Light Snow to Beginning of Spring GL

The temperature in the meeting room was not too cold, Bai Linyu hugged her very gently in his arms, listening to her sobbing and telling the pain that outsiders would never understand.Those looming distresses related to loneliness in life may be difficult for others to perceive, but they are fatal to He Xueyan.

In memory, He Xueyan's temperament has always been withdrawn.On the train to teach, those boys were curious about her and always tried to talk to her.The boy didn't mean anything malicious, but He Xueyan was like a lost child, she would be at a loss if the stranger said a few more words.

Bai Linyu keenly captured her expression, and felt that she was pitiful like a kitten under siege. Perhaps out of pity, she captured the kitten with her own intelligence, held her in her palm, and pampered her. She has a bad temper and selfishly built a wall for her to shield her from the wind and rain and those people and things she can't handle.

She likes that she lives in emptiness, she loves He Xueyan who is pure like a blank sheet of paper, she likes that she is immersed in the pile of books, loves to discuss those awkward classical Chinese with her, watching her write and draw, like a green lotus emerging from water , elegant and refined.

When she was young, she felt that letting her live like this in her life might be the mission sent by God to the world.Outsiders don't know He Xueyan at all, and they don't deserve her.She can accompany her to write poems and paintings, and she is capable of giving her antiques in the study, but it is impossible for someone else to do it.

Memories are painful, and Bai Linyu is unwilling to face the continuation of the memories.Fate teased her to make mistakes, but is it too late to make amends?Her restrained mood collapsed inch by inch.The hands around He Xueyan were tightened, and the lips pressed against her ears, and said with great distress: "Xueyan, no matter what you feel, it doesn't matter." Her voice was soft, comforting her like she was when she was young : "Live in the way you think is best. If you don't want to talk to those people, ignore them. You can live as you like. Even if you don't feel me, I'm by your side. You can reject it if you don't like it. You don’t have to force yourself to smile at people, force yourself to cater to those people, I will accompany you to draw, write with you, read books with you, grow flowers and fish, and do nothing with you every day in a daze, okay? "

Tears rolled in her eyes, He Xueyan opened her mouth slightly and gasped for breath, she was like a small fish that was about to be sunburned in the desert, just happened to be picked up by a passerby and put into a bottle of water.Her brain couldn't think for a while, and she vaguely remembered the pure time when she was a teenager.She doesn't have to care about anyone, and she has never tried to please the society, it's that simple.

"I will protect you, don't be afraid." Bai Linyu kissed her cheek lovingly. Seeing her frightened expression, she regretted leaving her. If there hadn't been a separation, Xueyan would still be that child, with no worries and no worries. consider.

He Xueyan didn't have the strength to dodge her kisses, she felt like a wall, wrapping her tightly, she thought the wall wasn't tall enough, it would be better if it was thick enough to cover the sky, it was like an iron box that was airtight to hold her Put it on, and let her be alone, quietly and without contention with the world.

"Xueyan..." Bai Linyu called her in a low voice, a little sad, kissed the corner of her eyes with his lips, licked away her tears with the tip of his tongue, and finally kissed her lips with his heart aching.He Xueyan trembled slightly, a little frightened, but she didn't hide as if she was making an oath.

The kiss was not intense, but the dragonfly landed on the lotus petals, the touch was gentle, and the strength and timing were just right.After many years, when he kissed He Xueyan again, Bai Linyu's heart couldn't help but tremble, and the corners of his eyes were sore that he almost shed tears.But she didn't. After kissing her, she rubbed her cold face with her palm, whispered in her ear, and said a lot of tender words.

He Xueyan didn't know if she understood, but leaned on her shoulder extremely sleepily, curled her up in her arms like a wall, and said calmly after a while: "I want to go back."

"I'll take you home." Bai Linyu smiled, the most relaxed smile in many days, and said lightly: "I won't participate in their activities anymore, it's boring."

He Xueyan nodded, taking it as it should be.Then he frowned and said, "I don't want to go back to my house, not even recently."

"Come to my house." Bai Linyu smiled elegantly, helped her put on her coat, took her hand, opened the door of the small conference room, and led He Xueyan all the way to the parking lot in the wind.

It's a little cold, the sun is dim, and the city is too smoggy.He Xueyan crossed her arms and watched her go to start the car but heard the horn behind her.

When the taxi pulled up, Yan Fei raced to participate in the event, urging the driver to drive, almost exhausted the driver, got out of the car with guilt and waved: "Thank you, Master, walk slowly, you."

Yan Fei got out of the car and saw He Xueyan on the other side within a few steps. When she saw her, she was like a bee seeing a flower. She laughed first, and her eyes lit up and ran over: "Teacher He! You are here, we are here. Is it too late, the editor-in-chief didn't scold me, did he?"

With a sweet smile on her face, Xin Wucheng threw herself on He Xueyan's arm, rubbed her forehead on her shoulder and said, "If he scolded me, you must have blocked me. Why are you so nice?"

He Xueyan rarely smiled, but just looked at her quietly, her lips were tightly closed and she did not speak, like a puppet.Yan Fei felt strange, waved his hand in front of her in surprise, and asked curiously: "What's wrong with you?" Then, frowning in frustration, he put his hands together and begged He Xueyan for forgiveness: "I'm sorry, I knew I was wrong, but I really didn't go away . She will be discharged from the hospital in three days, and then there will be no such things. I will return all the money you gave me, and if you give me a favor, I just want to talk about a relationship without money. "

She said a lot at once, and the girl who was quite smart was a little incoherent. After she finished speaking, He Xueyan looked at her calmly, and after three seconds, she exhaled whitely and said lightly: "Oh."

