

He Xueyan's ears are not good, so she didn't respond.After walking a few more steps, Bai Linyu had no choice but to reach out to stop the person. She was so strong that she dragged her into a small meeting room. There was no one around. Bai Linyu was wearing a dark blue thin trench coat and was holding a camel coat With a calm face, he said lightly: "Did something serious happen? You are in a bad mood."

He Xueyan didn't want to talk, and wanted to bypass her and open the door.Bai Linyu stood in front and didn't move away. He Xueyan didn't want to make a fuss, she lowered her eyes and said, "If you won't let me go, then we'll just stand here. I don't want to talk to you, and we have nothing to say .”

Bai Linyu sighed, seeing that she was wearing too thin, put on her coat and said, "Of course I can let you go, or I can stand with you for a day and a night. It's all trivial matters." She spoke lightly, and He Xueyan lowered her head Her expression was silent, her face made of ice and snow was soft and clean, and one could feel pity when looking at it.

Bai Linyu was much taller than her, and said as if she had foreseen something: "Is it really a quarrel?"

He Xueyan turned her head away and didn't speak.

"We often quarreled at that time." Bai Linyu was not sad when he recalled it, but he said nostalgicly: "You'll be fine in a few days, and ignore me again. You don't want others to be sad." After a pause, he said with a sad tone : "You only act like this when you make a mistake..."

What she said was nonsensical and unclear.He Xueyan stuck her head and stood there like a child punished to stand. She only felt very cold. She was standing in a pile of stones. The valley was silent and cold, but that was her lifelong destination.

Bai Linyu stood in front of her, stretched out his hand to pull her, hugged her in his arms like pulling a puppet, touched the hair on the back of her head distressedly and said: "You are not alone, don't fall into that lonely emotionally."

He Xueyan thought for a long time, she did not resist such a hug, nor could she feel the warmth of the embrace.This time it may be very serious. Her nose was sore and her eyes were red. She was dazed but very clear-headed, and she said with a choked voice: "It's useless, I can't feel it at the beginning, and I don't want to respond to others." After a pause, she said: "I'm just a person , I found out that no matter what I do, it doesn't work. It's not someone else's problem, it's mine."

"I have always been alone, and I don't want anyone to say they understand me, they lie to me."

He Xueyan couldn't continue.