"Xueyan? What's wrong with you?" Yan Fei didn't understand, it was the first time she saw her so strange.If you say you are angry, you can't see it on your face, if you say you are not angry, you don't talk much, and your reaction is a bit slow.A look of not listening to anyone at all, totally out of the ordinary.

He Xueyan's black and white eyes moved a few times, the corners of his mouth turned down, and he said calmly, "I want to leave, but I don't want to go back to my house. I want to stay at Lin Yu's house for a while."

"Ah?" Yan Fei's ears almost fell off, and he was a little dazed by the buzzing in his head.The light brown eyes looked at He Xueyan in surprise, completely unable to understand: "You are not feeling well, I will accompany you back. Why did you stay at Bai Linyu's house for a while? What about your parents? Are you not going to the hospital to take care of them?"

"I don't want to take care of them anymore, I'll call my sister to talk about it. I don't want to go to work anymore, either." He Xueyan's tone was too flat, as if she was talking about something unimportant, seeing how anxious Yan Fei was getting angry He only said lightly: "I'm leaving, you go to participate in the activities."

Yan Fei still wanted to ask, Bai Linyu's car had already driven in front of them, she got out of the car, stretched out her hand to pull He Xueyan: "Let's go back."

He Xueyan nodded, got into the car and sat down by herself.Bai Linyu sighed, stood in the wind, looked at the surprised Yan Fei and said, "Don't ask me any more. It's just like this when she makes a mistake. If she doesn't want to respond to others, I'll take her back first."

She was about to leave, but Yan Fei grabbed her and said anxiously: "There is always something wrong with 21, how can this happen indiscriminately? I called yesterday and she was fine. What happened to her?" Didn't you ask? Is it appropriate that you don't need your parents, don't work anymore, and hide from everyone? You don't worry about it at all? How big is it that it hit her like this? "

Bai Linyu frowned, looking embarrassed, but finally withdrew her hand, Yan Fei let go of those emotional entanglements first, which made people feel more relaxed.But for He Xueyan's question, she just said indifferently: "Yan Fei, you don't understand at all." After a pause, she glanced at He Xueyan in the car and said, "Xueyan is different from us."

"It doesn't matter if it's different. Something happened to her, so I have to help her solve it." Yan Fei was puzzled.

Bai Linyu sighed, and said slowly: "Don't you understand? You and I can't solve her problem, no one can solve it, and she can't do it herself."

"What the hell is it?" Yan Fei really didn't understand this logic.

Bai Linyu said: "She is very lonely, she is afraid of people." Pausing her eyes worriedly, she said: "When she was in college, she was like this occasionally, she didn't want to communicate with anyone at all, and she didn't go to class and didn't see anyone hiding in the dormitory. I tossed a few times Once, I also thought she was annoying. Later, her father told me that she inherited some bad problems from her mother, and she suffered from social disorder. Fortunately, his father has been slowly guiding her since she was a child, helping her adapt to others. Teach her to get along with people,"

Yan Fei moved her throat and heard a new word. She recalled the He Xueyan in her impression. The whole unit knew that He Xueyan had a bad temper and didn't like to talk to others. She thought it was because her family was rich and powerful and she was arrogant, but she didn't. I think she is mentally ill, and besides, He Xueyan is so gentle in front of her, it doesn't look like she is sick.

"Can't help her like her father? Let her get used to it." Yan Fei grasped the point.

Bai Linyu shook his head, turned around and took a few steps, opened the car door and sat on the driver's seat, looked at the dark clouds in the sky ahead, rolled up the car window and leaned his head to Yan Fei and said: "Sometimes, I see her working so hard to deal with other things. People, dealing with society. I can feel how reluctant she is, in fact, I have always felt..."

"She doesn't have to deal with this." Bai Linyu calmly told Yan Fei her true thoughts all the time. She said the same thing to Father He many years ago. She told him that He Xueyan didn't need to contact other people. In the world, only the people around me are enough, "She doesn't need to contact outsiders, and doesn't need to integrate into the society, so she won't have those pains, and I can take care of her."

Yan Fei felt a momentary chill, and called He Xueyan a few times to get her out of the car.He Xueyan just looked at her indifferently, as if she didn't want to care about it at all, and finally urged Bai Linyu in a low voice: "Let's go."

"Goodbye." Bai Linyu rolled up the window and stepped on the gas pedal.

"Bai Linyu, you bastard!" Yan Fei chased the car all the way to the road, she ran very fast, and ran to pat He Xueyan's glass window.

He Xueyan turned her head and looked out of the car window silently, looked at Yan Fei and called her out of breath: "He Xueyan, come down, what hurdles you can't get over, you've been carrying it for so long, is it worth giving up all of a sudden?"

The voice in He Xueyan's ears became smaller and smaller until she could no longer hear it. The car drove onto the road and left people behind.

It took a long time for her to realize that, she glanced back and saw that Yan Fei was still on the side of the road gradually turning into a black spot.

Bai Linyu drove the car and asked her, "Do you want to get out of the car and go see her?"

He Xueyan turned her head, stopped looking back, frowned sadly, and said in a low voice: "I feel bad, I don't want anyone to disturb me, and I don't want to hurt others myself." He paused and said, "I just want to I want to be quiet."

"Okay." Bai Linyu agreed to her.